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#ok now i'm rambling. sorry. ig this conversation fucked me up a bit bc i've been real stressed since
daz4i
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a bit insane to know there's people out there who think i'm hot shit tbh. you know i'm a pathetic cringefail loser who literally can't do anything, right?? please raise your standards 😔💔
#had a meeting with my mentor/guide/man i really gotta figure out some english word for her today
#and basically unprompted she brought up that like. she thinks i'm amazing for having goals and working to get them
#which i was honestly baffled by bc. i don't do anything 👍
#my past self sets shit up for me to regret later bc i hate doing stuff. that's it
#never heard anyone describe me as ambitious but in her eyes that's like a defining trait of mine
#i'm highkey worried i'm gonna disappoint her 😭 and. everyone else.
#my method is usually to do the bare minimum so no one develops any expectations
#and that way they're always surprised when i do more
#unfortunately this plan falls flat bc for some reason ppl keep having expectations of me
#not ill intentioned ones. idk if that's the words. ig they're more like hopes?
#like they hope i'll do more they hope i'll be better. not for themselves but for me
#and then that inevitable disappointment hurts in a different way bc you know it comes from genuine love
#i can't even be mad in that case 😭 like what are their expectations of me. for me to be happy??
#(honestly in that case i AM angry you should def drop that that's literally impossible 👍)
#ok now i'm rambling. sorry. ig this conversation fucked me up a bit bc i've been real stressed since
#vent
#kinda???????
#ask to tag
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