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Maybe it wasn’t the best idea for me to read your latest chapter of KSFM while on my lunch break at work (earlier this morning at 2:00am, mind you) 😭 but I’ve heard that Angst is the new Fluff so… I’ll let you continue taking me on this emotional rollercoaster. This story is really fascinating and I love the way you write Lily, especially this moment(I hope I don’t spoil this for anyone who hasn’t read it yet):
It was too much to imagine. Too much to bear. He’d wanted her — needed her — and she’d just…slept.
“He stopped wanting to visit,” Arthur went on, “just before his fourth year. He just wanted a break from seeing you that way, I think. -KSFM ch 30
😩 😩 😞 😔 😞 even before this, when Lily told Arthur he’s a guest and when he replied that he enjoys washing the plates the Muggle way, is very kind/sweet. I had a sense that during this mundane task something would be revealed and yup I was correct. Knowing that Harry didn’t want to visit her while she was in a coma is just so painful. You really captured the emotions from both Arthur and Lily in this little scene. It makes me wonder if there’s something that inspired you to have this moment between those two characters.
Plus the little scene where Lily is talking to Neville about wanting to sit down and tell him stories and everything he wanted to know about his parents felt as if you sent a crucio to my heart 🥹🥹 that was so sweet and heartbreaking 💔 i feel as Lily in that moment realized how hurt this boy was at the moment and in a sense sees a bit of her own son in him. Both boys robbed from parents that love them all because of an act of evil, even though Neville grew up better than Harry it doesn’t take away the pain he felt/feels. There’s not many scenes/fics that capture Neville and I’m glad you touched upon this topic. It’s really fitting of Lily’s character, the compassion and understanding is just ❤️
Nena!!!! You absolute ANGEL! Thank you for this!!!
I'm so so happy you enjoyed this chapter! (And that you're enjoying Lily and the fic overall!) Thank you for sharing these thoughts with me!🫶
I'm thrilled that you liked the Arthur scene!! I've actually had it written for so long. I think I originally wrote it for chapter 25? But then ended up delaying it because it didn't feel like it fit there. I've definitely been wanting Lily to bond with Arthur for some time now. It's important to the overall story that she does (for reasons I can't discuss without spoilers so I'll leave it at that 😉). I guess the main inspiration for that conversation though is just that I love Arthur Weasley (SUCH a criminally underrated character in my opinion) and I want to develop his relationship with the Potters.
One of the major themes I think about when writing KSFM is Harry's longing for a father figure. He had Hagrid, early on, and now of course he has Sirius too. (And Sirius, being the amazing godfather that he is, has become the main one.) But I've always seen Arthur as a father figure to Harry too. Harry clearly admires and respects him so much in canon. And, while it's explicitly stated and often clearly shown that Molly loves Harry like she's his own, I've always believed Arthur does too. He certainly isn't as close to Harry as Sirius is, but he's known him longer (in Harry's memory at least) and has more first-hand experience with how Harry was coping with Lily being in a coma. So I feel he has a very interesting perspective to share about the growth that he's witnessed in Harry and the developing bond he's observed between Harry and Lily.
As for Lily, she definitely feels a bit (understandably) lost when it comes to parenting a teenager, so I think she craves parenting mentors and I like that she finds that in both of the Weasley parents! (Although they're certainly not perfect, as nobody is.) As we go forward, I also have plans to develop Lily's backstory more...and, without saying too much right now...you may find that Harry isn't the only person who craves a father figure...
ANYWAY. Sorry. That was such a long, rambling answer to your question😂😂 But the gist of it is that I just love finding ways to further develop the bond between the Potter and Weasley families!
As for your comment about the Neville scene – I'm so happy you like that part! It might have been my favorite scene to write in this :) You've articulated my own thoughts on it so well here!! I definitely agree that Lily sees some of Harry in Neville. (just like she sees herself in Rose in this chapter, but that's another discussion lol). I also think she feels naturally protective of Neville because she knew him as a baby and he's Alice's son...who I've decided was something of a mentor/older sister figure to Lily. (Someone who was like a good older sister...unlike the older sister Lily actually has😬). I'm always interested in the parallels between the Longbottoms and the Potters, and I'm definitely looking forward to bringing Neville into this fic more going forward! He's such a sweetheart and a character who deserves so much better than he's been treated!
Lily's compassion is so important to me! It's so vital to her character and I definitely am trying to show that she has so much love to give. And more people than Harry will benefit immensely from her being alive in this story🫶 (I love the idea of her being a mentor to her students, an Aunt-figure to Neville, and an actual Aunt to Dudley, a sisterly figure to Tonks, and a sort-of-daughter-figure to Arthur & Molly in addition to being Harry's mom and Sirius & Remus's friend.)
Thanks again for your kind words about KSFM and for this lovely, lovely ask!!! (And thanks for reading this whole answer, sorry that it got so long I just LOVE talking about this fic and Lily in general!!!)❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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You know what I didn’t even think about the Taylor Swift reference until you brought it up 😂
But….now that I think of it, there are plenty of blank spaces, in your writing (you know the spaces between each word/paragraph etc) that being said you may as well drop the chapter earlier than anticipated- kidding of course take your time.
The word is: Every single word in the English dictionary 😇
Fine, I suppose I’ll be serious this time,
“Vernon”
Yes, that’s the word plus I can’t imagine James’s reaction towards that vile excuse of a man. Every time I think of Vernon, I always think of the scene where Lily uses crucio on him. I had chills reading it the first time, i was legit afraid for him.
Then again that’s one of the chapters that I enjoy a lot because of the insane amount of fury that Lily has. In a way, it was a glimpse of Lily in an order mission. Like, if she went near DE who were going to ambush or attack a Muggleborn, Lily would jump in and do whatever it takes to protect the person. She definitely isn’t just a pretty face, that joined the Order.
Oh my GOD. What a submission!!!
Okay, so quick disclaimer that this is from a chapter of my James Lives AU that I haven’t actually outlined yet, so it’s kind of just a random thought I wrote down. It’s definitely an idea I plan to develop further, but I have no idea at the moment what chapter it will be included in yet. But okay, here it is:
There was another sound of screeching metal, followed by the guard’s retreating footsteps, and James didn’t need to look up to know who would be standing there.
“Is he dead?” James asked — still staring blankly at that crack in the ceiling.
A long silence followed his query, before Sirius finally spoke. “No. Vernon Dursley is not dead.”
James exhaled, fists clenching again with nobody left to fight. “I’ll have to try harder next time.”
“James.”
Alright, hope you enjoy that😏
Thanks for the fun submission! And thanks for always being so supportive of KSFM!! It means SO much to me that you love KSFM Lily. I’m literally obsessed with her💕
#james lives au#a tide in the affairs#kindly stopped for me#ksfm spoilers#chapter 8#tag game#word excerpt asks
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KSFM ask: is the mcd warning about James or 👀👀👀 (I’ll be happy either way, hahah, love me some angst)
Okay, here we go! Kind of a spoilery answer ahead:
Yes. The Main Character Death tag is referring to James. This is something I went back and forth on for a while before I started posting, and I still don't know if that tag belongs there, since James dies in the first chapter of the story. But we do see him die in the story. And his death and its aftermath has a huge effect on the main characters, especially Lily. The idea is that James is very present in the story, even if he isn't actually alive for the vast majority of it. I kind of think of him as a main character, even if he mostly exists as a theme/idea.
But also...(and I need to keep this vague so I don't give too much away)...there are several almost deaths in the story...so death-related angst will be present👀
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⭐ for the director's cut ask for KSFM if you'd like!
Thank you!!!!
There are so many scenes that I could talk about for ages (including ones in chapters that haven't been posted yet that I am so desperately excited to get to) but after much deliberation, and in honor of Blackevans BFF week, I would love to discuss a little moment that takes place in Chapter 18!
Under the cut for KSFM Chapter 18 spoilers and length :)
There are a LOT of things in canon that break my heart, especially when it comes to James, Lily, and Sirius, but the idea of Sirius showing up in Godric's Hollow on that night is possibly the most heart-wrenching.
It's an idea that's too painful for me to fully wrap my brain around...the idea of walking into the home of the three most important people in the world to you and finding them like that. I have people in my life who I love just as much and I refuse to even fathom that idea of losing them at all, let alone finding them in this way.
And I think, far too often, Sirius running after Peter that night is painted as an example of him just being reckless/impulsive. Which, sure, there's an element of that, but it's so much deeper than that too. It's very telling to me that Sirius's first reaction is to try to get Hagrid to give Harry to him...to promise that he would look after Harry...to do everything he could in that absolutely awful moment to fulfill his most important promise to his best friends.
It's only after Hagrid repeatedly refuses, when Sirius is left with no further options short of trying to take Harry away by force (which wasn't really an option considering Hagrid was holding him and Sirius wouldn't've done anything that could've possibly gotten Harry injured), that he finally starts thinking about Peter.
So basically to me, Sirius going after Peter that night was not an act of impulsivity, but an act of hopelessness. He'd just lost his entire remaining family in one fell swoop — he blamed himself for it — and so he no longer cared what happened to him. Grief and revenge was all he had left.
So here, in KSFM, there's of course this twist that Lily was actually alive when Sirius found her. But Sirius didn't know that, because he'd just walked into the house to find it half-destroyed, with his best friend lying dead on the stairs. I'm sure Sirius's first reaction to that would've been denial, and he would've taken the time to try and wake James only to be slapped in the face with the realization that that was impossible. So by the time he made it upstairs in a haze of horror and shock and found Lily sprawled on the floor of the nursery, with Harry crying in Hagrid's arms...well it wouldn't be unreasonable for him to automatically assume he's lost her as well.
Ouch.
But imagine if he had taken the time to check her pulse? Imagine if he'd discovered that Lily was alive, that there was still a glimmer of hope? He still would've been deliriously miserable and grief-stricken about James, of course, but Lily was one of his best friends too, so I fully believe that thoughts of Peter would've been far from his mind in that moment. That his reaction would have been something along the lines of — Lily's still alive...we have to save Lily...and he wouldn't have left her side until she got the medical attention she needed. Because James was gone, but goddamn it he wouldn't lose Lily too. It would've been something he could've held onto, in the worst night of his life.
If you extend that hypothetical, I don't know what would've happened next. Because Lily still wouldn't have woken until years later, and she was the one who knew he wasn't the Secret Keeper. Maybe he would've gone after Peter once it became clear she wasn't waking up anytime soon, maybe he wouldn't have, but him taking the time to care for Lily and get her medical help would've surely raised some eyebrows and cast dispersions on the theory that he was some heartless traitor/Death Eater who wanted the Potters dead. It might have been enough to get him a trial, at the very least.
So anyway, sorry, back to this Chapter 18 moment. Sirius is grappling with the guilt of this...with the idea that Harry's life might've ended up being very different if only Sirius had known that Lily was still alive. I think he tells Lily that because he can see that she feels so much crushing guilt for not having her wand that night, and he wants to take that pain away from her — put it on himself instead.
When he tells her all this, it's a confession. He expects Lily to hate him for this as much as he does, but instead — she meets his forgiveness with forgiveness of her own. She feels nothing but compassion at the thought of how much pain and misery her friend felt that fateful Halloween, so she reaches out to him with assurances and comfort that she's alive, she's still alive, and dwelling on the guilt doesn't help either of them so long as they learn from their mistakes.
It doesn't solve everything, obviously. They are both still riddled with guilt and grief about James, but this moment is them dealing with the fact that they're not alone in it.
Oh, also that little moment when Lily shows Sirius how to check her pulse? That might be important later. That's all I'll say😏
#kindly stopped for me#chapter 18#a little blackevans hurt/comfort in honor of blackevans week#this is so angsty tho hahaha OOPS#I'M SORRY
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Heyy. I saw the post you were talking about Sandy, one of James's exes before Lily, and I loved how you didnt minimize her into just a love interest but someone with a personality and life aside of their relationship. Thats something you rarely see in fandoms and I appreciate how nuance you make these characters. This made me wonder,
1. How long was the time line was James and Sandy's relationship? Were they on again off again or were they stable?
2. Was Lily in any significant relationships ? I know from a fic you wrote that she had one bf, and went on a date with Aubrey(if it wasnt obvious I read all your work and am obsessed with writing from all the speculation🙈) but were there more? Lily stuck to me as someone with a lot of experience on relationships and dating than James but Im curious to know your take
3. What was Jily like as a couple? Were they private about their affection or did they have alot of PDA? How did their friends react when they found out? Did they keep it a secret for a while
Anyway, would love to know your takes on these and pls dont feel obligated to do so. Just KSFM always go a place in my heart and just consider this a love letter to all your amazing work I've been bless to read
Hey!! Thanks for this ask!!
I'm so happy to hear that you enjoyed what I wrote about Sandy! I definitely agree that it's unfortunately far too common for female characters in fandom (and original fiction too) to be reduced to love interests and nothing more, and it means a lot to me that you find my characters to be nuanced. So thanks for that!
As for your questions:
I'm not entirely sure how long it was exactly, but I definitely think it was an on-again-off-again type of situation that happened in their sixth year. I think they had some good moments, but ultimately they just weren't the right fit for each other. (Different personalities, interests, senses of humor, etc.) I also have this idea that it started because James thought dating someone would help him get over Lily (in the aftermath of SWM). Spoiler alert: it didn't!😅 So yeah, I'd say they were together for a short time (A month maybe? 2?), and it was fairly tumultuous. But they both ended up finding people better suited for them!
I definitely think Lily had more experience in the dating department than James did before they got together. I can see her having a few boyfriends before James, and having at least 1 of those be a serious relationship that lasts for several months. (a big deal for teenagers!) But outside of those relationships I think she went on various first dates that were terrible before finally accepting that she fancied James. For Bertram Aubrey specifically, my headcanon was that it was kind of a Hermione/McLaggen situation – meaning Lily agreed to go on a date with him because she thought it would make James jealous but then the date was so awful she couldn't bare to go on a second one.😂
I sort of go back and forth on this. I think there's many interpretations that are equally fun. But I do like to think that Lily took her Head Girl role seriously and tried be good example for the younger students, so I think they tried to keep PDA to a minimum around strangers/acquaintances. But they were very comfortable with each other and didn't mind annoying the other Marauders and Lily's friends with their coupleness when it was just them😅 As for the secret dating thing, I think they tried to keep it a secret from the school at first in an effort to maintain some Head Girl-Head Boy professionalism, but I don't think that lasted very long because they just couldn't contain how crazy they were for each other. Plus, there was no way they fooled Sirius for even one second. James simply could not lie to him!😂
Thanks again for these questions, and for your kind words. I'm seriously touched to hear you've read all my fics and that you enjoyed them!! So consider this answer a love letter right back to you for this ask!!! 💕💌
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Happy Friday, KSFM readers! Here is a nonsensical, out-of-context spoiler for Chapter 29: 😅
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My future hopes and dreams for KSFM:
Hermione’s kids fangirling over bad bitch Lily (Omg!! Grandma Lily really defined Voldy 3+ times??!!) while Lily’s grandkids fangirl over bad bitch Hermione (Aunty Hermione really robbed Gringotts polyjuiced as the woman who tortured her and rode a fckn dragon!!!!??). I just think it’ll be so sweet watching 2 muggleborn women hyping each other up🙈
side note: ik technically Hermione’s kids are not Lily’s grandchildren but in my culture, we refer to our best friends family as whatever they call them. For example; if my best friend calls their grandma “nonna” I’ll also call her “nonna.” And I just thought it’d be sweet if Hermione’s kids called her “grandmum”
This is more of a question tbh but will we get a scene where Lily used the stone to talk to James? Or will Harry drop the stone in the forest (if there is a forest scene obvz).
Aww, the idea of Harry's friends' kids calling Lily "grandmum" is so cute!! At this point, I'm not sure if I'm going to be taking KSFM that far (to the next generation, I mean), but I love the idea of all of the future kids looking up to and adoring Lily!
Being a badass Muggleborn witch is such a vital part of Lily's character, and I'm sure you'll be pleased to know that there are definitely plans for some bonding between the Muggleborn ladies :)
As for your question.......I really can't answer that without spoilers, I'm sorry.😅 But I will be super cryptic and say that it may be at least partially answered when we get to chapters 55 and 56 (at least according to my outline at the moment) 😉
Thanks for this! I love that you have hopes and dreams for KSFM😊❤️
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11, 15, and 18!! For the ask game. :)
Ahh thank you!! Answer under the cut for length because I definitely rambled a little with the last question😅
11. If you could only write angst, fluff, or smut for the rest of your life, which would it be?
A tough question! But I think I would have to go with angst. It's just so juicy and heart-wrenching and there's just endless possibilities! It's also just...cathartic for me to write it I guess? Like even when things in my life are going well (like they are right now!), it's nice to just have that space to just feel.
If I could add a little compromise, I'd say angst with a happy ending. Because you can do all the feeling and then wrap it up with some healing!
15. A Hollywood producer tells you that they want to film just one of your fics. Which fic would you want it to be?
AHH! The answer simply has to be Kindly Stopped for Me. There are several scenes in there that I would love to see on a screen. I won't give too much away for people who haven't read it but I'll just say that I think a Hollywood producer would enjoy working with the various confrontation scenes that happen along the way😅 And whatever actress played Lily would have lots of emotionally charged material to work with!
18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene?
There are a bunch of individual lines here and there that I'm proud of, but my absolute favorite bit in all of Kindly Stopped for Me is this excerpt from Chapter 18 that, to me, is the heart and soul of the entire fic: (minor spoilers ahead, if you haven't read the fic yet!)
Standing there with his mother, in the room where they’d almost died, Harry finally felt the last remaining shards of the ice shatter between them. It all seemed so stupid to him then. So pointless. All the vulnerability he’d been hiding from…the words he’d struggled to say. The lingering reluctance that had kept him from opening up to her completely, from surrendering himself to the possibility of the disappointment he feared so fervently. It was all irrelevant to him now. Ridiculous.
Because what did any of that matter, as long as he had his mother? What was the point of being afraid of loving, if it was the only reason he was alive?
He crossed the room quickly, all other awareness fading away, and hugged his mother.
She started a little when his arms encircled her, perhaps surprised by the fact that he was the one initiating it. But she hugged him back without hesitation, and Harry could hold back the words no longer.
“I love you, Mum.”
I'd been building towards this for a while, because I definitely didn't think that trust and vulnerability would come easily to Harry, not even with Lily, and so I was trying not to rush their bonding journey (while also being conscious that I didn't drag it out too long). And I'm just...really proud of how it turned out! I don't reread posted KSFM chapters very often because I tend to get very in my head about things and only see ways they could've been better, but this is a snippet I find myself returning to a lot.
In terms of DVD commentary, I remember thinking of the context of this scene while I was driving home from the grocery store😅 I remember being stuck in traffic and letting my mind wander until I was thinking about how I could get to this next step in Lily & Harry's relationship and then the idea of them being in the Godric's Hollow nursery popped into my brain and I was SO EXCITED. I ran to my computer as soon as the groceries were put away and started writing this scene before I could forget and it came together really quickly! I was so giddy about it when I was done. It's such a lovely feeling when you realize you've written something exactly how you wanted it!!
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Hiya
I forgot to send you a drunk ask, but better late than never.
Have you ever thought of writing a Jily fic based on the song: Thug Story- Taylor Swift ft T Pain? How do you think the lyrics:
“I'm so gangsta you can find me baking cookies at night
You out clubbing, well I just baked Caramel Delights.” Do you think you can make this work with some angst or fluff 😂( I completely forgot this song existed up until a few minutes ago 😉).
Also, choosing a favorite chapter of ksfm is difficult for me as well, hmm I have a few that comes to mind. However the one chapter that pushes through the others is 56, when it’s revealed that James is alive this whole time.
Somehow the power he possessed when he stood in front of crusty old Voldemort on Halloween, had created a protective spell to be placed on him that kept him alive. James is frozen in time, similar to the way Lily lives. I would say more but I don't want to spoil the surprise 🥹👀
You joke but I absolutely think that could work for Jily😂😂 Pretty sure James is the one speaking. He may be bad at potions, but he can bake up a storm!! In a Death Eater free world, our boy would definitely be content to stay home and bake cookies for his wife.
I have been meaning to write more James POV fics……maybe it’s time for me to actually attempt some fluff!
Also 😅😅 omg. What a theory!!! A very interesting idea. But my lips are sealed regarding Chapter 56…..no spoilers from me!!!!!
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WIP Game
Thanks for the tag, @kay-elle-cee, @seriouslysam8, and @cersxisbitch!
Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
I don't actually have very many WIPs because my brain is too focused on KSFM to think about much else.😅 So I also included a list of short snippets that I have from future scenes that I could share/talk about without being too spoilery! (I have a huge chunk of chapter 59 already written but that is literally the biggest spoiler in the entire fic so can't reveal anything from there lol)
WIPS:
Kindly Stopped for Me
A Willow Cabin at Your Gate
The Thing With Feathers
KSFM Future Snippets:
"I've wanted to punch Sirius many times"
"Sometimes, in politics..."
The Bluff
Snogging Peeves?
"Idiot, idiot, legend, murderer"
Prefect power
I also have a letter from James to Remus, written on 31 October 1981, that I wrote right after I wrote the letter to Sirius in chapter 19. It probably will never be included in the story because the Sirius letter already exists, so this one is just redundant. But it exists in my files!
Tagging @crumbofmoon, @possessingtheproperspirit, @restandbloom
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Ch8 of KSFM quote/spoiler:
“I would’ve sat by your bedside every goddamn day. I would’ve rejoiced when you woke up. I would’ve given you my condolences about your husband, no matter what I thought of him. And I would’ve loved Dudley, cared for him like he was my own son…”
…….. maybe I shouldn’t have read this during my lunch break, because I cried. Luckily I can blame the sniffles on the cold that I have. 😭 😭 but damn it I can’t stop myself from reading this. It’s like when you get a slice of delicious pizza, right? It’s hot and your hungry so you say what the heck I’m going to eat, and instead of cooling down that piece that you’re going to bite into you end up biting it while it’s still hot. You end up burning your tongue and the root of your mouth, but it was worth it (except you shouldn’t do that!) because your hungry and the taste/smell is so intoxicating that the risk is worth it. That’s how I feel with reading your story during work. I still laugh when I first read it at Meijer, yeah it wasn’t the smartest move on my behalf 😅😅.
I swear, this line broke me, seeing Lily so broken beyond repair because her sister decided to hurt her baby boy is just so much pain. Again, I believe you did an incredible job with this chapter. I hope I don’t sound like a broken record, but it’s true.
Again, I’m so happy to have found you on tumblr and got the opportunity to read this story. I hope you know that I don’t mind waiting at all for the completion of KSFM, because the wait is worth it 🥺🥺🥺 if I’m honest, even if one day you decide to step away or leave this fic and start a new one, I want you to know that it’s totally fine. Don’t worry about those people who troll and try to bring you down, they’re not worth the stress. Life gets busy, and writing should be fun. You should never feel pressured to finish a story or change up the characters to appeal to someone else’s opinion. It’s your story and it’s perfect that way it is. ❤️ thank you for sharing your incredible talent with us, truly it’s a gift that shouldn’t be hidden away from the world.
❤️
STOP YOU’RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY ON THE METRO. This is so sweet of you🥹🥹🥹
Thank you endlessly for your patience!! You definitely don’t have to worry about ksfm being abandoned because I’m too obsessed with it to let that happen 😅 (literally had a dream about last night lmao) but writing is definitely happening slower right now as I get used to my new job! But I should have a new chapter up sometime this week or this weekend at the latest❤️
Also, sorry for making you cry at work, but if it makes you feel better about it…I’m fairly certain I cried a little while writing that part about Lily and Petunia’s mother during their argument. I’m sort of planting seeds about it as I go (there will be more backstory about Lily’s parents, specifically her father, very soon) but her backstory in this is almost as devastating to me as Harry’s. I want to apologize to her for what I put her through and give her a big hug! 😅
Anyway, thanks again for your incredibly kind words!! Hope you’re doing well and getting some sleep❤️❤️❤️
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Hello, waving at you from the break room at my job 👋🏽 (spoilers/quotes from ch 8 KSFM)
Hope you are doing well and yes, yes I’m re-reading KSFM again *sigh* I keep saying I’m going to leave comments (and I will!) but I get so drawn into the story that I press next chapter instead of writing a review 😩 I’ll do better I promise. Here’s some lines that captivated me and honestly made me so frightened of the anger Lily has towards Petunia and Vernon. She is so feral in this chapter (with absolute good reason!) and to be frank I got so mad seeing the flashbacks/scenes of how Harry was being treated while growing up with Petunia (I won’t say aunt because I believe family should never treat people that way) and Vernon. You did an absolute amazing amazing job with writing this chapter (story in general) that it’s so difficult for me to choose which lines I love because there’s so much. (I’ll be reading this on my lunch break no worries my heart is strong)
Currently on Chapter 8: What Sisters Do
“Hi Tuney,” Lily said coldly. “Did you miss me?”
“Wow,” Lily drawled sarcastically. “Nothing gets past those keen observational skills of yours, does it? Way to go, Dursley. Your mother must be so proud.”
“SILENCE!" screamed Vernon. “No meals. For the rest of the week. That should teach you to never use your abnormality against this family again.”
Lily’s heart dropped when she realized what it was.
Harry was banging on the door. Trying to escape.
Hogwarts knew.
“I want you to look me in the eyes and tell me why you abused my Harry!”
“I would’ve snapped my own fucking wand in half if it meant I got to have those months you got to spend with Mum!”
“If Voldemort had shown up here that night…would your husband do the same thing for you? Or would he just stand back and point up the stairs and say they’re up there!” —- lines from KSFM CH 8
Wow. Just freaking WOW. Have I mentioned I love this story? Hmm? 🤔 if not, well now you know! Truly the rawness of Lily’s emotions/anger in this is so intense. Even this little line, “Hogwarts knew”— I knew Lily wouldn’t hurt her sister but seeing all of those memories, whew, I wouldn’t blame her for doing something she’d regret later on. I can’t imagine going through a coma and waking up finding out that your only son was sent to live with a sister who doesn’t care for her, much less the child. This was a tough chapter to read (imagine me reading it eight times, yes I’ve read it so much I can just close my eyes and visualize the scenes in my mind) but it was definitely necessary. It shines light on the horrific life that Harry faced, honestly this also helps show that there’s many children/babies/teens etc that are living through child abuse and neglect from family members and are trying their damn best to survive. I applaud you for this chapter, like I said it’s a tough one but truly a great chapter.
I was wondering how hard was it for you when writing chapter 8? Did you need to have a mental/emotional break from it. Or did the words just flow when writing/building the scenes?
Anywho, back to work. Will be reading on my lunch break at 2am 😩 I wish I was rich sometimes 😆
(Also before I go, I’d recommend you listen to Until the End- by Chloe Ament. That song is so Jily, a tumblr mutual recced it and I loved it. It’s the first song I put on the KEFM playlist that I’m working on 😊 I hope you like the song.)
Waving back at you from the train on my way to work!👋
AHHH. Nena!! Thank you so much for this🥹🥹 I can’t believe you’ve read ksfm so many times! I am so amazed and blown away that you like it that much!!!! Thank you!!!!😭😭
This ask was such a treat to wake up to. Thank you for taking the time to share your favorite lines from this chapter with me!!!!!! Lily is absolutely feral in this one (understandably) and it’s definitely a tough one, emotionally! It’s been so long now since I wrote this chapter (wrote it in February I think?) so I don’t fully remember, but I think I did have to take some breaks while writing the flashback scenes of Harry in this chapter. Thinking about his childhood is just so devastating, but I knew I had to write it because Lily needed to know and Harry certainly wasn’t ready to tell her. Once I got to Lily’s confrontation with Petunia, though, I sort of fell into a writing rhythm and that came together really quickly! I wasn’t initially planning on having Lily use that spell on Vernon, but the first draft where she didn’t do that just felt too…tame I think? Lily had lost most of her friends in the war, lost her parents, watched her husband die, had almost 14 years of her life stolen from her, and THEN discovered her sister and brother-in-law abused her son for years while she was asleep. That’s just SO MUCH for one person to handle and I felt that it was definitely enough to make a person…snap. I got a few (now deleted) comments saying they didn’t like that/couldn’t allow themselves to root for Lily after that (🙄) but I stand by it. Lily would do anything for Harry!
Anyway, I digress.😅
Thanks so much for this!!!❤️❤️❤️ I will definitely be listening to that song during my lunch break!
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For the ask game: 8, 10, and then 24 & 27 for KSFM!
Hi!! Thank you! :) Answer under the cut for length⬇️
8. Do you listen to music while you write? If so, share a song that’s been inspiring you lately.
When I'm really in the zone, no. It gets too distracting when my brain is trying to think of words. But I do have a writing playlist I listen to when I'm trying to get myself in the mood for writing/get the ideas flowing. The songs I've been listening to the most from that playlist recently are Zombie by The Cranberries, Hey You by Pink Floyd, and Vigilante Shit by Taylor Swift. (Can you tell there's angst on the horizon😂)
10. Do you enjoy writing dialogue, exposition, or plot the most?
This is SO tough because they all have their moments for me. I guess if I had to choose I'd go with dialogue because you can reveal so much about a character with just one line of dialogue! (and when you get it right, you just feel it!)
A lot of the description and plot things are things that I randomly think of when driving or at 3 am when I'm trying to fall asleep lol.
24. How did you come up with title for [Kindly Stopped for Me]?
It's from this poem by Emily Dickinson! Specifically this first stanza:
It fits the plot of KSFM very well when you think about it👀
27. If you were ever to do a sequel to [Kindly Stopped for Me], what do you think might happen in it?
Ohhhhhhhhh. I am so sorry but I can't answer that😅 There is simply no possible way to go about it without giving away major plot spoilers.
All I can say is that I am considering writing a sequel, though that wouldn't happen for a while because I honestly don't know at this point what I would want to do in it. I can also say for certain that it would be very canon divergent😉
Thanks for these!
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8, 18 and 43 for the asks xx
Thank you!!! These are fun.
8. Post an out-of-context spoiler from a WIP.
Kindly Stopped for Me spoiler, presented without comment:
18. Do you enjoy research? Which fic of yours required the most research?
I LOVE doing research! Almost as much as I love writing, tbh. One of my college majors was very research-heavy so it's something that comes natural to me haha.
My WIP hasn't actually needed a ton of outside research, though, surprisingly enough. Although I do find myself needing to consult my copy of OOTP a lot as I plan this, just so I have a good idea of the timeline of how things happened in it – even though the events in my story are obviously going to happen very differently!
I've also made a sort of general, Wizarding world database for myself in google drive with notes that I took during my last re-read of canon as well as things I've looked up on the wiki. I have an entire document that's just called "Hogwarts Curriculum: Year 5" which I think is going to come in handy before long😏
43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?
I want to write some Jily!!! I've been able to sneak some tidbits of it into Kindly Stopped for Me, through the first chapter and in memories of James, but I really want to try writing my own take on how they fell in love. Maybe as a prequel to KSFM, or just a separate thing.
I also have two other fic ideas that have been percolating in my mind– one about the life and times of Professor Sprout, and the other a cute little Dorcas/Marlene at Hogwarts story. But I haven't actually written either of those yet. They just exist as empty folders in my google drive😂
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