#like. have any of yall ever read a novel or more importantly had. literally any amount of fun. ever.

[ladyimaginarium]

“you can’t write that plot or expand the worldbuilding in that universe!! it’s too far out!! it’s too complicated!! it’s too unrealistic!! you’re just throwing random twists and connecting narratives together and linking these characters in the plot via time period or character relation!! besides it's not canon!! those characters would never meet or get along!! you can't just make new narratives or perspectives or skillsets for that character!! you can't racebend white characters into muses of color!! you can't hc that character as trans or nonbinary or genderfluid or gay or bi or aro or ace!! you can't write villainous, toxic or abusive characters because that means you condone those behaviors!! you can't hc that character as mixed or jewish or native or autistic or neurodivergent bc you're self projecting!! you can't write about social issues and the grievances you suffer through your muses!! you can't make your female characters overpowered or they'll be mary sues!! you can't—” 

#like. have any of yall ever read a novel or more importantly had. literally any amount of fun. ever. #wh.... what do y'all think novels are .... define Fiction ™ please ???? #idk man i used to deal with people like this who were literally always like ''you HAVE to abide by CANON!!! or else your portrayal sucks!!' #there are many characters that have little or no meaningful canon interaction but who i feel would have a strong connection #given the right au twist of events or circumstance—i like putting characters together and seeing what happens— could have been. #i think any pairing group of characters or any outcome is possible if the mun takes the time to get to know the muses and what they believe #i'm not saying this is possible for every single character ever but i like sitting back and watching what happens. #i really enjoy that part the most and it’s why i like writing. canon is nice to have but i don’t consider it necessary to make a good story #( mobile. ) #i promise this isn't directed at anyone on here!! #but this shit is so annoying i can't— #also i had these reaction memes for a long time and now i can finally use them 😂😂😂😂😂 #like.... have people considered..... minding their damn business and let people write their muses in peace...... #arcana.shitposts #crack. #idk man im& just thinking about the rpc & shit that makes me& fucking feral while i& was in it 😂😂😂😂

[desireeeotero-blog]

Anxiety

Here I am again, pretending i’m Dr. Phil. Or that anyone actually cares about what I think I have to say. Can’t stand myself sometimes.

Anxiety seems to be such a common issue these days. Everyone is experiencing it in their own way. Some more than others, some worse than others. I think it’s gotten to the point where it’s such a widespread dilemma that people don’t take it serious any more. It’s always “just calm down.” “Just don’t worry about it.” Often times it’s the people that don't experience Anxiety that are so quick to dismiss it. 

I don't ever remember having anxiety throughout my teenage years. In fact, I can tell you the exact year I started to actually experience it. It was in 2012. I think I was 19/20? Sheesh, i’m old as fuhhhh. Before then, when someone would tell me something gave them anxiety, I would tell them to grow up or just laugh because how dumb did that seem? Like just chill the fuck out and breathe, homegirl. it’s not that serious. I was wrong. After 8 years of toxic relationships, not only did I understand what Anxiety was, but I was experiencing it to what seemed to be the fullest extent. I became the person that would say “omg this is giving me anxiety” “my anxiety is insane right now” and I am not proud to say, that I am still that person. I thought after ridding myself of shitty exes and people in my life, that I would be better and it would go away, it didn’t. Still living with it, still learning from it, and more importantly, still trying to grow from it. 

I haven't ever really cared to discuss it because I just didn’t think anyone needed to know about my issues or that it mattered to anyone. But now as I get older and want to start settling down and laying out the rest of my life, it’s a lingering problem. I find it still messing up things that I really want for myself. Still messing with my mindset and still bringing me down even on my best days. 

For people that don’t understand it, just imagine being in the absolute best mood of your life. Everything is going great. All of the sudden, the world stops and one little thing (that usually doesn't even matter) turns your whole world upside down. Me, for example, my biggest trigger is communication. My exes communicated with everyone but me - assholes. So if someone doesn't communicate something to me, I panic. Literally panic. My heart rate gets to 140-160 resting. My mind is filled with self doubt. Like uhhhh are they not talking to me because they found someone better to talk to? Did I do something wrong? Are they mad at me? Did I look ugly today? It’s things that are so fucking silly, that really destroy you. Like okay Desiree, didn't know someone had to text you every 30 seconds to prove that they care about you. It affects me because Usually when my exes weren't talking to me, it meant they were out hyping up another girl and making her feel on top of the world while I was at home in the dumps feeling like scum of the world.

I can’t tell you how anxiety affects other people but I can tell you from my experience that it’s very real and there is NOTHING you can do about it in that moment. Some people might have things that settle their mind and calm them down, but for others, there might not be anything that calms them down but time and reassurance. One thing that DEFINITELY will not calm anyone down is someone telling them “Just calm down.” “it’s not that big of a deal” YES THE FUCK IT IS, SUSAN. if you don't have anxiety and don't understand it, imagine having your heart broken by the person you cared most about and someone telling you, “oh well. shit happens.” Thats the equivalent of telling someone with anxiety to just forget about it.

Now, when someone tells me they're having anxiety, I will be the first person to try and distract their mind from it. I will be the first person to be there for you because I know how it feels and I know how bad it can affect you. I know where the feeling can take your mind and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, not even the slightest bit of anxiety. 

Stop being so hard on and judgmental of other people. They might be living with something that you can't see. The smallest insult to them can destroy every ounce of self confidence they have worked so hard to get back. Be patient and don't dismiss their problems because they don't seem real to you. 

Finally understanding what 8 years of my life did to me has changed the way I view things and treat other people. it’s taken me 1.5 years to be able to openly talk about the struggles I face and when I tell you I have made strides with being psycho, I have seriously made strides lol to know that one day I’ll finally overcome the constant battle in my mind, brings me solace. My goal for the rest of this year is to try and remember that just because someone isn't talking to me for hours on end, doesn’t mean they don't care. Baby steps, yall. baby steps.

I hope that anyone who takes time to read this damn novel, realizes that one day it'll all be over and, you'll too, find solace in the things you thought would destroy you forever. 

[theboykingofhell]

9, 15, 16, 18, 26, 31, 32, 34, 41, 42, 45, 46, 47, 49, 51 for TSG, 54 :*

ricky found fucking dead in miami after looking at these PROMPTS,

9. Least favorite trope to write.

what a weirdly phrased question because if i hate it, i ain’t gonna write it... UHH. i really don’t like bringing dead characters back to life???? i don’t like writing scenes for shock horror... well, that’s a lie, i DO like to horrify the reader through my writing, but i don’t want to cheapen the emotional ~journey~ they go through by being like ‘JUST KIDDING! everything actually DOES work out in the end!!’

i have a story where narratively its kind of leading to a place where i have to make a ‘dead’ character come back (chaos actually, since i use her in red’s actual story) and it’s making me so mad like wtf thought we had a deal

15. Where does your inspiration come from?

SONGS... and just insp in general but i get a lot through music and nnnh... there’s just so many good aesthetics and quotes on my dash tbh i’m like constantly and consistently inspired, it’s great

16. Where do you take your motivation from?

imma be honest, the thing that motivates me most sometimes is either reading a rly shitty novel or seeing a shitty show and just getting livid and writing out of spite because THAT DRIVEL WAS PUBLISHED????? MY SHIT IS SO MUCH BETTER WTF... or i think to myself ‘what the fuck, what if i die tomorrow????? with my damn novel unfinished?!?!! HELL NO’... pretty much anything that reminds me that my stuff is Great but no one knows how great it is because it’s not DONE and OUT THERE yet makes me get off my ass

18. What’s your revision or rewriting process like?

depends! for books it mostly just consists of rereading after a long period of ignoring my story and just tweaking lines that seem out of place or that ruin the flow i’m imagining. if i’m rewriting, then i have two word documents out (which the program scrivener makes SO easy god BLESS that program) and just... rewrite it word for word while STARING at the old version. that always makes the prose come out slightly different, it smooths out stuff or lets me cut away or add things i really like and, most importantly, it adds length, which i tend to struggle with a lot because i like just being TO THE POINT

with playwriting though it’s mostly about the format.. i write all plays like i write everything online... in lowercase with little regard to actual grammar. so i gotta actually pretend i give a damn about the english language and format it all properly and add stage directions cuz in a first draft for plays, i always just focus on dialogue and that’s it

26. Standalone or series, and why?

standalones are far more fun and way more satisfying and, quite honestly, require way less fluff. i keep FORGETTING how much fluff is needed in a goddamn novel. MULTIPLE BOOKS OF FLUFF no FUCKING THANKS

31. Hardest character to write.

in the rp: tyler (because he dissociates in a way that literally cuts me off from? any parts of his character? which is like the ESSENCE of his character but it’s VERY unenjoyable to write tbh) and nicki (because i put too much pressure on myself to make her seem a certain way instead of letting it happen naturally)... tbh canon characters and/or characters that are based on people are generally just rly hard sometimes cuz there’s SO MUCH IMAGINED PRESSURE TO MAKE THEM GOOD!!!

in original shit: honestly i’m really tempted to say aaron and that’s just because he’s so... unlikeable to me???? but also i think it’s just because i’ve really only written one scene for him (i always write in order unless a scene is just KICKING MY ASS to write, like this particular scene) and... he seems like a Lot... of annoying bullshit to have to write out lmfao that bitch

32. Easiest character to write.

red because i’ve been writing him for like 7-9 years now, i would hope he’d be easy by now... honestly, really explosive and dramatic characters too like bert or nora come SUPER easy for me, they’re so fun to write (especially dialogue-wise) because they’re very emotional and i can get PARAGRAPHS based on one reaction. characters who try and hide shit from everyone, INCLUDING ME, are so annoying,

34. Handwritten notes or typed notes?

typed because they’re legible,,,,, but then again, my handwritten notes make more sense because they’re kind of fully crafted ideas like ‘***make nisha and aaron meet at 42nd street for transformation chap???’ while a typed note will be like... ‘42nd street+aaron’... what did that mean, ricky-at-5am... why did you do this to us

41. How many stories do you work on at one time?

two... kind of as a minimum, sort of as a maximum... like there’s usually the MAIN story and then there’s something i’m kind of doodling in the side, something that’s just sort of cooking in the backburner that i’m not too serious into the process of it, but it’s goin... i’ve never tried to do 3 stories at a time but i feel like my attention would be too divided and it wouldn’t work

42. How do you figure out your characters looks, personality, etc.

UHH........................................... i’m very fond of faceclaims cuz idk i just kind of... feel how they look... i don’t ever really envision a full person though, i get like traits... i’ll be like... oh she has long black hair and she’s not white and her eyebrows look like this... and then i’ll see a pic of pooja mor and be like THAT’S HER THAT’S EXACTLY IT. idk what it is about eyebrows and why that’s literally always the deciding factor of how a character looks, but there it is

personality just kind of... man, characters just poop out of me, i don’t decide any of this shit wtf jhsfjg

45. Worst piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten.

once someone told me to stop making the boys kiss in the first chapter of my story so i made the boys fuck instead

46. What would your story _______ look like as a tv show or movie?

scrolls WAY up... sees you didn’t add a story as a prompt WELL i’m still riding the tsg train here so

a tsg movie better look like the 90′s, goddamnit.. not like... found footage really, but i want something in the quality to be a little fuzzy and sort of tinted that one kind of grayish brown color i always associate with the 90′s for some reason... like, i can’t stop thinking about all these amber lighting and how dull everything looks, and how higher in quality things look the further and further it goes, like, it’s something i would concentrate a lot on visual cues with because i focus so much of the storytelling of tsg on nisha’s narration. sometimes you don’t know how many days have passed because nisha doesn’t know how many days have passed, if she dissociates, i’d want that shown on camera, if she keeps repeating the same number over and over again, i’d want to watch one little piece of a scene getting repeated again and again. it’d be VERY disorienting as a movie tbh but it’d be fun...

47. Do you start with characters or plot when working on a new story?

characters!!!! plot is such a backburner thing for me, if you have rly great characters, you already have a great plot right there. the plot is just set so i can see how characters react to things, man... 

49. What do you find the hardest to write in a story, the beginning, the middle or the end?

THE MIDDLE, FUCK THE MIDDLE.... endings are literally the easiest thing for me, beginnings similarly so, it’s just getting from that BEAUTIFUL starting scene to that GORGEOUS ending that fucking kills my poor undeserving asshole

51. Describe the aesthetic of your story _______ in 5 sentences or words.

low-res pictures of old cemetaries... that’s five words right there, i’m sorry but the END IS IN SIGHT, I’M ALMOST FREE AND CANT BE BOTHERED

54. Any writing advice you want to share?

can’t stress how useful having an insp blog is... creating a story through the unconscious collection of pictures and quotes that just feel relavant is just SO useful not just when it comes to really constructing a character an an atmosphere to your story, but making a fucking plot????? my tsg blog is like my most perfect insp blog because i got the idea to seperate it by chapters, and i’ve found that i can literally just... go into the chapter tags... and make connections and build on plotlines that i had NO IDEA ABOUT when i made or filled those tags, IT’S REALLY FUN and it keeps me inspired to write

#i did not proofread this at all cuz OOP IM DROWNING HERE... #w #mmementommori #ask tag