#idk maybe by the time im 30 ill have the guts to block them 😅

[nexttothelamp]

bruh

#do i even know? probably not #god its taking so long to get healthy #also i just... cant fucking feel comfortable ranting in the tags on here because of a particular follower that makes me uncomfortable 🤣 #cant unfollow them i know them in real life #but i makes me very uncomfy how they watch my blog 🤣 #like i wanted to get in here and rant about the struggles me and bae are having (not with each other lmao) #and like my illnesses that are fucking keeping me foggy and sick #but im thinking about one person. who i never see and dont have to at all if i dont want to #and i have quite a few other followers from real life! and i am happy to see every single note! #but this particular person. is such a miserable experience for me #i refuse to be mean to them. it wouldnt be worth the psychic damage #but fuck they make me sad #they talk over everyone and are such a fucking know it all #like an old friend can try to ask me about the city that I currently live in? and have?? for nearly 6 years now?? and THEY answer over me?? #like bruh #also i have personal issues with being disrespected or ignored when im speaking; namely due to that being the default of my existence #until around 22 #i think about deleting my blog or renaming it but #i like nexttothelamp and i like this blog #idk maybe by the time im 30 ill have the guts to block them 😅 #but yunno what? this felt better #yunno my therapist has told me this over and over and over #but lmao i guess it still bears repeating #externalise that internal struggle. even if the thoughts are small and petty and dont feel like thwyre worth your time #write it down #then read it. or burn it. rip it up or eat it it doesnt matter 🤣 #damn this DID make me feel better #get that petty bs out of my body and let it dissipate into nothing~ #lmao i wanna bitch more and get more specific but even they arent that clueless #id say delete later but i wont