#like he WOULDVE wrote about his emotions and thoughts n feelings in there yknow???

[hellhoundlair]

thinking about sam reading johns journal. yeah a lot of it is helpful info regarding monsters and shit. but also. It was a journal. and john wrote a lot of personal thoughts and feelings into it without ever thinking his sons were going to use it as a bible. pages of john journalling his suspicions about sam. about john hearing little hints and passing comments from demons. about john piecing together why mary died that night. about john looking at his son and seeing a monster. and sam reads that. and MARY reads it when she comes back too. and maybe dean snuck peeks into johns journal back when john was still writing it, when he was still a kid too. maybe he saw one of those pages and ripped it out and burnt it and tried to forget it ever existed.

#thinking. thinking. im thinking. shh im thinking. im thinking. my thoughts. im thinking. #spn #supernatural #cus like didnt john write about being suspicious of sam in like rising son and all that??? did that not go into the journal??? #need more acknowledgement that johns journal was just as much a personal book for him as it was a handbook #when sam gives it to mary and said it helped fill in blanks or whatever. not in a hunting way but in an emotionally fulfilling way. #like he WOULDVE wrote about his emotions and thoughts n feelings in there yknow??? #sam winchester #this has all def been thought of or explored before dont mind me i only watched spn in 2021