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#this is an ochem hate blog now
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22 March 2024
Truth be told, I've had rough ~3 days. The test that I thought I was so well prepared for ended up going pretty badly (I passed but with a low grade) and there have been some other minor troubles too. I skipped this morning's lecture to get some extra sleep, then went to the seminar and gave a presentation. Bought some (vegan) chocolate to cheer myself up.
Some complaining under the cut lol
Actually, this whole semester has been rather rough. I love chemistry, genuinely. I think anyone who's been following me for at least several months knows this. I've always been very passionate about my major. But now I'm taking ochem and it turns out I hate it vehemently - it sucks all joy, determination, and fondness out of me. I find it boring and frustrating and it continuously makes no sense to me. It gives me zero satisfaction to study it and satisfaction is extremely important to me when it comes to uni. I hoped maybe it was only a matter of attitude, but I just can't change the fact I detest organic chemistry no matter how hard I try not to.
Probably the worst part is that it's sort of the only course I'm taking this semester - that is, I'm also taking pchem lab but that's only one class per week and it doesn't require that much extra work at home. That leaves me with tons upon tons of ochem work with nearly nothing to level it out.
So, I'm struggling! I know I just need to make it through this semester - then I'll be done with ochem forever and I'll be content and enjoying uni again - and I don't need to get amazing grades in this horrible course, I only need to pass it. But my goodness, it's so hard and painful when I remember how happy I used to be.
Phew, okay, now that it's out of my system it's time to stop complaining. It'll pass and I'll push through. Only a little over 3 months left! I got this I got this
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1: Name
Sarah
2: Age
23
3: Fears
Everything, I have anxiety
4: 3 things I love
Dogs, weird movies, sunsets over water
5: 4 turns on
Long hair, facial piercings, good sense of humor, back muscles
6: 4 turns off
Poor hygiene, rude to service workers, adults who are still obsessed with Disney to the point where they make it a personality trait, Trump supporters (or the equivalent in other countries)
7: My best friend
@wanderingwondererofthings
8: Sexual orientation
Bi? I think? IDK not straight tho
9: My best first date
I’ve only ever been on one date in my life and the dude ghosted me afterward which turned out to be a blessing bc it was not a good time in my life to try to start a relationship
10: How tall am I
5′2″
11: What do I miss
Mental stability
12: What time were I born
3:45 am or thereabouts
13: Favourite color
black
14: Do I have a crush
celebrity crushes but I don’t really count those
15: Favourite quote
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
16: Favourite place
bundled up under a heap of blankets by myself in a dark room with good snacks and a good book/movie
17: Favourite food
chocolate
18: Do I use sarcasm
do i
19: What am I listening to right now
my housemate doing laundry
20: First thing I notice in new person
what they’re wearing
21: Shoe size
womens 7
22: Eye color
brown
23: Hair color
brown
24: Favourite style of clothing
love that goth shit
25: Ever done a prank call?
not that i can remember
26: Meaning behind my URL
adam darski’s true form
27: Favourite movie
Ink (2009) dir. jamin winans
28: Favourite song
UHHHHHHHHHHH
29: Favourite band
Eluveitie
30: How I feel right now
like shit lol
31: Someone I love
My friends
32: My current relationship status
single
33: My relationship with my parents
it’s good and i’m very grateful
34: Favourite holiday
the day after halloween when all the candy goes on sale
35: Tattoos and piercing I have
none
36: Tattoos and piercings I want
seriously considering getting my eyebrow pierced soon. if I ever cut my hair short i’ll pierce my ears
37: The reason I joined Tumblr
to follow an art blog that made amazing JTHM fan art
38: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
what ex
39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
yeah from my mom
40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
yeah it was my mom
41: When did I last hold hands?
yesterday with my grandma
42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
takes me well over an hour to actually get up but then like 3o minutes tops
43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
no
44: Where am I right now?
in my room
45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
i’ve never been that drunk because i hate hangovers
46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
reasonable level unless i’m at a concert
47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
not anymore
48: Am I excited for anything?
sexy eggman is coming to san francisco
49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
no
50: How often do I wear a fake smile?
basically whenever i have to talk to strangers
51: When was the last time I hugged someone?
yesterday
52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
my mom is allowed to kiss other people it’s okay
53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
i don’t think so?
54: What is something I disliked about today?
i’m tired of being tired
55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
my soulmate
56: What do I think about most?
spirals of existential dread
57: What’s my strangest talent?
I have no talents lol
58: Do I have any strange phobias?
going down stairs. i’m fine going up them but going down them freaks me out
59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
depends on my mood and whether or not i’m ugly that day
60: What was the last lie I told?
“I’m okay”
61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
In person or don’t fucking talk to me
62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
yes and yes
63: Do I believe in magic?
idk. i believe there’s things that happen that we can’t explain yet so maybe that’s magic
64: Do I believe in luck?
i believe in good chances
65: What’s the weather like right now?
dark
66: What was the last book I’ve read?
The Habitation of the Blessed by Catherynne Valente
67: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
yes as long as i don’t have a headache or stomachache
68: Do I have any nicknames?
just dumb shit my mom calls me
69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
worst acute injury was the time i tripped onto an outdoor heater in kindergarten and burned the shit out of my hand. i also have a stress fracture in my spine that will never heal from gymnastics but that happened over a matter of years
70: Do I spend money or save it?
i try to save but i spend a little too much
71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
with a tongue? yes. with my tongue? no
72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
my fluffy pillow
73: Favourite animal?
take a wild fucking guess
74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
trying unsuccessfully to sleep
75: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
Columbus
76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
That Time of the Month by Harley Poe
77: How can you win my heart?
be a dog
78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
ceci n’est pas un corps
79: What is my favorite word?
sussuration or cathedral
80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
this is the internet equivalent of the judgment of paris
81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
eat the rich
82: Do I have any relatives in jail?
not currently
83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
shapeshifting bitch
84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
i’ll say anything on the internet i don’t give a shit
85: What is my current desktop picture?
Tumblr media
86: Had sex?
no
87: Bought condoms?
no
88: Gotten pregnant?
no
89: Failed a class?
yeah, fuck ochem
90: Kissed a boy?
no
91: Kissed a girl?
 no
92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
no
93: Had job?
i’ve got one right now
94: Left the house without my wallet?
yeah lol
95: Bullied someone on the internet?
no
96: Had sex in public?
no
97: Played on a sports team?
i ran track for a couple years as a kid
98: Smoked weed?
yup
99: Did drugs?
no
100: Smoked cigarettes?
ew no
101: Drank alcohol?
yuppers
102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
no
103: Been overweight?
no
104: Been underweight?
yes
105: Been to a wedding?
yes
106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
only 5?
107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
only 5??
108: Been outside my home country?
yes
109: Gotten my heart broken?
yes but not romantically
110: Been to a professional sports game?
many
111: Broken a bone?
nope
112: Cut myself?
not on purpose
113: Been to prom?
yeah and it sucked and i wish i hadn’t gone
114: Been in airplane?
yes
115: Fly by helicopter?
no but I want to
116: What concerts have I been to?
a multitude
117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
yeah lol
118: Learned another language?
can I give this one a half a yes?
119: Wore make up?
yup
120: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
no
121: Had oral sex?
no
122: Dyed my hair?
yes
123: Voted in a presidential election?
yes
124: Rode in an ambulance?
no
125: Had a surgery?
do wisdom teeth count?
126: Met someone famous?
yup, holla atcha doug jones
127: Stalked someone on a social network?
no, i don’t care that much
128: Peed outside?
who hasn’t?
129: Been fishing?
no
130: Helped with charity?
i’ve donated some money
131: Been rejected by a crush?
yeah but a) I never actually asked him out, b) we were 12, and c) turns out he’s gay so like i’m not made about it
132: Broken a mirror?
no
133: What do I want for birthday?
a new laptop
134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
why would i want kids
135: Was I named after anyone?
my great uncle and great grandmother
136: Do I like my handwriting?
i have no opinion on it
137: What was my favourite toy as a child?
legos or something similar you can build with
138: Favourite Tv Show?
UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
139: Where do I want to live when older?
somewhere near the ocean
140: Play any musical instrument?
i wish
141: One of my scars, how did I get it?
i only have acne scars and those are pretty self-explanatory
142: Favourite pizza toping?
sausage, bell pepper, and onion
143: Am I afraid of the dark?
no
144: Am I afraid of heights?
sometimes
145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
no, i’m a good girl
146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end
yeah, FUCK OCHEM
147: What I’m really bad at
being a functioning human adult person
148: What my greatest achievments are
not killing myself in college
149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
idk man i get upset by everything even when it’s not mean
150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery
pay off my friends’ and family’s debts, set aside a big chunk of money for grad school, maybe get my own place depending on how much is left
151: What do I like about myself
i have nice hair
152: My closest Tumblr friend
idk
153: Something I fantasise about
what don’t i fantasize about
154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?
hey demons come and get y’all juice
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daphnenott · 5 years
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tagged by @peterbparkcr (thank youuu) rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs!
a - age: 19
b - birthplace: durham, north carolina
c - current time: 9:14 am
d - drink you last had: water
e - easiest person to talk to: myself lol
f - favorite song: mm i’ve been into lose control by lay zhang rn (zhang yixing)
g - grossest memory: uhh i watched a girl eat cottage cheese with chicken teriyaki at the dining commons and i was horrified 
h - horror yes or horror no: nope i’m a big baby
i - in love? with my dreams yeah
j - jealous of people: constantly
l - love at first sight or should i walk by again: i don’t believe in first love lol
m - middle name: don’t officially have one, but it would probably be my chinese name, yunxin (云忻)
n - number of siblings: just one 
o - one wish: to be happy
p - person you last called: my mom
q - question you’re always asked: how to pronounce my name
r - reading anything right now? my bio and ochem textbooks lol
s - song you last sang: sweet lies by exo
t - time you woke up: 7:15 am
u - underwear color: powder blue
v - vacation destination: italy
w - when was the last time you really laughed? mm idk awhile ago i guess
x - x-rays: lol i need to get some for my wisdom teeth (THEY’RE COMING OUT I’M SCARED) but i also hate the dentist and i haven’t gone in like four years but
y - your favorite food: fruit tarts
z - zodiac sign: sagittarius
lowkey too lazy to tag so just whoever wants to do it!
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premedmind · 4 years
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hello
i started this blog to just post about my experience as a pre-med. 
It’s currently 8:30 PM and i just found out that I utterly failed my ochem midterm. I’m not even being dramatic I got a 33% and yes the average was a 50% so my grade will hopefully raise a bit from the curve but regardless, I have never failed so badly in my life. Even with the curve, its not possible to even get a strong grade like an A or a B. I am just trying to pass and if I am not able to pass, I am screwed. But I don’t want to withdraw from the class because this section of ochem isnt offered until the summer (but I will be completing physics abroad at that time) or next winter. 
This quarter overall has been so stressful and honestly, up until tonight, I was confident that I had an actual chance of getting into medical school. I hate how inadequate I feel right now. Becoming a pediatrician has been my dream career since I was in 7th grade and this midterm is just a big fat wake up call. 
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