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22 March 2024

Truth be told, I've had rough ~3 days. The test that I thought I was so well prepared for ended up going pretty badly (I passed but with a low grade) and there have been some other minor troubles too. I skipped this morning's lecture to get some extra sleep, then went to the seminar and gave a presentation. Bought some (vegan) chocolate to cheer myself up.

Some complaining under the cut lol

Actually, this whole semester has been rather rough. I love chemistry, genuinely. I think anyone who's been following me for at least several months knows this. I've always been very passionate about my major. But now I'm taking ochem and it turns out I hate it vehemently - it sucks all joy, determination, and fondness out of me. I find it boring and frustrating and it continuously makes no sense to me. It gives me zero satisfaction to study it and satisfaction is extremely important to me when it comes to uni. I hoped maybe it was only a matter of attitude, but I just can't change the fact I detest organic chemistry no matter how hard I try not to.

Probably the worst part is that it's sort of the only course I'm taking this semester - that is, I'm also taking pchem lab but that's only one class per week and it doesn't require that much extra work at home. That leaves me with tons upon tons of ochem work with nearly nothing to level it out.

So, I'm struggling! I know I just need to make it through this semester - then I'll be done with ochem forever and I'll be content and enjoying uni again - and I don't need to get amazing grades in this horrible course, I only need to pass it. But my goodness, it's so hard and painful when I remember how happy I used to be.

Phew, okay, now that it's out of my system it's time to stop complaining. It'll pass and I'll push through. Only a little over 3 months left! I got this I got this

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