#if anyone else noticed or feels like this then *internet ghost hug* belonging ks difficult :(

[autisticlee]

I started with posting about my autistic experience on twitter, reading posts on there, and interacting with people there.

then twitter got unbearable, so I moved back here and made a new account and side blogs to mirror twitter and lurk in the tags.

i've noticed a difference between autism twitter and autism tumblr from the big algorithm-controlled posts I usually see:

autism twitter makes me feel like i'm not allowed to say autism disables me or causes problems in life

while autism tumblr makes me feel like i'm not allowed to feel positively about being autistic and can only see it as a struggling disability.

the contrast makes me dizzy 😵‍💫 it's like no one wants to see the perspective of other people when we are all different. each side wants their narrative to be the told one.

#autistic #actually autistic #autism #a little criticism for both. can we not do this 😭 #twitter is always “dont use your autism as a disability/excuse for why you cant do a thing! it'll mean i wont be able to do the thing #anymore if they know i'm autistic!“ like when i asked if i can be exempt from jury duty because TALKING HARD. due to autistic #but on tumblr it's always “dont call autism a difference in brain. it's a disability and that's all it is because it ruins my life and is #so hard for me! stop trying to make it look like a positive thing!“ #and like....both????? its both?! because it depends on the person and how they see it themself and how affects THEM. not you. #its both positive thing that makes me who i am and disability that makes many things difficult. it can be both 😭 #let people describe whats best for them and dont speak for everyone! #linking this to twitter too because both sides gives me headaches lmao #lee rambles #i know people disabled by autism want their storoes told. i know people not as didabled by autism want their stories told #but we cant just do ONE and push only that narrarive. telling one doesnt discredit the other. both are equally important!!! learn to share! #help each other. dont disagree and post passive aggressive posts about each other on social medias. ugh. #i feel like im stuck between where i see it positivly while it disrupts parts of my life at the same time so i dont fit anywhere #people tell me “if you want friends then be friends with other autistics” but i dont even fit in with “my people” sometimes #if anyone else noticed or feels like this then *internet ghost hug* belonging ks difficult :(