#i'm high on painkillers rn bitches

[lyramundana]

Hwang Hyunjin is not the sweet, innocent boy the media and cameras show us. He's a fuckboy. but not in Christopher's level, who just wants to have a good time and he accidentally breaks hearts in the way. Hyunjin ENJOYS breaking hearts. he likes the grip he has over people, with his good looks and charisma. He doesn't mind using his beauty to get what he wants, and he's a GOOD manipulator.

he's also an ideallistic romantic, and not in a cute way. he has incredibly high standards, since he has an ego bigger than his body so he wants someone that fits with him. His equal but also someone he can shape into the perfect doll he wants. he's a control freak and a toxic perfectionist. he's hard on himself, but also on others, and he expects no less from his future partner.

he has already a detailed vision of what his life with his ideal partner should be. he won't stand for anything less for what he has envisioned, what he thinks he deserves.

he's the classical toxic male lead in novels that fucks up the female lead emotionally, has zero regret for the way he treated his previous partners since "they didn't fill his expectations". he'll send you to therapy after he dumps you, because yes, he won't break up with you normally, hell DUMP you with a kick.

he's used to have people fawn over him and worship the air he breathes, you think that doesn't make him feel powerful? he's a man for ffsake. he knows people are willing to do anything for his attention.

so if you actually believe the person he represents for fans in skz codes and skits is his real self, you need to get your brain checked. this fandom is delusional by nature, but c'mon, let's not overstep.

tagging my bitches @channieandhisgoonsquad @2chopsticks2eyes @moonlightndaydreams cause i love them and i'm so fucking glad i met them

@whatudowhennooneseesyou because she's the first person i know to understand my point and agree

#i'm high on painkillers rn bitches #come at me i dare you #deny it and attack me all you want but i only speak truths #this man is anything but innocent #i hate periods #i hate pain

[samijami]

I have a problem and can't access my fake account, so I will let you guys know if I need to make a new one

But other than that, the plan seems to be going well and I'm somewhat relieved as of now

My friend irl is 100% going along with and even helping fake evidence to pin blames on the bitch named KJ

Just so you guys can know the full context of that, last week KJ tried to spread a rumour that my bf was cheating on me, so i have a grudge against her and i hate her (she's always been rude and really upset my bf). So this week when my friend irl told on me sending her snapchat messages when I was having a mental breakdown and wanting to die, then proceeding to get high off of painkillers, and I got into all of this shit because of that, she felt really bad because she didn't intend for it to go this far. She was just really really worried about me (but I can't help but be mad at her, but not take it out on her ofc cuz she's bending hell to help me rn)

So even though the counselor and CPS (which the school called) know that my friend reported it and the messages were real, the principal and other staff aren't aware of who reported me..or that there are messages. Although we are pretty sure that with my principal looking into it, he'll find out my friend reported me- so we're lying to say that KJ faked SnapChat messages and told her to concern her and get her to start drama with the office as revenge for me snitching and getting her a Friday school.

But during all of this, my father called the school to know who called CPS, and the principal ended up spilling about me being LGBTQ and having a trans bf, so I need to cover up two huge things here that can fuck me over. My home life would be a living hell and I'd kill myself to not live in the environment where my father knows I'm LGBTQ, and he wouldn't let me attend a vocational school i wanna go to if my bf went to it, so he'd be uining my only hopes of having some form of a future. So it'd be useless

And as of today, I had a talk to the principal where I had to be really transphobic about my bf so I can appeal to his ideologies and get by convincing him I wasn't gay so he'd convey it back to my father. Since I'd previously told him KJ 'started a rumour about me and my friend' (that being the cheating rumour) i decided to utilise that fact to my advantage by saying the rumour was us dating, and that it wasn't true. I had to deadname and misgender my bf the whole time and I felt awful..but he believed me and that's what matters

I told the principal about the 'hunch it was KJ who started this' and she was called to the office at one point. She came back in guitar class and she almost seemed like she was crying?..but the look on her face and the way she stared at me read that..she was pissed. So I started to play 'Ode to Joy' really loudly on my guitar as she walked past, then a smiled when she looked away.

She kept looking over at me, and didn't even play guitar but instead was on her computer the whole class. She always gave me this dirty fucking look.

She kind of did ask me to throw her under twenty buses when she fucked me over before, and she's my only logical blame since it'd make sense for her to do something like this

I got my bf to delete some emails we've sent to each other so our lazy ass principal won't find em (of me comforting him about our relationship over the cheating rumour), and now we can't be out at school (atleast until my father and his chatting chills out). Cuz the principal wants me to stop being so close to him, and will report back to my father with any shit we do together.

So we're tryna get our friend to sit with us in lunch more so it dont look like us watching our show at lunch is a romantic thing

And I lost a part to my wired ear buds we were sharing (and it's kind of awkward with the wire) so since I had a shit ton of money on me today and went out to the mall (and spent 100 fucking dollars), I stopped by another store and bought some wireless earbuds and a case

So I spent like 130-140$ plus gave my friend 60$ to buy me a phone, which she will give me the change to a 50$ (+tax) phone on Monday.

Also same friend got me a bag where I shoved a lot of my gay and illegal items in so the principal won't see the gay magnets in my locker, nor will CPS find it (since they said they'd report it to my parents), and I definitely don't want CPS finding my illegal shit (vape, cigarettes + lighter, and painkillers I abuse).

So as of right now, the plan is doing fine. I'm not going to speak ahead of time, cuz my room is still going to be looked through and all..but there's a slim chance that CPS will just drop the case and not return. But that's also a call for a miracle. However if CPS were to fuck off, then this whole situation would subside and everything would be fine

I just hope they'll fucking drop it

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