#in my spotify playlists yk making them organized n i used to be very consistent w writing a lil thing for this playlist i make each day

[noxtivagus]

guys i've been improving a lot lately i'm happy w myself

#🌙.rambles #I MADE A NEW FRIEND TODAY FR BCS I GOT OVER MY ANXIETY. LIKE FUCK THAT YK 😭😭 no regrets !!!! #i've been. hesitating less lately. just yk being more comfortable being myself fr #i'm.. really happy i've managed to find more peace in that aspect #n i haven't been like. writing as much as i used to. like uh. pushing myself too much to write in order to remember like #in my spotify playlists yk making them organized n i used to be very consistent w writing a lil thing for this playlist i make each day #it's nice but it ended up stressing me for a while. but now i'm so much better. so much kinder to myself #n then w things i haven't done yet.. no i know for sure i'll do them one day. #i've been pushing myself a bit more lately but now not in a stressful way. like yk in a good way like i'm not settling when i know i can #do more n i can manage it n i know i'll be kind to myself while i'm doing it n regardless of the outcome yk? #guys sorry to that new friend i made tho i cannot text ppl like during convos. #LIKE NO WAIT I CAN BUT I LIKE TO THINK A LOT BEFORE I DO INTERACT W OTHERS YK T_T #WHICH IS WHY I GET SO ANXIOUS TYPICALLY WHEN OTHERWISE.. #guys i want to bring back writing letters to each other so badly like i want to. to my future lover can we pls send letters to each other #OR EVEN TO MY FRIENDS BCS LETTERS R JUST SO CUTE YK !!!! A WHOLE LOVE LANGUAGE FOR ME 🥺 #like you can start w smth cute like yk 'dear __' orrr hmm yk decorating the letter hehe n then #writing things w handwriting is so cute ! so personal so sweet ARGHHH #the way i used to like message one of my twt/tumblr friends was often by sending like long messages n thennnn #tumblr asks c: i feel so at home w them yk #i write. long. n GOD IF I WERE TO WRITE LIKE YK ACTUAL LETTERS.. I WANT TO MAKE THEM LIKE #YK THOSE LETTERS THAT THOSE OLD WRITERS USED TO SEND !!!! THEY'RE SO LOVELY #hang on i have smth due in like less than an hour n i'm nearly done just one more simple thing but i got distracted help #DUDEEEE LOOKED AT MY NOTIFS AGAIN N I CAN READ SOME OF THEIR MESSAGES BUT I CAN'T SEE THE PIC ???? #okay this means a lot to them bcs it seems me n apollo r genuinely the first ppl they've met that #are fellow enthusiasts of yk smth personal for majority of their life. GODDAMN #I RELATE W THAT 😭😭 n then i don't mean this in an arrogant or idk egotistical but it seems. me n apollo have been like #special ppl in other's lives..? idk i don't want that to come off the wrong way but.. yeah 🥺 #DUDE I CANT SEE THE PIC YOU SENT AFTER 'DUDE READING ALL YOUR MESSAGES GOT ME LIKE' IN MY NOTIFS N IT'S #DRIVING ME INSANE BCS I HATE INSTAGRAM SO MUCH N HOW IT SHOWS IF YOU'VE SEEN MESSAGES 💀 #hi hello this is me in live action n why making new friends is hard for me :^) I GTG NOW BUT AAAAAAAA I'M PROUD OF MYSELF