#im too physically femme to ever transition like other guys do

[0rph1x]

whoever said that the trans experience is beautiful was a fucking liar

#vent #tw dysphoria #tw vent #long tags #tw negative #if theres anything else i should tag pls pls lmk #this shit is not beautiful #this is demeaning and devastating and it fucking sucks #i cant think of any other way to describe it #and then people baby me bc being trans is hard and it makes it ten times worse #i can handle it on my own. i can handle everything on my own. but that doesn't mean im not allowed to be upset about it. #coming to terms with the fact that no matter what i do i will never look how i want to is earth shattering #once i figured out that i was trans i figured it would be simple to look how i want #a haircut a few surgeries and hormones. thats it. what the hell did i know. #its so. so much more. #ill never be the way i want #ill never be enough #and this isnt a confidence issue. its the truth. i will never be the way i want to be. #im too physically femme to ever transition like other guys do #most kids are worrying about their jobs and school at 18. im terrified of moving on with my life. #im running out of time #i will never have enough time #theres no point. its useless. why even start anything when it wont get me where i want. im wasting money and time and energy. #thats enough actually im done talking about this #i needed a second to get it out of my head and im okay now