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#i write. long. n GOD IF I WERE TO WRITE LIKE YK ACTUAL LETTERS.. I WANT TO MAKE THEM LIKE
noxtivagus · 1 year
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guys i've been improving a lot lately i'm happy w myself
#🌙.rambles#I MADE A NEW FRIEND TODAY FR BCS I GOT OVER MY ANXIETY. LIKE FUCK THAT YK 😭😭 no regrets !!!!#i've been. hesitating less lately. just yk being more comfortable being myself fr#i'm.. really happy i've managed to find more peace in that aspect#n i haven't been like. writing as much as i used to. like uh. pushing myself too much to write in order to remember like#in my spotify playlists yk making them organized n i used to be very consistent w writing a lil thing for this playlist i make each day#it's nice but it ended up stressing me for a while. but now i'm so much better. so much kinder to myself#n then w things i haven't done yet.. no i know for sure i'll do them one day.#i've been pushing myself a bit more lately but now not in a stressful way. like yk in a good way like i'm not settling when i know i can#do more n i can manage it n i know i'll be kind to myself while i'm doing it n regardless of the outcome yk?#guys sorry to that new friend i made tho i cannot text ppl like during convos.#LIKE NO WAIT I CAN BUT I LIKE TO THINK A LOT BEFORE I DO INTERACT W OTHERS YK T_T#WHICH IS WHY I GET SO ANXIOUS TYPICALLY WHEN OTHERWISE..#guys i want to bring back writing letters to each other so badly like i want to. to my future lover can we pls send letters to each other#OR EVEN TO MY FRIENDS BCS LETTERS R JUST SO CUTE YK !!!! A WHOLE LOVE LANGUAGE FOR ME 🥺#like you can start w smth cute like yk 'dear __' orrr hmm yk decorating the letter hehe n then#writing things w handwriting is so cute ! so personal so sweet ARGHHH#the way i used to like message one of my twt/tumblr friends was often by sending like long messages n thennnn#tumblr asks c: i feel so at home w them yk#i write. long. n GOD IF I WERE TO WRITE LIKE YK ACTUAL LETTERS.. I WANT TO MAKE THEM LIKE#YK THOSE LETTERS THAT THOSE OLD WRITERS USED TO SEND !!!! THEY'RE SO LOVELY#hang on i have smth due in like less than an hour n i'm nearly done just one more simple thing but i got distracted help#DUDEEEE LOOKED AT MY NOTIFS AGAIN N I CAN READ SOME OF THEIR MESSAGES BUT I CAN'T SEE THE PIC ????#okay this means a lot to them bcs it seems me n apollo r genuinely the first ppl they've met that#are fellow enthusiasts of yk smth personal for majority of their life. GODDAMN#I RELATE W THAT 😭😭 n then i don't mean this in an arrogant or idk egotistical but it seems. me n apollo have been like#special ppl in other's lives..? idk i don't want that to come off the wrong way but.. yeah 🥺#DUDE I CANT SEE THE PIC YOU SENT AFTER 'DUDE READING ALL YOUR MESSAGES GOT ME LIKE' IN MY NOTIFS N IT'S#DRIVING ME INSANE BCS I HATE INSTAGRAM SO MUCH N HOW IT SHOWS IF YOU'VE SEEN MESSAGES 💀#hi hello this is me in live action n why making new friends is hard for me :^) I GTG NOW BUT AAAAAAAA I'M PROUD OF MYSELF
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tsumoren · 1 year
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Hi hi hi stares.. can you do a tsukasa suou x gn reader where Tsukasa has a silly crush on the reader since yk they're perfect n all, and they sometimes like to drop off sweets(candy, that Tsukasa likes)(and sometimes baked goods from the bakery they work at) then one day after the reader gives out sweets n baked goods, they went out to grab something) then Arashi asked everyone's opinions about the sweets/baked goods they bring in, so when it was Tsukasa's turn, they said " the baked goods are delicious! And the candies are sweet.. just like the person who made it. . ." He was supposed to mutter it to theirselves trailing off, but no! The entire knights group heard it and was like "God you have a crush on [Name]?!!" But tsukasa denied it, but it kept going and going till Tsukasa accepted the fact that they have a crush on the reader, one of the knight members gave tsukasa a nice concept where tsukasa leaves out anonymous letters complimenting the reader in secret, they can always drop it off to the bakery they work at, so they do, basically reader gets lovemail dumped, then they ask who keeps giving them letters?? So they asked one of the people who work there and ask who, but the workers had no idea and just said that they had red hair and purple eyes, then reader just sighed and asked them to ask for their name next time so they can thank them, so one day while tsukasa entered ready to drop of a letter, the worker did ask what was their name, but tsukasa actually said their name bc they're a bozo !! So after dropping off the letter, going to the practice room, dude noticed that "Oh my god why did I give them my name?! I don't even know what they're gonna do with it!!" Then the knights members tease him for that!! Then when the worker did a name drop that tsukasa was the one who gave it reader was blushing and stuff, so when they did came in the practice room the next day, they ask the members if they could leave the practice room(or anywhere) for awhile since they wanna talk to Tsukasa in private, they leave then reader asks "yo were you the one writing them letters." Then tsukasa was like 'God I blew my cover' but they were looking down and blushed like an idiot, then nodded, then the reader says "thank you tsukasa.. I actually feel the same way." Then they hug sorry if it's too specific!! [Extra if the other knight members barge in as if they were listening to the conversation lol]
PRETTY U !
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SUMMARY. in which the rest of knights help tsukasa with his ( bigger than little ) crush on the cute cafe worker.
FEATURING. tsukasa suou
NOTES. lowercase, reader is gn, tsukasa has a mini crisis, no real warnings just sillies being silly, potential ooc
HI ANON!! i love this idea it's so silly, i had to shorten it a little bit so it wouldn't drag out for too long, but i hope you enjoy it all the same!
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there's a lot of things that are regarded as “common sense” in this world.
things like the sky is blue, the grass is green, the sun makes everything warm, tsukasa suou is in for it the next time he visits your cafe.
what started off as an off-time visit became a regular occurrence. because it's always nice and quiet when he comes in, and the pastries are delicious, and not because his mood instantly rises whenever he sees you smiling behind the counter with your white hat and peach shaped pin and sparkling eyes that makes his heart skip a beat.
it was all arashi’s fault. she was the one who suggested this idea, why tsukasa went along with it, he doesn't know. it’s stupid, it’s childish, and it is so not like him in any way. but it is the better alternative to knights’ neverending taunts and teases about his crush on you.
he breathes a sigh of relief when he doesn’t see you behind the counter today, and is instead greeted by the face of one of your coworkers. in neat and pretty print, the name ‘haruka’ reads across the decorated name tag. “another letter?” she leans over with a knowing grin.
“uh—yeah,” tsukasa fumbles through the pockets of his back and hands the sealed envelope across the baked displays. “i also brought a—”
“suou!” you greet him with a smile like always, waving from behind the back walls with empty trays in your arms, “i didn’t know you were visiting today. you can go ahead and sit anywhere, i’ll be right with you.”
in truth, he wasn’t really here to buy anything, but when you beam at him so nicely—he can’t really bring it in himself to say no.
“hey, you’ve got another letter by the way!” haruka waves the letter between her two fingers, and tsukasa swears his heart has just left his body. surely this wasn’t happening now, when he was standing right there in front of you?
“huh?” you stare dumbfounded at the envelope, catching it clumsily on the trays when she tosses it in your direction. “really? i thought i told you they could stop sending them? i wouldn't want to lead anybody on like that...”
you look almost sad when you pick up the letter in your own hand—like you don't want to open it, like you feel bad for whoever the sender may be. and that thought alone makes tsukasa want to disappear off the face of the world forever.
did you not like the letters? was he actually being a bother this entire time? did you already have feelings for somebody else? did you already have a partner of your own and he was sending the most cheesy poems and paragraphs detailing his affections to someone who was not romantically available?
your coworker rolls her eyes, “come on, weren’t you the one gushing and squealing at the last one that came in? besides this time you’re actually here to—”
“actually—!” tsukasa quickly interrupts the conversation before any more can be said. “i actually have to go, like, right now. rehearsal starts in a few minutes, and i really shouldn’t be late.” he bows apologetically and swiftly makes his way towards the door, trying his best to wave as naturally as possible and ignore the subtle shake in his arms.
“i’ll come by again tomorrow, that’s a promise!”
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arashi tries her best to hide her disappointment when tsukasa finally tells her the full story. keyword: tries. because as understanding as arashi is with these kinds of things, it hurts to hear that tsukasa suou had the most golden opportunity—and he did not take it.
by contrast, izumi is unimpressed with this news, holding a hand to his forehead and sighing dramatically with a shake of his head. tsukasa almost wants to chuck his water bottle and hit him square in the face. almost.
“well,” arashi begins, crossing her arms and sends a sympathetic smile towards tsukasa, “there is always next time.”
“there might not be one if he keeps acting this way.”
“shut up! i’ll be perfectly fine!”
the truth—tsukasa suou is not fine. because if there is a god, then it must be having the time of it’s life making his own as miserable as possible.
there comes a short knock at the door, which turns some of the members’ heads, because who in the world knocks on the practice doors? when you slowly crack open the large door and peak your head inside tsukasa swears his chest is about to explode.
“so sorry if i’m interrupting!” you’re quick to apologize, but then you point to tsukasa, “can i actually borrow suou for a second? it won’t be long, i promise!”
he doesn’t even have the time to say anything before he is very rudely shoved outside of the practice room. there's a short second before the door closes, and tsukasa shoots the rest of the members a glare before turning his attention back to you.
“i apologize for their behavior,” he smiles weakly, following you down the hallway. you don’t really know where you're going, but anywhere with a little bit more privacy is better than directly outside where everyone else could probably hear you. “sometimes they get—”
“haruka told me you were the one sending the letters!” you suddenly blurt out of nowhere, cheeks heating up from the sudden exclamation. “she told me after you left, because you seemed really tense when you dropped by and i was worried about you.”
tsukasa is not listening to a single word you're saying. everything is going in one ear and coming straight out of the other. there's a million thoughts running through his mind, and every single one of them is a different variation stemming from ‘god they probably think i’m a total creep.’
but, when he finally snaps out of his ruminating mind, you're standing right in front of him still—with a hand nervously scratching the side of your cheek and eyes that are too shy to meet his own. quietly, in an almost whisper-like tone, tsukasa admits to everything.
that he was the one leaving the letters, that he specifically asked to be anonymous all this time, that he was too cowardly to confess to you directly and that this was the next best option, that it was actually not even his idea at all.
he’s rambling again, and before he can even process it, he feels a pair of lips pressed against the side of his cheek, freezing him in the middle of his sentence.
“you’re really cute like this, suou,” you laugh at him softly, “don’t worry, i like that about you. i like a lot of things about you.”
“huh?” tsukasa stands there dumbfounded in disbelief. what just happened? is this real life? he's not dreaming, is he? all words fail him as he looks at the knowing grin on your face. when did you get so smug, he wonders. “you mean, you also?”
“i'll see you tomorrow, okay?” you press a finger against your lips, almost as if you’d just told him a secret. “remember, you promised!”
before tsukasa can even say anything, you’re already gone. and he is once again stood there like an idiot caught in the rain.
that’s right, he did promise—didn’t he?
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tojisun · 11 months
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Hi! I’m the one who asked for writing tips, and while at first I thought I’d keep my identity a secret (as if this is Gossip Girl) I thought I’d saw my appreciation with my name on top! Most people write anonymous asks, but I know I love it when I know who I’m speaking to, so, officially ✨hello✨
I’m actually a writer from another fandom who expanded to JJK after reading the manga and falling into the Toji rabbit hole. I didn’t think I’d actually start writing about him myself, but I ultimately lost to my urges ;-; I’d already started writing a multi-part fic about him when I sent you my message, but still wanted to see how a pro Toji writer would advice me to go about it! Thankfully crossing from one fandom to the other seems like a smooth tradition? Too early to tell, but I am glad to join your ranks.
Your tips were quite helpful, and I couldn’t help but notice how warm you are as a person! Whenever I read your fanfics, I get this warm fuzzy feeling and I wondered what kind of person writes such fics, and reading your response sort of affirmed that it’s someone who loves writing and their fans. You are one of my fav Toji writers for that reason, because you see him through this lens of affection and love that really matches his character, and the love/affection he didn’t have growing up in his life. That feeling is irreplaceable imo.
BUT enough bootlicking ahaha if I’m being honest, I’ve never really written a fan letter before and it’s been about two months since I started reading your work and I had a lot of accumulated praise. How we break though… that broke me. I got actual tears in my eyes, and “hated” you for a moment because this was pure sadism 😭
Don’t think there’s anything more to say other than thank you for getting back to me, sorry for this mess of a message and I wish you all the best 💜
HI MIRTO!!! NICE TO OFFICIALLY MEET UUU! im genuinely sorry for replying to this late. my summer sem’s abt to end so the projects and papers and group presentations are beating my ass 😭
the toji rabbit hole is insane ur so real for this. i too was just tryna make sense of jjk when i fell into the toji rabbit hole myself and boom insane pining ensued. but AHHH the multi-part fic??? pls drop da link baby 🤲🏼
im so glad that ur transition to the fandom was smooth!!! i had a trouble once with transitioning to a fandom bc while i was frothing at the mouth at the idea of writing about them, i had so little grasp of accurate characterization that it ate me up and i just gave up so fast hdjsjhssj so hell yeee that u didnt go through that <333
and omg?? thank u so much hhhhsh i dont see myself a pro in terms of writing for toji but holy fuck thank you. AND THANK YOU again oh my god im so soft rn, my heart’s so full and hhhh im so happy to see that im able to convey the affection i have for both toji and my readers in my works!! you guys make it so worth it to write yk? and toji’s this amazing character thats so dynamic and complex and theres so much opportunity to world build. ugh i love him sm
i am a number one supporter of making toji soft as fuckk. my man deserves to be loved and to love just as kindly. and he can be the gruff dilf that he is but also still be soft and gentle and warm, yk??? he deserves to be that!!!
im laughing at the hwb comment omg shdjejd im still so happy that it is still getting interactions and that it leaves impression on readers 🥹 thank you for your guys’ pain teehee
no bc one of my friend came up to me n said they couldnt even pick up the manga bc they hated toji and omg i was like “nooooo hes not just an asshole u have to understand!!! hes just a human and sometimes love doesnt work out” and she was like “THATS EXACTLY WHY” and i knew that i accomplished my goal <33
but yea! thank you so much mirto for your message, pls dont apologize for it!!! i loved reading every sentence babe. and pls dont mind how long my response has gotten omg i just tend to ramble. take care darling <333
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