#it'd peeter out... but these last few times... im just.. BIG mad

[anyu-blue]

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#personal #random #ignore me #life in general #idl what it is lately... but when i get mad it's like BIG mad #previously I'd get mad or upset and go to work and by the time the middle of the night comes #it'd peeter out... but these last few times... im just.. BIG mad #idk if i even should be.. but I'm mad and remain mad #is that healthy? or is what i was doing before healthy? #i remember being told i had anger problems as a kid #but at the same time most of my anger was justified... but as a kid i was told and taught #it was very unladylike to be so angry/loud about my problems- especially with other people #... turns out Joke's on them. I'm not a lady. *snorts* in no way am i a lady #idk if i can even pass in a dress tbh 😂 I'm just.. not lady-like #I'm not saying I'm not pretty/cute or my mannerisms aren't unlike conventional standards in other ways #but I'm just... not a lady 😅 dresses are so awkward for me. comfortable as sin sometimes. but awkward #anyway... yeah... such big mad and idk what to do about that. don't want to keeo quiet #I'm okay with letting it go as long as the problems are solved... but as they aren't #i stay mad...? #rambling in tags