#if you don't like reading my random thoughts you can block ''delete later'' I usually use that hashtag

[bluepallilworld]

each time I make a post about a fic of mine, I wished I had a gif to add

like it was a known media and you could just find it in the gifs

nothing to do with it being famous (very much not my goal XD)

just

I like gifs

I like lil' moving characters

#delete later #one day I'll have to make one I guess #it's not like it would appear on its own #girl it's your blorbos from your mind obviously you have to do it yourself XD #also I have such a facination for animatics #those blorbos are moving! they're alive!!! #I can't believe I was a bit weirded out by the word ''blorbo'' at first and now I'm just using it in my head too #if you don't like reading my random thoughts you can block ''delete later'' I usually use that hashtag #I always have that hope I'm gonna come back to delete it later... #why am I writing like I do when I'm starting to get sleep deprieved drunk it's not even 11pm yet #I still have my grammar tho #mmmmmmmm #it's now been more than a week that I'm sick I reaaaally hope I will soon stop trying to cough out my pulmons #*she said right before starting to cough for the n times today* #do you know the limit for tags is 30? #I am midway #it's generaly not a problem #unless I'm reblogging miss yuyu's art #she has thoughts and I wanna answer with my own #because they're shaped #one of these sentences I have no idea how I'd explain the meaning to one of my IRL friends #and there is a limit for how long a tag can be too! you can't write a whole story in one single tag and that's very sad don't you think? Ho #140 characters #when I said that ''they're shaped'' I was talking Yuri's thoughts not mine #I like my friend #and it makes me so happy to see her having fun with her askers #should I really be gushing about her like that here in a random post's tags? Maybe not #I don't think she'd see that anyway so I'm all good #how many tags have I left? #oh that's the last one better make it count right? If you read this I'm sending you (yes you!)

[yellowanz]

About me!

hello!!! i'm anz. welcome to my blog!!

I'm genderfluid & transmasc, and my preferred pronouns are he/him and it/its, though any is accepted. Also, do take note that I am a minor. (that means don't do anything really perverted w/ me or I will block you!)

I'm into things such as: Camp Camp, Danvid, The Stanley Parable, Stannarrator, Stray, FNAF, and Centaurworld! I also really like to draw, write, and animate things, too. Also, my favorite animals are birds—especially ducks—and my favorite color is yellow. I also love the study of English and grammar, too.

I am very active here, so dont be afraid to like, comment, or reblog my posts! I don't bite at all.

Also, don't be afraid to send me a post/ask, either. Actually, they're much appreciated! My requests for art and writing are open, so if you have an idea, share!

dni and tags under the cut. if you're new pls read those!!

DNI If...

Proship. please, for the love of god, stay far away. preferably, that "far away" being your therapist's office bcuz all of ygs are weird asf.

If you are racist, ableist, sexist, etc.

If you are homophobic, lesphobic, transphobic, biphobic, etc.

maps/pedos, zoophile, necrophiles, etc.

PS: if I int/rb/like any proshippers or people like this ^ , pls lmk so i can know/delete the post/unlike !!! thanks

Tags!

If you're lost on my blog (which is completely understandable, as it's my main), here's some tags you can use to figure out your way through this absolute maze of a blog.

anz's art — my art. I will put this tag on every single piece of art I own.

anz's thoughts — random posts or my thoughts on things. these posts could be screenshots, opinions, responses to asks, etc.

anz's reblogs — all of my reblogs. (there's a LOT)

anz's writing — all of my writing that I own. These will mainly be drabbles & oneshots. Writing will mostly come from requests I recieve

suggestive — if an image has anything suggestive in it (text, images, etc.) i will put this tag here. I'll try to keep this blog as sfw as I can though, so this may not come up a lot. there will not be explicit content here, however, because i'm a minor. that means that the nsfw tag, one to identify things of extremely explicit manner, will not be used.

cw: ___ — anything that may need a content warning. (ex: gore, blood, etc.)

my lists 4 later reference!!1 — just as the name suggests. Usually will be masterlists, lists w/ links, etc. This tag might be unnecessary but i'll be reblogging lots of these.

anz's duck collection — my many duck posts/reblogs bcuz i love ducks that much.

Other blogs!

@danvidweekcomeback (not associated with grillocestgrillo whatsoever. yuck!)

thanks for reading this!! have a nice day.

#pinned post #intro post #intro #introduction #proshippers dni #oh my god!!! this took too long!!!! #who is anz? #i edit this a LOT btw

[rnegitsune]

Ok so I thought I'd put together some horror stories from my time as a babymetal fan bc of how drastic the shift in the fandom has been the past year or so. For context I got into babymetal in like june of 2014 (all 3 girls were still underage at the time, I was 22; when I first got into them I thought I would be considered an older fan lmao the naivete, the innocence of new fan me wow I know now I'm not at all in the older half of the fandom esp considering I was born the same decade as su and moa), and I made this blog in I think may of 2015.

I've had people say I should compile men being gross into a post and I just couldn't do that out of fear for my own mental health but this will be pretty close. These are all my experiences with this fandom over the years; I'm definitely missing some but what I do remember should do well to cover most of how this fandom used to be vs now. It's gonna be a lot and tw for men being gross about minors.

Back in my first year or so of this blog I on multiple occasions got dms from men asking to be friends. At the time my bio only said my name and my pronouns. I've always been cautious of dms so I'd ask their age and every single one was considerably older than me. I wouldn't usually answer after that bc no thanks but they would generally try to continue convos til I blocked. The only one I still had was this one

After I put my age in my bio, which was 23 at the time, I never got a dm like that again; take from that what you will. But if you're young please be wary of this hell fandom even now. And if you're an older fan and esp an older male fan reading this, don't dm people trying to be friends. I was over 18 and it still creeped me out to no end.

One of my real first men in this fandom are disgusting moments was a blog back in like 2015 or 2016 who I had some contact with due to common interests; he was a huge yui stan and made bm content. He was like 28 or 29 at the time and I eventually noticed he would tag idols, mostly kpop girls, by their body parts (legs, butt, etc) which is disgusting enough as it is but then I saw him do the same for literal minors, like tzuyu from twice. I messaged him asking what the hell he was doing objectifying women but also actual children and he blocked me lmao. He later unblocked me to let me know that's just how he tagged things and it was my fault he had anxiety and then he blocked me again.

Back before the tumblr purge this fandom was repulsive to a degree I cannot even begin to describe. Someone would reblog something from me, I'd go to their blog and it would be underage jpop idols and japanese p*rn all the way down. I even stumbled upon a man editing underage su into p*rn gifs. Obviously no proof of that but I did go find my initial reaction to it

The number of times I'd get a follow from someone then go to their blog and it would be as mentioned above or their bio would be the most misogynistic trash I'd ever read was staggering. I genuinely considered giving up and deleting this blog so many times bc i felt oberwhelmed and outnumbered by these gross old dudes; and so the fact that this fandom has evolved into a bunch of chaotic wlw?? Amazing, I could cry.

Fun phenomenon of women running bm blogs was men sending messages asking if we liked babymetal. No joke. I think this happened to me two or three times but I spoke w other female creators at the time and it had happened to them as well. My entire blog is babymetal, and yet???

He said the weird guy idk bc he sent some random ass messages vaguely insulting me and when I responded coldly, he acted confused so I said you're some guy idk, hence the above message starting as such. Also that pic and the one up above that has my current pfp bc I just took those screenshots. Like I said I typically blocked weird dms but I guess these passed me by so I still had the messages.

Most people know the sub reddit is the worst and don't need me to tell you but it's a hellscape and I highly recommend avoiding it. A short list of things I've had to see as a result of going there: men discussing at length kano and momoko's appearances and how they look in costume vs in normal clothes. Men discussing at length the hope that the girls would marry men who aren't Japanese, a thread that was from when all 3 girls were underage. They aren't gonna marry you dude they're really not.

The insulting of billie Eilish, a 17 year old at the time, was horrible too. Su and moa got to meet her, something they were extremely excited for, and they posted a pic; the comments were disgusting as you can imagine. The yui rumors were terrible too, fatshaming, slutshaming etc all based on nothing. Some man saying the rumors about yui leaving bc, no joke this was a real rumor, she "got too fat" couldn't be true bc "look at saya." Saya being a barely 18 yo back up dancer who covered the third spot after yui left but before the avengers. Not to mention the upskirt shots from when they were minors, the constant editing of their faces onto explicit photoshoots etc. I remember being a new fan looking for a su pic on google and being horrified at the fact that one of the top suggested results after her name was “bikini;” she was 16 at the time. Also, the uptick in massively creepy posts and messages sent to bm blogs as each girl, but esp moa and yui, approached 18 was disgusting.

Now for some personal nonsense. A big reason why I haven't touched my youtube channel in months is bc I got tired of dealing with the men of this fandom. I poke fun at metal and get told I deserve to die. I say ped*philes and creepy men are gross and get a swarm of middle aged men cursing at me. Had a guy cry about how men are shamed for liking bm and then he turned around and said some gross shit about wlw. Had a guy call me racist for liking a band he also likes (and despite him having no way of knowing my own race) and tell me the babymetal fandom doesn't need my kpop feminist bullshit, which is honestly a great description and I thought about putting it in my yt about lmao. Had a middle aged man unironically say he'd never seen a man be creepy towards bm but fans su and moa's ages calling them hot was creepy. The disillusionment....the level of unawareness is astounding. If you want to see screenshots of some of these comments they are fairly recent in my don't mind me tag; I don't want to see them anymore tho bc they're infuriating so I'm not going to look at them to post here.

Essentially I haven't looked at my channel since may bc men are exhausting and rude and refuse to examine the fandoms they're a part of no matter what. They're told by a woman of the fandom that she's had bad experiences personally and they all start crying about how it's either a lie bc they haven't seen it or unimportant. I did stop reading comments in may and I will never read another one again probably as a result of this shit. Trash men being trash are not worth my time and I refuse to give them anymore of it. I do plan on making more videos tho and let my ~feminist kpop bullshit~ live in their minds rent free.

I will also continue to make fun of metal and the creepy men in this fandom bc it's important and I'm a spiteful asshole who likes disrupting these dudes perfect bubble of a fandom. It genuinely brings me so much joy seeing all the new fans recently (which sidenote if you got into them recently I am kinda curious as to how you found them; I've gotten tons of new followers and considering how inactive they are rn I'm curious). People sending messages about how they finally feel like they belong or that they have a safe space....like I don't even know what to say and I never feel like my responses fully convey how genuinely wonderful that is and how thrilled I am that this is where we're at now and I have had at least some part in it. As this post shows, my experiences have been negative for the most part so the shift recently is such a relief I cannot even begin to explain my gratitude.

So to anyone who read all of this and hasn't disintegrated from the male bullshit, thank you. Keep being yourself and fighting for your place in this fandom, esp if you're a young woman; keep making fun of the creeps and keep making wlw memes!! Babymetal's music is in such a huge way meant for girls and to see more and more finding their way to this previously hellish beyond belief fandom is incredible.

#babymetal #don't mind me #this is long ok