#like actually becoming sqq was good for his brain like a tiger born in captivity being released into the wild

[camgirlkaminari]

scum villain makes me SO INSANE like it's the funniest book I've ever read and also if I think too hard about one character in particular my brain shorts out shies away from the thoughts like a slug might shy away from salt I will POSITIVELY DIE if I think too long about tlj JUST trying to understand people being betrayed by someone who he thought loved him losing everyone who was ever close to him BECAUSE of him I think too hard about yqy and how he will never get closure there will be no happiness for him zzl my little boy my big cheese my funtime guy who JUST wanted to be liked he was trying so hard to do good he's like that poem from the point of view of a cat that can't figure out what he did wrong why do his family keep leaving the house why can he never grow big like his brothers sqq never seeing his family again never acknowledging he had a family except in passing never being able to tell his husband about his first life having to keep that secret for the rest of his life to always have this weird terrible pain between them forever the sacrifices he made for luo binghe how he'll never be able to truly know og sqq's motivations how he just woke up and immediately took up the mantel of sqq despite knowing his fate WHAT was his life as shen yuan like to make him so quick to alter his whole identity WHY is he so good at acting and lying to everyone including himself just refers to himself as a listless pretty boy like he doesn't have the cleverest mind in the whole book!!!!! og sqq in the cave what must he have felt when he realized he wasn't strong enough to save lqg and knowing what people were going to say and being too proud and miserable to clear his own name binghe's "I hate! I hate myself!" scene I am SCREAMING binghe being unhealthily manipulative from DAY ONE up to the point where sqq realizes what he's done with xin mo the CAVE SEX SCENE??????????? don't get me STARTED on shang qinghua!!!!!!!! liu qingge!!!!!! BINGGE?????? it's like a wormhole in my head if I think too hard past sqq being the funniest mother fucker in two different universes and the premise of haha big demon hot for teacher mommy kink :))) I will DIE I will PERISH i am rabid I am biting and tearing and rending and howling!!!!!!

#do NOT get me started on how sqq is likely the most powerful man on the planet like YEAH hes not as magically strong as lqg and yqy #but hes insanely capable he took over for 6 HUNDRED WIVES like yeah my man is a battery pack i dont CARE how powerful the mushroom body was #this is how i sleep at night: i imagine that shen qingqiu is genuinely the au version of shen yuan #like sqh modeled him on this mean ass commenter #and i like to think this IF ONLY for the sake of sqq's sect brothers & sisters #hes BASICALLY the same guy with all the same quirks and annoying behaviors except without all the fucking trauma #hes still nitpicky and nasty in his way and he still thinks hes managing to hide his emotions but actually he NEVER could fully #what a relief for them!!! #and in the same vein that shen yuan. who MUST be an INSANELY clever guy in his life #had he endured the same torment as og sqq he would be just as bad!!! #do you think sy was lacking in enrichment in his enclosure & thats why he took to sqq so well. hes so clever and good at absorbing new info #like actually becoming sqq was good for his brain like a tiger born in captivity being released into the wild #svsss #svsss spoilers #wall of text #SORRY!!!! I NEEDED TO GET IT OUT!!!! #the good thing about svsss: all the women have way better endings than in pidw. the bad thing: all the trauma catching up w repressed men. #ugh