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thedogmanscave · 28 days
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Gone but not Forgotten: HousePsych's Onyroid Page
The oneiroid webpage seems to have died... 🙁 luckily, I archived it and saved a copy!
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Oneiroid is an illusory perception of reality, accompanied by a dream-like disorientation with the presence of dreamy unfolded fantastic pictures, pseudo-hallucinatory experiences that intertwine with the phenomenon up to its absolute replacement. With oneiroid, spatio-temporal disorientation (often a loss of orientation in the personality) varies somewhat from stunning (manifested by a lack of orientation) and amentia (found in a steady futile search for orientation).
The patient with onyroid takes part in the experienced pseudo-hallucinatory reality. The following typical signs of a neuroid can be distinguished: disorientation, transformation of the subject of perception, modification of the self. This pathology develops in stages, it is accompanied by emotional-volitional and motor failures, dysfunction of thinking and speech disorder.
Oneroi - what is it?
The pathology under consideration is expressed in a qualitative disorder of consciousness. Also, oneiroid this in psychology is a dream disorder, in addition, it can also be called a dream-like disorder.
Oneeroid is characterized by the absolute detachment of patients from the environment, a change in I up to its transformation. Their experiences have a fantastic content, they are rarely mundane, unfold in the form of alternating unreal scenes.
Onyroid cannot be attributed to syndromes specific to a specific ailment. Its etiology is due to both exogenous factors and endogenous factors. You can talk about the endogenous nature in the absence of the phenomenon of intoxication and signs of any clinically important organ dysfunctions.
Clouding of consciousness according to the oneiric type is like a waking dream. It manifests itself in a clouding of consciousness, coupled with an influx of involuntarily arising representations of fantastic content. Figurative representations of patients always have an internal projection. In other words, with onyroid, the prevalence of pseudo-hallucinatory phenomena, unusually colorful and unusual, is detected, which distinguishes it from delirium. The environment is perceived as specially tuned as if a "performance" is being played.In addition, spatial-temporal disorientation is noted. So, for example, the patient realizes that he is in a medical institution and at the same time considers himself the commander of a spacecraft crossing the galactic expanses, and he perceives the surrounding medical staff and other patients as fellow astronauts.
What is oneiric syndrome? The behavior of a patient in a one-neyroid clouding of consciousness contrasts with his unrealistic pseudo-hallucinatory symptoms. The patient usually lies motionless, his eyes are covered, sometimes he makes smooth “flying” movements with his hands, observing his own adventures, as if from the side. There is also a violation of awareness of one's own age and perception of time. An individual may seem to have been in flight for several years. Sometimes an individual suffering from a neuroid can wander, smiling thoughtfully. In this case, sometimes the patient to persistent inquiries can tell some of his fantastic paintings of imagination .
Upon leaving the state of an onyroid attack, the individual retains memories of his own fantastic ideas, and the actual events during this attack, on the contrary, are forgotten.
Causes of Onyroid
The main factor generating a neuroid is considered heredity. If someone from the patient’s inner circle is diagnosed with psychosis with concomitant hallucinations and stupefaction or schizophrenia, then most likely the cause of the ailment in question is precisely heredity. But if the described abnormalities were not found in the family, then the oneiroid can be provoked by intense emotional experiences that prompted him to escape from reality into an illusory world.
In addition, the considered syndrome can also be triggered by physical factors, for example, head trauma, epipressures, poisoning with pharmacopeia drugs.
It should be noted that usually oneiric syndrome is a manifestation of recurrent or catatonic schizophrenia . Therefore, if the mental disorder became the cause of the described onyroid syndrome, the manifestations of the disease can last several days or even months.
In addition to these factors, the development of a neuroid can provoke:
- acute intoxication processes caused by the abuse of psychoactive drugs or narcotic drugs, as well as substances similar in purpose to the use of narcotic drugs (glue, acetone);
- exposure to certain drugs used for general anesthesia;
- a variety of infectious processes of bacterial etiology or viral genesis, passing with hyperthermia and intoxication;
- poisoning with alcohol-containing liquids;
- encephalitis of various nature;
- epilepsy , accompanied by the development of psychoses or mental convulsive seizures equivalent to epiprides;
- non-infectious genesis of organ pathology, accompanied by serious vascular disorders or changes in metabolic processes (myocardial infarction, renal and hepatic lesions with the formation of insufficiency of function);
- immune disorders (lupus erythematosus);
- endocrine dysfunctions (diabetes, adrenogenital syndrome, Addison's disease);
- heavily current pellagra;
- malignant neoplasms of various localization, if they lead to intoxication and cachexia.
Often, oneiric syndrome is a sign of somatogenic psychosis. It occurs due to the formation of encephalopathy of vascular genesis or intoxication etiology with a lot of severely ongoing somatic ailments. In an infectious process, the cause of impaired consciousness is often a diffuse lesion of neurons, the occurrence of toxic swelling of nerve structures, or interruptions in the microcirculation of the brain.
Symptoms and signs of a neuroid
In the debut of the development of the onyroid state, the patient’s mood becomes unstable, often increased or decreased. These affective disorders are accompanied by insomnia, alternating with colorful dreams. Patients suffer from fear of madness. With the addition of mental disorders, disorders of the emotional sphere become brighter, vegetative dysfunctions appear: algias in the myocardium, headaches, loss of appetite.
Gradually, with the escalation of affective disorders, delusions appear. As a rule, there is an unsystematic delirium of hypochondriacal content, delirium of persecution or death. Then he is inherited by the delirium of the double, either positive, in which the patient begins to consider the people around him as a familiar person who changes his appearance, or negative, in which the patient thinks that someone from his family or himself was replaced by a double.
After that, the clinical symptomatology of the neuroid begins to be dominated by imaginative nonsense of fantastic content, transforming into antagonistic nonsense (Manichaean), which in structure is similar to mystical. The patient feels himself at the epicenter of the battle of the army of good and the forces of evil. The army of good (angels, “good” aliens) “sends” him positive hallucinations, and the army of evil (“evil” aliens, devils) sends negative messages. A patient suffering from a Manichaean type of delirium is often dangerous for the environment and his own person.
In the future, fantasies begin to suppress reality, the patient becomes a full-fledged actor in his own pseudo-hallucinations. With partial contact with reality, the patient can perform some motor acts that correspond to the nature of pseudo-hallucinations, but the activity of his level, characteristic of delirium , does not reach. With the loss of contact with reality, the patient refuses what is happening, goes into a catatonic stupor, does not react to the surrounding reality. Regardless of maintaining contact with reality, the patient's activity in his hallucinations exceeds the level of his liveliness in reality.
Most often, oneiroid is an emotional disturbance. And above all, the lability of emotions arises. Sometimes there is also a one-sided modification of emotions, distortion of negative emotions or emotions of positive content. There is a disorder of dreams: insomnia, alternating with vivid dreams. There is a fear in the patient to lose his mind. Later joins nonsense.
A kind of onyroid is due to the predominance of a certain affect , as a result of which its depressive form and expansive are distinguished. The first is characterized by apathy , powerlessness, anxiety, irritability , powerlessness, the second - by a sense of admiration, disheartened, insight.
Dysfunctions of the emotional sphere are accompanied by autonomic dysfunctions: loss of appetite, head and heart. Typical signs of an onyroid are disruptions in the affective region along with motor impairments.
As described above, the considered oneiric state is characterized by the presence of delirium, the essence of which is determined by the nature of pseudo-hallucinations. The delusional state grows gradually, after dysfunctions of the emotional sphere.
First, a delirious mood arises, which is delirium of death, persecution, hypochondriacal delirium. Partial disorientation appears.
Then there is a delusion of dramatization, accompanied by phenomena of symbolism. Here the delirium of a double of positive or negative is characteristic. At the described stage, psychic automatisms, verbal affective illusions , less often verbal hallucinations may appear. They are replaced by the paraphrenic stage, accompanied by the phenomena of first imaginative retrospective fantastic content of delirium, and then of Manichaean delirium. Here, the individual’s self-awareness is still preserved.
Oneiric hallucinations are fantastic. Dreaming in this disorder is not characterized by the presence of projection outside. They unfold within the mind, in the personal mental space. Therefore, they are considered not genuine hallucinosis, but pseudo-hallucinations. The images experienced by the patient are colorful, often of a fantastic orientation. Visual pictures, more often, resemble scenes, are associated with a certain storyline.
Despite the patient’s participation directly in the situations experienced by him, psychomotor agitation is unusual for a neuroid. Patients suffering from the described pathology, on the contrary, are more often numb. They are estranged from reality, facial expressions are like “frozen”, monotonous. Catatonic disturbances are not excluded. At the same time, there is a mismatch between the patient’s behavioral pattern in a real world and in a fantasy world invented by him, where he is an active figure.
The described phenomenon distinguishes oneiroid from delirium, characterized by increased activity of the subject, which is likely to cause self-harm or harm to the environment.
In addition to the listed symptoms, with onyroid, attention disorders are also noted, its absent-mindedness, and memory are characteristic. Memory impairment is manifested in amnesia . An individual who exits from an experienced state may not remember real events.
Classification and stages of development of a neuroid
The modern classification of ailments does not contain the term “oneiroid”, since it is not considered a separate ailment, but is a kind of qualitative clouding of consciousness. Oneroi is included in the concept of “delirium”.
Onyroid in psychology is considered a special variation of impaired consciousness.
According to the classification proposed by academician A. Snezhnevsky, the oneiroid is distributed according to the following signs, namely: orientation in events of reality and by nature and prevailing affect.
In their turn, depending on the orientation, they actually distinguish: a dreamlike and fantastically illusory oneiric syndrome. The first is characterized by a change in the self of the individual . It is characterized by the patient's complete detachment from external reality and his immersion in events that occur in the imagination. Secondly, fragments of reality are mixed with fantastic unreal figurative paintings.
Depressive onyroid and expansive are distinguished depending on the nature and dominant affect.
According to Demanova’s classification, onyroid states are divided into four variations: dreamlike (complete detachment from the outside world, immersion in imaginary events), stage-hallucinatory (is a consequence of schizophrenic delirium, sometimes senile dementia , fantastic hallucinations are noted), fantastic-illusory (occurs with schizophrenia, accompanied by a kaleidoscopic mixture of delirium and reality), dream-oriented (a consequence of psychoses that arose due to toxic damage I have brain structures).
Classical onyroid goes through certain stages of development: autonomic dysfunctions, general somatic pathologies, delusional disorder, depersonalization and derealization , onyroid catatonia .
At the initial stage, affective disorders are detected. Its duration can be weeks, or even months, due to the etiological factor. It is characterized by an escalation of emotional symptoms.
The period of crazy ideas is quite short - from a couple of hours to several days. The disease at the described stage speaks of itself through paranoid tendencies and by increasing emotional tension.
Delusions of dramatization can be observed longer (up to a month). It is manifested by illusory phenomena and detachment syndrome.
Paraphrenic delusions , the duration of which is no more than a few days, are inherent in the oriented onyroid stage.
True onyroid is considered the shortest stage. Therefore, it is on it that the detailed symptoms of a mental disorder are noted. After that, the clinical manifestations of the neuroid are minimized until they disappear.
Diagnosis and treatment of onyroid
Diagnosis of the described disease is carried out according to the clinical picture, and the family history, conditions of the patient’s vital activity and the ailments that he previously suffered are also taken into account. In order to identify the etiological factor, it is necessary to conduct a complete examination using laboratory tests and instrumental methods.
To confirm the diagnosis, it is necessary to differentiate onyroid with onyrism - a disorder of consciousness manifested by a violation of dreams. Onyrism arises due to a severe infectious process or a burn disease. It is characterized by the interweaving of reality in the consciousness of the subject with dreams. However, with onyrism, hallucinations and illusions of a fantastic content are absent, in contrast to the oneiric syndrome.
Almost always, treatment of a neuroid requires hospitalization.
If the disease was the result of drug abuse, a consequence of chemical intoxication or alcohol poisoning, detoxification urgent measures are taken. If the diagnosis revealed severe vascular pathologies, endocrine dysfunctions, infectious processes, then it is mainly necessary to treat these pathologies, since it was they that could give rise to the violation in question.
In order to eliminate the manifestations of the directly onyroid syndrome, the appointment of nootropics is shown, the action of which is aimed at stimulating memory, improving brain activity, and adjusting the functioning of the autonomic system. In addition, antipsychotics are actively used, which have an impact on the central nervous system. The purpose of their appointment is to eliminate hallucinations, stop delusional states, restore constancy of emotions.
Treatment of a neuroid in extreme circumstances, when antipsychotics and nootropics have proven to be ineffective, involves the use of electroconvulsive therapy. However, the effect of this method requires further study. Moreover, the effectiveness of this procedure has been repeatedly proven during the use in the treatment of depersonalization, hallucinatory syndromes and suicidal conditions.
To prevent the development of the onyroid syndrome, it is recommended to exclude the use of drugs, abuse of alcohol-containing fluids, try to avoid head injuries, be examined annually, timely eliminate organ dysfunctions, and develop stress resistance.
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beastblade69 · 9 months
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okay, but hear me out. Im a thinker, I think a lot and I'm guessing chief most likely has catatonic schizophrenia. at least his disorder looks much like catatonic schizophrenia. remember that episode from the book when ratchet slowed the time down, chief wasn't capable of moving and he even tried to stand up but he physically couldn't. before I couldn't understand what was going on w him, I thought maybe that was cause of the pills or smth. yk, side effects and shit. but now I understand that most likely he had catatonic episode. and maybe every time he was lost in a fog he had those episodes. then hear me out. that episode when he raised his hand and voted. it seemed like he wasn't intending on raising his hand, he even thought that mcmurphy somehow raised his hand for him. seems like before that, when he was floating in a fog, he also had catatonic episode and that hand movement looks like a thingie called catatonic excitement — people with catatonia sometimes may experience it. it's basically that person unintentionally makes random movements that may appear "agitated and excited". I'm guessing that must've been it. then another episode from the book when chief was still in an old hospital and he walked right into a photograph on the wall and was able to feel everything around him as if he literally was there, on the picture. seems to me that it could've been smth called oneiroid syndrome. idk if that's the real thingie because people hardly ever talk about it (I've never actually seen people talk about this syndrome), but I'm guessing if thus term exists it must be a real thing?? anyways, it's clear that he was hallucinating at that moment
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doomedandstoned · 6 years
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SATIVA ROOT is Back!  This Time, Taking No Prisoners.
~By Billy Goate~
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It's ugly, it's dirty, it's fucking rad, it's Sativa Root.
Every band seeks to create a special sound, some more successfully than others. Few, in fact, have crafted a more thoughtful and moving vision of doom metal than SATIVA ROOT. We have a long history with the Salzburg band, debuting tracks from its earliest years -- beginning with their nameless 2014 EP and onto their subsequent record 'Dark Days' (2015). Today, Doomed & Stoned premieres Sativa Root's forthcoming full-length, 'Oneiroid' (2018). If you've been missing the mammoth sound that made you fall in love with doom metal, Sativa Root is here to remind you that doom's far from dead and still has plenty left to say.
Pawel Zandi (aka Stonerhead) is a key creative force behind the music of Sativa Root -- its lead guitarist and earliest member. He is joined by an expert rhythm section, comprised of Doomster on bass (originally from Rome) and PAN on drums (who I hear is a great chef), which Pawel describes as like a family. What these fellows excel in is crafting vibrant instrumental metal soundscapes that stimulate the imagination with engaging material, vibrant riffs, and a nice, intuitive balance of mystery and mayhem.
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More than that, Sativa Root have really mastered the art of instrumental metal, in that they have good instinct for picking interesting musical ideas and allowing them to blossom to life, rarely overplaying their hand. I'm thinking now of an experienced potter who can spin the wet clay on his wheel and craft this mass into something extraordinary. In lesser hands, it would lose its structural integrity and seem half-baked, but not in the hands of the master potter. This is, after all, the land of Mozart, and while Sativa Root is no Mozart, they show all the right instincts for composition. One wonders if it something flowing in the Salzach River.
Today, Doomed & Stoned is giving you your first full listen to Oneiroid, which releases on CD and in digital formats on Friday, February 17th, at this location. The CD will emerge on Marijunaut Records. I hear the band is looking to release this on vinyl, too, and are presently shopping it around to various labels. In the meanwhile, what are you waiting for?   Give ear...
Oneiroid by Sativa Root
I asked Pawel about the songwriting strategy behind Oneiroid and whether the songs were somehow interconnected. "It's not really a concept album; it's about Oneiroid Syndrome -- very interesting and creepy stuff. So it's ghostly, dark, and spooky like a waking dream."
"Bloodrigs" opens up this mighty handful of bewitching earworms. The rhythmic foundation of the song follows a genre trope that will be a recognizable refrain to any fan of Electric Wizard. Like blast beats to death metal, this plodding riff something we've come to recognize, enjoy, and maybe even expect of the doom metal sound. It's when the guitar enters the picture that the storytelling power of Sativa Root becomes apparent, taking the familiar and giving it a fresh twist. Sinister laughter greets us four-and-a-half minutes in as the song takes a devilish downtuned direction, contrasted by an emotive solo that makes us feel like something sinister is afoot. We should watch our step and beware of our surroundings.
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Enter "Funeral of the Witch." The song sets a very deliberate pace, in characteristic marching tempo. As the title suggests, the witch -- a being that has inspired equal parts admiration and fear for centuries -- is being ushered through the Austrian forests to meet her final resting place. If you like ample portions of fuzz in your doom, you will relish the middle section of this number. "Get ready to die," utters the same anonymous voice that opened the record (which is sounding more and more to me like the gritty, smoky pipes of Mickey Rourke). "Diiieeeee!" someone hisses as the witch is lowered for burial beneath the loam, begging the question: is she really dead or being buried alive?
"The dude who talks at the intro," Pawel tells me, "is Dixie Dave Collins." The idea of his contribution "was born about two years ago when we supported Weedeater in Vienna." He's the next voice we hear throughout the record, including our next track, "Deathclaw."
A world created from the darkness of ourselves, the homogeneous perfection of the nature and the consequent discrimination of our community. All that and more surrounds this dirty and rusted world.
These words welcome us to an eerie interplay of strumming guitar and guttural bass sets the mood, as the song evolves into a musical interpretation of the aforementioned statement. "Deathclaw" is dark, it's demonic -- even sludgey.
I dig.
As I listen to "Tabarnak" (which the band released as a single back in '17), I can't help thinking of the ancient Celts that inhabited this land long before the Roman conquest, longer still than the later invasion of Avers, Bavarians, and Slavs. Sativa Root is tapping into something very primitive here. I wonder, to indulge in a little thought experiment, what the ancients would have thought of a sound as crushing as this. My hunch is Stonerhead, Doomster, and Pan would be summarily executed as savage intruders or, conversely, worshipped as strange warlocks who have harnessed a new element greater than earth, air, fire, and water: the almighty power of the Riff.
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"Morlock" is one of the record's more contemplative tracks, making effective use of leads, paired with deftly executed drumming and a bass that does more than accent the piece; it provides well-placed, but never distracting, filigree to carry us through the nine-minute run time. Actually, I hadn't noticed this was the longest track of the lot until I looked again for this review. Perhaps the press clippings are right when they note the band's psychedelic meanderings can put one into "a headbanging trance." The groaning stretch and slide of the strings at 4:30 almost sounded like a human groan. I've noticed throughout the record that oddities like these mark a transition point in the development of ongoing themes, or the introduction of a new one. In the closing minute, we are carried away by a decrescendo and a melodic lead that seems to be telling us something, if only we could understand its language. Somehow, we do, on an innate level, and that's what manages to keep our fascination for the entirety of the album's forty-seven minutes.
While I may seem profuse in my praise for Oneiroid, it is worth noting that I have to choose my projects carefully because of my own limited personal bandwidth as a part-time writer, editor, and publisher. This is, after all, a passion, but sadly not a profession for me. Hence, I just don't have time to review albums I don't like. With that said, I was hoping at this juncture that Sativa Root would have experimented more with vocals, more to satisfy my own curiosity than anything. Adding a lyrical component to these songs could either work well or it could fail spectacularly, depending on what the singer brought to the table. The key note of distinction here is the way the guitar does the singing, so in a sense a vocalist would compete with that.
No, Sativa Root exists, at least for the present time, as an instrumental outfit and has worked hard at making this work for the listener. In this respect, they join the elite company of greats like BelzebonG and Clouds Taste Satanic. With full transparency that I am a fan and not just a critic, I think it is high time that Sativa Root was afforded the recognition from the scene it deserves. Perhaps 2018 will be their biggest year yet.
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Oneiroid syndrome
Oneiroid syndrome, from the Ancient Greek "ὄνειρος" (oneiros, meaning "dream"), and "εἶδος" (eidos, meaning "form, likeness") is an element of the catatonic form of schizophrenia and presents with a dream-like or nightmare-like state as a background of intensive psychopathological experiences. Oneiroid states were first described by the German physician Wilhelm Meyer-Gross in 1928, mainly statistically. Later in 1961 the Bulgarian psychiatrist S.T. Stoyanov studied the dynamics and the course of the oneiroid syndrome in "periodic", or remittant schizophrenia (ICD-10). According to this research the syndrome has six stages in its course: initial general-somatic and vegetative disorder delusional mood affective-delusional depersonalisation and derealisation fantastic-delusional and affective depersonalisation and derealisation illusional depersonalisation and derealisation, and catatonic-oneiroid state in the culmination. The prognosis of oneiroid catatonia is optimal, in comparison with lucid catatonia.[citation needed] More details Android, Windows
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leophnyx · 3 months
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So the day before yesterday we were sick, and so Soappary and I decided to go browsing Reddit. Eventually the dreams subreddit got recommended to us, and I decided "why not?" I decided to give in, after all any study on pathological conditions similar to vakalomorphy seem to describe it as a dream, so some of them have to be in the dream subreddit. I'm tired of being the only one like this - even in the shifting communities we're the only ones with this specific presentation, which isn't bad, but we want to meet others who get it, you know?
I went searching for other vakalons (if they're anywhere, they have to be there) and browsed around a bit. I found a few that seemed similar, but none seem exactly right? Soappary still was amazed I was even finding these people, I usually get results fast but it's still surprising I found so much. Most of them are experiencing hypnagogic hallucinations, they're close to what we're experiencing, though not the same. It's totally possible to hallucinate after a dream, but that's not what we're talking about when we speak about vakalomorphy. Then we came across this one user posting on the threads who seemed a bit too anxious... checked their profile and they're posting mainly on insomnia subs looking for advice on their strange condition. They're losing weight, seeing their dreams in the real world, starting to experience memory loss, tachycardia... what could it be...
After a bit of comparison, turns out they might have had oneiroid syndrome or oneirophrenia. Oneirophrenia is one of the worst conditions to have if you need help I've found, because it tends to make you look like you're bullshitting via your symptoms lol
And I just feel so bad for them, because everyone on the insomnia subreddit is treating them like an anxious worrywart (which technically they are, oneiroid syndrome does do that to you) but they're legitimately experiencing something that is very concerning. Obviously I'm not a doctor and could be wrong, but oneiroid has such a specific set of symptoms in such a specific order that I feel confident even suggesting it to them as a possibility, there's nothing else it could be.
It's why I've kinda been searching for others. If I'm lucky, I find another vakalon and I can tell them what to do in case anything goes wrong... or they could tell me, I don't know everything lol. If they're lucky, I find an oneiroid victim and I help them get medical attention, since it can end in death if not treated. After awakening and having such a traumatic shift with similar circumstances, I would like to prevent others from going through the same thing.
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