#overall i think its a better decision than staying here tho. and my mom promised me i could redo my entire bedroom at home so like.

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#i feel. so sick rn . #it has hit me like. oh yeah. my last day of work is in 2 days. i am never going to see any of these people again. #that post abt like. the light that follows u around and glows when its the last time youre ever gonna see someone/do something #. its haunting me rn #laying. on the fucking floor #:| #<< current emotion #im like. feeling every emotion known to mankind /neg and they are all cancelling each other out so im Actually feeling nothing. #im like. excited to go home bur also the idea of . living in proximity to certain people/places again is making me sick to my stomach fr #like! i escaped! i fucking escaped and got out and im free and . i am Choosing to go back now. why the fuck am i doing that #overall i think its a better decision than staying here tho. and my mom promised me i could redo my entire bedroom at home so like. #in her words (which hit me like a truck and i appreciate very much coming from her) #'it wont feel like the room you went through high school in' #so. im hoping that makes it better. #and now that i have. living on my own experience. i wont just. be cooped up at home with nothing to do. #esp bc im familiar with the area and know where thinggs are #but that doesnt completely cancel out the 'theres a nonzero chance you could run into people you used to know' #and 'you have to drive past her house whenever you go to x location' #which. fucking sucks. its fine. its fine . im just #its all hitting me NOW because my last day of work is coming up and all of my coworkers are. saying goodbye to me n stuff #its a lot. an d also nothing. and also everything. #:( #idk man. sucks #delete later