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diagonal-queen · 8 months

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thungo thursday pt2

ep 6 (put it under a cut because this one is LONG)

fukuchi be like 'the agency couldn't possibly be smart enough to- oh wait nvm i forgot ranpo existed lol' like more than once and i think that is testament to the fact that RANPO BEST BOY

'have you forgotten? we're terrorists' ICONIC BEHAVIOUR

man and i complain about doing one 37 hour work week. after this one week the agency needs to take a NAP. AND THE MAFIA TOO. imagine there's like just no criminal activity or anything for like three days and everyone's like ?? but on day 4 atsushi and akutagawa are fighting to the death at the port and everyone is like 'ah. business as usual' lmaoooo

omg every time the hunting dogs song comes on i get so hyped lmao im like yESSS ACTION

'that man, that demon, the evillest most scawy man ever in the world....etc etc' and its just some guy doing the most coy babygirl pose a guy can possibly do

wait DAZAI WHAT DID YOU DO. HOW DID YOU DO IT

taneda btw deserved none of this he was just some nice old dude and then sigma fucking stabbed him lmao

dazai is like the personification of the perjury mechanic in drv3. 'go on lie. you gotta. lie now. cmon pussy you wont'

OH MY GOD CHUUYA

my god fyozai is so fucking babygirl. also wdym dazai?? if the two of you were the last ones on earth you should just have gay sex. its not that hard smh

oh no dazai falled down through the flore

OH MY GOD MYKOLA AND SIGMA

BESTIE??

BESTIE?????

BESTIE????????????????

BESTIE??????????????????????

dm me if you want to receive a free 2min audio file of me laughing about this (i have a headache from laughing. my throat fucking hurts so bad. i'm pretty sure it's actually bleeding. my eyes are moist with tears. BESTIE???????)

do you even needa ask why i'm here?? ⭐️❤️☺️ *voice drops 6 octaves* i'm here to murder you 👹👹👹

and then after that fyodor was just like 'teehee he's so romantic x' like bro

dazai: *turns to the camera like he's on the office* waow

i love mykola's little laugh it's so silley

omg they're actually animating him so well. bones must've seen the reception from s4 and decided to step it up 💀

dazai and fyodor are simultaneously evil grown men and bimbo highschool girls and it's such a look. 'omg ur friends are so cute <3' 'omg right???' also mykola my beloved i want to be yours forever pls

i love how bram's acting all tough like aya can't just open the casket and leave and render him thoroughly powerless lmao

omg the official anime aya and bram sillies begin. we've been waiting for this for months folks so far so good

it was already pretty funny that aya is carrying bram like a backpack but actually seeing her running with him on her back is like a billion times funnier especially since this shit is life or death. but she just got a whole entire vampire on her back no problem sjhsksjssjhj

sigma: watashi wa shiguma me: fucking superb you funky little toddler

imagine if it was a fucking prank this whole time and mykola just injected them with a slow-working sedative or something that would be so funny. like all of this for nothing sksjksjsjks and then he just stabs fyodor or something the end. boom world save

oh ok nvm the vampires can talk just fine i guess lmao. also i genuinely cant tell if im supposed to be taking this episode seriously or not. one second people are being brutally slaughtered next moment silley little guys??? such is the way of bsd i guess

'you're a failure of a woman' my dude she is literally 10 years old she is nowhere close to being a woman shut your misogynistic ass up lmao

OKAY BECAUSE ok ok listen i was wondering what music they were gonna use for bram and when i heard the ending music i was like 'ok a little anticlimactic but i understand' and then it TRANSITIONED into the ACTUAL ENDING??? 10/10

hehe. bestie

#dia's daydreams #thungo thursday #bungou stray dogs #BESTIE #BESTIE???????????????????#'I MISSED YOU BESTIE'#mykola canonically uses gen z slang #you guys need to make sure to put this in your fanfics now

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galaxygrv · 3 months

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ahh hollow being close to front and influencing my (spyte) own emotions towards things is certainly,, Something. its not like its out of the ordinary for us to bleed over neutral or positive opinions + emotions + etc. but like.. this is more negative stuff (which is a little more uncommon, but not rare). its mainly bcuz they dont like any ship content between them and their sourcemates. this is not good bcuz a good 50% of the fan content we see is ships w either quirrel or grimm (and another 50% of those ships arent fucking tagged w the ship names so theyre almost unavoidable). they Do Not like either of them for almost the same reason. theyre repulsed by most people (irl + in source) and they esp dont like romance. quirrel is okay as a person (boring + annoying but not the worst to sit in silence around), and they just dont feel anything towards him and they feel disgusted when they see the fan content. feelings r the same w grimm, they dont like him (boring + annoying again !!! how wonderful) and think hes off putting in the worst way possible.

anyways im neutral towards the ships on a day theyre not bleeding over to me but the days they are,,, wow. okay. hatred and disgust vibes x500

(this is not to say the ships themselves r gross, its perfectly fine to ship them lol. these r just our hollows feelings abt it)

below the read more is in depth stuff abt their dislike of a lot of people cuz they want to talk abt it but its gnna make the post too long lol. also ⚠️ cw for calling people/relationships unreal in a serious way? idk what to call that so its not tagged but heres the warning ⚠️

our mom is okay in their opinion, shes interesting to them and likes us and doesnt get mad at us that often and almost never argues w us. our father though.. he argues with them all the time. anytime he speaks theres always a problem and hollow does Not have a filter so they end up getting pissed and arguing and then its a whole Thing for a few hours and our dad just starts screaming at a point etc. etc. they also generally dont think hes interesting and theres nothing to benefit from interaction w him. sooo 0/10 for dad, 7.5/10 for mom bcuz she does get after us for our arfid and thats beyond annoying.

also, our friends piss them off regularly. they often feel like snapping at them and getting mad but hold back most of the time cuz they know i would cry my eyes out if we even had a minor disagreement. the only times they dont stay quiet abt it is when i agree w them (typically out of confusion on my part).

they also seem to b the main source of our whole "we are the only real people. everyone else doesnt actually exist. no one has real emotions or lives, we're the only ones who actually exist." thing. so thats a bit telling of one reason why they dont like many people. this happens especially with our brother and most people we see once and never again. they also feel this when they see others in sexual, romantic/romance adjacent, or generally affectionate (?) relationships.

its.. very strange to see others be in love and then only have the thoughts and vibes of "thats not right! why are they doing that? thats disgusting, i cant believe thats something they would do in front of us! what the fuck! that looks/is so unnatural!" etc. etc. its like.. x20 strength when we witness someone we're close to doing it. we've been in relationships before, and the feeling only gets worse as time goes on while we were in the relationship.

it also happens to ANY physical touch. handshakes, fist bumps, hugs, kisses (platonic or not), hair touching, cuddling etc. is all disgusting to them (and whoever is close enough to feel it too)

its. also very difficult to get their approval. i think i understand what "they dont like many people, so dont be surprised if they dont like you" means now. they even have neutral feelings towards the other members of the system, and they only like me moderately enough to talk to me.

so uh. i think its safe to say hollow is our main holder/source of repulsion towards people and any sort of relationships. i was wondering where the feelings would come from because they seemed to come and go at random, but i think i got it now :P

#🌀#🐾#our posts #cw vent #vent cw

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bellsandwistfulness · 2 years

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this cute girl with a lesbian flag on her laptop who helps me in maths and mucks around with me in choir rlly said let me steal your heart real quick

we never talked before this year but then we were placed next to each other in maths and since this is the top maths its fucking hard so i asked her for help. long story short we started drawing absolutely cursed cartoon characters and sharing notes and now i think we're pretty good friends

we're in the same section of choir together as well and we fuck around and check our pitch and laugh at our friends together

and we are in the same fandoms, she actually reads the fanfic reccs i give her WITHIN THE DAY even if shes not super into the ships, she jokingly flirts back with me, we have inside jokes and weird things only we understand and things we can tease each other about

and i just got her number yesterday and we've been texting on gc's but we moved to our individual chat today and i think

dear god i think i might be falling for this girl

she coerced me into sending her my old ao3 acc with the ultra cringe fanfic i wrote on it like a few years ago and we've been screaming over it since. but before i sent it to her, i was umming and awing over whether to do it and she said (and i quote)

"dont back out now you can do this

share the trauma

i will love you forever"

and my heart

skipped

beat

bc why is this gorgeous amazing hilarious kind girl who has all the same interests and sense of humour as me even remotely interested in giving me the time of day, not to even mention talking to me regularly (and lowkey flirting)

i dont know if its just bc im starved of affection and attention but this girl has got my heart in a chokehold jesus

i also cant tell the difference between platonic and romantic most of the time so i dont know if i want to be friends or if i want to ask her out i dont even know anymore man shes just pretty and wonderful

#bellas back on her bs

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mrfoox · 3 years

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Let's play the game... Am I just imagining things or projecting hardcore or... Is someone actually into me?

#miranda talking shit #Hello im... Im not sure and i am like.... This feels like an awkward dance i usually do towards and around people i am crushing on...#Is ... Is that... The case here? Idk how to feel if it is either way im nervous #Hello idk im probably projecting again and misreading signals but like i... .yeah #Fabian is really been nice to me and we've been having those awkward conversation juggles so im like....#He said two years ago to me that he wasnt into me bc roo made a joke he and me were dating and i laughed along #And i was kinda laughing bc baby... Youre safe from me pal #But this year we have talked a lot more solo and have a lot of bonding moments i guess and deeper conversations ?#And hes been doing and saying things which is like... Not his usual way so im... Am i imaging it ?#I obviously love the guy but like... Im scared of the thought tbh like... I think his heart is too big to be wasted on me #I wish i could just ... Ask . But no matter what answer i get its going to be bad for me i think #Like just now/today... Hes been faceless and never shared a selfie since ive know him. For 3-4 years now. But today he just without any bui #Up shared a selfie bc he had gotten a new webcam? Alright cool. But then during our conversation he puts on the webcam and jokes about doing #It more and im like damn... Have you just ... Grown bold or whats up? Since he havent shared any pics but he would use a cam live?#Idk i guess im projecting again but i hate being seen and photos overall. So i only really do facetime if i have a partner or if i have to #I guess im panicking over nothing again but something have changed and idk what it is or when it happened but im like... Something have chgd #Doesnt help that hes an pokerface person so i cant easily hear his mood at all? Idk man i.. I want to be loved so one part of me is like oh #Yes pls be true but the other is like... Hes too nice and theres no way I'd be able to make him happy long term #Then we have the problem of my inability to tell apart platonic and romantic love so like... Id be falling in love with all my friends in no #Time if i just get some confirmation . Idk how to approach this or if at all but im like... W...what is this.... Please just tell me if and #What changed.... Maybe nothing and im just seeing something thats not there. Ill continue at that road until anyone tells me downright whats #Up but like... Fuck i cant read people or emotions and that goesn x10 for people who arent expressive in their voice or face

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mayceez · 2 years

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Its 12:50 AM. Christmas morning technically. Two of my partners are fast asleep above me on the bed. Its not big enough for all of us, so I volunteer to sleep on a futon in the floor. We're at her parents house, in her bedroom. Another partner is in canada, and we're right by the border. Im gonna see them tomorrow and Im very excited. Cuz of covid, its been 2 years and some change. My other two partners are also long distance and arent here sadly. Regardless, we have discord to message each other and well wishes.

Honestly, I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. But a part of me kinda burns. I wish I could tell my parents. They're pretty orthadox folk and me being trans was the biggest shake up of their lives. They're loving and supporting folk but well. Orthadox and often head in the sand. I was in some big trouble a year back and Despite how much they harpe on "Family will always be there for you", My parents didn't help me. It was my friends and my loving poly. I woulda been homeless without them. Being mad at my parents is like being mad at a pet. They don't know what they did. Why be upset and hold a grudge?

And yet, I do. I wish they helped me. I wish they tried. I also wish they would just.. Apologize. Despite trying to bring up that I was upset at them, they just..dont recognize it. Which just upsets me. I wanna love my parents and I want to share my loving poly. The same way my girlfriends parents basically accepted us and has done nothing but warmly welcome us into their home.

I wanna tell them the quirks my partners have, what we've been up to , and share the good of my poly with my family. But how can I even think about that when I cant really feel like I trust my parents?

I know they're gonna call tomorrow and I absolutely dread it. What do I say? Do I even pick up the phone? It weighs alot on my mind. I want my parents in my life but how can I even begin to think they'd even approve of 5 romantic partners?

I don't know why Im posting all this but its been sitting in my mind for awhile now. I wish I could share my life with my parents. Or my family in general. I'm just the black sheep that just doesn't fit their idealistic world and It kinda tears me up

#vent #personal

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yesmynameiscarl · 5 years

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ONE SIDED LOVE AND HOW TO DEAL WITH IT

By Carl Dave Black Ang

(WARNING: LONG AND PAINFUL)

Tinuod gyud diay nga usahay kailangan ka mag move on bisan wala nagka kamo. Kailangan nimo buhian bisan wala pa nimo nakuptan. Kailangan nimo humanon bisan wala pa moy nasugdan. Unrequited feelings. One Sided Love. Lain-lain og tawag but same pain, same struggles, same dilemma.

I'm sure we've all been in a position in our lives where we've had feelings or been in love with someone who simply does not share the same view of you.

Kanang mangluod ka kung eseenzoned.

Magselos kung naay laing kuyog or kaestorya.

Hatagan og sweet meaning tanan bisan wala ra to niya.

Masuko kung dugay moreply.

Mangitag importansya, nya, dili diay mo uyab.

This can be a tough thing to deal with. It is tough, very tough. Ang paghimo palang daan og decision is already a struggle, how much more dealing with its pain and rejection. Maabot ka sa point wherein kailangan ka mo pili, Do you have to let go? Fight for it? Try to change their mind? Play the waiting game? Or possible maabot naka sa point nga ethreaten nimo sya nga maghikog ka kung dili sya ma imoha.

For me, normally, once I felt like my feelings are unrequited, I will slowly let them go. Fighting for it is a TV/movie misconception, blame it sa sige nato’g tan-aw og teleserye and mga hopeless-romantic films. If you’ll come to think of it, the time you spend wasting your emotions towards that person is the perfect time you could be spending looking for someone else, someone “better”, someone who might feel the same way too or would reciprocate our feelings.

Now, I would like to share with you 5 ways on how to deal with unrequited feelings.

1. Be brave. Be brave enough to tell the person how you feel. Kay kung di na nimo ipagawas, motubo na ug mahimong dakong bugas sa imong nawng. Bitaw, walay mawala nimo kung mo tog-an ka, dako ang chance nga rejection imong madawat from the person, however, basin diay the feeling is mutual. Ayaw lang og asa pag ayo.

2. Be busy. Avoid the object of affection. Instead of spending long hours talking to that person, be more productive. The more you get in contact with the person, the deeper the feelings will become. Avoid being stagnant, or wala kay buhaton kay for sure mag hunahuna napod ka niya, ma tintal kag message niya. I know the feeling of acting like you’re busy, but in reality you’re lonely, but you have to do it.

3. Don’t take it personally. Di nato mapugos or masugo atong self kung kinsa atong elove, it’s not for us to decide. Ingon pa’s Jolu B Diago (akong friend), it’s a chemical reaction sa body (endorphin), so it’s a chemistry thing. If dili ka love sa person it doesn't mean that you're unworthy of love, or not good enough, the person may like you, but the feeling of LOVE isn't there. So DON’T blame yourself and the other person.

4. Be realistic. Accept acceptance. Sa 5 steps of grieving apil na sya, acceptance is always the key. Denial man ka pirme, mag sige kag asa nga basin diay pwede mo, basin machange iyang heart magka gusto pod sya nimo. You will just prolong your agony. So better just face the truth and the fact nga wala jud.

5. Know your worth. True love, by definition, needs to be mutual, because it is a shared emotion—a give and take. If you think ikaw ra pirme ang ga sigeg give, and you know for yourself that you deserve to be loved too and be appreciated, then stop what you’re doing. Self-worth is very important para makabalo ka kung asa ka kutob, unsa ra imong dapat buhaton, and what you truly deserve.

Dealing with unrequited feelings can be VERY difficult, so for your own sake, you have to pull yourself together and try to move on.

This was my goodby message to him.

"To be fair, I won't leave you hanging. So I’m giving you our closure. Hopefully this would me my last chat and our last convo. I'm tired and hurt. Everything I do would just remind you of your ex and your ex best friend whom you fell in love with. I no longer have my identity kay sila pirme imong mahinumduman. Cant you see, they left you. And the person who's here for you and would do everything for you is hurting, you’re hurting. Your eyes are clouded. You don’t see me at all. You see them instead. I don’t feel my presence being appreciated while you mean everything to me. Bisan unsa ko ka busy. I will drop everything just to entertain you. You're the first thing and the last person I talk to everyday. But never was there a time nga ikaw ang ni message og una. I know almost everything about you but never did you ask anything deep about me. Asking is a sign of interest. And I guess you are not interested. Never ko nmo gipangita. Feel nako mura’g samokan ka every time mo chat ko. Now, I ran out of reasons to stay because you never want me to. Guess I should never be a part of your life. Ako ra gipugos akong self. I wish wala nalang tka gi add. I wish wala nlng ta nagkaila. I was helping you then find yourself, but I end up losing myself. Salamat sa time. God bless ____. This is my closure. This is our closure."

Thank James Enrique Walson for letting me use your photo nga one-sided pod 😂

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