#ill idolize character but

[cuntastic-mrs-cunt]

i think the most annoying part about riftan is how people in the fandom treat him 😭 like, most of the fandom seems to either hate his guts or wants him to be in their guts. i just don't get it

#riftan calypse #under the oak tree #utot #uot #scrolling older posts on the under the oak tree tag is... not an experience i thought it would be i guess #i kind of understand? like #ill idolize character but #i cannot imagine myself mashing bathing suit areas with them. #and its hard to form deep and insightful opinions about characters without knowing the whole story #and this isnt to say that people can't rant about them and/or their behavior (obviously) #but after reading his behavior in book one AND his pov.. like how can u not sympathize with him at least a little #i have more to say but i've already gone on long enough #if i'm still mad tmr ig i'll js post about it then #ranting in the tags #rambling in the tags

[mochiiniko]

rd art dump featuring some old stuff that i just forgot to post lol

#mochii try to stick with a consistent brush style challenge (impossible) #theres a couple more but theyre either: me wanting to redraw them or just mainly cocole which ill be saving for an art dump of its own lmao #rhythm doctor #chiimo art shenanigans #i also found that one mian idol drawing and i. dont want to post that im still haunted by it 💀 #also to any idkhow rd fans out there. sugar pills is literally cole no i will not elaborate #another addition to my mv list that would probably never be completed </3 #the third drawing was just a compilation of blond haired characters that were also coincidentally my favorite #ive listed down like. 5 different blond characters 😭

[always-a-joyful-note]

you know what was cruel and unusual of the i7 writers to do? to have Yamato, who hated his dad, try reconciling with him for the sake of others and getting back love and support while Sogo, who still loves his family in his own way, tries to reconcile with his dad for the sake of others only to almost have his career ruined and his close friend and partner nearly jailed for a crime neither of them committed

#the contrast was evil #you know whats also evil? #the izumi bros getting along so well and supporting each other and iori becoming and idol to pull his brother alongside him #while riku and tenn have a relationship wrought with friction and tenn leaving behind riku to save him #leaving behind vs pulling along to save your brother.... #the subtle contrasts they give between characters makes me physically ill #the nuance they give to different types of relationships #idolish7 #fandom spamdom #note's notes #no wait im not done #its the way they said through yamato and sogo that you are never wrong for wanting to reconcile with your family #or for loving them even when they dont love you back #but sometimes youll find love and support waiting for you and sometimes youll almost be sent into isolation #jdisosjfeijrwerer someone protect osaka sogo from his family please

[todayisafridaynight]

mine's done a lot of sexy things in my opinion but top five to me still is asking daigo if he wanted to prioritize The Family or one man Not In The Family

#snap chats #you know what i mean. that rggo story I Think That Was Very Attractive Of Him #i simply understand why daigo was like 'fuck man .............. kinda right with that ................ wanna get married--' #but no cause real shit daigo ily and its very cute that you love kiryu so much #and i get it i do. i live for daigo's idolization of kiryu it makes for delicious drama and many emo spiralings at 1AM #i just really appreciate mine being able to speak up. from his position. yk what i mean #like mine's relatively green to the yakuza atp and this is the first time he's personally going out with his boss but not just His Boss #THE Boss and he still sees value in being like 'idc if you're my superior i need you to really evaluate your values rn for the whole org' #its so sexy of him ........ love a man who can cut the bullshit when he gotta ... #ESPECIALLY in regards to kiryu cause like .... kiryu ily and ily because youre messy ... i just need others to call you messy too ... #its also just so good because it's exactly the type of thing daigo wanted from companions #people who could look at him beyond his name and money and status and tell him what he needs to hear ... its very yummy ... #so yeah thats one of my top five sexy moments thanks for watching im gonna kick my feet and think about mine #he's such an epic character ......... i wish i had blender so i could spin his model for an hour #ill just have to settle for doing that in my brain

[natsmagi]

tbh maybe this is a hot take but i really dont get why people insist on having one person in natsumugi be this Super Toxic one and the other a victim. the easiest conclusion to draw is natsume being the bad guy and tsumugi the victim due to natsume getting physical and berating him at times but far too commonly do i see people insist that its the other way around and that tsumugi is actually the super toxic one and natsume just lets tsumugi emotionally manipulate him and thats ?? so weird to me ??? both of these are so weird to me ???

i can ofc see where theyre coming from. both natsume and tsumugi have plenty of issues going on in their heads. i feel like natsumes situation is more commonly understood as him simply just being difficult though and not being the best at managing his emotions, and with tsumugi i get it because he doesnt really have much of a moral compass. he doesnt quite understand peoples feelings and it results in him doing pretty fucked up things at times, but to then frame him as someone who would be abusive?? that doesnt sit right with me

tsumugi may not understand peoples emotions and be apathetic to the struggles people are going through, but its clear to anyone that that man has good intentions at the end of the day. at WORST he may get overbearingly controlling, but its never in a "you cant do x y z" way, its in a "i signed us up for this job opportunity because i thought it sounded nice and didnt speak it through with you beforehand and now we have to do it" way. had this been 2nd year tsumugi maybe he wouldve been far more desperate and even manipulative to an extent because he was in such a dark place, but current day tsumugi is actively trying to understand people better. hes trying to learn how to feel. in wonder game he even outright said that natsume taught him pain and everything else. his growth is clear

i cannot see tsumugi taking advantage of natsume in a genuinely destructive way with modern day ntmg. again, maybe during the earlier !-era stuff he could be more destructive, but natsume also does a relatively good job keeping tsumugi in his place during that time too, with him getting physical and all. its only in !!-era where tsumugi doesnt really mind it and can even make playful jokes about it because theyve Had this development in their relationship. theyve moved Past many of their toxic attributes, and theyve finally grown to understand one another. this is also when tsumugi can have a more "dominating" role in their relationship, since natsume has come to trust him to this extent, but tsumugi wouldnt take advantage of that. again; theyve now grown very close and understanding of one another. theyll have banters such as tsumugi wanting natsume to do something like idk. wear a dress. to which natsume will reply with kys but again. in !!-era this is banter and tsumugi wouldnt actually force natsume to do something he doesnt want to. theyre just very comfortable with each other now

i also really hate the position natsume gets put in with all of this. so often he is already hyperfeminized by the fandom for no reason whatsoever (which is especially fucked up considering how much he canonically hates being seen as a girl), and by making tsumugi this manipulative and abusive partner youre stripping natsume of even more autonomy and framing him as powerless. naively in love with a man thats hurting him. and that doesnt sit right with me either!! natsume does have a big heart and he has endured more than he probably should, but to think natsume would just take it ??? natsume has BACKBONE. if tsumugi upsets him he will either 1. get really mad at him or 2. start ignoring tsumugi alltogether. hes not just gonna put up with it. and tsumugi will notice this change in demeanor. ask if hes done something wrong. he may not understand what it was he did but he never intends on hurting natsume and would genuinely want to resolve it. tsumugi isnt stubborn in this regard, if he fucks up he wants to fix it. and natsume isnt a damsel in distress, why do you want him to be a helpless maiden so bad ??

theres alot of nuance to all of this and im obviously not gonna tackle every single element of their relationship and this is just an overview but TL;DR ntmg are both awful and have many faults and their relationship has gotten incredibly unhealthy at times but the point is theyre growing PAST that. maybe sometimes these toxic traits of theirs will resurface, but that does not make one the abuser and the other the victim. theyre just two fucked up people in love, standing as equals and learning to understand one another. stop framing one as evil

#i hope this is coherent again sorry if i like. forgot something crucial. this is a heat of the moment ramble #i also feel like in general this fandom is obsessed with making things edgier than they actually are #but i guess thats what we get for hyping enstars up as this Super Fucked Up Idol Media #when its like. no guys the characters are just complex and act like human beings would #both natsume and ESPECIALLY tsumugi have suffered alot #so to make one of them #ESPECIALLY tsumugi #out to be an abuser when if you read the text you can see him actively try to better himself #is quite insulting to me. idk #again this isnt me saying neither natsume or tsumugi cant do incredibly fucked up things #but goddamn this fandom is addicted to reducing charas to singular traits #nat rambles #MAYBE ILL DELETE THIS LATER I GOT A LIL HEATED BUT #BROAD HAND GESTURES #nats enst posting

[infernaltenor]

the third (and... maybe final?) niki shiina analysis

thats a lie there's a nonzero chance i'll do more <- i really like reading into his character

the focus of this is intended to be the foil relationship of niki and mayoi. this is something observable between all members of alkaloid and crazy:b, with clear distinctions between who is meant to be a foil/mirror of who: rinne and hiiro, kohaku and aira, himeru and tatsumi. while i would love to do a full in depth analysis of every member in this particular grouping, i've been avoiding any discussion of events that are out on jp but haven't been on en, if only because i want to experience the stories myself, which is why, for the time being, i'll be skipping the rest of the alkaloid and crazy:b units.

there's a second major factor as to why i'm focusing on niki and mayoi: they have the weakest link. that is to say, everyone else in the group has a clear connection in their pasts. niki and mayoi lack this. while you can extrapolate and make guesses (mayoi living in the basement of es and having a surprising amount of information in the building construction and hidden rooms; niki's father being kicked off the air in preference of idols; my conclusion here is that mayoi's parents probably run es and likely ran niki's off the air. is there proof? no. that's why i'm not counting it.), nothing for them is as explicitly stated as it is for the rest: rinne and hiiro through the nature of being brothers, kohaku and aira's childhood friendship online, whatever the hell is happening with himeru and tatsumi's complicated fucking relationship. niki and mayoi have... none of that. and arguably, that's a connection in and of itself, that they have no past in common, but given the care taken for the rest of the units it feels almost like an oversight.

no matter! i'm not here to discuss what ifs; i'm here to read far too much into the silly goofy character of what is otherwise an incredibly sad and tragic unit (despite their rather goofy construct) because i love him and need his depth to be at the front page rather than ostensibly passed over. enstars where's my niki shiina breakdow-

anyway. with that out of the way, let's start with the most basic parts! game design and character design. for game design, they also typically are in the same spot (spot 4 for the live mechanics), although i'm willing to ignore this due to the fact that kohaku and aira, as well as tatsumi and himeru, do not adhere to this particular criteria. niki and mayoi are the two characters within their unit that have long hair; niki's side ponytail and mayoi's side braid (hey where's the niki shiina hair down car-). interestingly, niki and mayoi's main hairstyles occupy opposite shoulders. while it's something that's easy to overlook, i'm counting it because it's something i think is also an easy way to put differences together, the same way color palette is. and for niki and mayoi, color palette isn't really a concern (the same dictates the rest of the crazy:b and alkaloid pairings, however), but niki's hair is more blue-toned, while mayoi's retains a level of red in his purple (shinobu's, for instance, is way cooler in tone).

but this is all superficial stuff. things you can simply observe. beyond the unspecified parents, where's the digging in way too much?

well.

crazy:b is a unit that is altogether kind of goofy, but the individual characters are by and large, tragic. niki shiina reads as an outlier to this specific set up.

alkaloid is a unit that is altogether serious down to their aesthetic, but the individual characters are largely kind of silly. mayoi ayase reads as an outlier to this specific set up.

as an author's note, right here in the middle of this analysis, i know both units are not so clear cut, and that you can see incredible amounts of angst and silliness in the characters i have decided not to focus on. why i am focusing on niki and mayoi is because of their decidedly obvious contrasting personalities to the larger construction of their unit. niki, more often than not, serves as the crazy:b character who has no indication of what is going on, not to mention how much his personality is driven by his own unspecified condition and his relation to food; mayoi is the alkaloid character who has such a clear indication of his tragedy, as opposed to hiiro and tatsumi, both of whom acknowledge it less, and aira, who does it moreso through inner monologues. i digress.

with both niki and mayoi serving as the contrasting element to their respective units, this does include that they are not always that contrasting element; think, whenever niki puts himself down or reads rinne like a book, or mayoi's clear serious relationship with teaching the other members of his unit.

another aspect that i think contributes to a foil relationship more than the mirroring is the opposite ways they talk about themselves and even moreso, how they think about themselves. niki, by and large, puts himself down as an idol; it's expected, especially since being an idol was never his intention (for fun and profit! and also rinne), so he tends to think of himself (frequently) as someone with less experience. while mayoi's full story (afaik) hasn't been touched on, he shows considerable knowledge to the background and teaching of idols (dropping notes in on unsuspecting juniors, teaching alkaloid the choreography throughout the main story, just to name some off the top of my head), even showing in some ways his mastery of the skills for being an idol. what mayoi lacks for in confidence of himself, he makes up for in being confident in his ability to guide others with advice and teaching. this places niki and mayoi in clear opposite corners of their idol positions. that being said, mayoi hardly does think himself an expert in the industry, but while niki recognizes himself as not being an idol expert, he does frequently call up his cooking expertise, something that cannot be overstated. just with these two skills you can see how niki and mayoi treat their own expertise: niki acknowledges his with frequency, mayoi tries to push people away from knowing his.

niki is a character that tries to stay silly on the surface. to be fair to crazy:b, rinne also attempts this. the difference is that rinne's silliness has been broken clearly before, notably in the main story for the game. niki's character, at the point that i'm writing this post, has not had such a break yet. another aspect of niki is he does try to stay as clueless as possible (try isn't quite the word i'm looking for; he seems genuinely uninterested in the politics of the idol world! this is something i count in contrast to his fellow unit members, as much of crazy:b is focused primarily on that political atmosphere). without such a drastic break, niki's character does read as one intending to be seen as a silly character.

mayoi's character, while being silly in his own over the top reactions to, well, everything (alkaloid and mayoi is bocchi the rock if btr was yaoi, but that's... that's a different post), is probably one i would argue meant to be taken much more seriously in alkaloid. for one, his character does frequently deal with intrusive thoughts, which imo makes his overall character feel more serious. another aspect of this matches him with tatsumi for overall being what i feel to be the more seriously read parts of the alkaloid unit, as tatsumi is shown to be levelheaded often; there are some clear breaks for this particular formula with tatsumi imo, for instance, both his driving and technology usage serve to lighten his character considerably. mayoi's character, i think, due to the heavy usage of self-deprecating language, is meant to be read much more seriously than he sometimes ends up being.

my conclusion is basically... well niki and mayoi occupy (what i think) is an interesting balance for the foil/mirror imagery of crazy:b and alkaloid. their unit structures and symbols, as well as intentions feed into this, as do their character pairs, but due to niki and mayoi's own (mostly) untouched connections, their place in the structure feels much harder to nail down. this doesn't mean it doesn't exist, but it does mean that i can (and more importantly) will tear into this gacha game like its a piece of literature.

#enstars #ensemble stars #niki shiina #mayoi ayase #tenor talks #yeah ill tag mayoi in this. hes in it as much as niki. #you have no idea what a monster of a post this is to write with a headache and currently zero ibuprofen i am holding on by a fucking thread #the thread in question is the scary amount of niki shiina thoughts rattling around in my brain creating actual thoughts that have like meri #i have like three essays im supposed to be doing so i cranked this one out before i fried my brain #anyway. im normal im so normal i didnt just spend an hour digging into characters in an idol gacha game.

[pretty-idol-hell]

New ticket exchange character parts for Idol Land PriPara in January 2024! Including a particular one I know a few people have been wanting!

#idol land pripara #oh also the firework eyes are an old favorite of mine that i never found a use for #i created a character named hanabi and decided not to use them on her lol #maybe ill give them another try

[floorpancakes]

pondering the idea of drawing watanuki as luka in the tailor of enbizaka because watanuki doing Girl Horror and being driven mad by jealous misplaced paranoia and murdering a bunch of people because he thinks he's being cheated on then dressing up in all their clothes and then murdering doumeki sounds fun as a detached unrealistic juicy concept treat

#and YUUKO AS CONCHITA!!! #i am aware theres bigger context and a whole evilousverse but like i mean just within the contexts of the songs and vibes #i want to dress watanuki up in fancy outfits and make him play fun little roles every so often like an idol in a drama #bjdtanuki strikes again #ok but IMAGINE if watanuki murdered several people in a jealous rage #its not realistic but it would be fun to play with like smacking barbie dolls together #maybe i shouldn't be talking cause #despite my au being designed to be as in character but also self indulgent as possible #and being meticulously sorted out in my brain #i cant get the idea of a bad end verse out of my mind #the vn writer in me needs to see it #when that fic finally gets fucking written i promise ill write a fucked up chapter where canary snaps goes feral and kills people #canary is a complicated and fascinating old man beast and i think he is very hinged and definitely will not cause earth shattering anomalie #and death omens #anyways art idea #faffing about #xxxholic #i guess

[run-on-dreams]

a little while ago i had a idea for a menhera themed story but i dont wanna post it on my main blog SO im gonna post it here even tho it doesnt really fit the theme XD

itll be below the cut, warning for mentions of self harm and mental illness and related stuffs. menhera stuff yknow

(copy-pasted from my notes)

a girl is an up-and-coming idol, scouted for her good looks out of high school. she does actually care about idoling, but there’s a problem... she’s a menhera dealing with delusions, hallucinations, and a self harm addiction. she tries to manage both sides of her life and be the best idol she can, but she feels like it’s only a matter of time before it all comes crashing down..... until she starts having a strange and very persistent hallucination. turns out, it’s not a hallucination at all, but the ghost of a dead idol! the ghost girl struggled with some similar things when she was alive, and was even reported to have died by suicide when she died a year or so ago. however, the dead idol seems like she was in a better headspace than ever near the time of her death... could foul play have been involved? was she... murdered??

together, the living idol and the dead idol work on themselves, and the living idol uncovers the mystery of the ghost girl’s death.

#ALSO IDK MUCH ABT IDOLS so if something doesnt make sense in my idea dont come 4 me plz #n e way this idea was kinda inspired by how i never see stories abt people like me/dealing w my issues or watever #so i wanted to make a story like that but like thats not thw main plotline its just a character trait of the mc nd its not like glamorized #the mc practices for her job and solves mysteries with a ghost and also just happens to have mental problems & addiction #and she still tries to do wat she cares abt even tho its hard w her poor health #ok thats enough rambling XD ill put real tags now #menhera #メンヘラ #....idk any other tags to put THATS IT IG LOL

[azumasoroshi]

watched the first two episodes of oshi no ko a while back (REALLY FUCKING GOOD, ive been a manga reader for a while but i stopped reading the recent chapters and basically forgot everything except for the major points and god it’s so satisfying to have the adaptation remind me of what i’ve forgotten in the most beautiful way possible)

but this post isnt about onk, it’s about izaya!! izaya orihara!! lets fucking goooooooooo izaya idol au!!!! i cant get this flea out of my BRAIN

i was about to open a new canvas to draw some more shizaya stuff for my animatic that im never gonna finish and i was like huh. maybe i should draw onk fanart. and then i remembered this art of venti genshin impact with ai’s eyes and i remembered thinking man i hope this becomes an artist trend for people to do with their art blorbos! and then i was like OH. guess i could contribute to the trend by drawing izaya with ai’s eyes

and then i started thinking and i was like huh. Ai’s never experienced love from her parents, doesn’t think she knows how to love or how to express it, doesn’t get attached to others easily, is a perpetual liar, became an idol because she hoped she would learn how to love - oh hey doesnt. that. sound like izaya. just a little bit. not exactly, her character goes into more learning how to love/that she can love while izaya’s character is i can love but only impersonally because i’m afraid of getting hurt and his arc would be learning to let his walls down for his own good

SO for izaya idol au, izaya would become an idol because he wants to experience love, or something along the lines of “there’s no greater demonstration of parasocial love and foolish decision making than in the idol industry! ahaha~” and probably “idols are perfect liars and i need to put myself into their shoes so i can become an even better liar and close myself off to any possibility of falling in love that could ever exist”

there’s a lot of reasons he might want to become an idol, really. there’s so much corruption and behind-the-scenes dealing and lies and facades and shit in the entertainment industry that i think izaya would eat for breakfast. he would LOVE witnessing that shit and making his own shady deals and stuff and occasionally ruining lives and watching people rise and fall down the rankings and tear each other down. plus the people who are in it for passion rather than money are fascinating as well. psychology student’s dream really- i mean what this is definitely about izaya and not me projecting

plus he definitely has the looks for it (narita would hard agree given how many times he’s indirectly called izaya attractive through other characters. we love a canonically hot king)

now i need to make everything shizaya because i’m not okay but i have no idea who shizuo would be lmao

like you could make him some up and coming manager (no age difference stuff here sorry lmao) or a fellow idol (doubtful. shizuo can act cute but i dont think he could dance) or an actor like akane/kana or a streamer??? like memcho (my favorite character)

a mangaka/screenplay writer/writer in general could also work but i feel like you’d have less reason to interact with idols that way

idk how japanese idol groups work for men in particular or if there’s even like a market for that :sob: id have to look into that if i actually started making stuff for this au

alternatively izaya crossdresses as a female idol and somehow no one realizes. except for shizuo. that would be hilarious actually. he refuses to do swimsuit modeling or other provocative stuff and his fans are like “oh?? the brazen kanra-chan is unexpectedly shy?? how cute” and he plays into it but inwardly he’s like. god i know exactly how im gonna go out with a bang when i retire. and shizuo watches him playing at being shy on tv knowing that that motherfucker is planning to strip on his last days as an idol

anyway this is just me spitballing ideas but ill definitely write at least a concept/intro fanfic of this at some point so stay tuned lmAo im just about to run out of writing juices on ABAON so i gotta transfer my energy somewhere else and where better than the idol!izaya au

#shizaya #idolzaya #ill be using that tag for whatever idol au stuff i come up with #i drafted this like. five days after the onk anime came out #this has been drafted for way longer than i wanted it to be #this was also sorta inspired by the idol!kim dokja au fic that’s really popular #i think the male idol industry is way stronger in korea than japan thiugh #that said i dont interact with idols at all personally lmAOO so i have no idea #i will do research later i promise #and read more of more more jump!’s stories for inspiration PFF #i wonder if izaya’s group should be a bunch of drrr girls or like. mostly irrelevant side characters #or if he should just go solo which again. i need to research how hard that would be #i feel like he might want to blend in a bit inside a group #would be fun to observe the jealousy and drama and group dynamics up close too #because if they get jealous of HIM at any point he might just laugh until he dies #i have more ideas but i should save those for the fanfic…. #anyway #izaya orihara #shizuo heiwajima #durarara #im excited for this one bro oshi no ko is one of my favorite series ever #but like. not for the romance just because i really like learning about the entertainment industry LMAOO #i dont ship aqua with anyone tbh #can he just be besties with everyone pls #i loved his and kana’s relationship in the beginning where they’re like two good actors in a room full of mids #that was a fun dynamic but it just went downhill for me personally #oh well i can talk about this in my author’s notes pff

[throwaway-yandere]

*puts on clown makeup* pls consider yandere gorou and itto maybe im reading too much into the ayato fic but was it a tease for those two or

Huehue I'm actually considering that! Gorou would be VERY fun to write, I have a soft spot for his type of yandere. (Believe me, I had so many ideas for cat!ayato but i had to scrap them because it wouldn't fit with the flow of the story ;;;-;;;. Gorou was supposed to be a wholesome secret admirer of yours and Kokomi is his number one supporter! The second half was going to be under kokomi's point of view, where she watches Ayato eat her friend. But switching it up to Heizou's POV makes more sense because it establishes that Ayato have already taken a lot of victims/rivals if a student detective is hunting him down–)

Though to be quite honest with you, my brainrots on yandere!itto isn't all that serious. I don't think I can write him as a very intimidating yandere like cat!ayato since I believe his "himbo"ness is what sells his character the most, but we'll see 👀

However, I don't think I can promise that I'll post fics of gorou and itto atm. I was actually writing a yandere prof!albedo fic before I got a cat!ayato request

I know this sounds REALLY BAD for the reader out of context but yeah! For now I don't have plans yet for yandere!gorou and yandere!itto ehe! Someday, someday! I'll get back to you!

#ansytea-talks #yandere gorou seems real fun tho #i have itto in my acc and i pulled him because i need more himbo characters #(ill be honest i skipped his banner once i heard ayatos ENG voice ((cause dimitri)) and thats how i got ayato's sword lol) #my man itto is now triple crowned and i love the fellow!!! #the man canonically has range even in his character stories so expect me tl put him in a yandere idol au #eheheheheheehhe #just lemme finish albedo's first he's been sitting in my drafts for a while now lol #sorry albedo #keep holding your Title IX for now #yes its a yandere fic very loosely based off the Love Hypothesis lmfao

[cottonfeltgembira]

madarei [slow blinking at you]

They make my brain feel like [incomprehensible] because dear lord if I do not relate to those two fools on such a psychological level

There's something so hauntingly beautiful that they're just twisted mirrors of each other,

Throwing your humanity away because you love so much and because as you keep giving yourself they'll be nothing left in the end

And... Knowing the kind of people they are... Having someone who understands exactly how you operate, that vulnerability is terrifying, like why would you understand what kind of monster I am?

They grew up wanting to do good and give love in a world that is more than just strict dualities... So when the world is against them after so much of that goodness, they believe they have to play the part of a villain, this is their divine punishment.. in their minds that compartmentalizes reality in black and white.. it takes a long time to unlearn that way of thinking of both the world and yourself, especially if you're too stubborn to start

I always think about this question.

When you are always helping others no matter what, who will help you?

I think, it takes helping each other to help themselves. Love is abundant and all wounds heal in due time with care and patience

#I feel so ill mentally #I love waxing poetry about two anime characters from an idol game #madarei #madara mikejima #rei sakuma #chirithy's prophecies

[acanthemp3]

the constant struggle between the dearly beloved fanwork youre pouring ur soul into working on and the urge to just change the names and character designs to release as ur own original work -_- life is never easy

#listen. if youre still following me in a few years and i release a horror comic. game. thing. #and the leads bear an eyebrow raising resemblance to certain characters from a certain idol mobage. #i dont want to hear a WORD about it #this is relevant bc im working on some concept art i might post soon #i dont think ill ever change it tho i dont think i have the heart to let go like that. but we'll see #angel.txt

[always-a-joyful-note]

By the way, I love how everyone in Idolish7 is never just one thing. Yes, Iori has a cool aura and is very master-of-all-trades analytical...but he also is a guy who loves small and cute things and just kinda wants to support people he loves and also is asocial as one can be. Yes, Yamato is like the lazy but friendly older brother figure with dirty jokes...but he also has incredible trauma from secrets kept to him and wants to love his friends so much in the right way and also has a pet rover named Musashi. Yes, Yuki is the cool and distant playboy male lead trope....but he's also someone who tried so hard to stop that behaviour and is actually doing better in trying to communicate and value other people! Yeah, Tenn is a two-faced angel-demon who takes his work way too seriously and K.O.s people with one insult....but he's also way too self-sacrificing of his own good and values people so much to his own detriment. And Riku being the cute and oblivious airhead who is kinda spoiled....but also trying so hard to be more than the sheltered kid he was raised as, having so much talent, loving books a lot. It's just them being character archetypes from animanga, and the writers having fun with that, but also making them more without disparaging those stereotypes

#i want to go on with the other characters and i didnt even do any of zool (im so sorry zool...i do love you a lot though) #but i didnt want this post to get too long #here ill do one in zool in the tags #yeah minami is snakelike and mildly possessive a bit like the yandere trope.... #...but he is also so sincere and has issues stemming from being used as a child not to mention his love for piano and composition... #...is genuine #his soft side is as real as his possessive side #fandom spamdom #idolish7 #note's notes #I JUST LOVE CHARACTERS WHO ARE MULTIFACETED #and that their many multitudes do not undermine each other #riku can be philosophical and clueless #iori can be a tsundere and such a sincere weirdo about people he loves #tamaki can be rude and self defensive and also emotionally intelligent and kind #and so on #guys help im having fictional idol brainrot....

[oh-gh0st]

okaayy we are onto editing the traditional sketch of ref sheet

#ghosts rambles #ummm i dont know how to like. format ref sheets besides the turn around view of a character slapped on a white bg #or the idw sheets i did for my sonic ocs (hated those) #i guess like. ill do a main ref sheet and then additional outfits plus the idol outfit on another image then put notes for details #i guess! #graphic design is my passion (i say that as i have No idea how to design stuff like that)

[pawjamas]

d&d night and i’m a lil bit tipsy.. having fun :3 i’m playing my idol character SERAPHYMN you guys should ask abt them (holds them up and shows them to all of u)

#they’re an idol bc they need to financially support their family/chronically ill mom #they’re a sweet little guy #my wife’s character is an assassin and a Big Fan of SERAPHYMN hehe #she literally rolled to propose marriage to them #🐱