#its strange looking back and thinkgi about who i was back then and how i was percieved

[captainshyguy]

man, looking back on childhood stuff is so weird. it wasnt even a bad time really (besides like, bullying) but it almost feels like its someone elses 

#i've been out of school for nearly 5 years #its strange looking back and thinkgi about who i was back then and how i was percieved #i knda so the same thing leaf does where m very goal oriented #so sometimea a sense of self beyond like. online prescence and the present hits me #like right. my body and all this is tied to those memories #those are things that happened #the good the bad and the mundane #i was a geeky little girl and not whatever gay nebulous identity i feel like now #for a long time i wasnt 'boy but like to the left lmao' #i think thats where the disconnect comes #because i cant say 'i've always felt like a dude/not a girl' because i HAVENT #for many years i did! #and thats just something thats changed! #when i realised i could be well what i wanted yknow? #luke rambles #so those memroeis feel like they're tied to another person #which they arent. they're MINE. just a different version of me. a younger me