#idk. i just probably shouldn't be concious. idk man. im so fucking exhausted.

[pizzapizzadickz]

I. Need to care for my bunny today. But he's been outside. So I should take a shower after right. But my mom wants me to wait for her package which means I need to keep my phone with me. But then that means I need to wash my phone after...

Long story short I dont wanna do any of it bc im tired as shit but my brain shuts down after a second of thought. Send help pls.

#oh well #diary #personal #things just must be done a certian way. and that way may be exhausting but idfk how to get around it. #idk it might be fine later but no matter what it's stressful #...and all my mom would say is that yeah she knows bc it's hard for her too. #mn. i made a comment that there was no cut up cucumber in the fridge like #and my mom said it sounded like i was asking her if she could cut them up and she seemed stressed bc of me. #and idk she was worried i wont eat. and like. maybe i should just stop askimg for anything and suffer instead. #i swear to god i feel like a half dead piece of shit knowimg she did something she didnt want to do bc of me. #idk. i hate existing. id rather get high. #drugs tw #most of these haywire emotions are just pms intensifying already fucked brain wiring. #idk. i just probably shouldn't be concious. idk man. im so fucking exhausted.