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cryptidofthekeys · 4 years

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Dean and Jason’s night out

Dean was sitting underneath the bridge outside, he was staring up at the moonlit sky in a rather bored manner, there was nothing else to do in it being this late at night, none of the interesting stores they had actually liked to visit were open at this hour which made deciding on what to do even harder... After a bit, he merely sighed and stood up and walked back up the steps and towards the door, he gave it a knock and waited a few moments. (see, lemme explain their lil... "home" area, its weird- but- like they legit live under an abandoned bridge, there's a door built into it n stuff and they got like a lil set up n such, its not in a city either- its kinda just like out there in the middle- there's a city nearby of course- idk im bad at explaining places n such but that's the best I got) Jason then opened the door and rose a brow "...What is it...?" His voice was deep and rather raspy, the raspy part could have been that Jason wasn't much of a talker unless he REALLY needed too, this made Dean rub the back of his head in an awkward manner "Uhh, ya wanna like, go out for a walk or some shit? I'm... bored and not tired yet and there's like, nothin' else to do..." He waited for an answer, Dean was beginning to actually get nervous by Jason's prolonged silence "...Sure, let's go..." Jason then popped out of the doorway, Dean could never get over at just how tall Jason actually was, sometimes he wished he was that tall... Either way, he proceeded to lead the way as he always did, truth be told, he had no idea where he was even going. Dean was walking away from the bridge and into the city, he still had no idea where he was going to go, but... He'd think of something hopefully soon, he looked at all the shops around, the ones that were open included a cafe and a few of the little dollar stores that were around, Dean thought for a moment before turning back to Jason "Want somethin' from the Cafe?" It took him a few moments before Jason nodded "Yes..." Dean nodded at his words and went into the cafe, he was greeted by a rather friendly looking person behind the counter who seemed... a bit unnerved when they noticed Jason in behind him, it was typical... People were always scared of Jason, he was the giant brute in their eyes, which he technically was, but Dean had always thought of him as something... MORE than just a giant brute. "H-Hello sirs, what can I get for you this evening?" The cashier timidly answered, keeping a close eye on Jason who merely stared down at them, Dean was the first to answer "Yeah lemme get a sweet tea, whaddya want big guy?" He stood aside, letting Jason come up closer to the counter, much to the cashier's dismay, Jason placed his hands on the counter and stared up at the menu "Hmm..." It took him a good few minutes, which Dean was getting a kick out of watching the cashier look even more nervous by the second before Jason finally figured out what he wanted "...I'll have a Hot Chocolate, please..." Dean then took out some money and handed it to the cashier who then smiled politely and nodded "O-Of course, coming right up sirs..." the cashier put the money in the register and then went back to prepare their drinks. Dean and Jason both waited patiently for their drinks, after a good bit, the cashier came back and set them on the counter "Here you go! Enjoy your drinks, and have a nice night!" Dean nodded "Thanks" was all he said before grabbing his drink, Jason proceeding to do the same, and then walking out of there, Dean casually sipped on his sweet tea "Man, they make the b e s t tea outta all the cafes here, I swear... How's your hot chocolate dude?" Jason gently blew on it and then took a sip carefully "....Good..." They continued down the sidewalk, Dean of course being the one to chat away, he did sometimes glance back to make sure Jason wasn't getting actually irritated with his ramblings, which Jason had actually seemed to be at peace right now, sipping away at his hot chocolate and not... really saying anything back, he just looked like he was listening in fact. Dean wasn't paying attention and rambling so much that he had actually gotten them into an alleyway, he finally seemed to notice "Huh, oops, this is a dead end..." Jason nodded and looked up at the sky "...You can see the moon so clearly here... and the stars..." Dean looked up as well to see the clearest of night skies, it revealed the moon and the stars perfectly tonight, it was usually rainy or just cloudy and hard to see the moon and stars, however their stargazing was interrupted by a loud noise resounding through the alleyway, Dean immediately turned to look back and noticed three of their rivals blocking their only exit, the leader sneered "Well, look who we got here boys..." They slowly approached, snickering all the while "Enjoyin' yourselves tonight?" Dean only laughed and tossed his cup to the ground "Well we were enjoyin' it til a few bitches showed up, thought we kicked your ass, let's see... I believe it's been about... Fifteen times now, wanna make it sixteen motherfuckers?" He put up his fists, Jason proceeding to toss his cup into the nearby garbage can, he stood beside Dean and crossed his arms "If you know what's good for you... I would advise leaving now..."The rivals only snarled at this and the leader spoke up, he was getting angry already "We're not goin' anywhere! Not until we're finished with you bastards!" They immediately took their positions and began closing in on Dean and Jason who only stood their ground, before Dean immediately went for a punch, he wasn't going to just let them close in on them like that, he hit the leader square in the jaw and the other two were about to gang up on him before the leader ordered them to go after Jason which they obeyed and did just that. Dean held nothing back against the leader, he didn't even need a weapon for this, sure, he would've loved to crack something against the other's skull but for now his fists would do just fine, the leader definitely didn't hold back either, after a bit of struggling he finally managed to kick Dean off of himself and growled "You're gonna pay for that you bitch!" He immediately pulled out a knife which seemed to only excite Dean "Ooh... You've got a weapon huh? Well, go ahead, use it, do it!" He snapped, watching as the leader then lunged forward and tried to stab him, much to the leader's disdain he missed Dean who only laughed "Fuckin' hell man, you fuckin' suck at usin' weapons!" Dean threw himself into the leader and knocked him to the ground, knocking the knife out of his hand all the while, meanwhile Jason had picked the other two up by their throats, before he could throw them however they immediately kicked him and got out of it, they both teamed up and then proceeded to tackle him to the ground. Dean seemed to notice what had happened "Ah fuck Jason!" and after throwing another punch at the leader and breaking his nose he ran over and immediately hit them in the back of the head, he tried to fight against the both of them but eventually they overpowered him and held him in place, he only screamed profanities at all of them and then the leader stood up, grabbing his knife and walking over towards Dean "You son of a bitch... You broke my nose!" He spat, before a sadistic grin spread across his face as he pointed his knife at Dean "I'm gonna cut'cha up a little bit before I finish this, hold 'im still boys..." He got closer which only made Dean start kicking at him, of course he couldn't get out of the other two's grasp before the leader started digging his knife into Dean's flesh, cutting him slowly and rather deeply. Dean didn't scream however, he flinched at the burning sensation but he only seemed to chuckle at that "Go ahead, fuckers, cut me, stab me, beat me the fuck down, I'll only enjoy it, ya know?" This made the leader punch him, harder than before, it was really only a punch to shut Dean up which worked, but the more cuts Dean got the more blood he lost and after a bit, it seemed to be affecting him "Ah... shit..." Jason was standing up and his eyes widened as he noticed they were cutting Dean, he stood right up immediately and charged at them, knocking all of them down and even Dean by accident in the process who was just laying on the ground, he wasn't unconscious yet but he felt like he was getting close as he tried to stop some of the bleeding, meanwhile Jason looked absolutely enraged and they all began to notice said rage, admittedly this even began to terrify the leader, they didn't back down however, the two lackey's tried to double team on Jason but this time it didn't work, he grabbed the both of them by their throats and held them the highest he could in the air and slammed them against the wall as hard as he could, it was a wonder it didn't crack their skulls wide open. The leader then casually tried to slip away before Jason stomped over and grabbed him by the throat as well, he slammed him against the wall and held him up in the air "If you EVER touch Dean again... I will p e r s o n a l l y eviscerate you on the spot, hell... Why don't I eviscerate you right fucking n o w?!" He yelled, making the leader scream in terror and struggle as best he could "W-Wait! Pl-please! I... I won't... I won't ever bother you again... Just please... Please don't..." He continued to plead before Jason just tightened his grip on his throat, even though he r e a l l y wanted to kill or maybe even torture this bastard right now... He decided against it and he just let him go and let him drop to the ground "Take your little lackeys here and g e t o u t... If I EVER see any of you again... I will rip you all to shreds!" His voice boomed, luckily the leader definitely seemed to get the message, stumbling over and picking his buddies up off the ground, waking them up and once they were conscious, he immediately ran off with them sluggishly following behind. (I'm not good at fight scenes, sorry for what's probably a mess up there lmao, maybe I'll get better at fight scenes eventually) Jason immediately turned back towards Dean and walked towards him, he was nervous now... He leaned down and checked Dean's pulse, thankfully, he was still alive, still breathing just unconscious for now... Jason scooped him up bridal style and sighed "C'mon tough guy... Let's get'cha home..." He then proceeded to carry the other home with him, once he got there he carefully laid Dean out on the bed and got to work, cleaning up his wounds and patching him up, after that he grabbed some water and set it on the nightstand next to Dean's bed and waited for him to wake up... After awhile... Dean's eyes shot open and he gasped, he looked around and he actually seemed nervous before seeing Jason and calming down "...Am I dead? Am I in heaven...? Are you... My angel?" This made Jason glare and sigh "...First of all... I would n e v e r be an angel, if I were anything, I'd be a demon for sure and you'd be in hell... Second, no, you're in bed... You got cut up pretty badly" Dean nodded and then glanced at the water, he grabbed it and took a sip before clearing his throat and then speaking "Yeah you're right about that one... Wait... So what happened to them sons of bitches? I uh, don't remember much... Except for you like, steam rolling over all of us... And me trying to stop my uhh bleeding problem" Jason only chuckled at that and crossed his arms "Don't worry... They won't be bothering us ever again... ...And sorry about that, you were just in the way at the moment" Dean seemed to perk up at this and he grinned, he then set the water bottle back on the nightstand before speaking "Oh damn... So what'cha do to 'em? Did'cha kill em? Threaten em? Maybe even torture em?" Jason shook his head "Just a threat, threatened to eviscerate them on the spot, didn't do it... but damn do I wish I had've... He even begged me to let him go in the process, he's lucky I let him... but the look of sheer terror on his face was much more worth it in the end..." Dean's grin widened "Fuck... That's hot..." It took him a few moments to realize what he said before he coughed "I mean, uhh that's... Awesome! Fuckin' shitheads, at least we won't have to worry bout 'em anymore, and what a pussy... He started begging?! M' surprised that didn't make ya snap his neck on spot, I know ya hate that kinda shit" Dean laughed, trying to avoid the awkward thing he just said, he was hoping Jason didn't notice but unfortunately that didn't seem to be the case as Jason quirked a brow "...Did you just... Say that's hot in regards to me threatening to literally eviscerate someone?" ...Well... Shit, now Dean didn't know what to do... He began to panic internally "Uhhh nooo...? No, I didn't uh, say any shit like that" He quickly spoke, carefully leaning back as Jason stood and approached him, he placed his hands on either side near his head, he was silent as he did this and for some reason... Dean's face turned red at this "Uhh... Th' fuck are you doin'?" Jason remained silent for a few more moments as he got closer to Dean, not taking his eyes off of Dean's, after a few moments more... He grinned "You're actually fuckin' blushin' right now oh my god... You WOULD like that kinda shit wouldn't you? You fucked up masochist" Dean gave him a swift punch to the gut which did knock him back a bit but he only laughed at it as the other scoffed at him "Fuck off will ya? I ain't-"He paused before continuing "...Okay, I AM a masochist, but uh, I don't think I'd wanna be eviscerated" Jason still had that shit eating grin on his face "Don't you worry... I would never eviscerate you... Others? ...Absolutely, but you? ...Nah, I like keeping you around..." Dean looked at Jason and he couldn't help but give a little smile at that before he yawned, Jason noticed this and sighed "Let's get some sleep... It's been an... eventful night to say the least..." Jason was about to head to his room before Dean spoke up "Uhh... hey... Can... You like, um..." Dean was nervous, he wanted Jason to stay and just sleep in the bed with him... Just like, cuddle with him even... ...Nah, it'd be too weird... Jason rose a brow "What's up?" He questioned, waiting for Dean to answer him... Dean just shook his head "Bah, never mind, I'll uh, seeya in the mornin' ....Goodnight big guy..." Jason sighed, he was disappointed when Dean just avoided saying what he wanted, he had a pretty good guess of what the other maybe wanted to ask, but he didn't want to risk saying anything just in case he was wrong "...Goodnight Dean, rest up, you're gonna need it with all those wounds anyways..." Jason then walked off to his own room, now Dean felt a little angry with himself, he should have just went for it, he sighed and muttered to himself "Wait to go... Ya fuckin' pussy..." He then laid down and closed his eyes, maybe... maybe next time... he thought, before slowly drifting off to sleep.

#new story #My Story #[The Punks!]#Dean #Jason #my ocs #oc story #tw strong language #tw blood mentions #tw cuts #tw fighting #these two disaster idiots legit need to realize their feelings for one another #im not good at fight scenes btw

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roughentumble · 6 years

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a freaky and disorienting thing is that ive realized that, as i accept more and more that i am a trans guy and thats ok, the more i sympathize w/ male characters that are just........ objectively The Worst. like i suffered through the ENTIRETY of Just Friends(2005) for Ryan Reynolds, and-- actually, hold on a sec, before i get back to the point i gotta take a quick sidebar to explain the pain, the TORTURE that is Just Friends, the 2005 film starring Ryan Reynolds and Amy Smart, and written by Adam 'Tex' Davis.

i had to watch it muted for like 90% of the film. the intensity of the “cringe” aspect of this film that bills itself as a “cringe “”””comedy””””” was so off-the-charts that i physically could not stop myself from vocalizing my discomfort through groans and screeches. i would mute the film, turn the screen away, play on my phone for a minute because i literally could not handle seeing the rest of the scene, only to turn my computer back around and find it STILL ON THE EXACT SAME SCENE. i skipped entire swathes of the film. it literally got to the point that i could not handle what was happening and i just--

i gave up! i gave up and i just skipped forward until i found scenes i thought i could handle, or that featured two people Talking instead of some Event Happening, and i’d watch that, and then the scene would change and i’d be in Suffer Town again, population 1: me. Me is the only inhabitant of Suffer Town. so much of the movie hinges so thoroughly on like-- like. A Person Failing At A Thing They’re Good At. and it made me want to die. i think this movie gave me depression, on top of my preexisting depression. it squared my depression.

OKAY, back to my original point. or like, a mixture of explaining The Film, and explaining why my own reaction to it startled me so much. anyway.

so, ignoring the intense amount of Suffering you’ll have to live through if you’re bound and determined to watch ryan reynold’s entire filmography and you get to this monstrosity, the gist of the plot is thus: ryan reynolds plays a man who was a Stock Dweeb Character in high school. overweight, very low self-esteem, “uncool” hobbies, a very uncomfortable fixation on the one pretty girl who is nice to him and hangs out with him(who herself is dating a Stock Jerk Jock Football Player, who we’ll call SJJ, because I can’t remember his name and he doesn’t matter). on their graduation night they throw a party, he signs her yearbook with a Love Confession, and intends to give it to her.

something something The Yearbooks Accidentally Get Swapped, something something She Reads The Wrong Note And Goes “Um. Wtf My Dude????”. cue him going “NOO I DIDNT WRITE THAT WHAT? WHAT? WAIT OH NOOOO!!!”. cue him running downstairs and seeing SJJ reading his confession aloud to a chorus of twittering classmates.

so yeah, he’s embarrassed, the whole school’s laughing at him because of Course. he runs from the party yelling that he’s going to “be somebody” and also something about how the rest of them will never be anybody. ya’know. that usual thing you see Generic Stock Nerds saying when their feelings are real hurt in movies.

cut to the future. he looks like ryan reynolds in 2005, so, you know. Really Fucking Good. like, Only Reason To Watch This Garbage Film levels of good. like, They Should Have Given Him Shirtless Scenes As Payment For Me Sitting Through The Rest Of It kinda’ fine. anyway. he’s hot and beautiful and is a talent manager for celebrities. he’s all rich and attractive, and he’s a complete sack of garbage to women.

he’s actively horrified of the “friendzone”(im cringing right now just writing the word. its so awful) and he’s really not interested in women above a surface level. we see a woman at a bar who’s clearly his date telling him that he’s the Worst and that he needs to see women as people. as she talks he is disinterested at best. she walks away and another lady, who’s overheard the conversation, looks him up and down and decides she doesn’t really care what he’s like because he’s pretty, they flirt, and suddenly he’s been broken up with and acquired a NEW date in the span of about a minute of screentime.

he gets women basically wherever he goes, because he’s only really interested in a specific type of person and(i promise this is the last time i say it) because he looks like 2005 ryan reynolds.

so because of some Plot Devices, he ends up back in his hometown and unable to get a plane out. he sees SJJ who is now a washed-up drunkard who wears his old varsity jacket around because Of Course. ryan finds him offputting, as do i, and it’s one of the few nearly funny scenes in the film, just because i enjoy juxtaposition and so(despite it being the most boilerplate, run-of-the-mill, dull point to make in a film) it actually was something i didn’t hate to see.

he also sees Pretty Girl From High School. they semi-hit it off. she’s shocked that he looks Like That(i know i promised not to mention it again but it’s a legit plot point this time leave me alone), he’s shocked she still looks Like That. they agree to get food the next day.

ryan acts like a bit of a dick, name-dropping celebs he works with left and right, and getting really aggressive when a waitress drops off a plate of his old usual(a really fattening pancake... thing. it looked gross tbqh.) and like, ok, so, i just, here’s where i--

okay. okay. okay. okay. in Ye Olde Days, i wouldve written him off as a douche, and hated him, and, i. i

i couldnt help but, feel, SO bad for him???? like. okay. he just. he had NO self-esteem as a teen. he felt extremely bad about himself, for a TON of reasons, so he literally ran away and reinvented himself entirely and, found a marginal amount of enjoyment from his life???? like, was he happy? no. but he was... he hated himself a little less maybe? he worked really hard to feel good about his body, he worked really hard to get a job he felt any semblance of pride in, he worked REALLY hard to eventually get to a place where he could feel... literally anything positive at any point. he genuinely truly put in real effort to become healthy and have a good career.

and then he, he gets stuck back at his old house, and people are trying to force him to eat food that makes him feel awful and then mocking him when he gets defensive about it, he gets injured and needs to go back to wearing his retainer again, he openly fails at a BUNCH of stuff that he’s specifically been working REALLY FUCKIN HARD AT, for YEARS, because he was insecure about being bad at it in high school(like ice skating, he’s really good at it now because he sucked in high school and he wanted to overcome that), and then also receives more mocking for failing at it, and. you just.

you’re watching someone who was at the bottom of a pit of despair, who clawed tooth and nail at the clay walls of their misery-prison in order to haul themselves all the way up to the lofty height of “misery pit again, but different this time”, as they get caught in a downpour that completely erases all their progress and they slide right back to where they started. you see him completely regress and it K I L L E D me. he gets stuck back in a place where every single flaw he tried to overcome is just! shoved! back! on him! all over!

and, yeah, he’s. not great to women. he’s not beating them or anything, i don’t think he treats them SUPER badly, or actively thinking of them as lesser. but it doesn’t change the fact that he is BAD to them, and he thinks of all interactions with attractive women as transactional. and thats TERRIBLE. but i just!!! i cant help myself man i cant stop i just i look at him and all i feel is like!!!!!!!

leave him alone!!!!!!!!!!! get the boy therapy or something!!! dont tear him down like this!!!!!!! we cant just tear someone down every time they make a semblance of an attempt at being Not Miserable!!!!!!!! just!!!!! he doesnt need this, man!!!!! hes literally just The Saddest Person with The Lowest Self Esteem Of All Time, so he uses his newfound ability to find people willing to sleep with him, as a way of raising his self esteem. is he the Best Person? not on your life. but he’s just! a sad little man! who’s trying his best! i dont wanna see him torn to shreds, man. i just want him to realize that his self-worth doesn’t have to rely entirely on whether or not he’s sexually appealing.

because at the end of the day, i think that’s his major problem??? his own self-worth is so thoroughly wrapped up in whether he perceives himself as someone who’s sexually appealing to others.

which like! fuck you! thats considered a Big Problem and So Sad when it’s a girl, if she feels her only self-worth comes from being sexually attractive to men, but, it feels like every time i see a dude goin thru somethin similar, its like “oh hes just a Bad.” and i get it, not only do men have the societal power in this equation, but also when theyre dealin with this same problem, dudes tend to externalize it in really unhealthy and sexist ways, and im not. im not saying every sexist dude just needs a manic pixie dream girl to waltz into his life or some shit!!! im just!!!!!!!!!! idk!!!

i just cant stop sympathizing w/ the dude. and wanting him to get Help. and suffering immensely when i see him literally regressing into a place of misery right before my very eyes.

when really all i was supposed to get from the movie is “man was Fat and Gross. he grow up 2 b Sexist Womanizer. now he see old crush and learn Sexism Bad. then kissy”

#long post tag #LIKE. this is simply one example #i still generally go ''nah hes a Dick'' but ive been. more and more. just bein like #''but...................... b- but........ tht poor guy :(''#and im so lost. i feel like im in a wind tunnel of confusion #maybe this is a Healthier way to be and maybe im just Maturing and this happens to be coinciding with like #getting more comfortable w/ saying im trans and acknowledging im A Dude #so idk. but. still. life is weird and bad and i dont understand #maybe im loosing the Female Perspective. maybe in a month i'll be an incel complaining about Femoids #(im joking)

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