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beetingroot · 2 years

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idk what possessed me to write this in the middle of me studying physics but here's a short drabble if my love, geto <3

(also idk how tumblr works so i don't know how to enable the "story under the cut" feature 😥)

major jjk manga spoliers ahead ⚠️⚠️

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you heard your doorbell ringing. you scurried over to open the door, only to welcome your bloodied boyfriend, suguru.

"sugu are you hurt anywhere? oh dear, come in, i'll patch you up." you took his hand and pulled him into your house. you quickly sat him at your dining table. before you could even fetch your first aid kit, his hand weakly stopped your movements.

"you don't need to do anything." he said.

you wonder, tilting your head in confusion. "ah, are you not hurt then? thank god-"

"im tired [y/n]."

"what happened darling?" you slowly took his large fingers into your palm and kissed it, not caring that it is coated with dry flakes of blood.

"why do we have to put our lives on line for stupid monkeys like you to maintain peace of this land?" he confessed.

you were taken aback from that confession that your boyfriend made. "monkeys ..?" you questioned, not quite following what he said.

"why can't i just kill every non-sorcerors so that we," he squeezed your hands, punctuating we, as in jujutsu sorcerers, "so that we, could just .. live in peace."

you sucked in a breath, realising the predicament your facing. you softly chuckled and released your hands from his, slowly walking towards your kitchen.

"why are you laughing? do you think that this is funny?" he asked.

"everybody has their breaking point darling, and you have reached your breaking point." you calmly answered the man, reaching out to a cup and filling it with water.

"how do you-"

"it's funny how i asked this exact same question to yaga sensei the other day, and how he begged me to not tell any of you." you opened a sachet, pouring the powder in your cup, letting the fainting sizzling of the bubbled to die down.

"i admit that we humans are selfish. i wouldn't say the same for your higher ups as well." you heard a chuckle from that man. "did i hit the spot?" you smiled, knowing that the man sensed your smile.

"you never seem to miss."

"what do you plan to do now?"

"i just killed my parents. i came here to tell things and maybe-"

"kill me too?" you mused, gulping down the drink and softly putting the cup.

"i- i just-" he stuttered, not being able to form a sentence.

you walked over to him again, slowly taking off his hands from his face. "our brains truly are linked up yea?" you chuckled, engulfing the man into a hug.

"darling." you whispered.

he hummed, answering you while slowly wrapping his arms on your body.

"promise me one thing, will you?" you softly asked, feeling slightly faint and sleepy.

he hummed again, snuggling against your neck, seeking for comfort.

"will you please peel peaches on this date every year at my grave?" you whispered, before collapsing in his arms.

the frightened man quickly catched your weaking body, while kneeling on the floor.

"what are you saying-" geto muttered, looking at your eyes fluttering slowly.

you could smile weakly as a stray tear rolled down your cheeks. geto couldn't process any of this, about why are you suddenly weak and lifeless.

"i saved you a lot of time didn't i?" your throat was hurting, you could only croakly voice out an audible sentence.

"you really, .. are selfish to the end." geto stared at your eyes, swirling with hate and sadness, he couldn't really comprehend his own emotions. was he thankful that you could understand his ambitions or was he mad you decided to end your own life at your own volition?

he stares at the now lifeless body, as his lover finally succumbs to death in his arms, looking as beautiful as the first day his eyes landed on you. he finally accepts the reality of this situation and carried your body into your shared bedroom, slowly tucking you in the bed. as he exits the room, he slowly said,

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a/n : i apologize for any grammatical errors or whatsoever bcs i absolutely have no experience in writing stories bcs all of this just came straight out from my brain as i daydream

#jujutsu kaisen angst #geto suguru #geto angst

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webcricket · 4 years

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Winter’s Eye

Pairing: AU!CastielXReader Word Count: 1143 (Ch. X) Story Summary: Season 13 canon tells you how AU!Castiel’s story ends, this is how it begins. The deranged and damaged iteration of Castiel we met in the apocalypse universe - an obedient soldier to Michael’s cause barely in control of his vessel’s frayed and erratically firing nerves whose inherent kindness toward humankind appeared entirely obliterated - wasn’t always an unfeeling angelic weapon of interrogation. Once, he sympathized with the plight of humans; one, he loved. Chapter Summary: Bliss is an island in the path of an oncoming storm.

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Freezing air shrouds your arm creating a cascade of goose pimples across your brine-kissed flesh as you stretch out and search the empty expanse of still warm sheets crumpled in the space beside you.

“Cas?” you call out sleepily into the darkness of the cabin; a faint moonlit glow creeps in from the windows and provides your eyes enough contrast as they adjust to make out the form of the angel futzing with the stove to relight the neglected fire. Only in his absence from the bed, of his naked heat molded to your body between frictional interludes of fiery lovemaking, do you notice the encroaching cold.

Match held tight in his fingertips, he strikes the sulfuric tip upon the box; the concentrated set of his features flares bright. Cupping his hand to protect the match from extinguishing in the swift flick of his wrist, he tosses the spark into the cavernous kindling-stuffed gaping of iron.

Satisfied by the rapid upward leap of flames, he shuts the door and shifts the focus of his blues - ablaze in their own inner flame - to your beckoning figure.

“Come back to bed,” you simper; sitting up, you swaddle your shoulders and bare breasts in the blanket to shield yourself not from the intensity of his gaze, but from a stray draft that shivers up your spine even as his regard ignites your skin in a flush.

Unabashedly nude, thickly toned body impervious to the icy bite of the air, he stands - statuesque in solidity and intent - from where he crouches and casts a frowning look at the depleted stack of wood. “There isn’t enough to keep the fire burning through the night,” he murmurs his concern. There isn’t enough on account of you having spent the better part of the previous night and day and night again engaged in less practical more euphorically inclined expenditures of energy.

“We’ll manage.” Your low laugh does little to penetrate his emerging uneasiness over his pleasure-seeking disregard for your care. “Cas-” the breathy exhalation of his name garners his attention. Soft stretch of a smile denting your cheek, you lull his perpetual penchant for worrying with a reassurance- “the trees will wait ‘til morning. Cuddling with you is plenty warm.”

Swaggering nearer in his stripped glory, the gleam of his blues darken. “Just the cuddling?”

“You never tire, do you?” Reaching out, giggling, fingers encircling his wrist, you yank him under the tent of sheets and blanket and press yourself pliantly into his embrace.

“Of this? Definitely not.” Snuggling you to his torso, christening the top of your tousled hair with a smiling kiss, his stare drifts thoughtfully to the ceiling.

You watch him think, observe the glimmer of irises antic with life, and wait with baited breath for the tiny twitch of his upper lip that tells you he’s decided what it is he wants to say. So near, you can see where the sense of serenity you’ve shared softens some of the hardness of suffering etched into his aspect like tempest floods carving out canyons over a millennia revealing a resplendent rugged beauty in a spring sunrise.

“I find much awe in humanity,” he confesses, angling to look you in the eyes before he continues, his fingers hook your chin to tilt your lips near his, brushing them as he speaks. “I think what amazes me most is that humankind survived as long as they have with such pleasures as this available to them. You are remarkable-”

Cutting him off, an involuntary yawn unlooses itself from your lips; your nose crinkles in self-effacing apology.

He kisses the adorably scrunched protuberance and moves to rest his forehead against yours; amusement lightens his voice. “Remarkable … and tired.”

“Good tired,” you correct lest he think you’re tired of him. “Sore and sleepy is all.”

It hadn’t occurred to him his marathon exploration of the thus far limitless bounds of unbridled desire might hurt you. “I could soothe the soreness,” he offers.

“No, I like it,” you quickly decline, preferring the deep ache of spent muscles and blissful numbness of electrically expended nerves to the dull pain of apocalyptic normalcy. “It feels nice. Like echoes of you all over.”

He tenses. “You mean of this vessel’s touch.”

That shoots a pained spike of wakefulness through your brain. That’s not what you meant at all, although you can understand his confusion. Hell, it’s confusing to you as well moment to moment remembering he’s a wavelength of celestial intent crammed into a framework of someone else’s skeleton. You prop up on an elbow to peer into his eyes and place a palm over his heart. “No, I meant of the real you. The angelic being I can’t see. The one I can feel when I close my eyes.”

It seems to him with every breath you take, with every beat of your heart, and with every sensitivity of understanding you extend to him, you become more beautiful by the minute.

“Is he in there still?” you ask, curious now that the subject has arisen.

“Jimmy,” Cas supplies the name; sadness dims the shine of his eyes.

“Jimmy,” you mouth the name in a bare whisper.

“Jimmy Novak,” he repeats to complete the surname out of respect for what the man gave him and firmly believing he deserves at least that given how he ill-used him in his failed angelic exploits. “Yes, and no. He used to be there, in the background. I could feel his emotions. Feel how he suffered along with me. When I failed him, failed to keep his family safe as I had promised I would, he seemed to sink somewhere I could no longer hear him. And when I fell from Heaven, when Michael cast me down, I think Jimmy’s soul, whatever was left of him after all that pain and loss, after everything he saw and experienced under my power, I think he stayed there with them.”

“So it is just you.” You dart your fingers ticklishly down along the ridge of his ribcage, tuck your arm across his waist, and lay your head upon his chest. “Once, you were only a part of him, of this body, but now it’s a part of you. You consider it a vessel, separate from yourself, but it belongs to you now, Cas.”

“I suppose it does, yes.” He settles his hand across your arm and, stroking your skin, snugs you nearer. Silently, he nurtures the added hope, ‘And to you if you’ll have me.’

Gaze gliding in the dark to the silhouette of a sigil gilding the window as you slip into slumber, he mistakes a sudden rise of dread drying his throat and pilling the hair of his neck as the simple somatic reaction of his angelic nature to the warded warning against heavenly kind.

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tumblunni · 5 years

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Hi am sleeby

Aaaa yo hi hello for some reason my followuo medicine dor the tooth surgery makes me more drowsy than the actual anesthetic did? Its weird its supposed to be pain meds but the sleepiness is SO OVERPOWERING and kicks in SO FAST that i keep falling asleep before i can even tell if it actually reduces pain or not, lol. Good for good sleeps! Ive never had such speedy results from a sleep medicine ever before, like wow it usually takes me 1 or 2 hours every night to get to sleep and this is like ten minutes like wow i can actually just close my eyes and go to dreamland just by deciding hey It Is Time. Is this what its like for normal people witjout insomnias???

BUUUUUT the disadvantage is that well i have to keep taking this for paon management and i cant just sleep constantly yknow. So im here forcing myself to power thru the SUPER STRONG SLEEPY JUICE and try and be awake long enough to at least eat one food a day and walk arpund my house a little to stretch my legs. But im just so happy dozey sleeples tired and it feels like my sense of time is dilating or something. I cant focus as well on stuff and its like i look over to the clock and wow where did three hours go? Like i managed to stay awake but i was running on such low brain battery that i basically did nothing BUT stay awake, lol! But i know i cant sleep for like 60 hours straight geez, i need to get some awakes sometimes!!

And aaaa im just even more easily happied by cute things and even more emotional about MY AMAZING FRIENDS like holy shit fuck im already such a Cliche Softboi and i already get all emotional and send I LOVE U MAN messages tp my fremds when im tired but now im just stuck in that mode 24/7 dear god guys i love you guys

I just went off in a weird ramble in a friend's inbox cos they vaguely mentioned body positivity and i was llike OH GOD I FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT BODY POSITIVITY like yo please everyobr out there who is plus size please know that every time you love yourself you are making bunni so proud!! THE WORLD NEEDS TO AWAKEN TO THE TRUTH THAT MAINSTREAM "SEXY" STANDARDS ARE SEXIST RACIST TRANSPHOBIC HOMOPHOBIC FATPHOBIC EVERYPHOBIC BULLSHIIIIOOOT also why do fuckin anime waifu ot superhero spandex groin creepy fanservice things always look SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE like yo if the poor girl looks like she doesnt want to be there or shes breaking her damn spine in half then HOW IS THAT MEANT TO BE SEXY seriously body positive stuff is so great just to see someone doing a fashion shoot pinup thing who looks HAPPY AND CONFIDENY AND RADIANT WITH LIGHT god dammit please love your selfs i love you my frieeeeends

Also ursula wtf i never knew ursula was supposed to be "funny" until i grew up, kid me was just happy to see a chubby lady who was beautiful and confident that shes beautiful and then WHOOPS OH NO the joke was meant to be a fat woman being "deluded" that she wa sbeautiful or something?? And also she was intended as a cariaccature of drag queens? No fuk all that she IS beautiful and she is 100% right and also she is now everyone's supportive trans auntie and i love her. Like seriously man all her actual actions in the movie are so evil but shes just so cool and cute and stylish and pretty and loveable and has all the best lines and great animation and wonderful singing voice I CANT NOT ROOT FOR HER EVERY TIME!! Her and hades totally have the same feel for me. Best part of the movie, really wanna hug them!! I wanna be best friends!! If ursula did a body positive campaign i thibk itd sell a million fashions SERIOUSLY THAT FANCY BLACK DRESS/OCTO TENTACLES THING AND HER AWESOME SWOOSH HAIR AND THE GREAT COLOURSCHEMES OF LL THE FASHION PURBLES I JUST LOVE HERRRR

Im so sleepy u guys

Hug urself for me cos im so sad i cant do it

Where are my infinate reaching ocean crossing arms

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