#it was like a beard but without the mustache idk how to describe it very well

[yes-armageddon-it]

I dreamed that Olli had the most atrocious facial hair in history BUT I was still like 💓💞💛✨🥰💞💓🤲✨💞💓 for him

#it was like a beard but without the mustache idk how to describe it very well #but it was so bad

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #348

“nothing will be free  /  nothing will be done  /  black out the sun”

Do you have any famous relatives? My third or so cousin is the author of Not Without My Daughter, but she's not like a smash hit or anything that most people know. I really do recommend the book, though. It's a long read, but a beautiful, true story. Do you care about celebrity gossip? Nah. Have you ever failed a science course in high school? No; I was very good at science. What’s your favorite breakfast food? Cinnamon rolls. Does your house have a basement? No. No house I've ever lived in has had one. Do you like Hot Topic? Well duh. Do you think imagination is valuable? VERY! Just imagine how many incredible things wouldn't exist without it. What was your reaction to your first time falling in love? Unspeakably happy, and I felt like I was building a future with someone. I felt like I had purpose, which I should mention to anyone reading is a mindset to NEVER adopt. No one gives you purpose; you're born with it. How much weight can you lift at once? Ha, not a lot. When you have your own house someday, what color Christmas tree do you want and how will you decorate it? I want a black one with faux snow on the branches, then maybe red ornaments. Kinda look like blood dripping off. Sounds metal. Name three YouTube channels you’ve been loving lately. Lately, John Wolfe, The Dark Den, and Aim To Head Mix. Have you ever bought a designer purse? No. Do you wear jewelry often? No. What color was your senior prom dress? Black. Are you colorblind? No. Name the people you know who are colorblind. Jason's older brother is colorblind to two colors, but idr which. Would you ever consider a career in writing? I'd love to. What was your first favorite color? Red. What do you think about horror movies? I love them. If you love them, what’s your favorite? I really enjoy The Crazies and both The Blair Witch Project movies. Oh, and of course Silent Hill. Got any cool Christmas presents picked out for family or friends yet? I don't have the money to get anyone presents... and while I sometimes get ideas about something I could make someone, then it wouldn't be fair to the rest of my family if I don't make them something, too. What’s your favorite word and why? I really like the sound of "serendipity," as well as its meaning. It's just a pretty, nice word. Do you like to do craft projects? If so, what’s the coolest thing you made? Not really... I think the coolest thing I made was when I put the clay heart I made in Art into a shadowbox, and a poem I wrote was in the background. It was a gift for Jason. I remember working really hard on the whole process and being really happy with it. I don't want to know what he's done with it since. What’s one occupation you think gets paid too much and doesn’t deserve to? I don't know. What’s something you are currently saving money for to buy? Everyone knows about Venus' terrarium by now... Do you smoke/vape? If so, what brand do you smoke/what device do you use? No. Ever done drugs? No. Tell me one of your worst habits. Catastrophizing. I take a tiny seed of something potentially bad, and in seconds it's a damn redwood tree. And I do mean "in seconds." What’s a weird quirk you have that no one else you know does? I don't know, I don't have any particularly unique ones, I think. If you game, what type of headset do you use? I just use earbuds. Do you think you would be a good therapist? You know, it's funny, I've actually pictured myself as one a few times, given my level of understanding and empathy for people, as well as how deeply I want to see others succeed and spread the word that recovery from things like depression is very possible. I've never truly entertained the thought, though, given I'm quite sure I legally couldn't be given my suicidal past and mental illnesses. There is also NO way I could listen to so many people's suffering and manage to stay healthy myself, so, no therapist position for me, thanks. Have you ever been to a Chinatown? No. Do you prefer chunky or creamy peanut butter? Creamy, 100%. Do you stop to pick up heads-up pennies? No. Do your pets have collars? Describe them: Roman has an adorable navy one with a bowtie. Do you have any friends that speak any languages you don’t understand? Old friends, sure. What is something you want to begin learning? I want to improve my ability to perform what in therapy is called "opposite action," where you do the opposite of what your depression (or other conditions) make you want to do. It always helps me feel good, like when I draw even when I don't initially feel like it, but it's rough to really force yourself to do it. What is a food you find comforting when you are sad? Ice cream is my comfort food. What is a quote you find comfort in? There are really a lot, but none come to mind immediately, gah. What is one Tumblr blog you really appreciate? I actually haven't been on my main Tumblr in months, but oh my god there is a Markiplier blog called "lady-raziel" and she is FUCKING HYSTERICAL. The meme quality is A+. What is a comfort movie/show for you? When I actually liked watching movies, I enjoyed watching Silent Hill when I was down. That whole franchise just makes me so happy. What is a recent creative project that you are proud of? That I'm PROUD of, idk. I'm not that happy with the last drawing I made, and I haven't done any serious writing lately that I find noteworthy. What is a video game that you find comforting? Shadow of the Colossus is probably #1. I find it so relaxing while equally epic as fuck. The soundtrack is to die for, and after playing it a billion times, it's pretty easy for me to kinda breeze through and just enjoy myself. Do you know how to bake bread? If so, what is something you’ve baked recently? No. Would you rather live in the mountains, city, beach, or the forest? THE MOUNTAINS!!! Particularly in the woods IN the mountains! Are you closer to your mother’s or father’s side of the family? Mom's. I don't even remember anyone from Dad's. Have you ever been in a “perfect relationship”? I thought so. Have you ever lost a fingernail or toenail? No. Were you a Disney or Nickelodeon kid? I preferred Disney. Have you ever been inside a jail/prison? No, and I don't plan on it. Have you ever dated a guy with a beard, mustache, or goatee? Jason had a goatee usually. He'd go clean-shaven sometimes. Did you ever name your stuffed animals? I named every single one I got as a kid. Now I don't, really, unless they're really special. What’s the name of the person who cuts your hair? I'd rather not share, given her name is very unique. Do you like cheeseburgers? Yes, they're one of my favorite foods. Do you have a Flickr? Yes, but I don't use it anymore. Did you ever want to be a fashion designer? No. Do you drink milk? Yeah, I love milk. Where was your FB display pic taken? My room. Have you ever burnt your tongue like REALLY bad? If so, what on? Yeah; white rice. My dumb ass didn't realize it had JUST come off the stove. My tongue hurt literally for weeks. Have you ever gotten your legs waxed? No. Do you own any CLOTHES from Victoria’s Secret? Er, are undergarments not clothes? But I know what you mean. No. What are your grandfathers’ names? William and... I can't remember Dad's dad's name. Have you ever seen a snake in real life? Well yeah. Are you against seances? I don't know if I believe in them being effective, but either way, they seem like a bad idea. Even risking luring a negative energy/spirit to you is something I'd stay away from. Do you own any superhero shirts? No, just Harley Quinn ones, some with the Joker on them, too. I need to toss 'em though because I am like, violently against romanticizing their abusive relationship. I used to just like them as a story character couple, but I got to a place where it just seemed... wrong to "glorify" it by wearing merch and stuff. What band has the best guitar solos? Metallica, durrrr. Who is the biggest jerk you’ve ever met? Can you believe that would be my former best friend? Have you ever swerved off the road to avoid hitting an animal? I've never had an animal in my path. Have you ever grown your own herbs? No. Do you like kissing in public? If you're my serious s/o, I could care less, so long as it's a simple peck. I'm not making out in front of people. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I don't know. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I don't know. I'm lonely and love feels amazing, but I need to get my life on track before I can be a good partner to someone and not just dead weight. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Huh, funny, he's the one that walked away. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Uhhh that would depend on how serious we are, where we are, and just what mood I'm in. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? ugh What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? also ugh What’s your dirtiest secret? TMI AHEAD. Probably receiving oral while bare-ass naked on the chaise in the living room while we were home alone. Or having sex in my sister’s bed. Oops. Would you ever get lyrics tattooed on yourself? Yeah. I already do, anyway, and I plan on getting another. Can you photoshop images well? I'm decent at it. Where did you last drive to? Mom and I went to go get our Covid vaccines today. What’s the first verse of the last song you listened to? "I don't know what we're supposed to be, but I know we lost it along the way to something better, something so much more than pleasure that we seek, so blind inside to fill these holes left by these lies that we tell to ourselves as we manufacture our own hell." What do you hear right now? The aforementioned song: "BLACKOUT" by 3TEETH. What was the last thing you laughed about? This is so fucking immature lmao but when we were driving earlier, we passed a gas station that had a sign that was advertising Coke, but due to space limitations, it abbreviated to "2 liter Cok" and I cackled like a child. Mom laughed harder than I did. Do you know any gay people personally? Ye. What was the last thing that startled you? I think it was a car hoonking at somebody the other day. What was the last thing to make you even remotely sad? Today's been a kind of rough PTSD day thanks to Facebook. My old high school friend had her beautiful daughter, a childhood friend just got married the other day, another friend is due to have her baby in just a couple weeks... It's just weird but even more painful to know it was the life I once fantasized about with a guy that just dropped me and made a break for it. I hate admitting that there's this deep, deep bitterness in me about it, like he took my life away from me, even though that's of course very unfair to say. I don't want to talk about this anymore, so moving on with my day.

#survey #surveys #questions #lyrics: ''blackout'' by 3teeth

[overlookingcooljoker]

The dream mansion part 1 of (Idk)

(So, this story --or part of it-- is related to the weird dream i had, i'm going to describe it from my point of the view within the dream and the things i remember about it)

For those who do not know me, i'm an average guy, int the 20s, studying at a renowned university in my country and i live in a small city in the southern part of the country. I'm not an athletic guy but i exercise to "be in shape" or have a good conditioning at last. One day i was invited by a researcher to have a meeting at a certain address (I'm also a researcher besides a student), this address was in a part of town that i never went, but i didn't had money to take a cab or something so i walked by. I called a friend to accompany me since i was not used walking in those streets. This may sound weird but i do not remember clearly the appearance of this friend, but i know it was someone i could trust a lot, his/her voice was also something that did not let me recognize it in this dream, it was like a complete stranger that i knew from a very long time ago. We walked a lot until we arrived at the street of the address. We walked and talked about how the streets were very creepy and had many old buildings, until we arrived at the address that was given to me. It was a house.

This house was... weird, it was a small blue house with a medium garden and a gate, that was opened when we arrived. The house was very narrow and had two floors with only one window near the door in the front and a window above it. I did not think that this house could shelter more than two or three people at once, and that the apartment i live was bigger than it. I walk across the garden, that was very uncared-for and climbed the little stairs to reach the door. The stairs cranked very loudly when i stepped on them. Anyway, even thinking that everything was too creepy, i knocked at the door and a strange butler opened it.

This butler was not very tall, but was taller than me (which is also not difficult), and had a strange white curly mustache, bald head, piercing green eyes and a well-cared beard. He was wearing a black tuxedo with a handkerchief in his left pocket. He greeted me and asked what were my intentions. "Good afternoon, I came to a meeting with professor A. is she here? I'm sorry i don't think i'm at the right address...". But the butler said she was waiting for me in her office, which was the first door on the left. This was very confusing to me because there was a door in the left wall, but the house did not contain any type of structure on the outside that could be a room, so if i entered that door i would leave the house through the left side. I was very perplexed by the instructions given by the butler, then i said to my friend to wait outside because i did not think this meeting would take a long time, and walked inside the house.

The butler closed the door, and i could see a small living room, with a table at the center with a vase of withered flowers on the top of it, and two chairs on the side. There was this corridor in front of the entrance door that led to, what i believed was a kitchen, and had two doors, one on the left and one on the right. There was a stair near the right door, but it was very narrow, i think only one person could climb it at a time, and this stair led to the second floor. The butler escorted me to the door on the left and said "Professor A. is waiting for you" opening the door and revealing a huge office. 

The office was a squared room, with many bookcases on the walls, no windows, a center desk where Professor A. had piles of papers. In front of the desk were two chairs. I greeted Professor A. and apologize for any delays, while i was still perplexed on HOW IN THE HELL that room was even there. Professor A. was a tall slim woman with a pose of grace, her black hair was tied in a knot and her brown eyes glared at me through her heavy glasses. "I believe you are a late professor, i was about to give up on this meeting, do you want a cup of coffee or maybe tea?", i went for the tea and sat in one of the chairs. We spent a lot of time talking about our projects and interests that could connect them, until she suddenly got up saying "Oh my god, look at the time! I'll be right back" and left the room without further notice. I looked at the watch in my cellphone and noticed that we spent almost two hours talking, and also got up to apologize to my friend that was probably still waiting for me outside. That was when it happened...

I opened the only door of the office (the one i came in and Professor A. left) and i was at a different location, within the house. I was in the second floor of the house. I was, again, very confused because i was certain that i had entered a door in the ground floor, not the second. The second floor seemed larger than downstairs. In front of the door was the stair handrail, on my right there were 2 doors and the window. I don't remembered seen any annex on the second floor that could connect to those 2 doors. On my left there were a small waiting room, with a table and a chair...and a child. The child was playing a handheld game, and was sitting on the chair that was blocking my path to downstairs. 

The child had a dark brown hair and piercing black eyes, which started to stare me as soon as i got out of the office. They followed me to every step i took, i tried to call Professor A. but got no response. I tried to call the butler but also, no response. I asked the child where was the bathroom, and got a "the door on your left", which i believed led to nowhere. I thanked and walked the hallway to the door that was pointed out. I opened the door and, in fact, there was a bathroom, a huge bathroom with a jacuzzi! The bathroom was very well decorated with many red details. I washed my face thinking "I'm probly very tired, and not thinking clearly, that's it" and left. However when i opened the door to leave the bathroom, i was in the back of the child playing the handheld game. I was shocked and at the same time scared, because this time the child had a very angry distorted face, showing of its teeth and scratching the handheld screen with sharp nails. The child started to stare at me, and i could not move.

Finally, i risked move the chair with the children to go downstairs, i was "greeted" with a groaning and a angry look, but managed to descend. When i arrived at the living room, everything was ... bigger? I mean, the room duplicated its size and there was no more door that led to the office i was, neither a door on the other side of the corridor. There was a huge dinning table with six chairs surrounding it. I was, again, so confused at all of that, i went out through the entrance door (which was on the same place, thank god) and when i got out, no sign of my friend. I felt a horrible headache and fall on my knees, until i fall on the ground and blacked out.

#dream #narrative #personal #very weird dream i got #bubbleheadk

[davidrobertjonesimmortal]

Yaaaaayyyyy 😍😍😍

1: Do they drink coffee? He seriously cannot live without it.
2: Are they left or right handed? Righty like me!
3: How do they do their hair? Facial hair? (If they have it) Short on the sides longer at the top, and a mustache/beard I LOVE.
4: What’s their favorite animal? Idk, I think dogs tho!
5: What is their relationship status? In a relationship with THIS lucky bitch. 😁
6: What is their favorite band/singer? Young the Giant.
7: Are they more a cat or dog person? Dog definitely.
8: What does their laugh sound like? Heaven. It's calming and incredibly sexy all at once. His hysterical laugh is the cutest, he like tries to hold it in and sounds like he's happy hyperventilating lol.
9: Do they know multiple languages? Which ones? Not really lol.
10: How old are they? How old are you? He's about to turn 27, I just turned 23.
11: One word that describes them. Adorkable.
12: Do they have any pets? No. Coulda had a dog by now but 😒
13: What is their favorite TV show? Daredevil I think.
14: What is their favorite movie? Right now it might be Unbreakable.
15: What car do they drive? Uhhh compact. Silver. Don't know much beyond that.
16: What ethnicity and/or nationality are they? He's white lol.
17: Where did you meet them? Plenty of Fish!
18: What was your first meeting like? Nerve wracking. But I instantly felt calm with him. So easy to be around. 😍
19: What is their zodiac sign? Are your signs compatible? Aries. Not really lol we're like polar opposites but it's working so far!
20: What month is their birthday? This one!
21: What is your favorite outfit on them? His skinny jeans and burgundy baseball tee. Hubba hubba.
22: Are they good texters? Lol no. He tries tho.
23: Your favorite feature about their appearance. EYES.
24: Your favorite thing about their personality. Humor. 💞
25: Do they make you laugh? All the time. It's wonderful.
26: Do you make them laugh? Yeah from time to time!
27: Are they good huggers/ kissers? Fantastic kisser.
28: What is your favorite “flaw” that they have? I can't think of a single thing lol.
29: Are they nice to strangers? Always!
30: What is the funniest thing they have ever said? Singing along all salty to Blink 182 getting the lyrics all wrong lol does that count?
31: Saddest? Talking about his mom.
32: Weirdest? Oh gosh, too many to choose.
33: Cutest? Even more I couldn't possibly pick one!
34: Ever dreamt about them? What happened in the dream? Constantly. Can't remember past waking up, ever.
35: How tall are they? How tall are you? I think he's an even 6'. I'm 5'9".
36: Do they have a booty? A little one. 🤗
37: What are their hobbies? Dungeons & Dragons, guitar, reading, podcasts, working out.
38: What are their talents? He's hella smart, a quick study. Very calming and magnetic just being around him.
39: What would your dream date be with them? Yes.
40: Does anyone know about your crush/love? Everyone!
41: What do you guys have in common? Both Harry Potter nerds, both dig 80's culture, love typography, fashion, accessories. We share many similar interests. ☺
42: Do they go to the gym? Nah he has a mini one in his room.
43: Do they go by their given name? Shorter version but yeah.
44: What is their favorite color? Doesn't really have one but he loves the color scheme navy silver and gold.
45: How far apart do you live from them? Like ten, fifteen minutes.
46: What song reminds you of them? Soooo fucking many lol.
47: Do they listen to a lot of music? Hell yeah!
48: What do they smell like? Indescribable. It's excellent.
49: If they were in a book (protagonist or antagonist or supporting character, up to you) how would the writer describe them? "A clever young man with icy blue eyes, a quick smile, and a seemingly constant slightly puzzled expression."
50: How often do you see them? As often as possible.
51: The last text/ message they sent you? "Wrestling is the worst =("
52: The last thing they said to you in person? "Bye" lol.
53: What is the most embarrassing thing that’s happened to you in front of them? I mean nothing utterly humiliating comes to mind lol.
54: Do they have any tattoos or piercings? Nah beat him to the tattoo!
55: What color are their eyes? The most beautiful blue.
56: What is their clothing style? Eh, modern meets practical. He's cute.
57: What is one thing that makes them really special? His sense of humor totally.
58: Will you tell your crush your feelings?
Pretty sure he knows but I'm always doin that weird shit. 59: How long did you know them before you started falling for them? Oh gosh lol few days maybe!
60: Was there a defining moment when you knew you liked them? Nah, knew from the jump he was hilarious and sweet and sensitive and rad as fuck.

#personal #survey #cold steel