#in the dream I did tell my dad

[lemonlinelights]

Had this dream where I saw Hozier at a family friends’ wedding and nobody else knew how famous the guy was and I was too nervous to talk to him :/

#in the dream I did tell my dad #and he was all like #just go talk to him #and I was like #I CANT DO THAT #THATS HOZIER

[irondad-defensesquad]

it always just hits me that:

tony was abused and emotionally neglected since he was a child

he was expected to "toughen up" so he was sent to boarding school, where he was bullied by the other kids (the bullying itself i don't recall being confirmed in the mcu, but i'm assuming it is)

his first real friend is probably rhodey... and they're already teenagers here, right?

i just wish i could hug tony forever

#lotus speaks #tony stark defense squad #abuse tw #neglect tw #bullying tw #i imagine boarding schools are shitty since howard wanted to send his own son there to be a Man (TM) #fun fact did you know i dreamed my own father wanted to send me to a similar school lmao #this is why i tell you. howard and my dad are so similar that it scares me #personal in tags #*actually i meant like... military school???? but you get the meaning

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Ngl Horrid Henry is becoming that show I honestly forget about but then seeing something on it online makes me remember its existence...and also in todays case, how much I hated his parents, cause oh my god, the clip I just saw...

#i dunno the episode #its a clip on twitter #you dont get the ep titles really on those #but like henry seems to be not doing his homework as usual #and his mom enters the room and gets pissy with him #cause he had his music player on at the same time and got distracted as a result #aka i guess from the clip imagening himself as a rockster #and she turns off the music and starts on him about the homework #and when henry at 'rocksters dont do homework' goes oh so he doesnt have to do it? #she literally tells him hes not going to be a rockster so the sooner he gets out of his head the better #so uh got being a bitch to childs dreams #and when he does the pen tapping against his homework like drums she gets snappy #and...yeah okay he did wink at the camera when told if he does it again he'll be in trouble #so he did it again on purpose #but she proceeds to ground him for the week basically over...honestly stimming #henry always gave adhd vibes in show so like #and she doesnt care his band hes in needs their drummer for practice #like lord...bringing back my dislike for her and the dad #(who granted could be nicer to henry at times but he still has his wtf moments really)

[ganonfan1995]

Like how many times had the kingdom come to ruin because the only person on earth who could utilize the power of gold, was some illegitimate orphan girl from the village?

#this is my mindset w/ oot tho #u cannot tell me that link and zelda weren't half siblings #they like could sense each other and had prophetic dreams of meeting before they did irl #i bet u zeldas dad in oot #local war criminal #absolutely slept with some poor woman during the civil war #idk ive also held this belief since i was a baby child #they look identical #its serving starwar luke and leia

[beckiboos]

Year anniversary of my dads death and I have nightmares of carrying his body at his funeral

#I didn’t btw #but his ashes were spread up long mynd #so literally did have to carry him at some point to get up to the waterfall #my dreams can be so literal #I was telling my niece about ice being a rock and being lava monsters too #so lf course my brain was like what if you dads body was frozen #today is going to shite

[pzos-amiserableidiot]

was watching tiktok and a video had the song michael in the bathroom playing and I was vicerally reminded of being in middle and high school and mom always mentioning how much I looked like my dad (his name is michael) and how I slowly was able to start noticing it too and whenever I sang the song it reminded me of him and I felt like we were overlapping too often felt like id never be anyone but a shadow or his mirror and then i began learning i was trans and now the song makes me think of him even more (he’s not a bad dad he tells me he’s proud of me and stuff there’s just two really big moments he unknowingly failed and one long continuous one but he loves me and he’s proud and he supports me and he didn’t mean it and ive learned to make that enough) and the weird flashback I got when I heard that song and overlapping with his face and how if I transitioned I almost fear I’d be his clone and yeah Anywyas banger song

#the moments were that time he told me how he used to want something to be wrong with him and he’d cut himself to try and prove something was #and he showed me his incredibly faint scars and this was after I told them I was depressed and his solution was to tell me he faked it???? #and didn’t even see anything wrong or worrying that he’d cut himself or was self destructive or wished something was wrong so he’d have #something to blame for being the way he was and like DAD THATS DEPRESSION but I was too numb and shocked and felt so so so betrayed becuase #it felt mocking at the time like his way of comforting me. his child. was to fucking show me his scars and be like I faked it so I know #it’s real and sorry I don’t understand WTF DAD #Other time was when he gave me his phone to play Pokémon go and I betrayed his trust (he didn’t like anyone going through his phone) and #went looking through and found Grindr and saw some shirtless photos and people messaging before I left #dad had a shirtlesss photo on there. and I had to pretend everything was fine and erase the evidence and give the phone back and help look #for furniture for our new house and never tell mom cause she’s been through so much already (I really shouldn’t have known I wasn’t her #therapist but this is about daddy issues right now not the mommy ones) so anyways I never told him and years later he told me his friends #signed him up for Grindr as a prank and to make friends and that’s why he thinks someone from his work I pranking him by signing him up #for a gay furry dating site and yet I saw him on his bed sometimes messaging people and yeah #oh and the long continous one was not divorcing mom and defending her saying she loves us when she rejected me and my sister for being trans #and being gone for most of my childhood working and never understanding the fucked up dynamic of home that took place and resenting him for #ruining the perfect routine (sharp words scary feelings always wanting to cry) #anyways michael in the bathroom always gives me weird feelings #cause I hate and love my dad and I looked up to him so much and loooking like him would’ve been a dream but sometiems the wrongs he did #come back haunt my thoughts and I want to scratch and tear apart every feature that makes me look like him. I look nothing like my mom so #there’s nothing physical to tear apart (I just act like her sometimes and have to force myself not the throw up and attack myself from the #disgust)

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

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#wedding szn helps w one thing and one thing only #realizing what i want but more importantly DON'T want to happen at my wedding #tell me why i have everything planned now #like more than i did before #and i dont even wanna get married #and im planning it out loud w my family to give them a heads up and my dads like lowkey happy LMAOOOO #but then i have to break his dreams of me getting married by telling him this is all a hypothetical and im not acc getting married #mehrtalks

[johnny-and-dora]

🚨OBLIGATORY MYTHIC QUEST SEASON 3 POST🚨

i’ve had some time to think about it and i enjoyed s3 overall - there was some really funny stuff, great performances (especially from charlotte and rob) and some really great episodes. it’s nothing that people haven’t said before (and probably a lot better), but if there’s one criticism i have, it’s the lack of character development/arcs for anyone other than poppy & ian. i love their dyanmic and it’s always been the central dyanmic of the show, but mq has such a great talented ensemble cast with such varied rich characters and most of them were criminally underused this season, ESPECIALLY brad in my extremely biased yet valid opinion. (more under the cut)

it’s just frustrating bc the s2 finale set up so many interesting things that didn’t really matter in the end. how did brad going to prison for jo not matter? why did rachel give up on writing so easily, espeically after cw died? why is dana suddenly just another version of ian now who somehow has the power and resources to start her own studio? tbh i’m mainly mad that they called an episode “to catch a mouse” AND had a brad/jo subplot and didn’t explore their wonderful unhinged mouse/shark dyanmic. it was right there!!! and why completely scrap the movie subplot in the last episode, becuase that just made it feel like a big waste of time. i think mythic quest: playpen is a great way of compromising and a great way to get ian and poppy to rejoin mq, i’m much more into the plot of mq vs another rival studio (i’m assuming we might see that with studio dana in s4) as i thought mq vs grimpop was going to be a thing this season that we...didn’t see at all

i really liked the christmas episode (reminded me of everlight, my favourite ep) and sarian (holy shit that was some insanely perfect casting for young poppy). charlotte was fantastic as poppy the whole season, she had some of the funniest stuff and she nailed the sadder scenes too. i just thought s2 built on s1 so perfectly by playing with new dyanmics and showing whole new sides to characters (specifically brad and cw) so it’s frustrating to watch what felt like a backwards step in that sense, especially when it comes to brad, who felt like he was just...there. the “oh i’m just the janitor definitely not up to something nefarious” and david being so paranoid thing at the start of the season was so funny, so why did that go nowhere? brad and rachel is a really funny dyanmic, but brad saying he manipulated rachel into abandoning her ethics for the rewards of capitalism felt so much like tell, don’t show. like where is the evidence for that? also fuck nfts lol but this post is already far too long

i really like this show, that’s still true after this season. i think the two season renewal was probably a blessing and a curse and season 3 will end up being a transitionary season, maybe it was a little directionless because they knew they had another one guaranteed, i don’t know. the s3 finale did set up a lot of cool potential arcs for s4, i’m paticularly intersted in how that brad/dana/jo dyanmic will play out and i also love poppy/ian/david as a trio so that could be really fun. i just wanna see more from the whole cast, there’s so much potential for comedy and drama too with all of these characters! 

#mythic quest #shut up sian #i just think that danny is so brilliant and i want to see the writers use his full potential #like lbr a brad flashback ep is the dream #manifesting a real breaking brad 2 for s4 #but s3 didn't just have a brad problem it had a nearly everyone problem #i still liked it a lot and so did my dad so that's the main thing. my dad finds mq extra hilarious now that he's watched welcome to wrexham #and knows that rob is essentially just playing an exaggerated version of himself #ANYWAY. it's nice to be unhinged about a workplace sitcom again brings me right back to the b99 days #to catch a mouse literally haunts me i still can't believe it wasn't even a mouse #okay BYE #no-one i know irl (except my dad) watches mq can you tell i needed to get this out somewhere

[mishkakagehishka]

Me when i dream of lil Mika but it's another nightmare

#and this one was so stressful bc like #i dreamt he was indeed my s/o but he was so controlling #like i was so stressed out felt like a trapped deer trying to gather a support circle so i can get away from him and he just kept ruining it #all for me. fucker learnt my native lang just so he could monitor my conversation with my family🤕 #at one point he made me agree to marry him and dream me did just bc she was absolutely terrified of him???? #girl just beat his ass ????????? #but like jokes aside i'm still in that ''just woke up from a nightmare'' mood so i still feel the adrenaline so i still get #why he was so scary like. i didn't know he knew my lang until he threatened me and told me i'm not allowed to speak to #my family anymore (bc i tried to get my dad to help me) and he was very. pushy with se.xual stuff #which like here's a fun fact but i'm a hypochondriac and i find it very hard to bond with people so i just kinda #accepted that i'm waiting for marriage (which is easier to explain than ''i need to REALLY trust you'' and agreeing to marriage is on that #level anyway) so when i TRIED to get him to stop by telling him i don't want to before i have a ring it did fuck-all to stop a guy #who was just like ''well we ARE getting married so what's the problem''😔😔😔😔 #i woke up before he did anything tho which i'm thankful for bc every time i dream of being sa'd it feels like it reopens old woundd #and it takes me a while to actually calm down from it #i will say tho. it's a vibe to dream of thingd you consider hot in concept but terrifying irl (controlling/abusive men <3) #bc like you know in-dream it FEELS like it's real life i really didn't care that it was Mika and he's not real it was reality for me #and so it was terrifying i was crying every time i'd get a hope of getting away from him he'd ruin it for me very swiftly etc etc #like i'm still stressed out. but. the concept? like now that i know i'm safe and none of that was real? i just think o-kayyyyyyyyy #lmfjsjsnmemdksks i'm hopeless. but not really! confirmation i'm actually normal just like certain things from the safety of fantasy

[yellobb]

My uncle just tried to convince me that the PS1 and PS2 only had 2D graphics???? Like king, what the hell are you talking about lmao

#m rambles #I was telling my grandma about rediscovering Spyro the Dragon #(which I’ve been half convinced was a fever dream for years now but finally found) #and I told her I remember playing it on the PS2 #and he was like ‘you did not have a PS2. that was from my childhood. it only had 2D’ #like??????? #it’s only a few months older than me lol #and it was almost certainly my dad’s console #and also 3D graphics were DEFINITELY around in 2000 #I have no clue what console he’s thinking of but it’s not a PS2

[d1anna]

i love having the weirdest dreams napping on the couch

#not really but #my first dream i started to lucid dream while we were walking through a parking lot #i started to fly and the dream was glitching as i realized i was dreaming and it kind of freaked me out so i just forced myself to wake up #but then the second dream was also weird #my parents and i were driving through the old rich side of town at night and we pulled into the parking lot of this bed and breakfast place #and we got out and it seemed normal albeit dark to me but my mom seemed scared and kept telling my dad she heard someone laughing #we got up to our room and my dad went to go do something so it was just me and my mom #we were also rooming with this guy for some reason but he was nice #i was just sitting on a chair and the guy was walking to the door when suddenly the door opened and he was like who’s there #and the person at the door was silent for a bit before closing it really quickly and saying sorry #the guy was like uhh 🤷‍♀️ idk what just happened my #and my mom was like go shut the door but when i went to shut it it had all of these contraptions and mechanisms #it was strange and then my dad was like let me back in and so i did and he talked to my mom for a bit about the strange things going on #he said the old owner liked to collect antiques and stuff and he thinks the place is haunted #my mom was like well i told you that i heard laughing in the parking lot #then guy that we were sharing the room with comes out of his room with bandages all over his face and i’m like what #my mom says something to him and then another guy (the same guy from before) comes out looking just like him just without bandages #and my mom is like i can help and i was like what #the guy takes off his bandages and he’s like it’s my teeth #but also side note i was weirdly struck by how handsome he was for an older man #but then my dream decided to focus on my mom like twisting and fixing his teeth into the right place #weirdly enough i wasn’t freaked out by it but it was just interesting #anyway that’s my dream i need to stop napping on that couch #dianna.moon

[istherewifiinhell]

heres the 03 arc. something happens/someone shows up. its infuriating. something/someone else. happens/shows up. and is more infuriating. you feel better about the former....

#some shit #turbles... #brought to you by. uh. EVEN MORE. japan. mystism. trial combat. weirdos?? at least their not aliens this time??? #they had splinter show up and do the coolest shit hes ever done and then did the like. bad end scenario thats just a projection/dream #leaving me. just confused to actually if he did that cool shit. cause. i want him to have.... #-> his sons got kidnapped by the. NINJA TRIBUNAL. yeah listen. cause they must undertake A GREAT TASK. becoming. one of 8 acolytles. #training to defeat an ANCIENT EVIL. and the guys incharge of this training uh. just suck shit. they arent very nice. bad pedagogy #so he fucking. busts in and yells at em for being all ominous and shit and is like. #good luck with all that but im taking my fucking sons home. #but then blah blah fight that isnt even real. and its just annoying cause that could be real growth for him... #telling someone else off for being needlessly secretive huh!!! i wish this for him. i believe under the edifice of. 03 cartoon conventions #there could be a good dad under there. #akfdhbghabga okay. i get so exhausted trying to explain ANY of this. really truly. eh you had to be there. #(there being. the multiple days of fucking cartoon turtle bullshit [affectionate][derogatory]) #oh in other news abt it were are getting to a weird era. of. how the show was broadcast. or. really #not broadcasted. cause this season was like. too dark. or whatever. it came out on dvd? 2 years b4 it was aired on tv.

[back2thepalace]

can believe the netflix version of dream missed the height of the cure smh

#my little emo man would have loved the cure #pretty sure the comic did but i mean look at my man in the comics he listens to the cure #idk though haven’t read the comics i need to get them from my dad #the sandman #dream of the endless #you look me and the eyes and tell me that man doesn’t listen to boys don’t cry that is that mans song tm #Tbh all there songs are perfect for him but that man needs a good cry but he doesn’t

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

damn im already feeling like this and it’s not even 9 o’clock yet

#idk just. rough day #navigating big next live steps that my dad would have known and been able to help with and i still have some help but i have no one beside #me for this process just people i can go to if i have questions #and it’s just. hard. because despite everyone telling me im not alone in this process im still doing it alone and it’s so stressful #i got a comment the other day that when the person read how i mentioned my dad on a form it was so clear i’d done a lot of healing to be #able to talk about his death the way i did and i function better than i did but how much is healing and how much is stuffing down grief as #far down as it’ll go #because sometimes it still feels as raw as the day i lost him #now it’s doubled because i feel like im forgetting #today marks a year and 7 months since he died #i don’t think ive really been present much since he got sick. half the times im just going through the motions #more than half the time really #every memory of anything now feels like it could’ve not been real and just been a daydream #whether it was last year or last month or last week or yesterday #im just tired and i miss him and he was in my dream last night and i don’t remember what the dream was about but there was one moment where #we were waiting in a small room before we could go somewhere and i was sleeping and using him as a pillow leaning on his chest #i have no grandparents and one parent left and sometimes i see people my age or older with both parents and all their grandparents #and something inside of me just aches #i don’t know im just tired and stressed and wish my dad was here #vent tw #im going to bed i need to sleep this off

[celticwoman]

people really like spirit apparently... nice 😳

#that was such a weird thing to wake up to #ANYWAYS #i was coming in here because i had THEE weirdest dream ever and idk how to feel about it #so in this dream...my cousin's brother kind of proposed or idk what to me ??? and it was so random it was A LOT idk #he's not my cousin they're half brothers from their dad's side and he's just my aunt's ex husband he's not related to me at all #BUT STILL weird as hell #i did have a crush on him when i was little but to be fair he's like 8 years older or something #i was like 6 when he was a teen and he was so nice even tho i was the clingiest girl ever #LMAO ANYWAYS #haven't seen him in years since my aunt got divorced so #i'm very weirded out what is my conscience trying to tell me #why do i always have weird dreams during nap time #cami.txt

[violentdevotion]

I could kill someone. I few months ago my mum said its okay for me to go anywhere out of city so long as my cousin or trusted friends are there too. a few days ago I mentioned to her that for my birthday I wanna go out of city with some friends and my uncle was there and she said okay. today I mentioned again my plans and she's acting like she's never heard it before and that this is the first time she heard of me going out of city and I keep telling her to ring my uncle and ask him and she's refusing to so now she's in a mood with me because I made the plans with my friends and also I'm turning 20. just some info to make this even more insane

#ameera speaks #i like PURPOSEFULLY held off on asking my friends purely because i was waiting for her blessing and once i was sure i got it i asked them #and now shes acting like its brand new #and its soo frustrating to me that i even have to ask in the first place but that even when i did shes pretending i didnt #and ik telling her that im doing it anyway bc i already agreed with my friends #and shes getting mad at me bc now shes gonna have to tell my dad and hes a fucking control freak #kust NNjwjjsjaksj im soo mad #bc i knew going out with my friends was a bit of a pipe dream but when she said yeah it slile the only tuing ive been looking foward to #and now shes gonna take it away again #like I'd rather she just said no first then