#i'm also tireddddddd but i'm always tired so

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

my headphones have somehow gotten to the point where the audio’s only good when it’s in both ears and it’s bringing me pain send help-

#puppy rambles #rhythm hell #I JUST WANT GOOD QUALITY AUDIO WHY IS THIS TOO MUCH TO ASK0 #... * - #tfw you get punctuation wrong #i am v smart #i'm also tireddddddd but i'm always tired so #not too much of a surprise there #i'm also no longer feeling emotions really so that's fun #i mean it's not really fun but like #i'll survive #... idk why my brain just went ''haha vent go brr'' but it really did huh? 😔 #i mean granted my brain's a mess so like what do i expect really? #and i'm also a mess #i simply wish to feel emotions from rhythm heaven is that too much to ask??? #i still love it but i was playing ds and felt literally no emotions whatsoever and it sucked #like literally when i was playing rhythm rally 2 i was like ''... i love rhythm rally 2 and all but also i feel no enjoyment from this'' #i mean i think i still got enjoyment from playing dj school but like #i don't know if it's possible to not get at least some enjoyment from playing dj school it's just so good #and also should've been in megamix but that's beside the point #not that there was a point but whatever

[theoathkeeper]

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#I just feel like I need to quickly vent somewhere so that I can continue working #but just ughhhhhhhh #I just don't see the point of life at alllll #like don't get me wrong I think life is a beautiful gift and there are so many things I care for #but a lot of the time I just don't see the point of it at all #and for me personally this is usually a mental red flag for me that I need to take a mental break #but also a thought I try to ignore as it doesn't helo thinking that way #but seriously #someone tell me the point of all of this #I'm just so tired and I'm tired of beign tired #I'm tired of feeling like in life I keep doing everything wrong or that I'm always behind in some ways #I'm tired of feeling like everyone secretly hates me #or that no one cares for me when I know that's wrong #I'm tired of not being listened to and being so easily judged for things to the very same people that I allow to be #that I provide a space where they can talk without judgement #I'm tired of how my personality is contradictiory in every way that just drains my energy #that I'm so passionate for life but at the same time I think it's all a bunch of Bs #I;m tired of hating my body #I'm tired of struggling to communicate when something has crossed my boundaries #I'm just tireddddddd of it alllll #like i so badly want to create and create something beautiful but sometimes it all feels like a fat joke #and frnakly I'm tired of being laughed at #ughhhhhhhhh #I fluffing hate emotions man. like seriously I hate being sensitive and emotional because it just leads to a massive mess #like don't get me wrong I don't wanna harm myself cause been there done that and it changes nothing #I just want to feel like I'm moving forwards #anyway that's enough feeling for one day. imma get back to work #peace