#it's not like people watching bc that's passive. Advanced People Watching ig bc I intend to act in the mix

[queers4years]

Fellas is it neurotypical to treat large social gatherings as a psychological simulation where you are both the scientist and subject 

#And when things go well it's like I won the simulation. And I either implemented or observed the right elements for a good time w/ x group #people are so interesting #it's not like people watching bc that's passive. Advanced People Watching ig bc I intend to act in the mix #Like I've been like this since I was a child doing a sociological study of The Boys and how to fit into their hierarchy as a 'girl' #But with social events you have the basic elements like music. Venue. Number of people etc. #Which is the foundation of the night. If elements are lacking ur gonna have to do some maneuvering to keep it lit #and then you add the people. Oh the people. #depending on location I tend to separate them into 3 rough populations: guys girls and gays #And it's so fascinating to see how they interact or stratify #And comparing the reception of peers vs the reception I receive I learn my standing and strategize who I'm around #seeing how the different populations receive me is so interesting. how peers interpret my gender #so I'm constantly collecting data on that #And when I pursue ppl successfully it's like The World Is All A Part Of My Game-meme. I win the strategy application prize #everyone else is dancing and vibing and I'm playing 4D chess conducting psychological experiments. And dancing #and all of this is very very normal #like super normal #everyone does this haha right? ...right...? #my posts #my additions #rambling #neurodivergent