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Welcome to 2019

Version 3.0 : Final Version - Wow. February and finally, the 9th is here. All of you my 488 followers can finally enjoy it (372 by the end of 2017). I’ve never been that late to write a sum up but it’s pretty obvious that if it took me so much time to do it, then deep down I didn’t want to do it. Indeed I was about to let that sink in and leave this post with the version 2.0. But I remembered I had one person to honor. And this is what this year 2018 is about : focusion on the good actions and the good people. Because spoiler alert : this year 2018 have been on some other level of shit. More than 2013, 2014 and 2017 combined.

Pic : Plot twist. No more smile. No more bowtie.

Well let’s do some quickmaths : as i said we upgraded from 372 to 488 followers (and roughly 2,241 posts). For the 9th time I have to say that I have mad love for y’all (except fake pr0n blogs, y’all aint shit). For the humans that still follow me : thank you. And I’ll have even more love for the poeple who read this until the end haha. I have to apologize because these last months my tumblr looks pretty much like a mess, between the heartbreaking lyrics, quotes, passive agressive posts than only a few people can understand ... And that’s all because of that one follower I lost (y’all understood it was an euphemism). But to be accurate, I don’t want this post to become another heartbreak post : there are already too much of them on my tumblr. Indeed, it’s one of the main contraints I forced myself to write under. Because “l’art naît de contraintes” (Art rises from contraints) like Van Gogh said. So : not another heartbreak post where I pour my heart out for a girl who won’t even read it (guess I’ve done enough with the Helsinki post). But it’s kinda difficult because this break up is the main reason my 4 last months of 2018 (and on...) have been so so awful and so much things happened because of this. But nevermind I’ll do my best. I’ll do my best because like I said, this post is more about love. This break up surely made me less human, mistrustful, but still, I’m writting because I’ve seen beautiful actions that had to be honored. But we’ll see that later. What other contraints for this 9th sum up ? A young lady I’ve met this year challenged me to write 2 good things for 1 bad that happened to me this year. I’m sorry, I failed ahah. I found more good than bad, but that 2 for 1 ratio was a bit too much ahah. Désolé ma grande ;) And because of this, I had to have a kind of draft for writting, even though I always told myself these sum up needed to be written without drafts, to keep them kinda “natural”. Looks like I’m taking this more and more seriously haha. Well, when I say that this year have been worse than my 3 worst years combined this is not a joke. Have you ever told yourself for example “Wow I left all my stuff in the car, I would be deadly unlucky if someone would break into it and stole everything !” ...Yes, that’s that level of mischance. Because this happened to me btw. And that’s the spirit of this whole year. In “Welcome to 2016″ I remember talking about “mala suerte” ... that was bullshit, 2018 is the real mala suerte. The heartbreak of this year is the worst of my whole life by far, then I’ve been close to what I dreamt of in karate, what I fight for since 2011, had 2 chances to get it this year and I still not got it by a hair’s breadth. Dad got into a crash car, hopefully only the car got wrecked. (so sad it won’t take me again to Andorra haha) People kept on deceiving me. Close friends but also unknowns.

People close to me know how much I cherish friendship. If you’re my friend and you’re not doing well, then I’m already on my way to yours to fix you. No exceptions. Even faster if it’s because of a heartbreak, because heartbroken people should never feel lonely. It’s that simple. SO when I see fuckers I have been there for through ups, downs and heartbreaks and these people are not even able to give it back to me I can’t help being mad. And I don’t act like that in order to make people give that kindness back to me, that’s not the purpose. But I do hate ungratefulness. So, I had to go through a heartbreak again and I saw people disappear again. So that’s enough lines wasted talking about these people. I also have to talk about those who were there. In 2018 I also found an awesome training partner and got closer to her clan. That’s a positive energy I really needed on that 2nd half of 2018. Par ailleurs, tu liras surement jamais ça mais je me permets une parenthèse pour te dire encore une fois Merci Julie pour avoir sauvé ma vie. This kind of old friendship is priceless to me. We can also talk about some young friendship : in march I met someone (almost my best 2018, except I didn’t manage to define an encounter good enough to define it as the best of 2018) who made me go deeper into Tekken, making me getting closer to the Tekken community in Tls. Funny how I always dreamt of this when I was a kid and this is happening. Indeed I’m living the shonen life : I’m in a group (where I met some really lovely people), I’m not the strongest but hell I do what I can to improve and that’s begining to pay even if i won’t forget the 68-0 against sensei, and like in karate I still aim to the top. It’s funny to be inside another competitive world where people don’t have all the values we have in karate. Some of these Tekken people (in the whole country, not only in Toulouse) show off, are mean to each other etc ... And also like in karate, we admire asians for being the best to do it in the whole world. What else ? I became a karate teacher. Took me a bit of time, it wasn’t hard but just took me time and dedication. I still met some great people all along this experience. I made peace with the old pals, vacays together were really incredible. Some of the sweetest days of this year. One of the sweetest day this year was the day I worked hard as hell and went back “home” to the one I love. What a lovely feeling. But I guess we didn’t lived it the same way ... Then, I also had the chance to make a karate lesson in the 1st place I’ve been taught karate !!! This was outstanding because I love to give back to those who gave me, and I love to inspire people. So, it was such a pleasure to tell these kids “I was standing where you are now. I started like you and I’ve been getting stronger and stronger. If I did it you can do it too !!!”. I truly believe some of those kids are about to be deadly strong, hopefully I’ll be done with competition haha. Talking about competition, i sadly lost my title in Andorra by mid June. At the end of the competition, I promised to come back stronger and to revenge but there will be no revenge as this competition will not be repeated in 2019. Indeed, this Andorra 2018 was a great competition and a great trip. A cool trip, great team, great mates, a lot of alcohol, a good hotel room, and love ... so much love. A deadly hangover, but a lot of love. Sadly, there would not have been love again, as 1414 who was my coach for the weekend, my partner on the tatami and in life decided to take a different path from mine. Indeed, I promised to not talk too much about that but this is all the 2nd half of 2018 is about : me trying not to drown because of this heartbreak and it feels like everything is related to that. I got cocky and forgot the 1st and only love lesson my father taught me “nothing lasts forever, mostly in love”. Damn he was right. Even my mother was right for not trusting her at the begining, and God knows she’s never right usually. I won’t even mention what that break up costed me. But as the big bro says : there were no house, no kids, no joined bank account ... Only wasted times and dead dreams now. “La mort d’un rêve” ... it’s still something painful. S. is now a dead dream. I cannot imagine my own flesh meeting some destructive people like the ones I met and going through hard times like I’m going through. I wouldn’t be able to handle it. So no more S. and no more L., and it’s a hell of a problem as I’ve always built my life around the fact that I wanted them. And it’s painful because I wanted them with her. Nevermind, no one will ever know “what a great father I could be” as 1414 said. So much dreams. Gone. My 5 brothers took care of me as much as they could and they did amazingly great. I’ll never thank God enough for putting these guys into my life. Hope they know how much I love them. That was sad to see another one of them going back to his motherland but ... what an amazing last evening in Toulouse we spent. I’ll never forget this one.

Still talking about the break up and all the bad that happened this year : tbh I couldn’t draw good lessons from all of these bad things. Really. But like I said, I’ve seen good things coming from good people. So now I need to talk about 27. First of all, 27 was right on so many levels. (yes, I use numbers to not drop real names). Those who know me know that I love to experience, live everything. I would have been better without this heartbreak but still, it taught me new things. I could understand 27 better. When she talked about hell, she wasn’t joking at all. The doubts, the negativity, the hate, self-hate ... I think that’s too much to handle. But still, she still tried to help me when she saw me going through that hell. I couldn‘t thank her enough for this and that must be remembered. This is the whole reason I still wanted to write this sum up, in spite of all the bad things that happened. It was like : a soul lending a hand to another soul. Merci. Je ne l’oublierai jamais, je t’en dois une belle. Et toujours d’une âme à une autre. Tu dis le contraire mais tu as une belle âme et je suis sûr qu’il te reste beaucoup d’amour à donner. Tu as trop à donner à ce monde (en espérant que tu me lises un jour)

Also, I could understand 26 better. [...] And 26 still have the most beautiful smile in the whole world. No transition : Najwa Zebian said that « it’s unfair that new people in my life will have to destroy walls around me they didn’t even built » (btw I love this woman, she also had a big impact on my life through her reflexions) and I can tell she’s right but … trusting people is so hard these days. I really don’t know what to think about this statement. I think I’ve always been picky about who I let close to me and I still got fucked up by my ex-lover, my entourage … It’s all about who to trust, who to let in and who to cut … And it feels like I’ve been making the wrong decisions for years.

It’s starting getting late so let me end up with facts nobody cares. Neutral facts : I discovered lofi this year, my hero academia (FUCKING AWESOME !!!!), Tokyo Ghoul, 7DS, sword art online (great !!), la casa de papel, stranger things, sherlock, IP MAN 3, the good place, misfits, Juice Wrld blew up this year, NAV, Dosseh ... Funny how I discovered some of the saddest love song this year haha. Bad facts : I got injuried a lot. Females still played me a lot. Indeed I realized females are cruel but I still love them. This might be the proof we don’t chose our sexual orientation haha. Then, I couldn’t train properly from Sept to Dec. Oh, I can’t listen anymore to : Nicki, Kehlani, Rihanna or Cardi B. “More life” or “Views from the 6″ are albums I can’t listen to anymore. Well, GOOD FACTS now ! : Got a karate gi from J. (outstanding move), I put the young bloods in high school at Tekken and mangas haha. I met 80′s family and it was like a dream and I’m sure I got luckied in another dimension haha. 80 and 90 are still close to perfection in my eyes. 30 is still 30, with good and bad moods. I’m in peace with the sensei. I also received one of the best gift of my life. I learned that I was able to train by myself thanks to my power of mind ! To finish, I saw that I was able to forgive and still give love, even if it was pointless and too late.

Well, 2019 has already started and this will sure be a hell of a ride (January was ... special) as now I’m like on some quicksand shit. Let’s go ! And let’s not forget those 2018 that marked this year and I’ll surely be listening to in a decade (you need to know that I still listen to all the songs in the previous sum ups !). Enjoy :)

2018 Playlist

Dvsn - The morning after

Youv Dee - Opening

Tory Lanez - 48 floors

Roy Woods - Instinct feat MadeInTYO

XXXTENTACION - SAD!

Damso - Smog X Kyle - Ikuyo

Dosseh - Cœur de pirate X Guordan Banks - Keep you in mind

Marwa Loud - Je voulais (feat Laguardia)

Bazzi - Honest X Omar Kadir - The last thing I do

Oboy - Nuit X NAV - What I need

The Magician - Love break feat Hamza

Dinos - Les pleurs du mal

⚡ Dinos - Helsinki X Logic - The Glorious Five X Laylow - Digitalova ⚡

(Albums :6lack - East Atlanta love letter X Juice WRLD & Future - Wrld on drugs X Tory Lanez - Love me now & memories don’t die)

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8bitsupervillain · 6 years

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The Disappointments of 2017: Danganronpa 3 (Side Future, Side Despair, and Side Hope)

I know that Danganronpa 3 (the anime) came out in late 2016, but I didn’t experience it until September 2017. Be forewarned: There will be spoilers

Side Future:

Of course there would be repercussions for Makoto Naegi absconding with the Remnants of Despair. Of course he would have to face the consequences for stealing them away and taking them to a facility that could rewrite their memories so they forgot their time as Despair. But the fact that a group dedicated to the restoration of Hope, and bringing back order to a world in anarchy would decide that the person WHO KILLED THE LEADER OF DESPAIR had to be executed was one of the more ridiculous notions Side Future suggested. Who within the Future Foundation was working with Tengan to take the Branch Leaders to the secret Future Foundation headquarters? If his goal was to force Mitarai into completing his brainwashing anime (don't worry I'll get to that) why did he make there be a forbidden action that would kill him if he used his talent? Was this somehow due to Yukizome being a Remnant of Despair? Was Yukizome pulling a fast one on Munakata and making him believe for some reason Naegi is in fact a secret despair agent even though he killed Junko Enoshima? How did Kimura somehow create a drug that causes you to Hulk-out? Why was she allowed to keep those drugs when they were taken to the facility?

Why did Munakata think Naegi was a secret Despair agent when he's been fighting against people who are on the side of Despair and knows they act in a very specific way? How did Tengan get a copy of Mitarai's brainwashing anime so he could play it during the times when everyone else was knocked out? Did he just always have it since he used to be a higher-up at Hope's Peak Academy? More to that point was Tengan using his people's deaths as a way to try to spur Mitarai into action when he should know that Mitarai considers himself responsible for Junko et al. becoming Despair thus driving him to not do his anime anymore? I know that he didn't plan for Mitarai to be there when he enacted his plan to kidnap the Future Foundation high command, but he was able to set all the other parts of his plan into motion without a hitch? Why and how did Monaca get into space? Did the rest of the Towa group get away with what they did in Ultra Despair Girls without a hitch? Did Haiji Towa get away with his plan to kill EVERY CHILD IN TOWA CITY scot-free? So they killed a bunch of random nobodies no one knows or cares about, why didn't they have the guts to actually kill Kirigiri? So who exactly is funding the Future Foundation that they're able to have a fleet of warships, and soldiers to boot? Is it like a global military type of thing? A special-forces multinational force? Are they team Rainbow? Do they have any sort of oversight since you can just send off your random fleet of ships to go attack a random island chain? Did Togami point his megaphone out the window and just call everyone a bunch of punk-asses to get em to not blow up the island?

So if Sonja Nevermind is able to incite a inter-country war how was she able to just leave to join the other Remnants of Despair for the events of Danganronpa 2? More to that point, if the world is in complete anarchy as the games and flashbacks in this very show suggest why didn't Munakata or whatever head of Future Foundation just line them up against the wall and shoot em? How would the brainwashing anime work in this anarchic hellhole world? I also don't understand the whole every two hours you get injected with sleeping drugs thing. At least with Battle Royale it's just a bomb in the necklace.

Although I like Hagakure there was really no reason for him to be in the show whatsoever. His story was neat in the post game novel in Ultra Despair Girls though. Were Fukawa and Komaru trying to just help rebuild Towa City? I know they were basically just there for fanservice, but I never really understood why they were there post Ultra Despair Girls. How did Monaca manage to get her android version of that Future Foundation branch leader into the building in the first place? I know they reveal that they found the real body, but when and how did she get her android in there? Was the person she replaced also wheel-chair bound? If not, how come no one brought up the fact that their comrade is now suddenly in a wheelchair they'd never seen her in before?

Or did they just sort of shrug their shoulders at the fact that someone they know, and presumably worked with many times in the past is now suddenly in a wheelchair and speaking exclusively through a laptop that just so happens to have an avatar based on something from the Neo World Program, that kind of looks like Monokuma? Why did Tengan bother bringing her chair to the killing game he'd set up? Why not make her be the first person to fall to the suicide brainwashing video? I'm pretty sure I recall that since she's an android she wasn't susceptible to the drugs that put everyone else to sleep. Did Tengan not notice this? Or did Monaca decide to act like the android was asleep... just cause?

Side Despair:

My problems with Side Despair though mainly are due to what I think are just some really odd pacing issues. For the first few episodes it tries to play it as some type of slice-of-life thing with the class that would become the Remnant of Despairs. But it would also try to show Hinata's by comparison crappy life as a reserve course student. Then it would try to shoehorn in the plot point about Yukizome, Munakata, and eventually Sakakura trying to find out the secret truths behind Hope's Peak. They advertised that the rest of the cast of Danganronpa 2 would be characters in it but then hardly get any screen-time. This might also just be a personal thing, but when I played Danganronpa 2 back when it came out for the Vita I never really thought that Nanami was an actual person. I thought she was just an AI construct that Naegi or whoever made to try to help control the simulation with Monomi. So when the show has her appear I was like "oh! Okay, fair enough." But then the show decides to shove it down your throat that everyone loves this pure and perfect angel and you will too damn it!

Then in episode five they bring out Junko Enoshima, and gets the despair train rolling, when really she should have been there since episode one, and the story should have been about her seducing the class to Despair. When the show decides to get dark, does it ever decide to get dark. Episode seven when she forces the student council to take part in the killing game has to be one of the most dire and unsettling things I've seen in a good long while.

However there's the rest of it, Enoshima and Ikusaba kidnap Yukizome to force her into becoming their agent for despair (as a means to kidnap Nanami?), and it's one of the biggest eye-rolling moments. Somehow, without rhyme or reason, Enoshima and Ikusaba just happen to know how and where to insert needles into her brain to fully bring her to Despair (this is also tied in to making her watch the video of the student council killing each other). Around episode six or so Enoshima meets up with the real Mitarai and uses his talents for anime(?) to create a video that is so filled with despair it brainwashes people into committing suicide. In what realm or reality would that even remotely be possible? Sure anime can manipulate your emotions, but enough to cause the mass suicides of the entire Reserve Course (I may be mis-remembering, but weren't there well over five-hundred in the Reserve Course? I wanted to say the deaths of thousands, but that seems dramatic).

The stuff with Enoshima and Kamukura was never particularly interesting to watch, and I feel was a massive missed opportunity. Kamukura was built up so much in Danganronpa 2 and in the scenes he shows up in in Ultra Despair Girls, and the fact they did basically nothing with him is a shame. There was just a bit too much fluff and filler in Side Despair, I'm not saying it should've just been an adaptation of Danganronpa Zero, but they could've used some of the material from that book. Hell they could've made every episode be about the individual students of Class 77 and had them get twisted by Enoshima, you know show them get corrupted and become evil. The way the show tells it, and is the canon way it happened is that Enoshima kidnapped Nanami and forced her to run through a death-maze that led to her getting viciously killed while making Class 77 watch. Seeing this happen, and apparently having the brainwashing anime spliced into the footage(?) causes the class to fall into despair. It was pathetic, and really just annoyed me at how slipshod the writing for this "Side" was.

Side Hope:

In the grand finale Side Hope both plotlines come together, Mitarai is going to use his brainwashing anime to make everyone on earth become slaves to Hope. Except it doesn't happen, Naegi is running to try to stop him from using the anime, and when he gets there Hinata is there instead giving Mitarai a big peptalk about how you don't have to have talents to be happy. A fine message, your personal talents shouldn't define who you are as a person, but why is it Hinata telling him this? The two never met at any point in Side Despair, so why is Mitarai driven to tears and overcome with awe at some random schmo telling him "hey buddy, life's okay." Is it cause the rest of the class was there to basically give him a thumbs-up and say "yeah?" Then after they defuse the situation, all of Class 77 (and Hinata) hop on a boat and head back to Jabberwock Island with Mitarai. To live out their lives as wanted terrorist leaders. And this is a good thing, the anime assures us. They make a video to basically shake their fists at the Future Foundation for besting them at "their new killing game" cause otherwise the world will fall to pieces if it's revealed that the director of Future Foundation tried to brainwash the planet.

Side Hope really exemplifies the problems I have with a lot of the characterization (or lack thereof) in this whole affair. The show would've got by just fine if Asahina, Hagakure, and Togami just straight up weren't even there. They contribute next to nothing to the plot, and except for Kirigiri "dying" and Asahina's death fake-out (which lasted all of three minutes, it's teased at the end of an episode, and revealed to be a misdirect immediately next episode) they have no bearing on Naegi's plot at all. Like the rest of Class 77 I suspect the returning characters are simply there just for fan-service. They survived the games so they must be there for all the fans of the games, it's pointless. Just include some throwaway line about how they would be there, but instead Asahina, Togami and Hagakure are off helping out with some raid on a Despair base or some such. Or they could have had them be actual characters in their show instead of... fucking Bandai. Or the stupid confection girl and her blacksmith boyfriend who contribute fuck-all to the plot. Either have new characters and keep the returning cast to a minimum, or just make a show with the original characters, you can't do both, it just doesn't work.

There's a scene where Mikan is able to take a bit of the drugs that Kimura had and somehow synthesize an antidote to the poison that is killing Kirigiri. In the span of roughly ten minutes the Remnants: 1, got to Future Foundation HQ; 2, subdued however many Future Foundation agents are present on the whole island; 3, found dead Kimura; 4, found dying Kirigiri; 5, fought to the broadcast tower Mitarai plans to use his anime; 6, Bring him over to their side; 7, synthesize an antidote for a poison that has a 100% fatality rating. 8, Make their terrorist video saying that they're still out there. Then, after all is said and done, the cast of Danganronpa 2 have left for their island, and the rest of the gang... re-establishes Hope's Peak Academy. For some reason. Even though the whole rest of the series (including the second game, and some of the novels) go to great pains to explain why the school was basically a shithole that was doomed to fail. But Makoto Naegi is the headmaster so I guess it'll all work out. Until the next main Danganronpa game that takes everything this anime did and throws it out the window. But they wouldn't do that. Right?

#Danganronpa #Danganronpa 3 #rambling #bitching

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