Point And Say Its My Fault So You Have Someone To Blame (Ride The Cyclone AU): what if penny was the only one who wasnt brought back from the afterlife and is still a jane doe? what if ocean is the only one who remembers? TW: Mentions of d3ath, (surviors) guilt, and PTSD. Brief depictions of crashes, and dec@pitation. (once i have my ao3 acc (in a few days) ill upload this to ao3 so yippee!! tumblr sneak peak!! ill update this later probably, inconsistent posting and all that shit, yk the drill.)
Penny Lamb is dead.
And Ocean Oconnell-Rosenburg cant help but feel like its entirely her fault. She made the vote. She had chosen to bring Penny back. Karnak, stupid, stupid Karnak. He told them that the vote would bring Penny back. Maybe it didnt work because Penny Lamb was just a Jane Doe in the afterlife. Maybe it didnt work because Penny Lamb was just a Jane Doe in the real world. Maybe it didnt work because Penny Lambs identidy was stripped away from her. She was no longer Penny Lamb. Just a Jane Doe. And that is all she will ever be again. Because she is still a Jane Doe. Ocean is the only one who remembers. Remembers the fair, remembers the roller coaster, remembers the crash, remembers the afterlife, remembers the stories, remembers the vote, remebers Penny Lamb. Remembers Jane Doe, and who she used to be. Who she once was. Who she will never be again. Ocean knows the afterlife was not a dream. She knows because theres still reports about an unidentified body in a rollercoaster crash on Monday September 14th, 2008, from 6:17 PM to 6:19 PM. The body of a seventeen year old girl named Penny Lamb. The body still lacking a head, hidden somewhere under rubble from the crash. Her heart twangs and aches with guilt, because she knows she should tell someone, anyone. She knows she should. But whenever she tries to her throat closes up, and her lungs turn to dust, and her blood runs cold and drains from her body, from her soul, so she tells herself "another time, when I get the chance again". Penny Lamb will not get a chance again. She will never get a chance again. Because "she" is no more. "She" is a Jane Doe. "She" is dead.
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Ohio RTC live-blogging
I watched the Saturday stream, and I documented my thoughts because hyperfixation goes brrrr
HEADS UP
there was a lot of ableism in the chat (I do discuss what it entails below so you’ve been warned) so I was distracted at the end of the stream
-Karnak’s frantic tone during the accident + freeze frame moment, very cool
-them holding up the prizes
-Constance’s mumbled “sorry”
-post-possession Noel and Mischa stuff is so good (the o.e face and shoulder shake)
-I don’t like Ricky’s disability being stolen again, but I do like the fact that they’re happy that he’s happy, seems to be “bro”ing it up with Mischa a bit, I do love that
-JANE! (OVERANALYZES LIKE CRAZY) The way she tips her head a lot like it doesn’t fit her body comfortably. She sounds so timid…awww, honey…she moves a bit like her body is off-balance from the new head, I love the details
-I see evidence of platonic (at least) spacedolls already. Ricky waved at Jane!!!
-BREASTMILK CHEESE SANDWICH EATING BLEGH
-even in the “ocean’s life” segment Jane’s movements are just a BIT off. I think it’s cool when the Jane is taller in the cast, makes me think of a Barbie/pos
Poor gal seems real uncomfy in those lenses tho, can’t blame her
-all of the cast looks like they’re having the time of their life
-Mischa’s mannerisms are already cracking me up
-I am appreciating Noel very much in this production tbh, very sharp-tongued and excellent emoting in the face
-Jane’s delivery of That One Line (I hear it gives you an—)
-despite the small theatre and tech limits because of that, they really do well getting the point across with the props
-gosh props to Noel that change takes too long even in the main show, but he works it
-RICKY’S LIL SHIMMY IN THE BEGINNING OF NOEL’S LAMENT AND HE SEEMS TO ACTUALLY BE PLAYING ACCORDION!!!
-CAN ALL MISCHAS EVERYWHERE STOP BEING SO PRETTY, RESPECTFULLY!!
-THAT NOIR FILM IN THE BACK, I LOVE!
-ngl I’m in love with this Ricky
-these dances are so fun!
-not a ton of Nischa in here with the end of the lament but—
-Constance’s “w h y” after the F word joke
-B O N S O I R
-them adding improv in ESGAL is a bit silly, but oh, RuPaul ref. That blindsided me lol
-RICKY AND JANE ARE GROOVING TO MISCHA’S INTRO TOGETHER AWWWW THEYRE HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!!
-they seem to be sort of un-possessed in TSIA, and Mischa seems a bit more friendly in this production so I think that fits decently
-RICKY HAS A LOW RANGE HEYYYY (Debby Ryans)
-I love how they try to make it like he can’t remember his rap—or can he actually not remember? Either way they played it off like it was on purpose and I appreciate that
-interesting how Jane’s a stand-in for Talia, cuz she could be anyone, she’s a blank body sorta
-I love the dances so so much, how they seem to be fencing Mischa in, and HE SINGS SO WELL, they did their best with the projector and got it across
-The way he just SITS DOWN AWWWW HON HE LOOKS SO SAD
-NOEL AND MISCHA HUG? NOEL AND MISCHA HUG!!!! AWWWWW IM CRYIN they seem so genuine about that whole part! person I’ve tagged said they noticed Mischa is audibly crying for quite a bit, poor dear
-again, Mischa encourages Ricky, I appreciate this! They see the Ricky and Mischa friendship supremacy!!!
-Mischa and Jane acting like generally strange parents and tHE FAKE ACTION SCENES which I genuinely think should have been in the original
-the implication that zolar daydreams came from food poisoning, this poor lad, I know it’s not exclusive to this version but dang
-this Ricky is just very captivating, I think this is a part that takes a lot of…uhhh, chutzpah, to play
-(sees Jane being a very passionate kitty) … (adds to spacedolls evidence folder)
-hehe I love that Mischa is Count Dogula
-also that black hole sound frequency reference made me so happy (“68 octaves below the middle C”)
-this Mischa has ADHD imo and I live for it
-AW JANE HAS SUCH A TINY MEMORY BOX. …big enough for a head. Cruel.
-they really worked with what they had for the background on Jane’s song. The way she blends into the scenery fits. That’s what she’s been doing this whole show. Also her trying so hard to grab her memory box and it’s always out of reach ;A;
-HER VOICE IS EXCELLENT this is impressing me in a bigger way than I thought it would
-the shadows moving!!! the way she can kind of recall knowing them, but not enough to know their faces or names
-the circling with the lights does make me think she’s falling, and the fact that she’s holding an umbrella…and sounds like she’s crying at the end…she’s so alone dude, I care her
-that last note was like a final scream
-Noel and Jane interaction!!! something I never see!!! I love it!
-Ricky is so gentle with Jane ;-;
-THEYRE HAVING FUN!!! SO CUTE!!!
-(chat is ableist about someone either ticcing, stimming, or having a meltdown in the audience and distracts me)
-Sugarcloud was excellent sorry I was too busy being full of rage
-Piano go breaking noises
-“you will soar to great heights” o u c h
-THE GROUP HUG AND THE BACKWARDS ROLLERCOASTER SOUNDS
-AW CONSTANCE AND OCEAN AND RICKY AND NOEL SPINNING EACH OTHER
-MISCHA AND NOEL DANCING!
-THEYRE SO HAPPY
-ACAPELLA DREAM OF LIFE WITH GROUP HUG HITS REALLY DIFFERENTLY
Do I have criticism? Uhhh well it wasn’t perfect but hey, from what I saw they didn’t have a ton to work with (nobody’s fault there) and they used their resources well.
I also constantly have to remind myself of the fact that this show has a cast of at most eight people acting, and it makes sense that it’s difficult to remember all of your lines, and the fact that everybody has a solo song!!!
I dream of some day playing an alto Jane, although I doubt it will ever happen, but I’m not sure I’m talented enough to do with this cast attempted
Also frick the people in chat who were being jerks about that audience member. git gud, Ricky would hate you you’re breaking the one rule
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