#no but i do believe in flemeth's 'prophercy' about taking a leap into the abyss

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I should be writting my thesis, but I am once again plagued with Dragon Age brainrot.

VARRIC/HAWKE OH MY GOD. The sheer potential for angst, the longing the pining and the ever present question of Bianca. Blue Hawke would be a mess. He would totally stay in the fade - he already lost his family, Carver's doing good with Wardens, his friends have their own life, and Varric? Varric's fine. He always is. He always has Bianca after all.

And Varric's complicated and repressed feelings would just hit him straight in the gut the moment the first shock would fade. He's in love with Hawke, has been for so long.

And now Hawke is dead. And now there is nothing to be done about this stupid stupid feeling he cradled so close to his chest he didn't even realise it was there. Varric would not be doing fine. Oh he would repress everything again and try to be his old self, but he'd rather avoid Cole, thank you very much.

And without Hawke there would be no-one to call him out on his bullshit. Not that they were ever any good about talking about feelings.

But Varric would stay up in his room, staring at the wall, haunted by the memories of Hawke's smiling face, of all the late evening where they would stay up, snuggled close somewhere in Hanged Man, drunk and too tired to move, laughing at some stupid hardly funny jokes. He would realise with a stark clarity that there was nothing of Hawke in his possesion but those sweet, painful memories. There was no memento, no trinket, nothing. You bet he would find his pack (if he left anything in Skyhold or in the camp) and pull out some tattered red shirt and hold on to that for the rest of his life.

welp, now i'm gonna cry.

#no but i do believe in flemeth's 'prophercy' about taking a leap into the abyss #hawke lives #varric just hold on garrett will come back to you #just so you can be stupid and not talk about your feelings AGAIN 💀 #they will get it resolved or the others will take pity on them and just lock them in the closet or something #either way i'm living on few songs that are extremely varric/hawke coded and very not writting my thesis due 2 weeks from now #anyway #i love them your honor #varric tethras #dragon age 2 #hawke #garrett hawke #blue-purple hawke #varric/hawke #blue hawke #but purple hawke fits also #he would be making these terrible jokes how he just loves Varric and how Varric can't live without him #and they would both laugh and be like 'ah yeah good one buddy' and internally screaming 💀 #they're a fucking mess your honor