really hate having to be quiet about disorders that affect every aspect of my life. really wish ppl would be normal about it and also understand it better. wish i was not terrified of ppl finding out about my osdd irl but RIP me i guess, the autism is scary enough but I don't have the energy to hide that one anymore or make up excuses to explain away whatever symptoms i wasnt able to quell. the autism already puts me in enough danger (conservative small town) but i think the osdd would get me in physical danger if ppl found out fnfkfl
its just hard bc we are so desperately lonely but we cant tell ppl abt it and its honestly hard to be friends w ppl now if they dont know abt it. so i do not get to make friends in town now and all chances of having ppl irl to hang out with is down the drain.
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parents are away today and i have no energy but so much cleaning to do. i kept telling myself all month that I'd have my kitchen in working order again by the end of august and yet here we are, it is still a hopeless mess :'''')))))
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stressing myself out bc i keep feeling bad about how little mental capacity I've had to talk to ppl, i sort of went radio silent in both of my frequented discord servers for the entirety of december and i cannot seem to return to talking anywhere bc im just. so tired. and have no mental space to converse with ppl fjfkdl my brain is just so busy and full still, i guess leftover from the holidays??
i miss talking w ppl though and i feel bad that I've just gone pretty much entirely quiet :[ and im scared im never gonna reach a place where im able to keep up w ppl ever again fjfkfl
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today is FUCKED UP MAN. im tired of trying to be chill about it. theyre still at the hospital and dad's been updating me throughout the day and I just want to sleep but now its almost 3pm so I should probably just wait until night to sleep but man. my head is like ... pulsing. I'm so tired fjfkfl
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