#im not thay motivated to find a new one though tbh

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Immovable object (my chronic fatigue) vs unstoppable force (my desire to do literally anything other than lie in bed)

#was cooking nonstop for an hour yesterday #then did a bunch of dishes and some cleaning #my body did not appreciate that #i could tell when i was going to bed last night that i overdid it #but today was worse than i thought it would be #btw ive been trying to process my grief or whatever over losing so much of my ability to function over the past year #its not going well #thought a therapist might help but the ones i found and liked dont take my insurance #my last therapist specialized in trauma (was good at helping me process that) but isnt a good listener lol so i need someone else #im not thay motivated to find a new one though tbh #its a hassle and im too exhausted to deal with it #maybe ill save up all these feelings and put it into a fic someday #i talked to a fandom friend once about writing a story about a disabled character so maybe ill actually do that #someday #after i finish sgb #which will be a long time from now #a long long long time #at this rate #its so frustrating to be incapable of doing the things i want to do #especially when those things were within my capabilities not that long ago #i have to chill out about it though because emotions use energy and i have so very little of that to spare #ha ha #ha ha ha ha ha #its all good #we press on

[sukisdeliveryservice]

hihi! carat anon here to say first of all you dont have to apologise! this ask is coming in late too and we all have our own schedules, so dont worry and just take your time <3 im doing fantastic btw and i hope you are too! dont overwork yourself and rmb to get enough rest!

also tysm! im rly proud i can understand so many languages as well sjdjksjdjf

the friends reunion was amazing, even though i only started watching recently, everything was still pretty emotional and it was rly cool to see the behind stuff and see how everyone changed. and honestly matt didn't really change tbh my favourite mcu film would have to be ragnorok bc that was pure gold, get help is forever ingrained in my mind. yes yes i would 100% rec new amsterdam, i love it so much it felt like home to me at one point <333

i dont think ive ever come across a movie that made me feel that way, if im being honest, but i'll check your name out! my favourite genre would be horror, but also comedy for obvious reasons. i also love thrillers with like hints of mystery, i really am all for that adrenaline rush tbh skhdksjdjd its one of the reasons i enjoy amusement park rides like roller-coasters and space shots and the pendulum swinging thingy :D

uhm well ive always loved writing stuff, i have a really wild imagination sometimes, so it helps to get ideas out into text. and i got the courage to start writing by joining a collab on a whim kshdkdjdj. i find inspiration from the smallest things honestly, like movies or everyday situations or crazy ideas from my sisters. i habe a lot of wips but sometimes im just really lazy to type it all out nicely into words </3

ive had a hot plate like once? i think? and i really enjoyed it. but i really really love sushi. also pizza and like rice. i love rice. but not plain rice. rice with any sauce i love <333 also! there's this cantonese noodle i think? we call it ee mee and ugh i love it. also im from klang, and here wd have a dish called bak kut teh, which literally translates to meat bone tea. its pork boiled in a broth with different types of herbs and served with chinese tea and rice, hence meat bone tea. its also served with like long sticks of deep fried flour stuff? we call it yao char kwai and OH is it my favourite thing in the world.

i really love reading your replys so dont apologise if its long! and i think the way you explained what writing is to you is lovely, i hope you continue to enjoy putting out masterpieces for us to read <333

im not the best conversationalist and im running out of questions so uhm, how was your day? and what's a favourite dream that you've had? or the most memorable one? also where would you like to visit someday? once miss rona disbands ofc

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hi anon!! thank you for your patience i'm so happy i don't have work today so i can properly respond now 🥺

i watched the friends reunion with my mom!! i thought it was so sweet that matt remembered basically everything about the show 🥺 you could tell it meant a lot to him!! wahhh i'm so terrible with horror but i admire you sm for liking it!! if i ever do manage to sit through a horror movie i'll let you know LOL i watched this thai thriller i think it's called bad genius??? that's probably the only one i've ever watched but it really gave my adrenaline a run for its money wahh

yes gaining inspiration from the little daily things in life is honestly one of the best motivations for writing!! it makes it all the more authentic heh yao char kwai sounds yum!! i need to try it sometime :D

anon you are so, so understanding and i really hope you know that i appreicate it!! my day has been okay, kind of tired from standing a lot throughout the week but overall happy because i'm about to order the new txt album hehe!! tell me about your day!!

i don't really remember my dreams but i think i recently had one about meeting my online friends!! that was definitely something memorable and kinda made me sad because we can't do that atm LOL and for places hmm my family was actually planning a trip to japan/korea before miss rona so definitely there when all is well 🥺 where would you like to travel anon?

hmm and may i ask your favourite subject!! and why hehe

#💎 #love & letter 💌