#its partly due to my ed relapse and partly to do with school and partly to do with corona

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mm my depression is getting worse againnn

#ed tw #suicide mention tw #its partly due to my ed relapse and partly to do with school and partly to do with corona #may i please be mentally well may i PLEASE be mentally well... just for a little bit. as a treat.. #im realising its getting harder to enjoy things and find motivation these days #and although its not as bad as it used to be #thanks to my antidepressants #but i cant help feeling like i just want nothing to do with my own life #even if its just for now #i think im just overwhelmed #but i dont want to end my life anymore and i know im not going to attempt to #which is nice i suppose #im just rlly tired and i want a BREAKK #i wanna stop having to deal with everything for a while #i wanna forget exams and my ed and corona and my funding and college and my failures #i literally just wanna not do shit for a while #i dont wanna care abt or do ANYTHINGGG #yeah im just overwhelmed and its getting 2 me.. will talk abt this with my therapist soon #most likely thursday bc ive got a dietician app tues and a family/diagnosis app weds #then obs and weight clinic on thurs when i can actually talk 2 them face 2 face #hh why is existing irritating