#or procrastination i'm gonna go w/ love tho

[blcssom]

after what feels like YEARS i've finally finished the muse page built into my theme (u can find a less fun/detailed list of my new muses here too) which means it's time for a STARTER CALL : ' )))

below the cut are my new muses and a lil bit abt them !! like this and i'll throw you a few starters with my new/rebranded babies !! note: i'll likely slide in your dms to ask if there's anyone in particular you're interested in <3

abigail hyland || twenty9 - waitress/folk singer // bisexual // margaret qualley

mean trailer park queen trying to bury her white trash roots and fear of abandonment !!!

catherine meyer || forty3 - interior designer // bisexual // jessica chastain

walking cleanliness complex who holds herself and everyone else around her to impossibly high standards

daphne barlowe || thirty3 - art curator // bisexual // meghann fahy

trust fund baby who resents her upbringing but not enough to stop living off of their money altogether O:)

ines morreno || twenty5 - bottle girl (succubus au) // bisexual // camila morrone

literal demon (if u so choose) who goes through men faster than she goes through singles on a busy night at the club

josie tanaka || twenty7 - vet tech // bisexual // fivel stewart

likes animals more than she likes ANY human but is willing to forego judgement until you share a blunt w/ her and she can suss out the vibe

lydia xiao || twenty5 - classical violinist // bisexual // havana rose liu

sheltered princess strikes out on her own !!! as much as you can when you're auditioning to join the met :' )

maeve willis || twenty8 - assistant choreographer // bisexual // taylor russell

people pleaser w/ the memory of a goldfish !!! REALLY wants to do a good job but REALLY can't say no when someone invites her out either so... c'est la vie

rosie burton || thirty2 - florist (royal au) // bisexual // laura harrier

classic oldest child mother to all but lacking a caretaker herself but that's !! fine !! she's fine !!

sylvie bane || twenty4 - social media influencer // bisexual // lily rose depp

party princess desperate to prove she can make it w/ out daddy's money or a rich s/o (spoiler alert: she can't xx)

taylor corbyn || twenty3 - drummer // homosexual // reneé rapp

GAY and way more confident abt it until she actually has to act !! queen of talking a big game and absolutely blowing it after that

beau crawford || twenty7 - phys ed teacher // bisexual // mason gooding

just a big ole puppy witfh too much energy not even a day of back-to-back p.e. classes can burn it off !! good vibes only except when he doesn't get what he wants :o

dominic hyland || thirty - dj/bartender // bisexual // nicholas galitzine

chasing down his abandonment issues with straight gin and pretending it's fine !!! absolutely not running from his own traumatic past why would u ask that

ezra bhatti || thirty8 - tattoo artist // bisexual // rahul kohli

v chill v calm v antisocial and yet always somehow at the center of all the action !! unbearable know it all that's probably why he just HAD to correct someone

hugo danaher || twenty9 - firefighter // bisexual // paul mescal

reckless physically and emotionally always falling in love and always running into burning buildings w/out thinking twice

jace warren || twenty8 - mechanic // bisexual // nick robinson

basically raised seven siblings in a double wide when his parents bailed and he's TIRED now v responsible but also v apathetic deadly combo

jacob park || thirty3 - newspaper editor // bisexual // charles melton

perfectionist who keeps succeeding but the bar is just getting higher and he's !! nervous !! golden child of his family and they're banking on his success no pressure

miguel avila || forty4 - literary agent (vampire au) // bisexual // oscar isaac

functioning alcoholic who soothes whiny writers all day he's doing GREAT !! failed (in his own mind) writer who's helping others live out their dreams yay

oliver kothari || thirty5 - pediatrician // bisexual // dev patel

came across the pond to escape his mother but she just followed him here so... constantly being the perfect boy but v lonely up on his pedastal

reid whittman || thirty4 - fashion photographer // bisexual // callum turner

party boy photographer living his bachelor dream even tho it isn't !! actually his dream but it's what he's good at so .... luvs being the fun uncle his TRUE calling

thomas thorne || forty2 - novelist (pirate au) // bisexual // michiel huisman

dramatic nervous king prone to rambling on about his ideas but then never actually following thru with them :' )

#casually have been working on revamping my muses for three months this is a labor of LOVE #or procrastination i'm gonna go w/ love tho #( starter call. ) #indie bi rp #indie open rp #indie rp #prioritizing mutuals but i worked HARD-ish on this today so opening it to the tags

[arlecchno]

lmao the blonde parts are supposed to be teal but i havent had a chance to redye them in foreverr … also yes ! my xiao jacket ! its not the only one out there though LOL

the wall youre seeing is actually my best friend roofs long lost sibling , wall /j

BEFORE 6 !? i could never i always go to bed at like 12am …. im so sleep deprived on school days lol

ME AND THAT FRIEND DID SO MANY SILLY THINGS IN OUR MATH/STEM CLASS LMAO we used to play genshin wish sim (im very young T_T) and say weird things to summon characters (i told the computer id help make kaeya dilucs brother again to get diluc , and BOTH OF THEM CAME HOME IN THE SAME PULL) tbh ive always complained ab stairs so ,,, i cant even take the stairs in my building anymore bc i live on the 9th floor itd take way too long 😭

we have a lot of the same top 5s , kaeya , diluc , and scara share #1 because … yes . my favorite gal is fischl i love her sm -

i have 11 5*s (not including aloy) , and im currently pulling for sir acting grand scribe himself ! im at around late 30 pity , if he does / doesnt come home i will make self ship art because i dont think he would like that >:)

GOOD TO KNOW ITS GOING WELL im actually making notes for a fic i wanna write on call w my previously mentioned friend roof LOL ive had the idea ever since the nilotpala cup event , i really wanted to make like an actual fic based off of it bc that girl from the yae publishing house was supposed to or wtv HAHAH but im procrastinating on a title so im just . UGH - yk ?

i did have a good day both the day you replied and today ! i am injured but its not bad (only hurts when i move certain ways) , i went on a field trip for school today and got to go in a ✨stream✨ and pick up a little crawfish >:D i hope youre doing good as well !! its so nice talking to you lmao youre so cool

i might start sending doodles every ask , so heres a sketch of my genshin oc !!

my “question” issss guess what region theyre from ! or who they live with LOL the hint is that there are already playables from their region , and there are technically two regions theyre from ?? you can guess just one though ill give you the answer next ask :P

- jellyfish

i think it's because i'm already used to waking up early... even tho i'm a very sleep deprived student that sleeps at 12-1 and wakes up at 5 😔 i'm fairly a light sleeper so no matter what time i sleep, whenever my alarm goes off i'm always up by the second 🥲

and LMAOO i've played a ton of those wish sims to prevent myself from rolling whenever i'm saving up for a character, it works wonders

i didn't really expect you to like fischl!!! i like using her in events where we have her as a trial character lol using oz in her burst and flying around is so silly but i always have fun with it!

seems like we're both on the run for alhaitham :D currently have 72 pity and he still has yet to arrive... i do not have a guarantee whatsoever so the next time i pull i'm gonna be praying for him to come home 😔 i've already explored most of the new area for him

and that fic idea sounds interesting! i briefly forgot about that event so when you mentioned it i'm suddenly reminded of how fun playing with the fungi was!! hope you'll find many inspiration for your supposed title, and who knows, next thing you know you're hitting the post button for your fic 🤭

hope you're healing well from your injury also!! have lots of rest and don't overexert yourself too much, resting is very important hehe

it's nice to know that you went on a field trip :O i haven't been to one in a while so hearing it from you reminded me how fun it always is to go on one and escape school (tbf i think we can agree at least half of the students that volunteer on field trips only do it to skip classes LMAO #guilty)

i think if i had to guess, it's a mix between mondstadt and sumeru, maybe? i'm either really wrong or really right since my basic skills of knowledge on each regions' outfits are very minimal 😵‍💫

a question for you; how was your week? tell me all about it!! hehe i honestly like hearing people talk about their day and week because it's undeniably so interesting to know what others have been up to and how different some people's lives can be from ours! hope i'm not rambling too much... i just really like listening to people talk and talk about their life

#h answers #jellyfish <3

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

RAYHSIIisushshjdiJWJWISIH MY SLEEP SCHEDULE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW?!?! I'VE BEEN GOING TO BED AT AROUND 7 PM, AND WAKING UP A 6 AM?!?! LIKE EVEN ON THE WEEKENDS? BRO. BE PROUD OF ME PRAISE ME RN!!! BUT ANYWAYS, I'm feeling SO much better 😋 I think I might make that cheesecake thing I mentioned a few anon asks ago today, and probably clean up a bit. I admit I really let the place go for a sec, dishes have unfortunately piled up a bit 😔

ALSO HELLOOOOO??? MEGUMI AND Y/N?? BRO Y/N NEEDS TO STOP THINKING THAT MEGUMI IS ALWAYS AFTER HER!! 😭😭 POOKS LIKE I GET IT, BUT DAMN?? WTH HAPPENED FOR YOU TO HATE HIM SO MUCH, AND HAVE YOU BELIEVE THAT HE HATES YOU SO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE HE WOULD WANT TO EMBARRASS YOU?? 💀 I'm SO invested. I woke up a few hours ago and saw that you had posted 2 yesterday, but I was like "its still late so I'm taking my happy ass back to bed, I'll read it when I wake up". It's the first thing I did when I arose from my slumber.

Also the boyfriend thing, he at least acts lovey sometimes, but yeah I get what you're saying 😔💔 I just really REALLY love him, and he'll express his love from time to time. I just don't know if he likes me or is just playing me, it'll be 4 months on the 11th, so I'm hoping that this is just one of those relationship phases and we'll work on it or something 😭 We've been okay for the most part tho, idk relationships are difficult sometimes, but I'm more than willing to go through more than difficult for him 😞 Bro has me folded like I've never been before? Help?

PLEASE THOUGH MY FRIEND AND TEACHERS DYNAMIC IS SO WEIRD?? SHE LITERALLY CALLS HIM A LITTLE GAY MAN 😭 HE LETS HER TOO? SHE EVEN INVITED ME INTO A GROUP OF PEOPLE WHO CALL HIM THAT? 💀 She sees him as an older brother, and I could see why, he lwk acts like this other dude I know 😔 I miss you W 💔 But anyways, it's just funny to see them go back and forth with eachother 💀

ANYWAYS. 💀💀 What's your favorite song? 🤔 Tbh I couldn't tell you mine, not that anything is wrong with it, I just FR can't decide what my favorite song is 😭 Having a hard time deciding my favorite color too 💀

ANYWAYS GONNA CLEAN (if I dont procrastinate) SO GOODBYE MY DEAREST AXEL

XOXO 👽

YAYAYYAYA SO PROUD OF U BAEEE!!! SO GLAD UR SLEEPPING SCHEDULE IS GOING GOOD! I HOPE CLEANING GOES WELL N UR CHEESE CAKE COMES OUT YUMMY 😎😎😎

NAH FR LIKE HAS YN EVER THOUGH MAYBE HE ISNT DETERMINED TO MAKE THEIR LIFE A LIVING HELL LIKE THEY THINK HE IS?? 😭😭

bae… idk… i’m still team break up with him even after reading that… cause i feel like it’s usually the opposite four months in where they were rlly sweet before and NOW they’re showing their true colors but also fuck do i know i’m not in ur relationship so take what i say with a grain of salt if u want… DO WHAT U THINK IS BEST ILY !

HELPPP NOT A LITTLE GAY MAN LFMOAOA THATS SO SILLY

ermmmm …. yeah i cant decide either… i love so many songs and i feel like i’m betraying them if i only pick one of them😭😭😭😭

#axel answers ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ #axel answers// 👽

[caspianxth]

🤶 my break starts soon!! I am doing my last assignment now and ive procrasinated all day until midnight, but thats normal for me. Im eating popcorn and sending u this then im finally gonna buckle down and finish my assignment. Im so excited for break, as excited as i am for you! What do u plan on studying?

yayyy to ur break being soon!! we love to hear it!! also mood I can procrastinate so badly I try not to tho bc w my celiac my health can just get effed very very fast but sometimes it's so fun to Not do work dsjkgdkjgh. popcorn is a great snack choice love that and love that ur bucklin down to finish ur work!! u got this!! ur gonna kick that assignment's butt!!!! also awwwwwww thanks bestie for the excitement. I'm gonna go into counseling (dream is to be a private practice therapist) so I'm going for a masters to do just that!! I've procrastinated checking my academic email though, I emailed my advisor about the classes I'm taking and I'm too scared to check her response. that's future em's problem tho jsghkjdghkjdfg today em is gonna try to be writin. hoping ur assignment wasn't too terrible to finish and that u will soon sleeb bestie!!! also bestie what are u in school for??? u can be generic if u want to be just curious!!

#bpacksanta #asks

[sungbeam]

oooh that’s only in a couple days !! good luck with your classes :> also that’s totally understandable :( at least we live in a day and age with facetime and stuff tho so you can def keep in touch with them and still talk to them every day if you want to :)) and aksjskdj i’ve been there so many times 💀 cuz i’m so introverted too like 💀 (well we are twins after all 😌✨) but yeah just go at your own pace and the time will come when you find your ppl :) i’m glad to hear you’ve already made a friend tho ^_^

ahh i’ve been good! yeah i don’t think i’ve actually told you but i’m actually not going to college/university (,,, at least not for now 👀) my plan is quite different from the traditional ways of going to college or university after high school. it’s a little bit hard to explain in just one short ask but basically i’m actually in the process of completing a short certificate program and from there i’m going hopefully straight into the workforce :’)) i’m lucky that my chinese parents actually approve of this plan 😭 ,, actually no that’s not completely true sksjsj my mom doesn’t l o v e the idea but my dad was actually the one who introduced it to me LOL but yeah :> and with this program i get to go at my own pace which has its pros and cons. the pros are quite obvious i think ,, but one of the cons is that bc i get to go at my own pace and there are no strict deadlines, it’s been a little bit difficult pulling myself out of summer mode sksjskdk 💀😭 but other than that tho it’s going well and i’m slowly making my way through it !!

thank uuu ah im gonna need a bit of luck for one class in particular but i'm sure i'll be alright (_ _;) that's true !! the very night my mom landed back home, we had called w my brother and we watched movies online together skcnskfn

i got her instagram acct and i call that a success :') for us introverts, even a name is a success 😃✨ there's a lot of orientation activities this past week that haven't been mandatory, but they're pretty much to meet new people, and there was an out of state mixer today lmao i was going to go but then i realized how absolutely miserably uncomfortable i would be there so i just went grocery shopping lol i got raspberries and apple juice tho so i call that a win

omg that sounds so cool tho!! i'm happy to see ur able to pursue such a path (even w partial chinese parental approval 😭🤧) wishing u much success and luck and love and good skills !! u got this, em (^_-)-☆ ah yeah, i def get that 😅 self discipline and coming out of summer mode is so, so difficult 🤧 i once took a math course over summer and i literally procrastinated until the first week of school 🤡 so i'm sure ur doing much better than i had been doing back then (^^ゞ

idk if ur comfy sharing but what field do u plan to go into :0

#sungbeam strikes again #em 🍪 #moot ❧ #omg ur long ask absolutely made my day skcnkenfkejd

[bivwifeybunny]

no i literally swear you always know what to do and say about everything. like you just know the right thing to say every time. i just have a lot going on and was having a mini breakdown LOL. yk how there’s a lot of pressure to keep pushing stuff out on here and stuff like that, im just so overwhelmed w it. bc ik you get it like wanting to write and blah blah but just not being able to (whether it’s literally or motivation related). i’m okay tho i think i just need to like take the time to work on asks and stuff ?? idk 😭

and thank you for your reassuring words about the whole friend situation thingy :(( i rly appreciate it

i miss you sm 😩. i hope ur awake rn so we can chat bc i feel like we barely have this week. hru doing today??

also my scalp is 10x worse now 😭. idk what to do anymore bc everything i’ve tried hasn’t been working. it kept me up all night last night bc it’s so painful </3

jeez you sound busy!! and i didn’t know you could sing ?!?! that’s so cool ??? i’d love to hear one day 😋. also what kinda food and shoes did you get??

sorry this is so long LOL

omg no ur too kind🥹 but i totally get that, especially since ive been struggling with it too. im a huge procrastinator on top of not even having any motivation and i have some asks sitting in my inbox from 2 months ago 😭😭😭 like the pressure to get stuff out and make everyone happy is always there, even when I tell myself that I need a break before i end up burning myself out. i would say to definitely take your time in working on asks and stuff, like go at your own pace, even if it's a slow one. ik for a fact the pressure won't go away but if you slowly work on it you can at least tell yourself that you're doing something, and that this way what you put out is gonna be great because you took your time on it :)

i missed you too!! good thing I am awake to talk to you :)) i'm doing pretty good I had an amazing good and bad dream last night with wilbur in it hehe :) hbu? how are you doing today?

im so sorry to hear that, baby :(( i wish i could give you a hug or do something about the pain :( but i honestly don't know what to do, cause i got burned when i was like 7 and my tia was the one to help me with that, but i would say maybe you could try going to the doctor? because it doesn't seem like it should be hurting this long after it happened, especially from just a sunburn, but again idk im not a doctor lol, maybe they're give you something for it tho?

lol yeah I can i just dk if it's necessarily good lmao, ill be sure to sing specifically for you one day maybe even soon but definitely when i meet you :)) anyways yesterday we got subway :D and i got some new balance shoes and they're purple (my fav color) and very cool looking and now me and my mom have a pair of matching shoes lol cause when she bought hers i thought they looked cool and wanted some so she bought em for me :)

and don't apologize i love getting long asks from u <33

#g <3

[georgeinamerc]

ACCIDENTALLY SPENT MY LIFE MAKING SURE EVERYONE WAS COMFORTABLE AND IGNORING HOW I WASNT TWEET COMING FOR MY FUCKING THROAT HOLY SHIT VAS ARE YOU OKAY DO YOU NEED A HUG IM GONNA FLY TO GREECE TO VISIT YOU I STG BB i just got off with my therapist too sa;lfjasdl;kjfasdlk;j that tweet really making me stare at my computer like :( its CORRECT but DAMN

for reals tho bb are you okay im sending you all the hugs. Lmk if you wanna watch smthn today I've got 0 things on my schedule

wuv youuuuu sending you cool blankets on a hot day and soft forehead kisses

-JC

I wrote a reply to you 2 times and tumblr glitched in both so now i’m fucking drafting this on my google docs😭 I swear that was my last straw lmaooo

Anyways, i really am not doing good but i seriously can’t thank you enough for the kindness you always bring to my inbox!! It helps me so so much, you are an amazing human being❤️❤️

DUDE that tweet fucking destroyed meeee it’s really alarming how relatable my socials are getting atp… sorry for attacking you w it as well tho 😫 PLEASE you are welcome any time here hahah i could even take you to an island for vacation just sayingg 👁️👄👁️ Ahh i really do need a hug rn tho ngl, it’s been one of the worst periods of my life. We've had so many failed attempts at finding an apartment for me and the day we were supposed to go see one that looks really fitting for me, my brother had his medical exams. It’s been 2 weeks and they haven’t contacted since. Then as you’ve probably seen my therapist lowkey ghosted me jhbgjtbrjg and my dad is just being his usual self… There’s more but i wouldn’t want every thought of mine to be on the open for the whole tumblr to see, yk, i may be the queen of oversharing but even i have boundaries😭

Lmao we really should have a call and just complain about everything and everyone hahah pls feel free to let it all out here if u need to, i would never post any of it obviously but just know you have an ear that will listen<3 I would love it but i have SO much studying for my exams and i shouldn’t procrastinate more :( we’ll find a day for it tho!!

Love you sm and again thank you for everything, i'm so glad tumblr gave me an amazing person like you❤️❤️❤️❤️

#long post #many kisses to you too x #jc💙

[trivialoveclub]

2020 Year in Review!

hey! i was tagged by the absolute angel that is ⚘ @unefleurofferte ⚘(tysm my love! 💞) for this 2020 tag! first off (even tho it's the middle of january already 🤡) i wanted to wish everyone a happy new year! not to get sappy 💀 but even tho i don't rlly talk/interact that much, it brings me a lot of happiness seeing u guys on my dash 🥺💗 i genuinely am supporting and rooting for you all and i wish u guys all the love and kindness in this new year bc you deserve it babes 💖

Rules: answer the questions about 2020 and tag some people to pass it on!

5 Fav Films You Watched in 2020

🎬 Soul (2020) "Your spark isn't your purpose. That last box fills in when you're ready to come live."

🎬 Onward (2020) "I never had a dad, but I always had you."

🎬 Klaus (2019) "A true selfless act always sparks another."

🎬 Diecisiete (2019) "You think I'd be doing all of this if I had no heart?

Maybe you're trying to get it back."

🎬 East Side Sushi (2014) "You know behind every great restaurant here, there are great latinos, in the back, in the kitchen, hidden. Prepping the food and making you all look good. Well, I don't want to be in the back anymore."

5 Fav TV Shows You Watched In 2020

📺 Like in The Movies (2020) "Do you ever feel like you're not the protagonist of your own story?"

📺 Given (2019) "Do you have anyone you like, Haruki-san? If that person suddenly disappeared from this world, what would you say?"

📺 Banana Fish (2018) "My soul is always with you."

📺 Masterchef Junior (2013-) Not a quote but Gordon Ramsay always says the dishes has "finesse" and now i can't stop saying it in everything 😭

📺 Next in Fashion (2020)

5 Fav Songs You Listened To In 2020

🎶 UGH! : BTS 🎶 "You're allowed to be angry, but bothering someone else's life, I don't like"

🎶 Fuyu No Hanashi : Given 🎶 "Just like the snow that hasn't completely melted in the shade I continue on with these feelings inside of me."

🎶 So Beautiful : DPR Ian 🎶 "My love is turning kinda gray / My heart is looking the other way."

🎶 PSYCHE : Joohoney 🎶 "All of the world pay attention"

🎶 Stay Tonight : Chungha 🎶 "Tell me what you wanna do, run away or stay tonight"

Top 5 Albums of 2020

💿 Map of The Soul 7 : BTS

UGH! ⏯ Black Swan ⏯ Inner Child

💿 Fatal Love : Monsta X

Sorry I'm Not Sorry ⏯ Nobody Else ⏯ Guess Who

💿 Ungodly Hour : Chloe x Halle

ROYL ⏯ Forgive Me ⏯ Lonely

💿 Mixtape [ PSYCHE ] : Joohoney

PSYCHE ⏯ Intro (Ambition) ⏯ DIA

💿 Chromatica : Lady Gaga

Replay ⏯ Sour Candy ⏯ Alice

Top 5 Books You Read in 2020

🤡 🤡 🤡

...i haven't read for fun in years 😔 i used to read a book every single day :(( but! i already have a list of ones i want to read so this year for sure im gonna be that girl again 🤧💅🏼

💌 How did you spend your birthday this year? 💌

uh hahaha 🤡 suddenly i can't read 🤡

well...i had to take my drivers test but i had no idea how to park so i mean obvs i was gonna fail 💀 so i got super anxious and then had a breakdown in the back seat when it was getting closer to my turn 😭 my parents had to reschedule it and take me home. i felt like such a disappointment. so it started off absolutely horrible, fortunately the rest of the day was a lot better but oof 🤪

💌 What was your most memorable day? 💌

i honestly cannot remember anything 😭 it's like one big blur but ummm...probably finishing high school! i felt like i could finally breathe 🥲

💌 What was your most memorable meal you had this year? 💌

hmm...ooo probably when my abuelita made us a bunch of paches de papa 🥺 i ate them for a whole week and i loved it entirely...my heart is pache shaped 🤧💘

💌 Did you find any new hobbies or interests in quarantine? 💌

hmm i don't think i got any new ones but i did get to be reminded again on how much i genuinely enjoy making food and like decorating/personalizing things! ☺💖

💌 What was the last big event/thing you remember doing before covid? 💌

uhhh i honestly can't think of anything? i literally don't go out 🤡 like im in chilling in this quarantine lifestyle bc nothing has changed for me 🤪

💌 5 good/positive things that happened to you in 2020? 💌

🌱 i finally escaped high school! 🎓🎉

🌱 i decided to take a gap year and the burnt out student inside me feels like she can finally exhale

🌱 i can't remember if it was in early 2020 or late 2019 but anyways I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE 😝😝 i honestly...do not know how i got it...i took 15+ minutes to park (as u can see your girl didn't learn her lesson) but bless that man for passing me i hope u have a beautiful life sir 😭💖 however i have not stepped in the driver's seat since then 💋 i refuse 💋

🌱 i honestly would say watching Soul 🥲💗 i've always been obsessed w my meaning and purpose in life and that movie rlly just hit home for me...i think about it everyday and im literally starting to tear up right now so let me just stop 🤪

🌱 hmm honestly just being home 💗 i now have an excuse to stay in all time and that brings me so much peace in my heart 🤧

💌 Biggest messages or lessons learnt from this year? 💌

that there's a lot to live for. and i rlly want to enjoy it? and like w the gap year i still feel guilty and still feel like im wasting time and not being productive (love being a capricorn 🤪) but im trying to not think like that...and the fact that Soul came out and it's whole message is literally like life is beautiful and it's meant to be lived 🥺 it rlly like...set that for me u know...there's so many little things that truly make me excited about life and i want to enjoy it and after those 4 years in high school of constant work and stress and losing my entire mind maybe i actually deserve it 🥲 so um yeah..sjdkajd

💌 And what are you most looking forward to in 2021? 💌

a lot ☺ everything honestly...wow omg that's so weird asjakjd ahhh 😭😭💘 [insert that paul rudd who would have thought not me meme] but i wanna do sm much!! bake and cook and learn to knit! and personalize my clothes and READ! and watch movies and shows! and i'll also be going back to school so i rlllllllllyyyyyyyy want to learn how to manage my time bc my procrastination truly fucked me in the ass in hs 🤡 but yeah im excited ahh! ☺

And We're Done!

oof my memory is so awful i feel like i can't remember anything that happened in 2020 🤡 this ended up being a bit long 💀 so if u made it to the end...thank u for reading...ily 😚💌 besitos for you! 💞

tagging these cuties 💘: @moonlattae @fluorescente @glossierjoon @ardores @star99 @jooniephoria @ahearthrob @catboyjm @yoongidisease @violetmoonlits @koyan @stardustyoongi @7blueside @m1amor @sobsyub @m8nstruck @souheii @1okyos @virgomoon @alevchaan @jihyoist

#i wanted to tag a lot of people ☺ but of course if u don't want to do it u don't have to! 💌 #thank u again dear for tagging me! i honestly rlly enjoyed it! 💖 #and if anyone checks out the music/shows/movies i hope u like it! 💌 #oh and i added the spotify link to the album if u click on the title! 💃🏻💃🏻 #tagged 🥰

[touyaz]

Hello!!!

Huge congrats on your milestone!!!! Wishing you even more success!! 🥳💕💕

I was wondering if I could get a toxic matchup for JJK and/or BNHA?

I love to read, draw digital art, watch political comedy and documentaries about anything. I like cafes, movie theaters, scenic walks, nighttime, spring and fall!

I'm shy/reserved when I first meet someone, but affectionate, playful, and cuddly when I'm comfortable with them. People tell me I'm a warm and soft spoken person.

At the same time tho, I'm rlly sarcastic and into a bit of dark humor, but again that only really comes out once I'm more comfortable with the person.

I'm also rlly protective and loyal to the people around me, but because of this I also don't let alot of poeple get super super close to me, I prefer a small tight knit group of friends. I'm also rlly great with secrets.

I'm a procrastinator and have some anxiety which prevents me from going after things that I want and that can impact my self confidence.

I think in a partner I wouldn't like someone who lacks kindness or sympathy, or someone who I can't banter with. I also wouldn't want a partner who has no goals of their own.

Thank you!! 💕💖

- @ame-791 (this is my side blog, you might have seen me in your notifications!!)

AME !!!!!! thank you so, so much 💘💘💘💘💘💘

i'm gonna say toji is your toxic match-up !! honestly, good luck even trying to get into a relationship w this guy bc commitment is not his forte :/ he's someone thats v hard to connect to on a deeper, more emotional level, so god knows if you'll ever get to drop your shy nature around him; its hard to feel at comfort + drop ur walls when youre around a man like him — someone who seldom sticks around and really only chases after his own pleasure. i think it'd fill you w a lot of doubt/ insecurities, make u question whether he actually likes you, or if he's just in it for the fun, which will def ruin ur self-cofidence and make u retreat/ second guess what u really want. he's also v closed off and detached (makes it easier to just dip lmao) which completely contrasts ur willingness to get closer + be someone he can depend on — honestly it might freak him out + make him distance himself even further and he could end up leaving u in the dust bc he's not exactly drowning in friends and love so he's not used to it. you can banter w him but he has a cynical/ darker view on life which may feed into ur humour (except he's probably not joking when he says dark shit :$). he's also not the kindest/ most sympathetic person; he never experienced that growing up, and he's just not equipped w the knowledge of how to deal w anxieties/ insecurites/ weakness w anything more than "tough it out. get over it." cool guy but not bf material </3

#i could fix him tho send him my way #ask #ame 🌷 #wintoxic

[kyunsies]

hi mädch tis 🌱 anon again :)) how are you? i'm writing this during a break between classes

LOL yeah sometimes i think mbb twt is a headache but i haven't engaged w stan twt in a while,, usually i follow translators, fansites and cc's so my experience on kpoptwt is v diff from the typical stan twt user,, drama makes my head ache and i use the mute button a LOT haha. aside from that being on twt+tumblr is p chill despite it being kinda lonely cause i don't have a lot of mbb friends irl+online (most irl kpop stan friends are arm*es haha) so i send stuff to a close friend that puts up w me :')) (+ @changkyun show us your face you cryptic)

long haired changkyun my beloved <3 but also his red hair was so so cute :( it might be my favourite "non-natural" colour on him,, but black/natural is superior. i think that hair definitely makes a difference in your appearance + ur vibes. esp w hyungwon his long hair gave him this mysterious + enigmatic vibe and when he cut it the bread cheeks were more pronounced,, soft bean

it does feel kind of good to be done w high school!! esp cause i feel like this year was especially long. i had intense courseloads at the beginning and end (so the middle was kinda chill) but i finished the ib without having to do exams so i'm forever thankful for that :'))) i have definitely felt very stressed at times during hs. and i agree!! the expectations in high school are quite unrealistic, and w the pandemic it's really easy to feel overwhelmed and burnt out all the time. it didn't help that the program i was in was pretty rigourous/intense. absolutely no time for myself unless i was procrastinating,, which i did a lot. very much looking forward to some sort of fresh start in uni though, even if i think my first year is gonna be stressful (STEM major ahah). @ the uni i chose, the first year is "designed" to weed ppl out,, if that makes sense. that being said, v much looking forward to the summer because i will FINALLY have time to do whatever i want and not have to focus on a math essay like last year T^T.

and for the ask game, let's do chungha! idk much abt her but i really liked the song she did w rich brian (88rising - these nights)

hi sweetheart 💖💖💖 sorry i’m late to this bubbie i saw it right away but i wanted to give u a well thought out response when work was done so i’m done for the day now :)

yeah seriously like i don’t mean to be a twt hater all the time but that app literally gives me the sh*ts when i go on there MFNJFF i get so anxious going on there :( i literally only follow like 20 ppl on there and honestly i might start unfollowing again HHH my twt is such a flop i just rt and bookmark things 🥲 but i also really relate to the second part babe tumblr tho it’s really chill and i love it, it does get quite lonely at times :( but i want u to know thag this place will always be a home to you and u can talk to me whenever you’d like okay !!!!!

also YES :((((( i don’t think my manifesting is working ….. really thought he was going to drop the selca today :( but !!!! i still have hope hehe i have a feeling it’s coming soon !!! 🥺 i also really liked his red hair too i think it was a really good look for him, i also adored his purple hair for fantasia era too 💖 wish he had it for longer !!! his undercut for Fantasia era was soooo pretty :( but ……. i kinda wanna see what he would look like with blonde hair again KDNKDJD i know ppl think he would look “dirty/unkept” with blonde hair but i would like to at least see it ONE MORE TIME LOLOLOL <3 i do think his black hair is absolutely superior too tho :)

i’m sure it feels so nice to be done hun !!! i’m so proud of you 🥺 high school was v tiring for me bc i pushed myself to take rigorous classes and then my sport had me out until about 7/8pm every night so it was just so hard to get my hw done at a reasonable time :( but especially with the field you’re going in stem it’s really tough … but you can do it !!!! you’ll find your grove <3 and i feel the whole weening ppl out tho, bc i’m a nursing major our uni’s policy is that if you have anything below a B (80%) in your nursing classes you get kicked out so i’m always stressed about my grades 😭 you will be fine, okay?

AND SKDJJD OKAY !!! miss chungha my queen <3

chungha

my first impression of her : diva 👀 KNDJD i wasn’t sure about her she looked really scary but my first ever song i heard was snapping and i LOVED it !!!!

what i think her best era was : either gotta go or the era with her pre-release (stay tonight + play!!)

what i love about her : she is unlike any other female soloist !!!! her dancing is u matched truly she can be dainty but her down too she’s incredible … she’s a huddled !!! the gal never rests KDJKD and her voice is absolutely stunning 🥺

#asks #🌱 anon #so so sorry this is late bubbie but i wanted to give u a nice response !!!!! i hope you’re having a good day <3

[sehunniepotwrites]

hehehe i have one more scholarship application to complete!! but the deadline is pretty far away so i'm planning to procrastinate and do it at a later date :") hehe ive applied for 3 so far and hopefully they do get back to me with an interview opportunity 🤩 but my results weren't the best so :"( actl not rlly gonna hope for much 👉🏻👈🏻

i didn't manage to light my candle last night cuz my mom placed a diffuser in my room before i went home and i didn't wanna spoil the scent of wood sage :"( so let's see if i can light it up tonight after work !! i just rlly wanna smell jae while i sleep yknow imagine that cuddle that he'd give 👉🏻👈🏻 💖💖

the weather is rlly hot here in my country and its making me get headaches everytime i leave an air conditioned area 🥴 give me back the rain please ☹️

and PLEASE DONT BURN OUT :"( take care of yourself by doing things you love and just spend some time to relax around, watch some shows, read your books!! and also maybe just read through your asks for some conversations if they help!! hehe 💖 i'll always be here to support you so you could tell me about stuff if you are comfortable w it!! 🥰🥰

omg this message is getting rlly long but IM SO EXCITED FOR DREAMS COMEBACK i love all of dream so so so much 🥺🥺🥺 and and i have a soft spot for jaem n jeno and like renjun mark and haechan and chenle and jisung and like 👉🏻👈🏻 thats judt all of them huh :"(

love, 🍑

aaaah procrastination at it’s finest ;;; it’s how i got thru school and life in general. i still procrastinate haha! do take a break when you need to tho!!

you’re making me want to buy the candle but i’m not much of a candle person! i’m more into diffusers (but that’s because i don’t like fire uwu) aaaAAAAH SOFT CUDDLES WITH JAE-- HOW CUTE 

it’s really hot in my city rn too but i think it’s a random wave of heat. we’re getting the cold back next week! i did go on a walk/run this morning though, finally decided to get off my ass. 1.5 miles isn’t that bad for a person who doesn’t really do anything active, right?

i’ll probably go on a break or just stick to writing short timestamps ;;; long winded plots are great until you actually have to write them ehehe. and thanks for always supporting me, little peach!!! it really means a lot 🥺

I’M READY FOR 7DREAM. LET’S GET IT!!!!

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