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atopearth · 2 years

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The Fruit of Grisaia Part 4 - Matsushima Michiru Route

A Michiru that talks without being super loud is so...weird LOL. I was surprised when the other Michiru kissed Yuuji because she wanted to try it and see how it feels. LMAO when Michiru was making all the sound effects of baseball to tell Yuuji she knows what going to first base means🤣🤣 I legit laughed out loud, she's so silly and funny🤣 I knew Yuuji was really going to kiss Michiru to show her what she did to him the other day but omggg, poor Michiru lol!! The shock of her life lmao. On the other hand, I'm just squealing at how they've already kissed 5 minutes into this route🥲🥲 Honestly, props to Michiru's voice actress because her munching on too many ramune candies and all the sound effects she makes is hilarious, I can't stop laughing🤣🤣 I feel so bad for Michiru. She agonised over the kiss for so long and now Yuuji just tells her to forget about it with no explanation at all! It was her "first kiss" so she obviously needed time to digest it and wonder why he did that! Poor girl.

Lolll at the miscommunication Amane had with Sachi, it's really cute how Michiru helped resolve it when Sachi was about to go through a breakdown. On the other hand, Michiru going through her own little meltdown actually brought some tears to my eyes because I think Michiru's VA really expressed her feelings very well. When she kept saying sorry she didn't mean to shout at Amane like that and stuff, I couldn't help but understand those feelings, it was sad to see how distraught she was. Glad the other Michiru saved the day. But it seems like Michiru is much more fearful of herself than I thought. She was honestly so adorable when she shared her fears with Yuuji and held his hand and even hugged him for comfort. I'm just glad the other Michiru seems to genuinely care for her and want to protect her. Anyway, I can't imagine how terrible it must feel to literally have obvious gaps in your memories and basically never knowing the resolution to the "bad" situations she faces because the other Michiru always comes out when she's too distressed to handle her emotions. It must be so scary. I'm glad she could at least share a bit of her feelings with Yuuji.

Lmaoo when Michiru told Yumiko cats don't exist in order to protect the cat she's feeding (since cats aren't allowed in the dorm), and proceeded to say only dogs exist in this world as the cat meowed🤣🤣🤣 It's actually pretty funny how the cat is basically an extension of Michiru at this point🤣 Lmaoo, I love Makina, it was so funny when she was saying how she'll miss Yuuji and Sachi (since she's going to Amane's place during summer vacation), be okay with not seeing Yumiko and didn't mention Michiru at all🤣 Then when they're like how about Michiru, she's like who's that🤣 Awww Yuuji and Michiru are going to be alone in the dorm for two weeks because everyone is going on vacation. I'm so excited!! Lmaoo at Michiru doing spitting noises🤣 Michiru is so cuteee trying to ask Yuuji out on a date lol, and then omg, he tells her to go training with her the next day and she's dressed in a date outfit and is 3 hours early?! She's so silly but adorable. HAHAHA, I died when Michiru took out her "sandwich" for their picnic and it was literally a loaf of bread stuffed with salad 🤣 Michiru is so funny, I love how she immediately woke up when Yuuji saw her sleeping, so he said he'll cancel today's date and she bounced right up🤣🤣 LMAO that Yuuji kept on giving Michiru rocks as presents and she kept crying while saying she's so happy🤣🤣 They're both such idiots lmao🤣🤣 Sometimes Yuuji goes a bit overboard that I feel sorry for Michiru, but she's quite resilient so I'm all for their silly relationship. LOL when Michiru did the "come catch me" thing they always do on typical beach dates, and Yuuji literally does a full-on dash towards her and then tackles her too🤣🤣🤣 Yuuji rubbing sunscreen on Michiru is quite hot lmao, I love how they address leg hair though!! I've never seen fictional characters talk much about hair anywhere so hearing Yuuji and Michiru talk about it, and Yuuji saying a little hair is of no concern and she can do what she wants is so nice🥺🥺 I love how despite Yuuji's protests and a bit of confusion on why he's so soft towards Michiru, he can't refute her that he is actually having fun on their pretend dates, it's so cute🥲

Michiru feeling like everything is a dream and getting worried that everything will disappear is so saddening. My heart broke when she asked Yuuji if she was still her, and whether she was holding herself together. Yuuji hugging Michiru to comfort her was really nice. The other Michiru is very overprotective but I guess I can see why she's so concerned. Michiru really needs to be protected, especially since she's so scared of being left behind by anything and everyone she cares for. Aww, Michiru is so brave to ask Yuuji for a kiss even though it's just part of the pretend dating thing. Yuuji was awfully compliant haha, but it's nice that he let her prepare her heart and only went for it when she said she was ready. Aww I feel bad for Michiru that straight after that, Yuuji said there was no need to continue their play dates anymore because the others are coming back tomorrow😭😭 Yuuji, you idioooot!😭 Seeing Michiru slowly break down was really killing me, but I think what really destroyed me and just made me uncontrollably cry was when Yuuji told her the truth that there's another her, and Michiru kept realising that alot of the things Yuuji did was because he listened to the other her, and Michiru couldn't help but think that maybe the other her should just take care of her life full-time and she can just disappear instead. I think it really broke me because her feelings were so relatable. Sometimes when you're so tired of living, and you know you can leave things to another person's capable hands and that will do things better than you, it can't be helped that you would think maybe it's better to just disappear and let that happen, and I guess Michiru's feelings just hit a bit too close to home for me. The last straw was Meowmel (Michiru's pet cat) dying in Michiru's arms. I just couldn't stop crying seeing how thoroughly heartbroken Michiru was and how much she blamed herself. Anyway, I just wanted to say that Yuuji was pretty ruthless. I know he's more logical or whatever, but in Yumiko and Sachi's routes, he was definitely much more empathetic and understanding, so seeing him like this to her made it feel kinda terrible imo. Honestly, I'm not surprised Michiru attempted suicide because there's just way too many things happening at the same time and she can't take it, but I'm more surprised that she hasn't completely shut herself in and let the other Michiru deal with everything. There's so many instances I thought the other Michiru would appear considering how much she probably can't take, but she hasn't appeared at all, so I'm kinda confused on what exactly makes her appear now lol.

Aww I feel so bad for Yumiko! She's trying to give Michiru those pennants she bought for her as souvenirs, but she's always trying to give it to her at a time when she's anxious and not in the mood😭 I feel like Michiru is going to end up exploding on her and that will make me cry because Yumiko is so cute and sincere. I didn't expect Yuuji to sleep with Michiru at such a vulnerable time tbh, but I guess it really did help her... I didn't expect Michiru to be from a wealthy family. I'm so sad that Michiru was physically and mentally abused by her tutors that hated her because she couldn't produce results her parents were satisfied with. Her parents treated them badly so they treated her badly, and that's just terrible. She was just a kid. I found it really saddening how they gave up on her though. I mean it's great that they're not pressuring her anymore knowing she has an illness, but seeing them not care about her reaffirmed to her what her tutors always said about her being useless and being garbage, and that just breaks my heart. I honestly really liked Michiru's first meeting with the "girl". They met in an awkward moment, the girl wanted to suicide and Michiru just happened to be there. I liked that what motivated Michiru to talk to her was because she felt that it was unfair. Unfair that this girl was planning to end her life so "easily" just like this, when Michiru could never steel herself to get over the fence and jump off the roof, unfair that she had the "courage" to jump and leave everything whilst Michiru had to continue to live. It was motivated from selfish reasons, but it was nice to see that Michiru's existence and words ended up stopping the girl from killing herself. It was pretty funny how after all that, Michiru just introduced herself to the girl lol. It was so sweet to see the girl introduce so many new things Michiru never knew about to her. It's just too bad that regardless of how much fun you can have with a friend, when they're not the reason you are living for, you still end up going back to that desire of wanting to die. I guess I can kinda see why Michiru was so insistent on kissing Yuuji and sleeping with him before telling him her story. I think she wanted to understand that girl, her best friend's feelings. The girl gave up on living because her abusive "boyfriend" didn't love her anymore. She was "okay" with the abuse and the lies of him saying he'll leave his wife as long as he loved her, but once he didn't, she didn't want to live anymore, and I guess that's why Michiru wanted to experience love. Maybe she wanted to experience how reliant and dependent someone can get when it comes to love, maybe she wanted to understand how you could love a person so much that when they didn't love you anymore, you would end up wanting to leave this world instead, and I guess she wanted to know how it would feel to love someone to such an extent. The worst thing was Michiru having to see the girl kill herself right in front of her eyes but not be able to even say anything to her about her own feelings or anything at all. Would it have been better if the girl was friends with someone who wasn't "broken"? Would the girl have come back if Michiru was able to say something? Would she have stopped if Michiru said she would die with her? In the end, what someone chooses to do with their life is a choice of their own and the feelings of others can't always save them if they don't want to be saved, and it's sad to think about it all, it's just so sad to think about how difficult it is sometimes to just live.

How scary is that... The other Michiru helped Michiru make friends, do good in her studies etc enough that she was the normal, cheerful Michiru whereas she was the sick Michiru, I don't think I could take that... It's like basically saying her life was wrong, and that she's not normal. Knowing that the silly Michiru who clowns around is the Michiru she created to make others happy and let herself have something to live for makes me so sad. She knew that no one liked the real her who was always "sad", so she decided to be "silly" so others wouldn't think she's weird. It's actually really nice to see Yuuji tell her she needs to go to the hospital to help herself because sooo many characters that need therapy or something in fiction just kinda "let it go" no matter how crazy they get lol, so it's nice to see Michiru agree with him and actually decide to make changes to her situation and not just roll with it. Wellll, glad to know Michiru was actually ready to just disappear forever and that's why she agreed, I kinda wondered where those feelings went so it's nice to know that sleeping with Yuuji just made her more prepared to give up everything to the other Michiru. Guess we gotta thank Sachi for being insistent on opening this random box and letting Yuuji find her diary haha.

I guess I should get used to Yuuji using the most dramatic and crazy way to "save" every girl in their route lol. Now I'm starting to think Yumiko getting saved by a turkey was probably the most mild one. Anyway, I'm glad Michiru realised that she didn't really want to die, and also discovered how much everyone loves her. Kinda crazy to think Michiru spent 11 hours in a coffin and Yuuji sat there waiting for her to go crazy enough to break out, I guess he was really determined to not help her lol. Nice to see them happy I guess. On the other hand, I didn't actually realise the other Michiru was actually the real owner of the heart and that she has her memories, feelings and everything. Honestly, I found it kinda awkward because I pretty much assumed that this personality was created to be the stand-in best friend Michiru lost but no, she's actually her own person. I found them going to visit the other Michiru's parents and stuff pretty random tbh even though I was happy for her. Anyway, because of that, I honestly felt quite dissatisfied with Michiru's ending because it felt like we went through so many things but didn't really get enough of a happy and romantic ending for Yuuji and Michiru, and instead we had to accept the other Michiru third wheeling all the time now too lol. I mean, it's cool I guess, but I'm kinda disappointed lol.

Overall, I definitely liked Michiru's route the most. I thought it was very interesting and engaging in terms of romance and plot even though I feel like everything kinda fell off near the end. However, I really enjoyed the portrayal of Michiru's emotions because I honestly felt them so strongly that I cried. I loved how cute Yuuji and Michiru were with the pretend dates. I loved how we got to really see how much pain Michiru was in through the love and lost of Meowmel and I love how her VA showed her vulnerabilities so well in her voice whenever she opened up to Yuuji about losing herself. 10/10 for emotional pain. But I do kinda find Yuuji "weird" in this route, like I'm not sure what the exact problem is, since he is kinda cold, but I feel like he was less "kind" and understanding towards Michiru in her route than he was in others. I also found his love he developed for her rather awkward near the end, I think I liked it more when he always went easy on her by leaving his door unlocked etc during the play date times rather than the lackluster ending we got lol. I also think the other Michiru's story being shoved at the end was kinda frustrating because by that time I didn't really care much about her story and really would have liked to see Yuuji and Michiru bonding more instead since they haven't had much "real" couple interaction after saving her, so yeah it was disappointing. So really, I liked Michiru's story and I loved how tormented she was, and how well expressed it was throughout the route, but the ending was quite disappointing for me tbh. Amane time!

#grisaia #the fruit of grisaia #grisaia no kajitsu

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sohin-ace · 4 years

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Headcanons for bucci gang for a selectively mute fem!s/o speaking for the first time and their first words to them were the words "I love you so much" paired with a pure and genuinely happy smile 💝💗💝💖

This is THE CUTEST THING!

This hit a bit too close to home and I cried a bit while writing this.

I'm sorry it took so long, I wanted to take my time on this one. Hopefully you'll like it!

Bucci gang w/ a selectively mute S/O speaking for the first time HC

Bucciarati:

When you first joined, Bruno insisted to take you to a professional to maybe do something about your mutism.

He felt concerned and a bit defeated when you refused, but he didn't push it. After all, it didn't affect your performances on missions or anything.

"If you don't feel comfortable, you don't have to say anything, amore."

He knew that it hurt you just as much as it hurt him, but again, he would never force you out of your comfort zone.

One night, Bruno stayed in his office to take care of endless paperwork, as usual.

It was around 3 a.m. when he heard a gentle knock on his door.

When you shyly entered and closed the door behind you he was surprised to see you'd still be awake.

He got up and joined you halfway when you had slowly reached out to him. He could read it in your eyes, you had something important to tell him.

Worried, he approached you and held your arm as you said, soft and strained.

"I... Love you... So.. Much, Bruno." You had accompagnied your words with a beautiful yet shy smile and Bruno's eyes widened.

He couldn't contain his gasp as he gripped both your arms tightly.

"Y/N... What... What did you- Did you just-... I'm losing my mind... C-could you say that again?! Oh please God, let me hear it again-"

You were shocked by his reaction.

The usually so calm and composed Bruno Bucciarati was sounding so desperate and in the verge of breaking down.

He softened his eyes on you, but you could see from the way his chest heaved uncontrollably that he was bottling his emotions.

He gently held your face and leaned your forehead against his.

"You are so strong, my Y/N... It must have been so hard for you..."

His hair tingled your face and when you moved some strands behind his ears delicately, he started shaking.

You wrapped your arms around his neck and he let out a hearty laugh, his eyes wet and the lump in his throat painful.

"Tesoro mio, I'm so proud of you. I feel so blessed to hear your angelic voice... Just for me... God..."

He held you flush against him and his mind raced with the sound of your voice.

Abbachio:

You had found him alone one night, a bottle of wine in front of him.

You knew damn well he would drink his blues away when he thought everyone was asleep and you hoped this would cheer him up a little bit.

You walked up to him and he jumped, startled, only relaxing when he noticed it was just you.

He looked down at his empty glass in silence. What could he say? There was nothing to say.

He knew you wouldn't ask questions and he wouldn’t answer them anyway. You could only silently judge his pathetic, worthless self. Or so he thought.

You carefully snaked you arms around his neck from behind, as gentle as you could be.

"I love you so much... Leone.. Leone..."

His heart almost stopped. He tensed up as his chest started to hurt.

Was he drunk? No, he didn’t even drink that much already, he could hold his liquor way more than that-

"Y/-..."

He could barely finish saying your name when he turned his head to look at you, a sweet and genuine smile gracing your face.

He stood up so abruptly he almost knocked you and his chair down as he pounced on your smaller form.

He squeezed his eyes shut and clenched your shirt in his fists, desperately clinging onto you as he buried his crying face in your neck. Gosh he couldn't let you see him like this.

But at the same time, he couldn't remember the last time he had been this happy. Or just happy at all.

"You spoke my name... Of all things... You said my name... Gosh your voice is... I don't deserve you..."

Your voice echoed in his mind and for once, he was so extremely grateful to have Moody Blues to replay that exact moment, over and over.

He couldn't get enough of it.

He replayed your words before sleeping, when he woke up, when he felt like drinking...

Giorno:

Giorno was a fairly quiet person himself.

Due to his background he grew to know to stay silent when necessary, so he understood you.

He related to you a lot, never pushed your boundaries to speak up and made it easier for you by asking 'yes or no' questions.

It didn't change the fact that in his eyes, you were a beautiful and strong person, worthy of love and respect.

Still, he wished you would open up to him one day.

You two were just peacefully watching the horizon, the breeze and quietness of the city making the moment very romantic.

"It's a beautiful view, isn't it?"

He did not expect an answer of course, but he still loved to speak to you, as he knew you were always listening.

You looked at him dead in the eyes and you choked a small hesitant gasp, still unsure of yourself.

He leaned down. "What's wrong, amore?"

Upon seeing his soft green eyes, you felt encouraged and spoke up while fidgeting with his blonde braid.

"I love you so much... Giogio..."

His eyes widened and his lips parted, completely taken aback. But upon seeing the adorable, sweet smile you were gifting him, he could hardly control back his actions.

He instantly held your face and brought you in for a passionate and loving kiss that spoke all the words for him.

You had felt his tears streaming on your own face, but he was sure to not show them to you as he immediately held you against him after pulling away.

"So brave... To speak your confession to me like this... My angel..."

Mista:

Mista was leisurely chilling on the couch, drinking some soda when you sat down next to him.

"Sup babe?"

You tugged on his shirt and he automatically leaned down to your level, not without a little hum of confusion.

Oh, did you want to kiss him? Haha, cute.

But then you gently cupped his ear and leaned your lips towards him.

"I... Love you... so much..." The last words died in a soft whisper.

When you let go of him to see his reaction, he didn't budge a muscle.

He dropped his drink and spilled it all over his pants and the floor. Oh but he didn't even care, he was completely stunned.

He would have been frozen in place till the end of time if you didn't shake him out of it.

"B-babe- oh my god... OH MY GOD HOLY FUCKING- Y/N !!!"

He litterally jumped out of his seat and howled to the whole headquarter.

"YOU TALKED!!?? MY BABY SPOKE WORDS HAHAHA HOLY SHIT BRO OH MY GOD!!! YOOO EVERYBODY COME HERE!!!"

The Pistols flew out everywhere and cheered with their user who was still jumping and grabbing at his head in pure euphoria.

He couldn't stop laughing and he tackled you down on the couch, holding you tight like you would disappear.

"You are so amazing, Y/N, my baby, oh my god, I love you too-"

He couldn't stop peppering your face with kisses after that.

Narancia:

Spare this boy. He was especially sensitive to your condition.

Why didn't you speak to them? Bucciarati said you could talk, but you didn't?

No matter how many times he was explained the situation, he didn't get it.

He always tried to make you laugh, and joked around. It didn't make you talk, but surely it made you fall for him.

He eventually accepted the silent treatment but still asked you so many questions.

"What's your voice like?" "Do you have an accent?" "Were you always mute?" "What do you scream when you stub your toe?"

One random day you approached him and hugged him very suddenly.

"O-oh- What's going on cutie?"

He had a goofy smile on his face and reciprocated the soft embrace before you backed up a bit, looking into his eyes.

"Narancia... I love you... So.. So much..."

...Was it real? Was this really happening?

He let out an incomprehensible yelp and stuttering sounds of confusion and shock.

"E-eeh.. Whaa-.. Uh... Whu... Ah-..?!"

He cupped his face, covered his mouth, grabbed his head, he didn't know what to do, how to react, he was so shaken and distraught.

He eventually started to sob loudly and his eyes watered freely. He was so moved.

"Your voice, Y/N- your voice..!"

His own voice cracked into a high pitched squeak and he grabbed your shoulders, hanging his head low and broke down completely.

You carefully patted and carressed his arms and back in comfort.

"Y/N! Y/N! YOUR VOICE IS SO PRETTY OH MY GOD PLEASE SAY SOMETHING ELSE PLEASE PLEASE IT'S BEAUTIFUL YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL DAMN-"

He was so scared it would be the first and last time he ever heard you.

It was so difficult to calm him down.

Fugo:

He actually made a lot of research on selective mutism to understand what it's like, what causes it etc.

He felt concerned that you would have to go through something like this when you were such a good and kind person.

He liked how your silent calm nature contrasted with his own angry one and he was thankful to have someone like you to help him tone down.

You had come up behind him one day after he got extremely frustrated with Narancia.

He was fuming and clearly, whatever you wanted right now, he was not in the mood for it.

You only grabbed his hand gently and rubbed the back of it, sending him a sweet smile.

"I love you... So, so much..."

He flinched and subconsciously clenched your hand. Hard.

What was that? WHAT WAS THAT?

His eyes were wide as saucers and his entire body stopped responding.

"...Y/N?" He called weakly, thinking foolishly that maybe that wasn't really you in front of him.

You sweetly caressed his cheek and he looked like he was going to pass out.

Everytime he tried to form words, they would come in short breaths. He was so overwhelmed, he had such a difficult time processing his emotions.

For the first time, you saw him smile a genuine smile of happiness as he shakily put his hand over yours holding his face, nuzzling into your touch.

"I... I love you too... You are so incredible, you sound so much better than I ever expected."

Trish:

Trish always tried her best to make you speak.

She knew she shouldn't push you, but she wanted you to feel okay and safe with everyone.

She was a bit shy herself and didn't have the best background for growing up into a loud person.

One day, you went to her and grabbed her attention. When she turned around, and you finally spoke your love to her, so softly, so quietly, she immediately jumped.

"I... I love you Trish... So, so much."

"Wha-... What did you say...?" She is breathless and can't help but cover her mouth in pure shock.

Surely she hallucinated just now, right?

You grin at her dumbfounded expression and her mouth opens and closes as she doesn't even know what to say or where to start.

This is not like she was used to being told she was loved, but from you? This was like a dream!

You noticed the tears brimming in her eyes and she bit her lips before she buried her face in her hands.

You had to take her in your arms and hold her tight while she sobbed.

It's only when you start patting her back gently that she realises this isn't a dream.

She immediataly coils her arms tightly around your neck and stutters, overwhelmed.

"I can't believe it, I can't believe it, I can't believe it-"

You chuckle quietly and she cries even harder when she finally hears your laughing voice.

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cadaceus · 2 years

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C3E14

I am playing a major game of catch up at the moment but here are my liveblogs for Campaign 3, Episode 14 of Critical Role: “In Too Deep.” I indeed feel in too deep because the end of this episode made me so genuinely emotional... the gif header of this one is a small hint as to why :’) Full spoilers below!

- “You all came in with weird energy, and it done fucked me up” LMAO episode off to a good start!

- SAM??? IS HE GOOD??

- I was gonna be like fists ARE melee weapons but Marisha’s right, monks are just special :(

- The way that FCG got the Ardent Armor into Ashton is so funny sfdghjkd I love them so much

- THE TALIESIN CHARACTER DEATH JOKES LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE!!!

- “I’m on cameo” LMAO SAMMM

- A zero with advantage..... oh Ashton hahaha

- Dorian kissing Ashton on the cheek to convey a message is so sweet, Dorian Storm my beloved

- TRAVIS/CHETNEY GOING INTO A SOUTHERN ACCENT SFGSHJKL

- Robbie’s oh shit Ashton just got roasted face at ~1:33:17 is absolutely sending me

- Note to self: “The Green Seekers” are a (highly fashionable) detective agency

- Dorian’s “also, I have to pee” after Chetney’s extremely startling announcement SDFGHJK COMEDIC DUO OF THE CENTURY

- Every time Marisha turns to sneeze it scares the heck out me, ma’am BE CAREFUL YOUR RIBS

- Laura’s iWatch(?) at 2:45:05 and Laura’s reaction DSFGHJK I love her so much

- WEREWOLF CHETNEY WILL NEVER GET OLD (no pun intended)

- Wait, so Lady Emoth got away?? Oh noooo

- BELLS HELLS WE HAVE AN OFFICIAL PARTY NAME I LOVE IT

- THE BOTTOM TABLE’S REACTION TO DORIAN ROLLING A NATURAL 20 PERSUASION IS A BIG MOOD ASGJHSKADJ god that was clutch

- I love how Matt rewards kind of “unnecessary” kindnesses, like how the party saved Dunot and then later Dunot vouches for Laudna in front of a suspicious guard, like it’s a small thing but I really love to see it!

- Fearne and Orym look SO distraught when Dorian says he’s going with Cyrus, me too loves, I’m so sad :((

- Okay tbh I didn’t really ship Dorian/Orym before but the way Dorian reacted to Laudna’s insinuation (Laudna: “all those nights in bed together...” / Dorian: “no no, it wasn’t like that, it was... uh... *eyebrow raise*”) HELLO??

- Goodness I am so sad right now... what a bittersweet moment, seeing all of their goodbyes (and Ashton’s “To Dorian, who is leaving us for his stupid brother... what the fuck is up with that?” was the perfect sendoff!) I wish we could keep Robbie forever; I will miss Dorian SO much since he was one of my favorite characters this campaign. I hope we get to see him in the main campaign again someday soon! (Although that 2 part EXU special announcement is EXCITING)

#dorian storm come home to me #critical role #c3e14 #c3 liveblog #c3 liveblogs #i once again have forgotten how i organize these liveblogs LOLwhoops #emotional rollercoaster this one :((

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inkykeiji · 3 years

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thanks now I’m thinking about hawks from the niichan universe so I gotta know: reader obviously has feelings (whatever they are) for tomura but how does she feel about keigo?? Like we know she went to tomura for ultimate pain and revenge but would she have considered hawks since he was right there?

ooooh hehehehe good question anon!!

keigo’s the closest (and most trusted) friend she has by part two (which really isn’t saying much, tbh). they get along well and obv keigo jumps at any opportunity to take advantage of her because he’s scummy, but he does truly care about her and her well being (to an extent, of course his selfishness gets in the way of this hehehe). BUT she can tell that his care and concern is genuine and she trusts him very deeply (dangerous for her, great for him—poor reader isn’t too bright outside of academics), which means she comes directly to him when she has an issue with touya. in other words: keigo is touya’s most trusted friend (relatively; we know touya doesn’t fully trust anyone other than natsuo), which means he’s now reader’s most trusted friend, too, even if he has his own agenda.

if she hadn’t been in such an emotionally distraught state and essentially out for extreme revenge and what she thought would hurt touya most, and had instead sat to think about it for a moment, yeah, keigo definitely would’ve passed through her mind. if she had taken some time to work through potential outcomes then she might’ve been a lil more inclined to choose keigo under the guise that touya wouldn’t be as mad, but would still be hurt enough to get her message across (she would’ve been wrong, of course, but she doesn’t know that hahaha. in that situation touya still would’ve been just as angry at her, but he would’ve been more hurt by keigo, someone he trusts. but when reader chooses tomura, it’s all on her—the anger AND the hurt, yk??)

#HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES SENSE LMAO #i'm suddenly SO exhausted #my eyes are burning aaaah okay ANYWAY!#yeah #big apologies for all of the brackets hahaha #but good question!!!#keigo's really interesting in this series because his 'good guy' nature and his scumminess are almost at odds with each other #if that makes sense???#like he DOES still have some sort of moral compass #but he's also a selfish manipulative jackass yk??#so when opportunity comes knocking he isn't going to NOT answer hahaha #his logic is kinda like 'well...it's there...might as well do it' type thing #lazy lazy #anyway i hope your thursday is going well anon!!!#pls keep safe out there <33 #clari gets mail #touya nii universe #inky.bb

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rocorambles · 4 years

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I hc that Oikawa has a fear of becoming sick or too ill so when his s/o has the flu he’s decked out in protective gear with a mask and uses one of those hooks to bring the food over or Kleenex and he sanitizes everything repeatedly. S/o doesn’t have the patience for him and tells him to leave but Oikawa is like no I’m taking care of you that’s what good boyfriends do bby🥺

HAHAHA I don’t know if any of you watch Schitt’s Creek, but this reminds me of Moira. Omg...IS OIKAWA MOIRA????? I SEE IT. I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT.

In Oikawa’s defense he is genuinely worried about you and distraught when he finds out that you’re deathly ill with the flu and he sends you a flurry of texts all day as he anxiously goes through the school day while you’re bedridden and miserable. He rushes to the corner store as soon as practice is done and he buys you everything you could possibly need, medicine, tissues, ice packs, but he pauses when he sees the aisle of protective gear. Oikawa loves you, but the idea of getting the flu is terrifying. He’s never had it before and he doesn’t plan on this being the first time he gets it and with that thought, he throws in some face masks, plastic face shields, and elbow-length cleaning gloves into his cart.

You think you might die from shock when the first thing you see when you open your bleary eyes is the masked stranger decked out as if he was in the middle of chemical warfare, but before you can scream, you go still when you hear the familiar voice despite it being muffled behind layers and layers of material and you squint at familiar chocolate brown eyes.

“Tooru?”

You settle back in bed with a groan when he gives you his signature peace sign and beckon him to come closer, but you frown in confusion when he maintains his distance. However, when he uses the pole of your family’s Swiffer to pass you the bag of goodies he’d bought from the drugstore instead of walking the few feet to hand it to you himself, confusion morphs into irritation and you angrily snatch the bag from the stick before grumbling at him to leave if this is how he’s going to be.

But you immediately regret your attitude when it results in the high-pitched incessant whines you’ve become so accustomed to, but that now grate on your throbbing feverish head and to shut him up as quickly as possible, you grit your teeth and tell him to shut up and sit down. And even through the pain and wooziness, a small part of you fondly stares at your boyfriend who happily sits down and gazes at you from the corner of your room. The two of you chatter back and forth as he rambles on about how his day was, how practice was and you quietly listen, finding his rambling soothing as you continue to rest and as your eyelids droop heavier and heavier, the last coherent thought you have is how much you love the brunette and unknown to you in your feverish state, you quietly murmur “I love you, Tooru” before letting sleep overcome you.

Oikawa freezes at your words and he stares in flustered awe as you drift off and despite all the warning bells in his head about getting sick, he draws near you and lifts his visor and pulls down his mask before tenderly kissing your forehead, smiling down at your sleeping figure before he turns to head out.

#oikawa x reader #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu imagines

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monomonomagines · 4 years

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could you write dr2 boys reacting to learning their s/o is part of the neo world based off of a dead classmate like chiaki after being able to graduate the simulation the intended way or through surviving the killing game ?

Oh my goodness anon I love you for requesting this but I am equally angry that I never even contemplated something like this. I'm going to go with the boys graduating from the simulation the correct way for this ask and used bullet points but if you want me to do it the other way as well feel free to tell me. I won't go on much longer I just had to get it out that this is a great idea. An angsty idea no less but still amazing.

I hope you enjoy this as much as I did writing it. If you all couldn't tell already I live for angst. Anyways here's the boy's reactions.

Teruteru

Teruteru had been so glad that you had accepted him for who he really was.

You didn't mind his accent or quirks and loved him for him.

That's why he was elated to graduate from the simulation you were in together after the class had collected all the hope fragments.

It meant that you and him would be able to be together for real. Just him and you with nothing else between you.

As soon as he woke up from the simulation and got to actually explore the real island his immediate goal was to find you but he just seemed to be missing you.

He thought that he'd find you soon enough when Hajime approached him and put a hand on his shoulder telling him about your own demise before the simulation.

He didn't want to be the one to break the guy's heart but no one else would be better at telling him the cold hard truth.

You didn't exist anymore. You slipped through Teruteru's fingers long before they were placed into the Neo World program.

As soon as the words left Hajime's lips it was evident that they weighed on Teruteru.

His smiling face had taken a more solemn expression. He needed to be alone so that he could mourn you. He'd end up bawling like a baby and crying out for you until he'd pass out some nights until he'd force himself to get out of this funk.

Neither you nor his mama would want to see him like this. He needed to honor your memories, not just mope around.

He'd make all your favorite dishes, he'd walk along the beach like you two said you would in the Neo World, and he'd cherish you. Even the you that wasn't real because it was still you that made him feel whole not that simulation in the end.

Imposter/BBB

The imposter never expected to end up getting close to you but with your kindness and tact, it wasn't unforeseen.

You weren't unworthy of his love or anything and you seemed to genuinely enjoy his company like no other person.

You wanted to know his dreams, his hopes, his inspirations, and most of all to get to know him and his heart.

Unlike Teruteru he wouldn't jump up at immediately graduating until after he'd turn to look at you and have you both promise that you'd find each other when you were out of the Neo World.

The only issue is you couldn't promise. The simulation's version of you did just that but you were long gone far before that promise was made.

That was why he couldn't find you.

Unlike Teruteru when everyone else was somehow all there but you, he'd quickly put the pieces together and rush to excuse himself.

He never wanted to get attached and here he was left heartbroken over a simulation.

He'd mourn without showing many expressions around the others. He just wanted to be alone to think, to reminisce as he'd gaze at that same ocean you two would in the Neo World.

Normally then you'd be holding hands but now his were empty as he was alone.

Nagito

Nagito like Teruteru is the type to rush into things.

They both tend to take drastic actions in order to get the things they want most in life so he wouldn't bat an eye at graduating from the Neo World with you.

Only he wouldn't be able to.

The same person that had gotten to know and accept the real Komaeda didn't exist anymore.

They perished long before the Neo World Program began and it fits almost too well with his luck for the person he loved to never have been real.

Like the Imposter, Nagito would wan to be alone for the most part to mourn you, getting snippy and irritable with anyone that dared to interrupt him.

He didn't want anything but you and you were dead. He'd try to laugh but would just end up crying as he remembered each moment he shared with the illusion of you.

He missed you more than anything.

Fuyuhiko

Fuyuhiko only had you and Peko. That was all he needed, he thought.

You two were closer than anything and he couldn't be happier. You never underestimated him. You saw all his capability and appreciated him for who he really was.

That's why he decided he did want to graduate with everyone. He wanted to be with you and Peko. With all three of you together he felt invincible.

However, that invincibility duration was not long. It soon fizzled out as he came to the real island he and his friends were on.

He thought he'd be able to find you but from the look on Peko's face when he asked he knew something was wrong.

Looking as distraught as him she had to tell him why their search for you was unsuccessful. How it was because you weren't real then.

You had been gone for years and you weren't coming back. Not now, not ever.

Fuyuhiko would immediately fly into a fit of rage, taking things out on inanimate objects and lashing out at others but whenever it was just him he'd cry his eyes out.

He missed everything about you. He was sorry he sometimes bitched at you or that he acted ungrateful at times he was sorry so why couldn't you be here with him?

He's filled with far more regrets than most of this cast at the loss of you.

Kazuichi

Like Nagito, Kazuichi's always been a pretty obsessive guy but he'd decide in an instant that he'd want to graduate from this simulation.

He knew you'd end up with him so what was there to worry about?

Apparently, a lot more than he knew because even after running around the whole island a few times, there was no sign of you.

He'd have just kept running on and on simply thinking he missed you if not for Hajime stopping him.

Like with Teruteru, it was better if Hajime broke the news to him since they were so close.

But as soon as he hears what Hajime has to say he goes into denial immediately.

He refuses to listen to reason still looking for you for days on end until the reality hits him like a slap to the face.

You really were dead! You were dead and there was nothing he could do to bring you back.

He'd end up isolating himself like Fuyuhiko and being quite irritable but when he's alone he surprisingly wouldn't cry.

Instead, he'd talk to the sky as if you were there with him right then and there.

Hajime

Once Hajime would leave the Neo World Program to be with his friends he'd be the quickest to piece together why you aren't with them.

Once he's in the real world he is basically Izuru reformed after all.

However, he's able to feel more than Izuru could. He'd know that you were a mere simulation, that you died long before this all began but he'd struggle with accepting it still.

He wanted so badly to see you running up to him to embrace him like you did so many times within the simulation but it was hopeless.

He knew it was true but he would want some time alone to think.

He didn't need to bawl his eyes out but he'd definitely cry those first few nights without you.

It's just that after he'd come to the same conclusion that Teruteru would at a faster speed.

He'd keep your memory in his heart for as long as he was around.

It didn't matter if he was just sitting on the shore watching the sunset or if he was drawing with his fingers in the sand alone because your memory was there with him.

You were still there by his side doing your own thing as he did his. Your memory was real enough for him to still cherish your time together.

Nekomaru

Nekomaru loved your fun-loving nature from the start of your escapades in the Neo World Program and was more than excited to continue to enjoy life to the max with you.

He was definitely would graduate without a second thought, immediately assuming you'd be there when he'd wake up.

But when you didn't he just assumed you were taking your sweet time.

Hahaha, S/o's so funny waiting to graduate.

He'd keep positive thoughts the whole time that you weren't there, arguing with anyone who said otherwise when deep down he realized.

You were like Chiaki, you didn't exist anymore.

You died before he went into the Neo World Program and there was no bringing you with him when left.

He'd have a lot of anger like Kazuichi or Fuyuhiko but he'd put it all into his fights with Akane or when he was training anyone.

He'd try to stay positive for you but some nights he'd find himself looking at the sea and thinking about how things could've been different if you could just be standing next to him right now.

He felt so empty.

Gundham

For someone to infiltrate the Dark Overlord's defenses was an anomaly at best.

He didn't allow others to pierce his walls but somehow your might had completely obliterated them.

That's why you were dating.

You understood Gundham and his eccentricities and even when you didn't you accepted him.

You did more, you loved him. You loved him and his dark devas, him and his poison blood, you just loved him as he was and he couldn't ask for more.

He decided to graduate with everyone rather hastily at the prospect of getting to see you for real but reality quickly caved in on him.

When everyone was there but you, he'd immediately assume the worst but would try to stand tall. Simply asking Hajime as to where you were.

But when Hajime shook his head and put his hand on his shoulder he instantly knew.

He'd barely comprehend those words but at the same time, they'd stick to the inside of his skull.

S/o died long before the Neo World Program started.

He just wouldn't be able to do more than turn into a mere husk of a man.

He wouldn't speak to anyone, not even Sonia. He'd just stand by the shore in solitude, wondering what you'd tell him to do now.

#danganronpa #danganronpa imagines #dr2 #danganronpa goodbye despair #danganronpa x reader #x reader #imagine #teruteru hanamura #ultimate imposter #byakuya twogami #nagito komeada #fuyuhiko kuzuryuu #kazuichi soda #kazuichi souda #hajime hinata #nekomaru nidai #gundham tanaka #ask #mod toko

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hachichimitsu2 · 4 years

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A Comprehensive List of Stan and Kyle Moments (I UPD8 AS I GO)

Hello. Yes, you heard me. Here are all the scenes that legit scream out “STYLE” in South Park, whether these scenes are too far of a reach or not. I mostly compiled this out of my very own convenience, and hopefully this’ll help you a whole lot too. This is extremely text heavy, so I’ll put this under “Read More”. I haven’t played any of the games, so I won’t be including it here at this time, so if you guys know any good moments from the games, please let me know and I’ll add it to the list.

Cherokee Hair Tampons:

- The entire goshdarn episode.

- Stan being concerned and distraught over a dying Kyle breaks my heart. He was even bawling next to Kenny.

- Stan willing to donate his kidney to Kyle, even if it’d hurt a lot.

- Stan knowing that Kyle ate a bean and bacon soup half an hour ago shows that he’s been by Kyle’s side for quite some time now.

- Stan holding onto Kyle while they were at Cartman’s house.

- “Dude, you’re my best friend. I don’t want you to die before I do...”

Super Best Friends:

- Yeah, um, this episode...is gay.

- Stan and Kyle entering the episode with ice cream cones while Butters and Cartman wondering where they got them from. It’s assumed Stan and Kyle were hanging out with each other off-screen.

- I think Kyle being convinced that he’s not “really happy” through brainwashing is parallel to Stan being convinced that he’s “depressed” by the Church of Scientology.

- Stan trying to help Kyle escape with him, not even mentioning this plan to Kenny, Cartman or even Butters.

- Stan and Kyle looking at each other with longing looks while dramatic music plays in the background. Ah yes. I am...not even joking...this legit happened.

- How to Find Your Boyfriend 101: “OH MY GOD! THEY KILLED KENNY!!” “Y-you bastards...”

- Stan pleading Kyle not to kill himself and to hold his breath while being there for him.

- The ending where they call each other Super Best Friends and both proceed to beat up Cartman when he teased that they should make out.

Cartmanland:

- Stan comforting a distraught Kyle.

- @belovedhomosexuals mentioned that canonically, Stan helps Kyle with his hemorrhoid cream, and IM-

- Stan doing everything he can to get back at Cartman for Kyle’s sake.

- Stan demanding the doctor to wheel Kyle out to see Cartman in misery.

Asspen:

- “YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HEATHER!!” >:(

- Kyle not wanting Stan to do the K-13. He doesn’t want him to die.

- Kyle holds a polaroid photo of the both of them. How cute. Does he bring it with him wherever he goes?

The Biggest Douche In The Universe:

- Stan not wanting to go back to Colorado without Kyle and does all he can to convince him that John Edward is a fraud.

Follow That Egg:

- They are dads.

- They take care of their egg really well.

- “As a matter of fact, it is the nicest hat I’ve ever known”

- They’re the reasons gays could get married.

- Stan getting jealous of Kyle being paired up with Wendy. It does seem like a reach I have to admit, but if you’re a Stylendy fan, then this one’s for you.

Return of Chef

- The iconic beginning “flashback” where they both look at the sunset together.

Smug Alert:

- Stan and Kyle meeting in the parking lot in the beginning when Kyle was helping his dad give fake tickets.

- Kyle being moved away from South Park has Stan write a song to get Kyle and his family to come back.

- The cute hug in the end.

Fantastic Easter Special

- Stan, out of breath, asks Kyle for help in protecting Snowball

- Kyle helping him out anyways even though he was busy with fingerprinting.

- Cinematic parallels of Kyle killing Jesus and Stan killing that alien in Pinewood Derby.

Imaginationland Trilogy

- Kyle calling Stan in the morning regarding the “dream.”

- Stan and Kyle, unsure of the notes, both trying to recall the Imagination song. It was cute.

- Stan being distraught when ManBearPig got a hold on Kyle. (I swear, I’ve used the word “distraught” for over 1948388 times now)

- Kyle communicating through Stan telepathically with his Imagination.

Guiltar Queer O

- The whole episode.

- “I know...I need you.”

- The whole episode was literally as if they went through a break up.

- They’re both in sync when playing, right up to their tongues up.

- “Oh, so the gallant knight now comes to rescue me from the bowels of mediocrity! Oh, thank you, your royal lordship!” (Foreshadowing for SOT?)

- Stan thinking of Kyle as he’s “driving”.

The List:

- Stan doing all he can to prove that Kyle is a handsome mf. Another episode that screams Stylendy rights.

You Got F’d in the A:

- Kyle being so happy to see Stan dancing back to the Orange County kids.

- It’s canon that Stan can dance well while Kyle doesn’t have rhythm whatsoever. Wouldn’t it be a cute idea for Stan to teach Kyle how to dance?

You Have 0 Friends

- Kyle pleading Stan to water his crops.

- A short detail but if you noticed when Kyle announced that they made an FB account for Stan, he only added himself as Stan’s friend. This means that Kyle legit “friended” himself in Stan’s profile and didn’t bother to add Kenny or Cartman to Stan’s friend list.

- “Yes. WE’RE REALLY GREAT FRIENDS STAN!!” :D

You’re Getting Old:

- Oof. Yeah....

- Stan obviously loves Kyle a whole lot, but him seeing Kyle slowly turn into a turd probably did break his heart little by little. And when I mean by probably, I mean massively.

- Kyle shouldn’t exactly be demonized for not being able to handle Stan’s cynicism. Because I think it’s ok to admit you can’t handle such emotional drainage even if coming from your SBF, but do mind that him leaving Stan was most likely NOT easy for him. It’s kinda sad that they’ve slowly drifted away since then. BUT NO I REFUSE TO LET THAT HAPPEN ;-;

Assburgers:

- “Fuck you Kyle! You’re a piece of shit...Kyle, I love you. You’re a piece if shit though, fuck you...! I love you...”

- Stan immediately going back to Kyle when he’s feeling “better”

- That McDonalds Exec. literally narrating Stan and Kyle’s current rocky relationship and not believing every second of if.

A Nightmare on Facetime:

- “WILL SOMEONE GET ME A CHARGER OVER HERE!!’

- Kyle bringing and guiding Stan through the iPad.

Ginger Cow:

- Jokes aside, when Stan was asking Kyle about Cartman’s farts, he was really sweet and understanding to him. He genuinely wants to understand why Kyle likes Cartman’s farts so much and knew something was up by the way Kyle was hiding things.

- I also like how he was not afraid to call Kyle a dick. I think a good level of transparency is needed in a healthy relationship. That’s just how they roll.

- Stan helping Kyle cover up in the end....though it did backfire.

Black Friday Trilogy:

- “DID KYLE KNOW ABOUT THIS?!” “Kyle thought of it.” ;-;

- Stan being grounded and Kyle apologizing at the other side of the door was peak gay angst level.

- “That’s just how Xbox people are...” D:

- Ok now for something sweet. In the deleted scene, Stan was showing Kyle how the playstation controller works and...wow.......what cute babies.

Prehistoric Ice Man:

- “Oh my god! They killed Kenny!!” *looks at Kyle* “What? I’m not talking to you anymore.”

- Them fighting and arguing was so adorable. Their voices were so squeaky and cute in this episode.

- “First one to die loses.” SOGKEKGKRI WHAT MORONS

- Stan and Kyle kind of awkwardly trying to start the fight reminds me of Tweek vs Craig.

Mexican Joker:

- Stan angrily sending Cartman to the detention center after hearing about him sending Kyle there.

Band in China:

- “kyyyyyyYYYYYLEEEE :D DUDE YOU’RE BACK!!”

- Stan making a death metal band because a.) He hates living in the farm and b.) He misses Kyle so hard.

Britney’s New Look:

- Another Stan and Kyle episode where they both realized how so far in the wrong they’re in, and they desperately want to fix it.

- Stan and Kyle giving up in the end and joining in the chant.

The Death of Eric Cartman:

- Stan offering Kyle money so he could buy milk for lunch.

Two Guys Naked In A Hot Tub:

- “You can't just hang out with your buddy Kyle all the time. People will think you guys are, you know, funny.”

- When Kyle walks over in the end, Stan proceeds to complain to him how he had the worst night and they both go to Kyle’s house to hang.

The China Probrem

- In the beginning, Stan telling Kyle to refute Cartman’s racist sayings and got overly concerned when Kyle said he couldn’t do this anymore.

- Stan going in Kyle’s room to talk about moving on from what they’ve witnessed.

- Stan holding Kyle’s hand to run away in Kyle’s dream. Kyle waking up and crying when Stan wasn’t around to comfort him.

- Stan and Kyle crying in each other’s arms and telling each other “I love you”.

- Small detail but when they were leaving the attorney’s office and the attorney and the kids were crying altogether, Stan put a hand on Kyle to comfort him as they were crying.

The Mystery of the Urinal Deuce:

- Stan appearing in Kyle’s living room suddenly.

- “Well dude, maybe we're just super badass. Have you thought of that?” Yeah I know Stan was trying to cover up what he just did by saying that but still.

Cartman Gets An Anal Probe:

- Stan helping Kyle save Ike.

- “Hahaha you farted.” WHAT GROSS DORKS

- Kyle telling a speech to the aliens and Stan remarking how beautiful it was.

A Very Crappy Christmas:

- Kyle calling Stan in the middle of the night to get the guys, and Stan answering all sleepily is so adorable.

- Stan and Kyle voice acting together.

- Stan and Kyle doing the stopmotion animation together.

- Stan and Kyle laughing when they had Stan voice act Cartman to say the “ham” line.

Fun With Veal:

- Kyle taking care of a sickly Stan despite being a bit of a germaphobe.

The Snuke:

- Stan coming over to a sick Kyle’s house immediately after school has been suspended.

Crack Baby Athletic Association:

- Stan not being afraid to call out on Kyle.

- Kyle snuck into Stan’s room and Stan was listening to him unfazed.

Quintuplets 2000:

- Them trying to do gymnastics.

Pee:

- Kyle getting disgusted after hearing Stan talk about how it’s normal for people to pee in pools and in the shower.

Butterballs:

- Kyle calling Stan out in the bathroom, and they have this long ass stare. Kyle knowing that Stan will be jackin it in San Diego.

Bike Parade:

- Stan making Kyle laugh.

Proper Condom Use

- Stan and Kyle playing with a Jennifer Lopez doll and roleplaying.

- “SCREAM FOR ME BITCH!” “AHHHHHHHHH”

- Stan and Kyle in the same car with their cute big heads protruding.

World War Zimmerman:

- Stan and Kyle playing football.

The Scoots:

- Once again, Stan and Kyle playing football.

City on the Edge of Forever:

- Stan saving Kyle in his dream.

- Stan and Kyle sitting a bit closer to each other than usual in Stan’s dream.

Grounded Vindaloop:

- The tetherball date.

- Stan and Kyle saying “fuck you” to Kenny.

Clubhouses:

- Stan reading Bebe’s note, and Kyle being unfazed about it later in the episode. It was never defined whether he was informed the note came from Bebe.

#REHASH:

- Stan and Kyle being called grandpas by the little kids.

Tegridy Farms:

- When one of Ike’s classmates blew smoke in front of Kyle, Stan got extremely defensive about it.

Raising the Bar:

- Stan informing Kyle that it isn’t cool to continue on with “Fatty Doo Doo”.

- Stan checking up on Kyle as he’s sitting alone and listening to him lament about how the bar has sunk so low because of people.

Go Fund Yourself:

- *looking at Kyle’s ass* Boy this is the life huh.

Truth and Advertising:

- Stan and Kyle fist fighting for real, and Tweek and Craig looking at them concerned since they rarely ever fight like this.

Conjoined Fetus Lady:

- Stan preparing to catch Kyle if ever he fails to catch the dodgeball.

Stanley’s Cup:

- THEIR YOUNGER SELVES PLAYING HOCKEY!

ManBearPig:

- Stan’s head on Kyle’s lap. It’s so beautifully rendered.

Board Girls:

- “Wow, you are really into board games.”

A Scause for Applause:

- Kyle confronts Stan about cutting the bracelet by saying Heidi Turner saw him with super glue.

The Death Camp of Tolerance:

- “KYLE! KYLE! YOU HAVE TO KEEP MAKING YOUR MACARONI PICTURES!!”

South Park Bigger, Longer and Uncut:

- Stan getting jealous that even Kyle is amazed at Gregory.

Cartman Join NAMBLA:

- Stan and Kyle putting their face against the glass.

Mr. Hankey’s Christmas Classics:

- Stan and Kyle making fun of Shelly behind her back.

Raisins:

- Kyle coming to visit Stan with the gang after the whole breakup.

- Kyle wanting Stan to be happy again by bringing him to Raisins.

- Kyle being annoyed over Stan being distraught over Wendy. Jealous?

Mr. Jefferson:

- When Stan hears a knock on his window, he assumes it’s Kyle.

- Stan and Kyle being good caretakers of Blanket.

- Stan and Kyle sleeping with Blanket.

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crollalanzaa · 4 years

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My Haikyuu Thoughts

(reposted from twitter)

I started the manga 23/6/14 largely because there was a void left by me falling out of HP which RL and PJO wasn’t filling. I saw Hinata art on viria’s tumblr and was, ‘oh, who he?’ I think I watched a bit of the anime but had not thought much of it ???

So there was this kid who was irritatingly enthusiastic and embarrassingly bad at volleyball and it was all the cringe making stuff I hate because I’m not into vicarious humiliation, but as I read on, and he hit that perfect shot and yelled ‘ALL RIIIIIGHT!’ I was almost hooked.

Then he appeared and you know who I mean. It wasn’t the appearance at the middle school match but turning up at the gym, realising his place was now under threat, but going out of his way to make sure the two idiots bonded on court.

I was intrigued and more than a little koo-koo over Suga, but still not absolutely hooked. The point where I knew this was not only my thing but a story which was going to reel me in was the Neighbourhood match. The drama of the Asahi/Suga/Nishinoya dynamic was one thing. Asahi calling for the toss still sends shivers up and down my spine and yet ... what hooked me was the adults leaving the match, their conversation as they went back to their normal lives They laughed with fondness and nostalgia about the drama of HS volleyball and as an adult reading that, it suddenly transcended the kids/teen lit I’d thought it would be (nothing wrong with that -I often prefer this genre because books written for my demographic I find samey and overly romance or abuse based) because we had normal people like me who’d left their HS dreams in the gym (or the drama studio for me) but were happy(ish) in their everyday lives and enthusiastic about volleyball as a hobby. When Shimada put himself out to help Yamaguchi. When Saeko put herself out to get the idiots to Tokyo, it felt like they were falling for these kids and this team like me.

Reel back a bit. Hq had been going for two years when I jumped in. I binge read everything in two days, finishing at 112 (I think). Back in the day, my friend, we were relying on fan translations. There was no official site, and the translators did it all for love, which was wonderful but there was a lot of debate about reading for free and waiting for the translation could be tortuous. I wanted to support Furudate but couldn’t buy the physical copies. It was suggested at one point that Eng speaking fans shouldn’t be a part of the fandom - not by anyone remotely official, you understand - but that was the state of things in 2014. I bought official merch instead and watched the anime while I waited for 113 to drop.

So forward to 117. If you ever want to know why I still catch my breath and laugh a little at the Daichi Dead moment it’s because we all had to wait for what seemed like twenty years to find out what the high heck was wrong with him. I genuinely thought he’d wrecked his shoulder and was distraught because there was no way they’d win everything with the Captain out!

(Of course I had no real idea about Ennoshita stepping up to the plate, but that’s another story) The discovery it was a tooth had me SCREECHING! So relieved. I yelled to one of my first hq friends (who’s now deactivated) and then casually went to France with friends -hahaha.

I’ve done complete 180s on so many characters now that it’s safe to say I never trust the initial narrative Kags, Tsukki, Yams (come on, he was Tsukki’s mate giggling in corners over Hinata’s ineptitude. It was only when he saw what Hinata could do he stopped being a sock puppet).

The biggest turn around was on Oikawa who I hated to the point where I threw things at my laptop when he appeared. It wasn’t so much him as everyone going ka-ka over him which pissed off my withered adult heart. What changed was forcing myself to write him for an IwaOi week. I reread/rewatched his story and through Hajime’s eyes I began to appreciate him. I wrote Philos as an Achilles/Patroclus reincarnation type fic and that led on and on. And this is what Furudate does so well. Gives you a ‘villain’ then adds the backstory so they’re a hero.

Disliked Tendou, too but his Farewell My Paradise, his acceptance of defeat and the way he was such a good sport about it, made me gasp. And I love love love his new career.

It’s the appreciation of amazing play by the opposition which made me fall hard for Inarizaki and Atsumu. (Look at him here! Punt him out the f*cking window!) I’d learnt not to automatically hate anyone, so I reserved judgment. Moment I decided I liked him? Setting for Kags.

Moment I decided I loved him - getting laughed at by Osamu.

Before this turns into an Atsumu appreciation thread, let me tell you about the characters I was indifferent to but then warmed towards. The main one was because one of my earliest hq friends (yes, you Megan) likes him and through her eyes I started to appreciate the hngg that is Konoha Akinori

When I first started reading hq, I did some searches on tumblr and came across quite explicit Kuroken fanart, so I was understandably nervous meeting those Nekoma boys. Although I’m still ultra fond of the kurokens I wrote, hindsight is a dreadful thing when you see how off your assumptions and hcs were. But in retrospect I don’t think anyone envisaged quite how dorky and shy Kuroo had been as a boy. The error I laugh over the most is somehow transplanting Yaku’s personality into Kai and vice versa, but that’s what happens when you write before canon is done. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. Could I have held off writing for six years - nyope. Not a chance. Watching the story unfold, week after week, year after year has honestly been the happiest part of my life. Is that sad? Is it melodramatic?

Perhaps. But it has brought me so much apart from a fantastic story. Found friends. A shelter from when real life’s shit. And so many laughs. I still on occasion burst out laughing in the street when I think about Hinata forgetting to spike, or a daft hc shared on twitter. Still sigh a little over the ppl who said they’d leave when their team lost. Remember the time I was warned not to celebrate the Crows winning because it would upset the Seijou fans. I restricted myself to a brief yay then deleted. All nonsense, because most of the Seijou fans I was friendly with accepted the narrative with a bit of wistfulness and looked forward to the next chapter. And for those who wept that Oikawa ‘deserved to win’ they received their own message from Tooru that his ‘worthless pride’ meant something and he was still a winner!

Oikawa Tooru’s journey perfectly illustrated the idea that your life doesn’t end at High School, that your path is never fixed, and you’re not only made of your achievements but perhaps more so by the doubts and failures. We saw that more recently with the strongest player Ushijima Wakatoshi whose recent backstory with Iwaizumi has at last made me warm to him. (Iwa-chan has this effect!)

There are so many stories to relate to. So many moments. Yachi and Suga overthinking. Kiyoko finding something else she was passionate about. Asahi returning.

You all know I write and some of you know I’m an amateur actor - both of these rely on a certain amount of internal motivation but also external validation. What if the story flops? What if I dry on stage? ‘What if’ can become a never-ending mantra. So when Hirugami’s story appeared, where despite being amazing at volleyball it was making him miserable, until Hoshiumi suggested he could quit and that freed him - it sang to me. I’ve been through ups and downs with writing, and much as I love acting it can takeover especially the worry that you’ll fuck up. I know I won’t set the world alight and that used to ‘Concern’ me, but partly thanks to this story and also my hq tl, I’ve realised it’s unimportant.

If I fuck up on stage, I might throw off other people, but no one will die. If no one reads my fic, I won’t die. If I never write another fic ... no one will die except for the fictional characters and my headcanons. And even then they’re still alive in my head.

And look, I have so many ppl to thank who’ve made this journey with me and supported me all the way, but I’m too scared of missing people out and in a way everyone has helped. But none more than the creator. So Thank you Furudate and Haikyuu for everything.

Great Receive!

#haikyuu!!#thank you furudate-sensei #long post #manga spoilers for anime

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What's the best food to have at a sleepover? I’d have a blast at a sleepover if my friends and I were to get a square-cut cheese pizza with a box of wings. Cheesy nachos with beef would be great too.

How did you meet the last person you shared a bed with? We were introduced by our respective friends.

Do you like the yellow cheetos better or the orange ones? I don’t like Cheetos, period. Cheese puffs never did grow on me.

Where did you buy the shoes you wore today? My mom got it for me two Christmases ago.

Do you have any half siblings? Nope. But this year I found out I have a half-cousin (and possibly half-cousins) from a trash uncle who apparently fooled around behind my aunt’s back, but I have no desire to associate with her or that entire family altogether.

How many DVD players are in the house? We still have two lying around but we haven’t used either in 6–7 years.

Do you like the last song you heard on the radio? I cried, because I needed to hear the lyrics that were being sung.

Do you know anyone who has been on TV? Sure, mostly some of my friends’ parents.

When going shopping for junk food, what's the first thing you pick up? My eyes usually dart to the Pringles before anything else. And if there’s also any salted egg chips that looks appealing enough for me to pick up.

How would you react if you found out you had a long lost sister? I think my literal first reaction would be to be pissed at my parents for hiding such a secret from me for a long time. It would depend on how they explain the situation if I end up wanting to meet her or if I can do without.

At sleepovers, do you usually stay up all night or actually go to sleep? Hahaha I’m the grandma that passes out. I’ve never successfully stayed up at a sleepover and for some reason I’m always the first one to start getting sleepy. I guess all my friends’ bedrooms are really that comfy.

Is there anything in the room you're in that's really dusty? [continued from last night] For sure. There are some things in my room I barely use or move around so it definitely wouldn’t be a surprised if they’ve since gathered up a fine layer of dust.

Do you know anybody with different colored eyes? Yeah, someone from my high school has this condition.

Are any of your relatives vets? [continued AGAIN from the night before last, lmao send help] As far as I know, no. We’re not really the type of family that produces doctors, and I believe we lean more towards law.

Who cleans the most in your house? Oh my mom, for sure. She wants all chores done a certain way, and she’s always genuinely happy to do everything herself.

Do you own any shirts that cost over $100? No. I think my most expensive shirts are my wrestling ones, which never went above P3000, I think.

What about any shoes? Do you think that's a lot of money for clothes? Yeah, well shoes are generally more expensive so I’ve definitely spent more on sneakers than I’ve ever had on a shirt. I think a pair of shoes that go for P5000 is fine because for the most part it’s also already a testament to its quality. I draw the line at P5000 shirts, because you’re only paying for the label at that point.

What's the movie theatre in your town called? Ours don’t have names. Most of our cinemas are housed within malls, so whenever we make plans to watch a movie we just mention the mall.

How many minutes do you consider late? Idk man, I prize punctuality a lot. People to me are either early, on the dot, or late.

Is there any jam in the fridge right now? No, we don’t really consume jam. We’re not a very spread-y kind of family, come to think of it. We prefer meatier stuff in our sandwiches.

What did you get your best friend for their last birthday? I learned iMovie throughout my UTI-slash-fever horror experience so I can make a video for Gab that compiled her friends’ greetings in time for her birthday. I wasn’t able to get Angela anything because I was still looking for a job then and didn’t have any source of income; and because Gab broke up with me on that day so I was too distraught to be doing anything.

What about your mom's and dad's last birthdays? My dad was abroad for his last birthday. I didn’t get my mom anything because we don’t have that kind of relationship.

What kinds of food do you dunk into milk? Uhm mostly none, because I never really have milk unless I’m at a hotel or at a friend’s, lol. I’ve dipped chocolate chip cookies into milk several times though, and those didn’t turn out bad at all :) I’m a fan of the mushiness.

Do you have any current or past teachers on your facebook friends? A couple of my high school teachers are still my Facebook friends. I never added nor received requests from my college professors, which I prefer tbh because I’ve always viewed college profs as having a more professional vibe compared to my grade school and high school teachers, who were like parents to me.

Are there any baby pictures of you up? Like, the room I’m currently in? No but my school portrait from Prep is framed and hanging on my wall, which is the closest thing. I was already 7, though.

Do you have any friends who have bleached blonde hair? Nah. I have a lot of friends who’ve dyed their hair over the years, but none bleached all the way through. Gabie did, but just for her tips.

How much sugar do you like in your tea/coffee? Lots. I need every trace of it feeling like black coffee removed, haha.

What color is the cereal in your cupboard? We don’t eat cereals in this family; we’ve always enjoyed a classic Filipino breakfast. Sometimes we’ll get cereals I guess, but we never eat them the traditional way; my mom and sister usually just snack on them straight from the box on non-breakfast hours.

Are you wearing any jewlery that a boyfriend/girlfriend gave you? No.

Has a boyfriend/girlfriend ever given you jewlery? Yes.

Have you ever seen the last person you kissed cry? Many times.

Would you rather work at a gas station or be a maid? I hate chores and touching other people’s stuff, so I’ll go with the gas station. I could meet different people from that job too, which sounds more interesting.

What's the closest store to your house called? Just Things. Basically sells hype merch, including the P5000 streetwear shirts I called out earlier, for all the hype heads in my area.

Do horror movies scare you more when they're 'based on a true story'? The biographical nerd in me obviously gets excited, but I don’t get scared. I get more invested when they include snippets or updates about the real-life counterparts and go beyond the vague ‘based on a true story’ banner.

Do you still talk to the last person who hurt you (emotionally)? Yeah but I really need some sort of coin bank thing for it for every time I do so because idk why I still hang around sometimes.

Is there an outdoor movie theatre where you live? Not where I live. But I do know that because of Covid, some malls outside of my city have started offering drive-in cinemas, which were never a thing here before.

What color was the last food you ate? Golden brown, yellow, black, red, green. It was a truffle and mushroom pizza that I treated my family to because I had gotten my first paycheck this week and I would’ve looked like an absolute ass if I spent it on anything else other than my family. I MEAN I wanted to treat them too, of course, but I won’t deny that there’s an underlying reason for me buying the food as well. Welcome to a firstborn’s life in the Philippines (and in Asia, tbh).

Have you ever seen your mom or dad drunk? My mom has been tipsy, but not drunk. My dad never lets himself get swayed by alcohol. He’ll still get a single bottle of beer, but I’ve never seen his demeanor change.

How expensive is too expensive for a pair of jeans? Anything above P7,000 or P7,500, maybe.

After seeing a movie, do you go to a site to enter a review about it? Nah, I’m not the Letterboxd type of person. I’ll sometimes tweet about a movie, but only if I found it good or intriguing enough.

Have you ever done that? No. I’m not the best movie reviewer, so even though I’m aware of Letterboxd’s or IMDb’s appeal I’ve always been too shy to share my thoughts or ratings just in case someone ends up criticsplaining a movie to me.

Would you consider McDonald's a restaurant? I know what route this question is getting to but I’m too tired to defend my thought process, so suffice it to say I love McDonald’s, lol.

Do your parents vote? LOL my mom only started doing so again when I registered - before 2016, she cast her last vote back in 1992. Of course, her opinions were wrong for both the presidential (2016) and senatorial elections (2019) haha.

My dad does not vote and he stopped giving a shit about Philippine politics when he started working abroad 20 years ago and increasingly spent more time overseas than he does in his home country. Which, honestly, as sad and bad as it sounds, I totally understand. He’s completely detached from the goings-on in our country that to make him vote would be just as useful as letting him purely guess his choices.

Are there any creepy pictures up on the walls of your house? We’ve never gotten such a comment before, so no.

What's the last thing you were excited to eat? The pizzas I bought tonightttttt :> I got truffle and mushroom pizza and quattro formaggi pizzas and they were from Motorino, this fancy (and pricey) place I used to go on dates in that I haven’t visited so long.

It’s hilarious because I didn’t even plan on buying any food today as I’m stingy with money...but in my shift today I was tasked to order food bundles for certain media partners we regularly collaborate with. I kept ordering all these fucking pizzas for people I don’t even know and I got so jealous???? So I ended up buying for myself at the end of the day HAHAHAH

Do you ever hit electronics if they don't work? I smack them against a surface, but I rarely hit them with my own hand.

Who’s the most romantic person you ever went out with? I’ve only gone out with one person and, her toxic traits aside, I highly doubt any future prospect would ever come remotely close to her.

Is there anything hanging from the ceiling in your room? My bedroom light.

How would you react if your best friend was pregnant/got someone pregnant? She’s not planning on having a kid any time soon so I would assume it happened by accident, and I would assume she would be in distress. That said, my instinct would be to be there for her and support her in whatever she does moving forward.

Do you know who Lisa Simpson is? Sure thing, she’s my favorite.

Have you ever had a crush on the last person you spoke to online? No. I’ve never even met her.

Have you ever seen the last person you hugged dressed up fancy? Sure, my grandma dresses up for parties and other formal events.

(If your parents married), Do you know where they got engaged? No. My dad didn’t even pop the question; at some point they just sat each other down, had a long talk, and decided they’d get engaged. Idk where it happened though. Maybe while on a date somewhere?

What color was the last cup you drank out of? Copper.

What was the last picture you printed of? I honestly can’t tell you. I’ve printed a number of documents for various adulting tasks lately, but I don’t know the last time I specifically printed out a photo.

What restaurant has the best fries? I’d have to go with Army Navy. Or if we’re going with fast food, Jollibee.

What does your mailbox look like? We don’t have one. Messengers just insert envelopes through our screen door.

Have you ever gotten something stuck on the roof? We have a rooftop, so that’s never been a problem for us.

Have you ever had a surprise party thrown for you? No. I don’t think I’ve ever been that important for anyone.

Is the room you're in organized? It can do with some fixing, but it’s not terrible.

Would your mom make a good president? She’d be the most organized, neurotic, and punctual president in the history of presidents, but I doubt she’d be of help in conflict resolution or law-making, or any decision-making aspects that go with being president.

The 2nd class you had last time you went to school: ever skipped it? I don’t think I ever skipped that class in the short time I took it before Covid took over.

Do your aunts and uncles have kids? Yeah, nearly everyone does.

Is this survey interesting so far? I liked it.

Do you say fancy or formal? Or something else? Depends on the context. I use both as I think they have different connotations anyway.

Does your English teacher have kids? The last English professor I had doesn’t.

Does your computer make a lot of noise? The fan whirs when the laptop gets too busy. The noise is definitely noticeable considering how quiet my laptop is 98% of the time; but I wouldn’t call it bothersome.

Do you see movies at home or in the theatre more? Home. I watch at the cinema like, a maximum of 5 times a year.

What's your favorite thing to eat during a movie? Potato Corner fries. Non-negotiable.

#survey #surveys

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mymelancholiesblues · 5 years

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Just wondering, what your head canon for Leon's family?

Oh my god, I was planning to post this huge compilation of my RE Headcanons soon (starting with what I have for Leon) when I got your ask’s notification. Are you a mind reader? Hahaha. But really, thank you for providing me with a justification to start posting them.

I would like to please invite you to sit because I have plenty – honestly PLENTY – of things to share over this specific matter (Leon’s family). And, of course, to ask you to bear with me through them.

For anyone else whose interest might be picked over this: keep in mind that these are (obviously) my headcanons for Leon’s background and family and in no way is anyone else under the obligation to accept nor fully agree with them.

I wrote them down because I think A LOT about storytelling devices, stories structures, characterization and characters studies, world-building, fiction tropes, etc. and, since I’ve been a Resident Evil fan from age eight to this day, I also tend to spend a lot of time thinking about its characters – and the overall rest of its lore. Furthermore, as a way to help me write them in fanfictions or even in meta-analysis, I’m always thinking of what would make sense within these characters narratives and to their personalities.

Anyway. Back to Leon and his family!

There’s a very solid theory in RE Fandom that Raccoon City is set in Missouri. I really take this into account when I think about RE Characters because it helps me “placing them” before Raccoon, since not all of them were originally born/living there. Leon, for example, according to canon material, only decided to apply to be a police officer in Raccoon because “he was intrigued by the bizarre murders cases in Raccoon City” going in the news.

Because of this, *my* Leon S. Kennedy:

– Was born in small Galena/Illinois. His parents moved to Chicago/IL when he was around 8;

– So, huge fan of the Chicago Bears (and the Chicago Bulls);

– Leon was lovingly raised by a very Catholic couple, Liliana and Isaac;

– Since Kennedy and Scott are, respectively, an Irish surname and a Scottish name and Leon is not an unusual name in Polish (check out about Polish Americans in Illinois and you’ll have a more proper comprehension of my thought process) and German cultures, I think Isaac would be a man of mixed Irish and Scottish heritage, and Liliana of Polish and German heritage;

– Although, his biological parents were actually Roberto (Italo-American punk) and Abigail, Liliana’s youngest sister;

– Robby was a drunken deadbeat, while Abbie was an airhead obsessively in love. Leon was conceived when they were both very young – his mom had sixteen and his dad eighteen;

– Liliana had three daughters (ages 10, 13 and 15) by then (1977), but she and Isaac always dreamed of having a little boy. They even tried to, but the attempts led to miscarriage after miscarriage, so when Abbie gave birth to Leon, the couple was pretty much devoted to their nephew, always visiting to see him and make sure he was properly being taken care of;

– Robby took note of all that and when Leon was only barely one year old, he packed his and Abbie’s stuff and imposed that he was leaving and that she should go with him, leaving the baby behind, telling her that surely Liliana would raise him as if he were hers;

– Indeed she did, albeit feeling distraught by her sister’s complete negligence;

– Isaac adored the boy, and Leon’s three cousins always treated him as their little brother;

– Also: Liliana decided she wanted to erase Abbie’s true connection to Leon, so she got rid of all the photographies that led to those deductions, leaving only the ones that showed baby Leon alone or the ones with the rest of his relatives, but not with his biological parents. Isaac never agreed with this, though. He believed that once Leon got older, he had the right to know his origins, believing that if their love for the boy was true he’d love them back and recognise their role in his life, so there was no need to lie. Thus, he kept a photo that featured Robby resting a hand in Abbie’s shoulder while she was breast-feeding Leon;

– Isaac was very ill when Leon was nearing his eighteenth birthday, and passed away just five months prior to Leon turning nineteen (Isaac was sixty-three years old by his time of death). Leon found that hidden photo after Isaac’s death since his dad left most of his personal belongings to Leon;

– Leon never confronted his mother on it, putting together two and two and realising his biological parents haven’t thought twice before abandoning him, so he shouldn’t bother with them either as he was raised in a genuinely loving and supportive family;

– As I said, Leon has three older sisters: Lydia (born 1962), Meryl (born 1964) and Olivia (born 1967). Two nephews from Lyds’ side, and a niece from Liv’s;

– Parents personalities: I picture Leon’s dad as a mixture of both Jonathan Kent (DC Comics) and Eddard Stark (ASoIaF). A firm, caring, kind, upfront and sincere man with high moral values, strong ethics and unwavering sense of justice, who valued honesty above all else and always believed in the best of people and in helping others, true to the “love your neighbour as yourself” commandment. Liliana was the more stern parent (especially with Lydia, always wanting and expecting her to set out a good example for her siblings), so I picture her as a fierce, proud and honest woman, passionately protective and supportive of her family, that dedicated herself entirely to whatever she put her mind into (domestic activities, city projects, EVERYTHING);

– Lydia would be the “Patricia Arquette’s character in Boyhood (2014)” kind of woman. Kind-hearted, hardworking and amazing, but guilty as charged of the serious flaw of always being romantically involved with scumbags. A Geriatric Nurse, divorced twice, mother to Kilian and Luke – both kids from her first marriage;

– By the way, Kilian is a problem-child and Lucas is the emo kid. Leon has trouble dealing with both;

– On top of it, Leon have several difficulties dealing with Lydia. Being the most distant from him in age terms, Lydia always came off as a bit distant to and unnecessarily strict with him;

– Meryl is Leon’s lesbian best buddy. Confidant, a bit arrogant, always open to give advice, prone to bluntly point out faults in her loved ones and to get angry with Lydia. She graduated in architecture and is a state employee, working as an Urban Planner. Has cleaning OCD;

– Olivia is the sister Leon was closest to since it was with her he had the “smallest” age difference. Driven, headstrong, empathetic and an introvert, she’s actually the one who inspired him to join Law Enforcement and is now a detective in Massachusetts. Liv has a long-time relationship with Peter, whom she met during her childhood in school, and they have a daughter, Harriet (any coincidence with Olivia Dunham from Fringe (2008-2013) is on purpose since Olivia would be Leon’s perfect older sister, ok);

– Leon’s sense of humour takes much after his brother-in-law’s one, Peter, considering he spent a lot of time with him as he would be a frequent guest to their house;

– He fell in love for the first time when he was in middle school in his seventh grade with an eighth grade girl, Allison, who was an exceptionally good basketball player and would kick his ass in all the practice games;

– Allie has very evident native-American heritage, skin and eye colour, hair;

– It was Allie the long-time girlfriend who broke up with him right before Raccoon. She felt he was being distant even prior to his decision to be a cop in Raccoon City. In truth, what happened was that Leon feared his future being set stone too early in his life the way things were going. His wishes to have more agency over the shaping of his own destiny started driving him further and further away from Allie as he felt she was expecting their relationship to progress over time to the building of a family etc.;

– Meryl and Olivia both loved Allie and to this day they don’t get over the fact that Leon didn’t marry her;

– Leon unwillingly distanced himself from his sisters, though, only contacting them for birthday calls and holidays alike because of all of that government recruitment stuff and classified shit and also dealing with a heavy emotional load after surviving Raccoon;

– The only reason Hunnigan found out that Leon had living relatives was that Lydia called to give Leon the news of Liliana’s death in 2010 (by seventy-two years of age) on work-time. Leon, of course, was very shaken with the news;

– While Leon only knows what Ada herself lets him about her past, family, childhood and the circumstances that put her precisely where she is now, Ada knows everything there is to know about his past, family, childhood and the circumstances that placed him precisely where he is now because she’s very competent at her job and did her homework as a spy (this will die with her, but for countless times she fantasized about him confiding all of those mundane details of his life and backstory in her);

– I’m very convinced that in one of those nights Ada visited him for some hoochie coochie after like, six to eight months without seeing or talking to him at all, Leon had to break up the news that she came in in a bad time since he already planned for a Thanksgiving dinner with his sisters. Ada accepts the challenge because she’s been REALLY missing him (horny on main). Ah, and he’s quite upset with her because of that “six to eight months with no news at all” “little” issue. So, picture that. Please.

And that is all I have for “Leon’s family” headcanons. For now. As I warned: PLENTY. Hahahahaha, sorry! Hope this can provide some entertainment and delight to you.

#Leon Scott Kennedy #Leon S Kennedy #Leon Kennedy #Resident Evil #rebel-the-way #OTP: like a part of me I can't let go #レオエイ #Aeon #Leon x Ada #♥#[games]#[mine]#//#golden puppy #///#asks and answers #Aeon fandom #my headcanons

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jjkfire · 5 years

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Hi sweety! How are you? It’s been a while since I last text you. How did the project go? Hope you got some rest too! I loved the drabble game! Are you still doing it? Let’s see... it’s so hard to pick one. 🤔 e2l! And 3. I dreamed of you last night! You pick whatever member you’d like! 😉 Hope you’re having a good day! 😘

omg I love u and I’m sorry it took so long to reply! I respond to your ask below the drabble but anyway, here’s your drabble!

e2l!hoseok + "I dreamed of you last night"

"I dreamed of you last night."

"Yeah?" Hoseok smirks, his hand coming to rest at your waist. "You know what they say about dreams... it's a reflection of your subconscious, meaning that you think about me all the ti—"

"You died."

Hoseok clears his throat uncomfortably, drawing his hand away to scratch at his neck.

"I guess I should have expected that." He laughs. "I mean it is you we're talking about. I never know what's going on up here,” He snorts, tapping you on the forehead.

You pout, eyebrows knitted as you look up at him.

"I woke up sweating."

"Well, t-that's comforting and disconcerting at the same time."

You yank him forward by the collar, your expression stern now and Hoseok gulps because you, you're such a wildcard when you're drunk.

"You're not allowed to die unless it's by my hands, do you understand?"

“N-no? I’m uhh, not really following here.”

Hoseok can feel his heart hammering against his chest. Your lips are a hair’s breadth away and boy, there’s been numerous times he’s really wanted you to shut your mouth, and this time’s no exception but this time he wants to shut you up with his lips... on yours.

“You piece of— You think just because you’re all nice now you think I don’t remember the years you and your buddies spent jeering and teasing me in high school?”

“I— I’ve apologized for that,” He frowns, his hand coming up to envelope your wrist, urging you to let go of his collar. “I was dumb and impressionable back then.”

There’s a sigh that leaves your lips. You know that you should leave the past in the past, but sometimes it was hard to. Hoseok and his friends had said mean comments in passing, had embarrassed you in front of the entire student body, had made high school an overall unpleasurable time for you. So much so that when your father’s new job posting meant that you were moving to a city in the next state, you packed your bags long before you were even told to. Of course, you’re being a little too hard on Hoseok. Among all of them, he was the nicest. It almost seemed as if he was part of the group just so he wasn’t the one being bullied instead. Still, it didn’t make what he did right. It was hard to think that when he would pull you aside when the hallways were quiet just to ask if you were okay. Of course you only ever shrugged him away, responding with a quiet I’m fine before you dashed away from him.

When he wasn’t with the boys, he seemed like an entirely different person. He was kind and funny. Though that had only been something you seen when he and his parents came over to your house for the occasional dinner. All of a sudden, it would seem like the two of you were friends. You and him would talk for hours as the parents had their own conversation. It was nice. You liked him when he was like that... but when he was in school, that was a whole different guy.

The night before you were due to leave, you opened the door to a timid looking Hoseok with nothing but a handwritten letter in his hands. He looked... sad, which isn’t a look you saw on him often. It was odd. He seemed distraught, almost as if he didn’t want you to leave and you wondered if it was because he wouldn’t have anyone to bully anymore. You pocketed the letter, waved him goodbye and said good riddance as you closed the door. It was exciting to finally close that chapter in your life. You thought that would have been the last you’ve seen of him but 3 years later, high school now over as you find yourself as a fresh-faced freshman on campus, who else do you run into but Hoseok?

He’s different now. Not at all the same boy you remember. He’s sweet and charming and everyone knows him to be the nicest guy ever in the dorms but you, you knew Hoseok. Give him a second and he’ll switch, turn into your worst nightmare. That’s what you told your neighbours but they look at you as if you’ve grown a second head because it’s 3 months into college and the worst thing Hoseok has done is not park his bike on the bike rack.

Even so, you keep your interactions with him short, avoiding him when you can but your friends love him so, it’s proven to be a feat to stay away from him. From what you can tell, he really has changed and for some reason he’s taken some sort of liking to you. He’s always finding a reason to stay close, a reason to be talking to you and maybe he wears down your defenses a little. Just a little.

“It still hurts sometimes,” You mumble. “All the things you and the boys said. I know all of that’s in the past and I should let go of all of that but—”

“You have every right to hate me,’ He murmurs, tipping your chin up so you would look up at him. “You really do... but I’ve grown a lot. I’m not that guy anymore and of course, you don’t have to forgive me but all I’m asking is for a chance to prove that I’m different.”

“I know you’re different,” You hum, fingers moving to mindlessly play with the button on his shirt. “It’s just— you and all the other guys get to strut around campus like you didn’t make every single day in high school hard for me. Everyone here loves you and it’s petty but I suffered and you didn’t.”

Hearing you put into words just how much pain he caused you makes his heart break. He genuinely had no excuse other than that he wanted to be with the in crowd at school. Though he had what was perhaps the biggest crush on you, that didn’t stop him. In any case, you would give him attention. Although, it wasn’t exactly positive... He really just likes to maintain that he wasn’t really the brightest in high school.

“I suffered,” He frowns. “When you moved away, it felt like a punch to the gut. A wake-up call.”

“Why? They turned around and started bullying you after I left?”

“No,” He mumbles. “I realized you were the only person who actually knew me. Everyone else just knew this facade of myself that I had put on.”

“You had so much potential,” You sigh, cupping his cheeks. “If you were actually nice to me back then, I think we would’ve been good together.”

“T-together?”

You furrow your eyebrows before a moment of realization hits you and you feel a blush creeping on.

“As friends!” You correct, sputtering. “Just, uhh... friends.”

“Did you ever read my letter?” Hoseok questions, smiling because if you said together, it must’ve meant you know about his big giant fat crush he had (and still has) on you. It must’ve meant you read—

“No, trashed it the moment I got into the house.”

His smile falters for just a second before he realizes he’s got a second chance and that this time when he confesses, he’s going to get it right.

“You’re heartless,” He frowns clutching his chest jokingly.

“Oh, I was the one you bullied and I’m the heartless one?” You snort. “Like I said, you’re not dying unless it’s by my hands, you understand? I’m going to make you regret everything you did in high school. Then you’ll know how heartless I can be.”

You’re all talk, he’s positive. You could have tattled to his parents at any one of the dinners back then about him misbehaving in school but you never did. You always chose to see the good in people. It’s a flaw and a strength. Either way, he’s grateful.

He smiles, pulling you closer as you continue to ramble on and on about just how heartless you can be. He nods, just glad that this is the longest conversation the two of you have had since college started. You said he isn’t dying unless it’s by your hands. He honestly wouldn’t have it any other way.

hello!!! i’m good! i’ve been crazy busy but i’ve been good (: the project went alright and i’m glad it’s all done!!! i’m officially a college graduate now so hahaha that’s great.

I’m so sorry i took so long to respond to this ask ))): it’s just been really hectic getting everything in order! i hope you’ve been well (: how have you been doing? what have you been up to?

#omg i've been so bad at replying to everything!! sorry!!!#replies #drabble game #bts fanfic #pp-euphoria

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31 october 2018

11:49: HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! LET’S GET THIS BREAD!! I’M OUT OF BED!! I GOT UP!! I’M UP I’M UP I’M UP!! Hah this is no cause for celebration, if you’re getting out of bed at 11:49 and considering it an accomplishment you probably got some issues… like… I… might…

Okay I had MORE NIGHTMARES last night??? What gives??? I feel like it’s just a period of my life, it’s not because of any reason, maybe it’s the ~~~spooky~~~ atmosphere right now surrounding Halloween, and at least, like, the nightmares don’t wake me up until morning anyways, but it’s not the most pleasant way to wake up, being like, oh wow, thanks, mind, you did it again, didn’t you, you big trickster, you made me feel really scared/distraught again, wow, thanks so much. To be honest I’ve been awake for a bit already, I just didn’t want to get out of bed, so I just stared at things on my phone. Not the best way to start the day, but I’m going to make some G Fuel, brush my teeth, you know, the usual, take out the garbage, head to school. Don’t have anything until my work shift at 19h, though I’ll also go to the protest to change the Redmen name for McGill’s men’s sports teams at 14h. Still, that gives me a lot of time to practice, which I haven’t done for three days now??? That’s really egregious, now that midterms are over I have to go “full force” to prep for prescreening recordings. At least this is something I’m experienced in, like, I’ve done this so many times, it’ll be okay, I know how to practice, it’s just I need to start waking earlier again. It was going so well for a bit and I just regressed, I guess…

Don’t want to make salad or anything and I don’t have any breakfast foods besides oatmeal and I don’t really want to make oatmeal either, so I guess it’ll just be a G Fuel breakfast? Maybe I’ll finally get that sausage muffin sandwich from Tim Horton’s I was talking about a few days ago, and a coffee, or something. Feeling a lot groggier than I did yesterday, but also feels like I have some momentum today that I didn’t yesterday? Going to try and carry this through, today will be a simple schedule: -go to mclennan, do first liveblog update of the day -go to protest -go to tim horton’s for coffee and sausage biscuit sandwich -go practice -go to work -grab beer after work on way home -drink beer at home while reading things and “surfing the ‘net”

Not feeling very social so probably won’t go to any Halloween parties tonight, I think. Halloween is one of my favourite holidays, but I’m feeling pretty introverted today, not in a like negative or detracting or bad or unwanted way.

12:44: “Plopped down” at computer. Have a bit over an hour before protest starts to slam out a liveblog update, will probably use the rest of the time to continue reading Almost Transparent Blue in French. Oh, OH I didn’t tell you something really strange!! So after I got home with the French translation of Almost Transparent Blue I started just skimming through it, finding specific scenes I wanted to read, and flipped to the end of the book to read the letter, and was like, “wait, why is the French letter so much longer than the English one?” So I start reading and I’m like, holy crap, the English translation has completely removed this first paragraph, where Ryu is talking about if Lilly recognizes the photograph on the cover of the book, if she remembers when he took the photo? And he’s like, “I specifically requested this be used as the cover because the entire time I was writing this book I was picturing your face.” So, okay, yes, the French edition does have a photograph of a Japanese punk-looking woman on it, but on further investigation, looking at the photo copyright, I’m really skeptical that it’s the actual photo of Lilly, because the copyright of the photo isn’t for Ryu, it’s for a Marc Gantier. So, okay, fine, not the actual photo, that makes sense, protect her privacy, but then why do all the English editions omit this paragraph??? What was the rationale behind this??? It’s such an integral and important paragraph and I had NO IDEA it existed for SO LONG until this moment!! Is the paragraph removed from other translations, too??? Also, like, from Googling, I can’t seem to find any original Japanese edition which features any photograph of any woman on the cover, so it seems that despite the letter in the back, no edition ever had the real photo, so even if it was removed for privacy reasons, why doesn’t the English edition include this paragraph, and just append a footnote being like, “the reason why the cover doesn’t feature Lilly is for privacy”????? It made me genuinely angry, like, you can’t go removing entire paragraphs when translating a text…

Okay okay rant over, rant over, I promise. Going to “throw some tunes on,” then do some more Bleu presque transparent reading, excited to find any more differences, also excited to take this Timmie biscuit to the face.

13:41: Hey look, I made a monologue script of someone trying to place an order at a fast food establishment, check it out look at this hahahahah:

“oh hey, sorry, yeah, let me just get a uhhhhh, hold on, just a second haha, i'm sorry, uh--

yeah, yeah, okay, uhm,

n-no no it's okay you can go before me it's fine it's fine, really, i'm still deciding, i'm jus—

oh okay yeah, if you're sure, yeah, okay, hahah, sorry, let me get uh,

just ah, uhh, yeah, okay, i'll just have,

shoot, i'm really sorry i'm really sorry i just, hah, i can't uh decide between these two, uh,

do you have a favourite? do you have a favourite, like, menu item? like, is, uhh, i don't know, is, that one better, or this one? i'm really indecisive hahaha, i'm really sorry for taking so long, yeah, okay, uhh, sure sure, yes haha i'll just get the uhhmm,

okay, okay, yes, i'll have, uhhhh...

hey are you sure you don't want to go before me? i mean like are you in a rush or anything? no? okay, okay, sure, so i'll just get then the uhh, shoot, i just lost what i was looking at haha hah uhh shoot shoot shoot, lemme just find it again i was just looking at it,

OH okay GOT IT yes okay yeah i'll have that one? sorry i can't read the number is it a three?? my vision is pretty bad hahah yeah, what? what? sorry hahaha i can't understand you, what did you say? the-- oh, oh, no, that's not the one i actually wanted, no no, i'm sorry, no no it's not your fault really it's totally all me, it's my bad, no i wanted the uhhh, the uh shoot i can't even read the name, i'm really sorry about all this, just, just get me the uhh

sorry, i'm so sorry, sorry, i must be like out of practice i guess heheh am i right? sorry sorry you're right okay i'll be serious now, i'm holding up the line, i'm so sorry for doing this, i just don't know what kind of mood i'm in, i don't know which meal to get, let me just uhhhhh, maybe i'll just go with a classic, uh, so, like, uhhhmm, yeah-- okay, yes, yeah, how about the uhhh, shoot hold on i'm getting a phone call--

yes? YES? i'm sorry, i can't hear you. no, CAN'T HEAR YOU. can you call back later? no no, i said, can you call back LATER? can you- can you just-- okay, i'm hanging up, i have to go, i, okay, bye. BYE!

--oh gosh sorry, okay, where was i? did i order yet? did you get my order? oh jeez i guess i haven't even given you the order yet, wow, sorry, i spaced out so hard just now, that was my mother, she must be driving under a tunnel or something, i could barely make out what she was saying!! okay, yeah, yeesh there's just so many options, okay, yes, so let me get uhhhh

i know, i know, i'm sorry i don't want me to be doing this either, i just don't know what to get, i just can't, can, could you just order whatever you want for me? i'll pay for it, i'll pay, here, here's my credit card, just place whatever order you want. oh gosh no no please i don't need to speak to your manager, i know it's against policy and you can't legally do it but please, just please, i really don't want to keep standing here, i don't even know if i'm hungry anymore, i just, i just want any meal, really, i won't tell your manager you placed the order, okay? it's-

i'm sorry sir, i told you you could have gone before me if you wanted, do you, do-- oh, oh, okay, uh okay yes i'll just finish my order then, you're right, i'm almost there, yeah, i don't want to have to start over, so let me just, let me just check my bank balance, okay? i just need to check my balance and make sure i have enough to pay for the meal i want, hold on, let me just log into my banking app real quick. this will only take a second, i promise, just, wait, just hold on, please, please, uhhhhh, uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, uhhhhhhhh... shoot shoot shoot i'm forgetting my password and now i'm forgetting my recovery questions' answers, oh god, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, hold on, hold on”

Oh man I feel like I could just continue doing this forever, like at least for an hour straight, like this could just turn into a novel, just an entire novel of someone stuttering and feeling embarrassed and not knowing what to order and just circularly maneuvering around it unintentionally like hahahah I really like this idea.

This isn’t what I’ve been working on I promise this isn’t the “impetus of a new short story” I was talking about but like COME ON hahahah let me, LET ME WRITE THIS just LET ME WRITE about this poor person who CAN’T ORDER hahahaha

Genuinely forget who told me this, this was a really funny story, but I can’t remember who told me… Hold on, wait, going to see if I can will this memory back into existence, wait, just a second… Uhhh… DAMN no it’s impossible, I’m ~90% sure it was one of my guy friends but this was a while back, but the story was, HERE LET ME TELL YOU: he had a friend who had a thing where he would practice and every time he went to Taco Bell he would say his order as quickly as he could, and the result was one of the funniest things ever because he got so good at it that he could just spew out the order and completely flabbergast the cashier and everyone around him and then everyone would just start laughing hysterically as they asked him to repeat the order.

What’s, like, the most egregious food you could eat in a library? What could you just “bring out” and shove in your face, what consumption could you take to your face that would just throw people? Like I’m talking, It’s Always Sunny, Charlie Kelly eating spaghetti out of a ziplock bag levels of ridiculous. I WANT TO KNOW, I REALLY WANT TO KNOW. Going to think about this as the day goes on, want to make this fantasy YOUR REALITY. Can’t be something smelly or something that would offend people, needs to just be something funny that I can bring out and put away easily if someone asks me to stop eating. Hm. Tricky. Very tricky.

What am I even doing right now hahahah

14:45: Wrote “let’s get this bread” in my timesheet document to denote that I’m starting to practice piano now, does that make sense? Do you understand? I AM STARTING TO PRACTICE PIANO. I have my sausage biscuit from Tim Horton’s, I have my medium coffee, I’m READY TO GO. Visited Poppy for a bit in her practice room, had a nice chat, went to my practice room, took that biscuit to the face, drank all of the coffee, let’s practice let’s get some feeling back in my fingers before they fall off completely.

18:02: Guess where I am.

No, you have to guess.

You probably got it right, yeah, I’m in a library, wow, quelle surprise. The MUSIC library, to be specific, because my shift is in Tanna tonight, same building. I’m still feeling groggy, but I practiced really well, it was three solid hours without looking at my phone and only one practice break which lasted ten minutes. Feeling good about that, that’s a good way to get “back on the bus,” dangerous to immediately shoot back up to five-six hour average, start with three, tomorrow inch it to four, and then it’ll be practically back to where it was. Definitely did feel awkward and clumsy at the keys, though, it’s amazing that even three days without touching a piano but still thinking about the music constantly can degrade ability so much, like, decades of work just undone in a few days?? There’s a quotation from Arthur Rubinstein, gonna paraphrase it, it’s like, “if I don’t practice for a day, I notice, if I don’t practice for two, the critics notice, if I don’t practice for three, the audience notices.” Feels so accurate.

“Looking forward” to tomorrow, when I know the instant I touch the piano it’s going to feel so much more fluent again than whatever the hell happened today. I didn’t even sound that bad, I think, it just felt so off, like if you sat down to type on a computer keyboard and the keys were all in the same position, but the keys were, like, all shaped like trapezoids. Can’t complain, though, the practice session could have gone a LOT WORSE, like, maybe it’s because I’m feeling the pressure but it was scandalously easy to not lose focus, was very engaged in just trying to improve my playing the entire time, barely lost concentration for a minute.

During my practice break I went outside and someone in a full-body Pikachu costume was just walking down the street, and I was laughing so hard, and then they started turning towards the music building and in my head was like “yes yes yes” and then they started coming up the stairs and my head started going “yes YES YES YESYESYESYES” and then I asked them if I could take a photo with them and then my head was all “OOOOOOHMYGODYESYESYESYESYES.” I have no idea who the “person behind the mask” is but I love them and I wish them all the best.

Now got a bit under an hour before my shift starts. Not feeling like reading more Bleu presque transparent right now, been really receptive of late that it’s probably bad for mental health if literally all the music I listen to is depressing and everything I’m reading is depressing, feels like, no matter how mentally healthy you are, if all you’re consuming is dark, you just have to be affected, so, like, okay, right now I’m listening to KROY, which is still melancholic, I should change the album, yeesh, one sec--

GOD IT’S BEEN LIKE SIX MINUTES and I’ve been scrolling through my massive music library and I just DON’T KNOW what else to play, I don’t want to stop playing this album, why do I only listen to depressing albums why am I so drawn to sad music, guh, okay, need to make a decision, give me another minute--

OKAY I did it, changed to a really really old playlist I made back in high school called “Music for Excessive Yelling.” Used to neurotically make these massive intricate playlists for every occasion, like, “Riding in a Taxi” or “Walking on the Sidewalk” or “Sitting in a Cafe” or “Using the Bathroom.” Remember I used to walk around campus some days when I was particularly manic and blast this playlist with my friends via Bluetooth speaker. Can’t believe no teachers ever asked us to stop, like, these songs are pretty explicit…

I can “get down” with this again, I can write/read while listening to happy music, I can do this??? Okay I know I’m someone who’s really really really affected by music, case in point I already feel a definitive mood lift, it’s like my brain just went ALRIGHT LET’S MAKE THIS DOPAMINE HE FINALLY STOPPED BLASTING BELL WITCH wow this is great!! Man I have to revamp the music on my iPod and put some of these “bangers” back on it, gotta start walking around again dancing to fun music, not melancholic music.

18:27: Going to idly browse the internet, I think, read up on some news and reviews and whatnot until work starts. Will probably continue reading Disaster Artist on my shift. Crap, looking at the program for the concert, looks like I might be doing a little more than, wait, no, I spoke too soon, it’s a jazz guitar ensemble concert, so I’ll probably just open the door to let them out, open the door to let them backstage, and then strike the stage?? Okay, will probably be a pretty chill shift then, it should be over at 22h, then I can “self medicate” at home, not gonna get drunk or anything but it’s Halloween, I can have a few beers “guilt free” right, even though it’s a Wednesday??

Feel like the week is all uphill from this point on, tomorrow Jasleen and Astoria and I think Michael and Phoebe are coming over to my place (for once) to hang out/idly watch a movie/help people dye their hair or do stick-and-pokes or cut their hair. Made plans with A to meet up on Friday too at an undesignated time and location, got that to “look forward to” too. This week was a struggle but I think it’s going to end on a high note?? As long as I keep putting in effort, today was good, I “did good” today, I think, just need to continue practicing hard tomorrow. Feels good that I don’t have to worry about studying for a few days before I start catching up before finals slams my face into the concrete.

Highly recommend blasting this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1hTaEBR5dg

18:41: Reading up on the “usual slew” of music publications, trying to discover some new releases that are positive, thought the new Weakened Friends album sounded intriguing, I haven’t consistently listened to indie/alt rock in so long, and I heard their singer is spectacular. Pulled up some singles and WOW I LOVE IT, they’re even coming to Montreal in early November?? I love when I just discover a band and then they just happen to be coming to Montreal, one of the best feelings. Also one of the best feelings: discovering new band and finding yourself getting absolutely engrossed in their lore/history/every song they’ve ever released and then just for days/weeks on end you are just listening to them CONSTANTLY and deriving like consistent amazing pleasure from it.

LIKE LISTEN TO THIS: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blxyr3tUBfQ

How can u not love it wow it like evokes a distinct smell and sensation and like FEELING that’s enveloping my body, it’s such an identifiable feeling but I can’t describe it, it’s like, walking home from the school bus stop in middle school after saying bye to your friends and stepping off the bus and it’s autumn and you’ve got your old white iPod headphones in that aren’t those newer earpods and they’re plugged into your cracked screen iPod nano and you’re thinking about your crush that you haven’t spoken to but have exchanged fleeting glances with for a weeks on end, and that crush lives in your neighbourhood just a few houses down, and there’s leaves that have almost completely blanketed the sidewalk and road and it hasn’t rained in a while so they’re real crisp and you can feel things crunching with each step, and you’ve got your hands in your pockets, and it’s a friday and you’re about to go drink some pop and play a bunch of video games until your parents come home from work, and later in the day you’re going to get one of your parents to drive you to a friend’s house to watch a movie and eat a bunch of junk food and you know your crush is going too, and so you’re trying not to fixate on that fact but of course it’s impossible, so you’re just completely enthralled and excited and trying to put the thought out of your mind because waiting just a few hours is unbearable, and the sun is not exactly setting and it’s not yet cold enough to have more than just a hoodie on, and so you’re just walking along the road kicking at stones fantasizing about your crush, BUT BUT

BUT it’s not JUST this feeling directly, it’s like, you’re REMINISCING about this feeling.

THERE, THAT’S exactly how this song makes me feel, I hope you understand, feel like this is a pretty universally empathizable feeling for a lot of people that grew up in the suburbs??????

Feel like I’m dancing way too aggressively in the library rn, but totally am not going to stop wow I wish I could sync my iPod with the school computers so I can throw this album on and listen to it on my walk home… Sad I won’t be able to do this UGH

19:09: Y’all don’t even know how gregarious I was just now, I made the BEST conversation with the ushers and stage manager tonight I’m just riding an emotional high that’s getting more and more positive. I was just flinging out good conversation left and right and left and right, it was ceaseless, I was like an air conditioning unit blowing charisma. Realizing now this is probably the least charismatic way of describing what just happened but I’m over it. Okay gonna “crack open” Disaster Artist now and have some humorous casual reading, wish me luck!!!

20:06: Okay concert has started. Should be very casual affair, finding myself enjoying this jazz. IT’s nice just to sit backstage and “vibe out” to stuff like this, enjoying the book too, they match up nicely. Feeling real “mellow,” like a nice cup of hot chocolate.

21:03: Onto the second half of the concert now. Feeling a little low in energy, but very excited to get home so I can listen to the rest of that Weakened Friends album. Feeling kind of impatient for this concert to end, I appreciate it but I have a hunch that I’m going to go over the 22h that my shift is actually supposed to end at. Not that it matters very much, I shouldn’t be complaining about this or anything, it’s really petty, but I’d just like to not be backstage anymore. Want to “taste the outside air” or something, just be back in my apartment in my own space. At least the book is entertaining, yeah, yeah, and I’m glad I don’t have to stress about completing any assignment or studying anymore tonight. That’s such a strange feeling, wow, been a few weeks since this... has been the case...

Guitar players on stage really struggling with their pedals and amp setup, they haven’t started playing yet, seems like they’ve finally figured it out. Imagining myself going out there flailing my arms around and shouting, “efficiency is our number one priority, guys.”

21:20: Wow okay this second half is so much better than the first, it’s with a different ensemble wow they’re great, I’m jamming out back here, no longer anxious for the concert to end, really “enjoying myself”

Thank you god or whatever gods or the universe for today like it feels like a microcosm or synecdoche of the week, like it started rough but has been getting better and better, and so has the week, and I’m really feeling grateful for whatever forces are at play that’s making it so, just “throwing this out there,” just “getting it out there”

22:00: Okay yeah I’m not getting out of here for a while longer... These guys are totally running over time as planned. Now I’m slightly annoyed, god, it’s not hard to plan out and time a concert... Also stressing about applications, going to send out e-mails for recommendation letters tomorrow and really think hard about the list of schools to apply to. God I hate this process I know everyone does but really really not looking forward to all this.

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