#not including it in the post bc idk where to fit it but angela apologising b4 killing him and saying its what her creator ordered her 2 do

[smokewars]

one hokma line that always really stuck w me was "when i no longer feared the impending night, i chose to love this place" theres just something so poignant about it. at first i was wondering what day he meant but now i realise he's most definitely talking about how he has to die every reset. and he said he used to fear it too. how could he not? he was most loyal to a, but now he's the last one running away from him. he couldn't stand being a part of his self-destructive plan anymore. and feared in past tense implied he always knew it was coming with each reset. this went on for... thousands of years

with how he keeps his memories for every one of them, sometimes i wonder how he reacts to angela. do you think he quickly got used to it and just sat there waiting for her? pre-suppression its pretty clear that hokma has resigned himself to this and is completely fine doing it over and over again. he chose to love that place because it was the only thing he could really do. its what his mentor wanted and when has he ever gone against that?

#lobotomy corporation #hokma #not including it in the post bc idk where to fit it but angela apologising b4 killing him and saying its what her creator ordered her 2 do #is fucking MISERABLE. and a never even seeing b's final moments until abel forcibly showed it to him. he ignored it and turned a blind eye #to it like he does w everything.. like thats how b's treated for his unconditional love 4 him. being ordered 2 die by the man he loved #anyway. ignoring the impending night / impending day parallels that are probably there somewhere.. #there r other things i wonder too like did b know that by not running away far enough he'd die? i really do need 2 rewatch ruina #hey edit i just realised something so obvious. b dies bc of the tt2 protocol. hokma has to command that in the facility. god okay.... #and like. also wouldnt it have to be him who manually resets every single loop? everyday the horrors get worse and worse #text #meta