#its something i felt very often and so theres a twinge of that in my writing very often

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the blade fic 🔫🔫 empty out your pockets and give me any additional thoughts or comments u have >:3c

OH GAWSH HI GWEN,,, you make me blush how did you know i have 1,000,001 thoughts abt every fic i write,,, you ask and i must deliver

the blade fic was so full of projecting but also im just so addicted to portrayals of social anxiety and feeling alienated/out of place in a group of people that are supposed to be your peers,,, i think thats something people experience at ANY age from like elementary school to WORKING age like you could be 40 in an established career and i think you can definitely still have moments where you're like "there is SOMETHING about me that makes me feel different from everyone and i do not think i belong here"

and in any school setting especially,,, i think that feeling very easily festers in u and oough... theres just a lot of feelings that i want to put into writing and this fic was my way to do it

ALSO PUKING FROM SOCIAL ANXIETY HELP,,, very personal experience,,, i know too intimately the feeling of anxiety becoming PHYSICAL and i think that can be so funny but also tragic sometimes Like the actual devastation of vomiting in public and being like "guys what happened"

i also love that i wrote for blade,, i was shuffling between so many characters for a roommate fic and im gonna be honest i was 2 bottled lemonades away from writing about SAMPO... i will never make that mistake again. i think blade has sweetheart potential in every universe but especially in a modern roommate au,, i think he would be so sarcastic and lovingly mean but have moments of like... AGGRESSIVE vulnerability,,, that line from the fic where he's like "i would do a lot of things if you asked" I stared at that line for five minutes and decided to keep it in becuase it just FELT like it fits him

I'm also absolutely gonna use this as an excuse to plug my in-progress blade hs au supernatural fic... Im so incredibly excited for that because that one is more comedy-oriented and i made blade a sarcastic funny loser in it and i think thats beauitufl... at the end of the day that's what he is... blade my sweetie pie forever and always.... i'll get him on his next rerun banner in four years....

#you've read my mind once again ... i always have a craving to talk about my own fic i have too many thoughts and i MSUT get them out #mmmm yes..... my ego is being cultivated and nourished.... yes.... #trust that the blade hs supernatural au will be finished in.... a month... max... zzzz...... hang tight everyone #also oh gawsh #not to be like 'everything is about being queer for me' but ... everything is about being queer for me #and that feeling of 'something is slightly off' applies not just to having overall social anxiety #but also applies to being queer #its something i felt very often and so theres a twinge of that in my writing very often #feeling very slightly out of place because everyone around you just cant relate to your experiences 100% #mhhh.... underlying themes in writing.....yesss......... #nora answers

[mister-lady]

Janus!!

Ah tytytyty!!!!! This one was verie fun to do!!! An ty for the ask I appreciate it lowts >w<!!!! I just kinda went freestyle wiff this one!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖🥰🥰🥰

Tw: bribing(in a playful manner), bargaining in some sense.

Ship: stolen hats and gloves (Janus)

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"Nnooooooo!!!!" Matt fussed.

"Come on, its going to be cold and I need it!" Janus playfully argued back.

"Then just stay inside!!" Matt wailed.

"You know I got to go! And it's the warmest thing I have!!"

"Uugghhh, cant you just take mine or something?"

"You know why I can't."

Matt huffed. This was a normal thing for them to argue about. Matt and Janus had both been too lazy to cook soemthing so they just went ahead and ordered something online and since the place didn't do take-out they had to go and pick it up; which of course, was no big deal! Matt especially always enjoyed the serenity rides where they just talked about some silly things together and Matt got to play with their free hand while they used the other to drive. Normally what was currently happening didn't often occur, but it wasn't unusual for this to happen either. Though, throughout the whole thing, the two guys couldn't help but smile and play a little.

"Matt, it's just going to be for a short moment I promise, now can i please have my hoodie back?" Janus asked.

"But it's so soofffttt, an..it smells like you...an it fits me perfectly!!" Matt flusteredly argued.

"Yes, and you look lovely in it, but it's mine and I need it."

"You dont need it! Theres plenty of other hoodies!"

"We need to go and pick up the food before they get upset and us and throw it out. You can wear my hoodie once we get back!"

"No!"

"Please?"

"Well, maybe you shouldn't have gotten the most perfect hoodie!"

"...you bought me that hoodie?"

"Yes, and then you made it the most bestest ever by wearing it and its mine now."

"Here, how about this, if you give it to me now I'll let you have it all day tomorrow."

"Hhmmmmm.....maaayyybbbeeee..."

"Maybee?"

"Maybe..."

"I'll give you cuddles and let you pet my scales!"

"You let me do that anyways tho-" Matt was cut off by Janus.

"-Hush"

Matt giggled at Janus's reaction, only to squeak out a yelp when Janus swiftly, but gently, picked him up off of his feet.

"Hey!! Not fair!!" Matt pouted, and turned away from Janus's gaze, hoping he wouldn't see the blush on his cheeks.

"What can I do to make you give me my jacket?" Janus asked.

"I dunno.." Matt muttered.

"I'll do anything." Janus coaxed.

"Anything?" Matt asked, suddenly intrigued.

"Anything." Janus echoed his response.

"Hmmm...." Matt smiled and quickly got to thinking on what he could have Janus do for him that would equal giving him his hoodie back.

Janus softly rocked Matt back and forth in his arms as he contently paced around the room. He knew Matt wouldn't pick anything he didn't want to do, and in all honesty, knowing what Matt normally "subjects" him into doing, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of excitement and curiosity for what it would be this time.

Matt was trying to think outside of the box for once. He had a lot of things he repeatedly had Janus do for him, but he wanted to do something unique. Sudddenly, an idea flowed into Matt's mind, and he couldn't help but smile at the thought. Of course, since it was something he didn't typically pick, he couldn't help but feel some odd shyness at saying what it was.

"Well?" Janus asked, clearly noticing the smile across Matt's face.

"I got an ideaaaa" Matt tiptoed around his words.

"What kind of idea?"

"Well, it's more of a trade than idea.."

"Oh, really now? Making me trade my own hoodie for something else that's probably also mine?" Janus teasingly joked, as if he could read Matt's thoughts.

Matt felt his cheeks heat up and avoided eye contact out of flusteredness.

"Hm?" Janus smirked and gently pushed Matt into responding.

"Mayybee" Matt softly murmured.

"Okay, so what's the trade offer? I'm not just going to let you have anything that's mine!"

"Its not going to be a big trade! Just.. something equal! Something that I can at least have while you're gone!"

"We're going to be in the car together though-"

"Yes, but I can't cuddle you while you're driving!"

"Fair enough."

Matt smiled and giggled as he carefully snuck his hands up and placed his fingers around the brim of Janus's hat while casting down a glance every now and then making sure he was okay with it.

Janus let out a sigh, but clearly wasn't in an offensive or annoyed manner. "Go on. You can take it. I don't mind if you do." Janus allowed Matt.

Matt gasped in excitement and eagerly grabbed Janus's hat and held it and looked at it in an admirable way before quickly placing it on top of his own head.

Janus couldn't help but give him a loving look, seeing his lover get so happy and joyous over soemthing as simple as having his hat warmed his heart.

"May I have my hoodie back now?" Janus softly asked.

Matt quickly nodded, and took off the hoodie and draped it over one of Janus's shoulders. Matt's hands ended up going back to the newly placed hat on his head and delicately messed with it, rubbing it and feeling the texture and such.

"You look nice in my hat." Janus complimented him.

Matt shyly looked away as he felt himself blush, but couldn't help too smile at the compliment. "Thank you, I'm normally not too much of a hat person."

"Well, I think you look lovely in mine. You may wear it whenever you'd like."

Matt's eyes lit up and shook his hands from happiness. "Wait- really??? You mean it?"

Janus nodded, and gently placed Matt back on his own feet while turning to put his hoodie on.

"I'm never going to take it off!" Matt happily spoke.

#🎵jamie!!🎵 #sorry dis took so long to get too- #but tyyy🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰❤💕💘💗❤💕💘 #illyy!!!!

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29 Neibolt ST (Monster Roommate AU) Chapter 3

Alright friends things are heating up. Pennyboi learns how to deal with feelings and Leech gets a job. Some weird stuff with meat happens. Leatherface is a pure beautiful soul and must be protected. Next chapter will contain SMUT.

Warnings: Mild Nsfw, Blood, Swearing, Drug Use, Alcohol, Fluff. 

CHAPTER 3

Help.

The young vampire to be had been there a full month now and she hated to admit it but she had never been happier. This was truly a new start for her. People even stopped calling her by her original name preferring to use the one Pennywise had given her when they first met. It was meant as an insult but it fit her so well she kept it. She was a bloodsucker now after all. Lucy was gone Leech was who she was now. She had a new job lined up, new friends, a great mentor and she was even given a wig by Leatherface as a housewarming gift when her hair began to fall out. Aside from the impending death and losing humanity thing….and that damn clown…. this was nice. This could work.

Movie night at the Neibolt house was a big event. Everyone joined in even Pennywise who usually kept to himself but when Dracula insisted he join in to make a certain proto-vampire happy the clown reluctantly agreed. He hated that the elder vampire knew about his affliction.

When Dracula found out about it he had been confronting the clown over his disheveled state. “You seem less cruel to my young apprentice and you look like you have stopped feeding. You are infatuated.”

“Infat- What?! No! Leech is, she’s, well we’re just………I mean….I……..…..what do I do.” He was weak and defeated. Pennywise had never had a positive feeling like this before and Dracula was the only one other than Chucky that knew how to deal with this sort of thing.

“You must pursue her it'll be healthy for the both of you! My poor apprentice has been worried sick about her transition for weeks now! Yes! ROMANCE HER WOO HER GIVE HER YOUR LOVE.” The elder vampire was a complete hopeless romantic.

“I was just going to go back to eating my feelings till this goes away?”

“NAY YOU MUST COURT THE BEAUTIFUL WOMAN. I HAVE FAILED IN LOVE BUT YOU CHILD YOU STILL HAVE A CHANCE”

“One, I'm way older than you. Two no.”

“LOOK AT YOURSELF BOY, YOU ARE WASTING AWAY IN LOVE! GIVE HER YOUR HEART END YOUR ETERNAL LONELINESS.”

“What part of older than you do you- never mind lets pretend this never happened.”

“YOU WILL SEE SOON ENOUGH BOY, YOU WILL SEE THAT YOU CANNOT HIDE FROM LOVE.”

Pennywise hated how that he was right about that. He tried eating more and began to look healthy again until Leech walked by in the kitchen two days later and gave him a damn compliment. Who does she think she is telling him he looked extra scary today. The nerve!

“At least theres popcorn” he grumbled plopping down onto one of the couches. Having two giant monsters in the house plus a very territorial cat required multiple couches and chairs so everyone could fit around the old antique tv.

“Whats on the menu tonight boys” Freddy says opening a beer taking up a whole lazy boy to himself.

“Something we can do a drinking game with please?” came Leech’s request from the kitchen she was busy making drinks for her new friends after she bragged she could make them killer cocktails that would knock their socks off. It also to try to persuade Leatherface to put in a good word for her when applied for the position of bartender at the newly remodeled Sawyer’s.  Dracula was assisting her while carefully watching her glances and shy smiles whenever she heard Penny’s bells. The elder vampire had never had a protege before and he had to admit her fiery personality was growing on him, shed make a fine creature of the night eventually he just had to get her past her unwillingness to change. Leech found it annoying that he was constantly nagging her about her transition. Tonight it was all about how vampires cant hold their liquor. But she liked her mentor, he was like the father she never had and she would often find herself coming to him with questions not only about her condition but also life in general.

“Atta girl Leech you're a woman after my own dead heart” Freddy shouted back the two had been bonding more smoking on the porch talking shit about people who got on their nerves that day. They did have quite a few things in common one was tequila and the other was epic amounts of sass. Pennywise did feel a twinge of jealousy over it but knew if he said something Freddy would tell everyone the eldritch embodiment of fear had a big stupid crush on someone he normally considered food.

“All right guys heres my official audition for bartender at Sawyer’s. Tip jar is on the counter for when all you assholes are blown away by how great I am.” she boasted passing out the drinks.

“Big talk for someone who's tolerance is sinking faster than the Titanic” said Chucky

“Shut up and drink doll. I’ll let my talent do all the ass kicking for me.”

“What the hell is this?” Freddy asked poking the puffy pice of spun sugar

“Cotton candy martinis bitch!”

Pennywise choked on his popcorn.

She begun finishing handing them out and as Penny picked his up his giant hand touched hers. They blinked at each other for a second. “Something wrong Pen? Did I uh offend you with the circus flavors?”

“Oh um no no just something on your um something on your face!” Dracula rolled his eyes at him dramatically from the kitchen.

“Oh where.” Leech frowned.

“Its um… no stop stop! Don't touch it. Just let me do it..” The clown quickly pretended to wipe something off her nose. “nailed it.” He thought.

Chucky's eyes grew wide when he saw the exchange. “No fucking way” he whispered.

Leatherface was delighted at the sweet drink. He even giggled when his friend put the cotton candy in the liquor and it dissolved. “So you think I got the job big guy?” he grunted happily in approval “Aw shucks Bubba you're the best!” she hugged the lovable giant murderer. Leech smiled wide with cockiness “nailed it.” She said to herself.

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“Wait you only have a waitress job??? But I thought I was applying to be a bartender!?” she complained at the giant the next day. She wasn't mad at him though it was the rest of his family’s fault probably. They Sawyer clan were a bunch of boys they needed a cute girl in the restruant to be the bait for their…. meat source. Finally the young vampire sighed “Fine I’ll take it, anything at this point. Just let me know when I start.” Desperate times call for desperate measures. “Do I at least get a nice uniform?” she asked.

Leatherface nodded enthusiastically, he brought out a bag from behind his back and handed it to her. Freddy was now watching with glee from around the corner. He had been planning this for the past week.

“Oh you've got to be kidding me.” she growled from the bathroom and Freddy laughed.

“Whats so funny?” Pennywise asked sipping a hot cocoa with way too many marshmallows

“I helped the big guy pick the new uniform for the waitresses wait till you see it.”

Leech creaked the door open her face bright red. As she stepped out Pennywise spit his drink and nearly choked on a marshmallow. She was in a tied flannel top and daisy dukes. “Who told you this was a good idea Leatherface?” the giant happily pointed at Freddy’s hiding spot who was on the floor cackling now. Chucky walked by and his jaw nearly fell on the floor before running to get Tiff. Pennywise was 100% broken. He couldn't believe what he was seeing. “Can I at least wear an actual shirt instead?”

Leatherface looked sad she didn't like the uniform. “Oh no” she thought “He's proud of it.”

“Hey hey big guy! I didn't mean it the uniforms great don't be sad see I’m going to put it away for tomorrow ok!”

Pennywise left the room quickly unable to remain there for much longer without….feeeeeeling.

Chucky walked over to him giving his leg a sharp jab with his elbow.

“What do you want doll.” he snarled

“You're a mess Jingles. Why don't you do something about it?”

“I don't know what you're talking about.”

“Your lame school boy crush on the baby bloodsucker.”

“I dont-“

“Don't even man you were practically having a heart attack back there, plus you were staring at her the entire movie night. Tiff thinks its cute.”

“Does everyone know now?”

“Pretty much.”

The clown fell on the floor against the fridge. “Then I need your…………help.” The last word was a struggle for him.

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Leech marched into the old house carrying the an entire butcher shop in grocery bags. Drops of cold animal blood dripped down from her purchases and Church had come out of hiding to follow her to the kitchen where she began to pack the fridge and freezer full of raw meat.

“Ok clown your girl’s home go talk to her.” Chucky whispered from behind Pennywise who was hiding on the stairway to the basement.

“Compliment her ears she's been very self conscious about them lately” Dracula suggested to him.

As Pennywise attempted to step forward he paused when he saw the young vampire. She looked to be in a trance as she put meat away finally stopping at a package of bratwursts and taking a deep inhale of the bloody sausage. She let out a small whimper and as a drop of drool fell from her lips the clown felt his breath hitch. “What are you waiting fo- woah!!!” Chucky paused when he saw that Leech has taken one of the sausages out of the package and was brining it to her hungry open mouth. Her tongue had rolled out and she swallowed the meat whole like a snake. “Holy fuck Jingles thats uh… thats some girl you got there…” Chucky’s jaw dropped. Pennywise was completely frozen unable to speak. “Well ah.. nosferatu fledglings do have a…ahem insatiable appetite” Dracula dabbed his brow.

“We’re uh….we’re gonna go….good luck Jingles…” Chucky and Drac both bolted out of the room as Leech finished the tray of sausages completely unaware and going into a slight frenzy.

She ripped open a roast now and began violently tearing the meat with her dull human teeth. She started sucking the blood through the flesh while making obscene gasping sounds as she fed. Drool poured out of Pennywise’s mouth in record amounts as he watched the vampire. She tore off her beanie revealing her bald head and large bat like ears which began to fold straight up against the side of her head. Leech’s eyes flashed forward as she finished Penny marveled at how they looked like little reflections of the full moon against her dark eye circles she was becoming a truly terrifying monster. The clown had never seen something so beautiful or smelled something so sweet. The nosferatu came down from her high panting and gasping looking at the animal blood on her hands and the drool on the floor. “What the hell just happened?” she said to herself. She heard a soft jingle and her face lit up, she quickly put on her beanie to hide her baldness and wiped her face. “Penny?!” she said asked excitedly a small blush creeped onto her cheeks. Her face fell when no one answered. “Must have been my imagination…” she mumbled starting to clean up her mess.

Pennywise had retreated to his lair leaning back in his nest panting with need. He looked down at the tall tent in his pantaloons and shut his eyes. This was bad. He never really felt feelings like desire or lust, not like this. There were maybe a handful of occasions where he was in heat and took a lover for the night disguised as a human but he saw them as more tools than mates. Pennywise couldn't even remember some of their names, he was pretty sure he ate a few after he was done with them too. But this oh this, this was completely different. This new feeling was not something he could just relieve and get on with his hunting. This was a burning need for someone he saw as an equal, someone like him. A fellow predator, a potential mate. He didn't want anyone else he wanted her. And he hated it.

As promised the next chapter will get STEAMY. So stay tuned for that. 

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