#my issues with eye contact arent even because of my eye trigger i just cant do it

[keepinventory]

maintaining eye contact is one of the most unnecessary social rules ever made. who decided we should all look at eachothers wetballs

#👽 < text tag #my issues with eye contact arent even because of my eye trigger i just cant do it #like i try my best to put the 'stare at the nose not the eyes' trick to work. but sometimes i end up looking at the eyes anyway and have to #look away for a second -_- not to MENTION every damn time i answer someones question i never ever look at them while im thinking (or #sometimes even while im answering) #if im too busy lookin at your damn face i cant PROCESS YOUR QUESTION and THINK OF THE ANSWER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i used to think i didnt have any problems with eye contact. but that was when i was busy being horrifically isolated i never spoke to anyon #now that i work customer service i can feel every single time i avoid eye contact. and i do it so much. #But i only realize it after the interaction is complete. Never before or during. #everytime ive responded to somebody's “thank you!” with a “you're welcome!” while im ACTIVELY LOOKING DOWN flashing before my eyes #& when i say actively i mean WHOLE HEAD POINTING DOWNWARDS #i mean i am usually throwing something away but like. WHY DO I NEVER WAIT UNTIL AFTER THEY'VE LEFT TO THROW IT AWAY!?!?!

[rebel-wahalz]

“First time”...We meet again!?

We all recall all those, well, you know “first time” moments and memories. Right? 

 First time disappointing someone, or, first kiss. First school dance, first heart break, first time driving or riding a bike, etc, etc! 

.......

You know, those “impactual moments”!

That somehow, effect your entire life after happening.   Sometimes, its abosutely incrediable or perfect!  

In other cases, not so much! Developping a “trauma trigger”. Embedding its self deep with-in, leaving a scar that snowball effects into a chaos ball, where an insecurity defect/reaction, and takes over any thought process one could normally weigh out enternally any other time.

Now, on to the point of this topic that have you readers this far already. lol.

        *pops fingers and clears throat*

This so happends to be, my first blog!

 My first attempt at “something”.... different! Because,People love reading and learning, analyzing, questioning, and, understanding. Subjects that capture them or draw or call to them;  intense situational, mystery, murder, heart wrenching, thrilling, romance, ambition, goals, family, music, inspiration, desperation, seeing different perspectives, or lifestyles, annnnd of course ...”gossip & judging”!            

         NOW FOR A SHORT ROAST COMMERICAL on Gossip and Judgment ...in writing!       or in other words,

*cough * “Karen(s)” !

Narritive note: 

To- The types of Karen(s) of the world; Karen type; whom in which, are completely obsessed with opinionated slander, and reporting or cop calling, and easily offended or repulsed or upset about SOMEONE elses life, and, who ACTUALLY allowing things seen, said or read about (espcially online) to effect them enough to grab control of your thoughts and emotions to the point you just cant mind your own damn buisness , Really?! Look away, scroll by, block, walk away , plug your ears for fucks sake!!  

The Sharon: -“The attention seeking bimbo” or, who arent actually bothered by the situation,conversation, statment, photo etc. But they decide to prey apon something at random, for gossip or spotlight attention and to make a scene

..and lastly the “Nancy”; - jealous,envy,unhappy, vicurious, “perfect”, “nose in the air” , better than all, and needs everyone who is “anyone”s approval and to be noticed as a great person of the community. Who are typically , abusive and/or closet freaks with a sex kink , A “perscription from doctor”pill head who  needing  them refilled early EVERY month, and justify themselves and judge others who struggle,while claiming to be “Sober and christians”. Just FYI,  the doctor kind of drugs to “help” you, “perscriptions”, are only different from street drugs because they Acceptable by law and easy to explain or use as an excuse! YOU ARE JUST a glorified , fucking drug addict! Hate to break it to ya!

I DARE YOU to go with out them for one week (with exception on elders with heart issues and liver,and major life threatening health issues) but antidepressants, adhd, depression,anxiety,weight loss, steriods,PAIN MEDS etc...

tell me how you feel each day.. one week! DARE 

y’all, look...GET A FRICKING LIFE, or, at the very least LEAVE other peoples lives the hell alone!! That “reflection window “you constantly avoid, espcially avoid eye contact with the person staring back at you, is called a MIRROR. The oppsite mirroring image of YOURSELF through another demention! If you cant look yourself in the eyes for longer than 5 seconds, NEWS FLASH! You can’t ever escape yourself, both sides of that mirror, the two you’s, need to be able to communicate and balance eachother. The mirror just allows the other half of you to be PHYSICALLY obtainable in the five sinces. HOW can you not communicate to your own self with ease and comfort, and allow your self to break down others because one half of you is an asshole! WE are ALL equal! Get over your self! Get to know yourself fully! Then fucking judge me or whoever!)

Anyways, 

My name is Rebel Wahalz! 

Not my birth name, but, If you keep reading my randomness and your interested to know my real name...I will eventually lay it all out there!

Not until we are aquainted though! If ya dont like my blogs and ya need to know my name anyways,GET a life Karen! (or an autograph )

Sex,drugs, and rock n roll, Love,saddness,addiction,goals, inspiration, bad ideas for good situatuons, good ideas for bad ones! 

My stories may be similar to some you have heard or maybe even expieranced your self! However, if I cant achieve something through speaking to the entire worlds people, then I truly have wasted my life so far or I am actually lying to myself about .....Yeah, thats enough of this “first time” for me! I look forward to having people know whats next and to come. 

When i decide if this first was a trigger or a moment of glory.. I will shout out the whole way through to those who believe in me, and begin following my first blog! 

Love and respect! Thanks for reading!

~Rebel W.

 Feedback,comments questions are welcome!

#lifelessons #addiction #drugs #fucking truth