#nooooooo instead i get the super annoying barely recognizable type that feels like i’m up one and slightly to the left

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#man i am losing my fuckign MIND like actually going clinically insane this time! #had a huge fun cry out breakdown during lunch during my therapy session today 🤪🤪🤪 #and this bitch had the audacity to come at me exactly like i’m paying him to #i’m. genuinely distraught hahaha #he’s saying that instead of just having the longest list of diagnoses ever now PLUS c-ptsd #he thinks it’s c-ptsd causing most of the other shit #which! fine! whatever! that would be SUCH a nice way to tie everything else up and hopefully throw it away #but like i can’t even get past the initial ‘oh babes. you have SUCH complex ptsd’ #idk idk idk idk idk idk there’s just something so fun and wonderful about having your entire worldview upended #having lots of fun now doubling down on doubting my own perceptions and views of the world n people around me #me: listing out everything wrong with me #my therapist: yes you’ve literally just handed me a list of symptoms for this. congrats #poor guy really had to recenter me like three separate times ‘why is accepting this so hard for you?’ #AND i’ve apparently been dissociating and not even the fun cool kind!!! #nooooooo i can’t just float n leave n go somewhere else #nooooooo instead i get the super annoying barely recognizable type that feels like i’m up one and slightly to the left #SUCH bullshit #shut up sydney