#its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything

[skitskatdacat63]

I need to remind myself often it's okay to take as long as I need to work on projects/drawings

#dangerous grind mindset territory >:( #i get so weird abt wips like #unless its extremely relevant no one is gonna care rly how long it takes #like if someone shared a wip with *me* and they took a while to finish it or never finished it #id still be like ahhhh so cool #but then i get into a weird mindset of like: you need to finish this TONIGHT #and then it never happens lol #as i said its only random occurrences when i can sit down and finish smth in one night #i need to remind myself: these things take time #i think my brain is sometimes running on a deadline that doesn't exist #theres a weird point btwn: #enjoying encouragement bcs it makes you feel more motivated to finish smth #but also feeling this odd sense of guilt and obligation #i draw for myself but literally for my whoel time drawing i often feel obligation towards a nonexistent audience #some imaginary force thats gonna be disappointed if i dont finish smth in [illogical period of time] #its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything #but its weird to start feeling the same thoughts abt schoolwork for your hobby #basically: I hate setting deadlines for myself bcs it just never works out #if i say 'you must work on this tonight!' i will absolutely not be working on this tonight #funny feeling when you start being like 'aaaahhh everyone is gonna hate me if i dont post this soon' #i think its nice when i can post smth i talk about in a quick turn-around #but rationally i know that if people are interested they wont care how long it takes <3 bcs id feel the same #also i guess i get put out some times seeing how fast other people can create :/ #catie has 3 moods(for creation): #a. complete and utter burnout #b. not burnt out but finishing smth takes more than just one day. maybe a wk or more #c. can finish a piece in one day or even one sitting. often draws several things right after the other #C is truly the goat 🙏 i feel blessed when i get into that mindset #blah blah blah please stop feeling beholden to something that doesnt exist. thanks catie. #catie.rambling.txt