#natasja's venting

[daylightisviolent]

So i didnt the entirety of the first day of christmas crying or feeling sad.. great succes!

#i only cried two times woohoo #but ngl i didnt really celebrate anything today and I will tomorrow and on the 30th so yeah #we might compensate later #idk man i just really have grown to dislike christmas bc everything this feels inherently lonely about it #and it makes me feel the worst about myself for the stupidest reasons ever #having a dysfunctional and consistently tense and strained family life is fun on top of a shit self worth #alright ill stop for now #natasja's babbling #natasja's venting #negativity #sorry yall

[daylightisviolent]

Hi just a tip! Don't make fun of people for being their unapologetic selves even if it doesn't conform to your expectations of how people should behave <3

#i just saw the barbie movie and gor made fun of for how i was raving about it #i didnt notice if it werent for my friend to tell them off #and as much as i didnt want it to get to me it did and it deflated my mood immensely #why would you do that? why would you look at someone you only see briefly walking down the street #obviously being enthusiastic and passionate about something #and decide 'im gonna make fun of that person where they might even notice it' #even if it didnt get to me #why do you fucking feel the need to do that? #why do you feel the need to do that? #why do you need to make fun of someone? #fucking sure you can find something odd but what gives you reason to openly establish it?? #i dont give a fucking shit if you think im weird i know and im trying to make peace with it #you can agree with my ways or not #i dont care #just keep your sad goddamn mimicry and taunts to yourself #out them anywhere but where that person is present #or maybe just grow a set of fucking balls and accept that not everyone is gonna conform to your standards #anyways go watch the barbie movie its fucking great #natasja's babbling #natasja's venting

[daylightisviolent]

PSA to anyone who feels like sending fanfic to the people which the fanfic is centered around is a good thing to do

It is not. It's literally the first rule of being in a fandom.

You do not send fanfictions to the actors, musicians, youtubers or whoever else you have written about.

If you didn't know before that's okay, but just don't do it again. Especially if you didn't ask for permission to even send it.

Just don't do it.

#you know who you are #please don't do it okay? #imagine being in their positions and getting fanfictions about you kissing your fellow actor #you would not be comfortable with that shit #even when it seems like an innocent thing to do #it will most likely not be appreciated and just remember what it has done to people like dan howell #julie and the phantoms #julie and the himbos #jatp #this has been my psa have a great day #natasja's venting

[daylightisviolent]

Okay tomorrow i will finish my last deadline... and then i will scream into the void and take a nap.... i can do this

#i am so so done though #we love making a 140 page long portfolio for an internship i coulsnt even finish #but tbh thats my fault too #the 140 pages thing that is #natasja vents

[daylightisviolent]

Me: makes a new friend

Me: knows someone doesn't have to reply to me all the time and that they have an entire life outside of my friendship with them

New friend: doesn't reply the entire day

Also me: you already annoyed them to the max and they are getting back at you for ignoring them and you're not interesting enough and-

#i know they dont owe me anything #but *screams* #i really like them and i dont wanna ruin my first new irl friendship i've made in a long time #ugh #i should probably sleep instead of worrying about this #natasja's venting

[daylightisviolent]

Gee we love getting existential crises after having a shitty fucking night to begin with 🙃

#its the good ol' havin no idea what im doing with my life and neither do i know what i even want life #and doubting who you even are #and why you are the way you are hours #i hate this fucking nightmare #natasja vents