#pari.txt

[taarokeshabd]

having 'mommy issues' with a present mom is so weird because like.

i love the idea of having a mom. we never get along. i fucked up because you hurt me. stop being my mom, please. i don't want to hate you. i don't think i hate you. i love you. i'm glad you're alive. leave me alone. i hate you. i'm sorry i messed up. you deserve better than me. i want a better mom. i don't deserve a better mom. i know it isn't your fault. you're just as hurt as i am. please stop. i can't be in the same room as you. i'm glad you're there. it's not the same. i want to leave. this is home. the chaos feelings like home. i want a mom. i'm sorry i tried standing up for myself. you were right. please change your ways. be kinder to me. i should be nicer to you. stop this. don't. please leave. don't go. i want a mom. i'm glad you're here. i wish you were present in my life more. don't get in my life now. i don't need you. i can't do this without you. i'm sorry. please forgive me. i did nothing wrong. it's not your fault either. i want to escape this. i don't want to leave. i'm tied to this burning tree. you lit it on fire. but you've been tied before me.

#pari.txt #mommy issues #eldest daughter #mothers #mothers and daughters #desi tumblr #desiblr #desi tag #desi trauma #desi things #eldest daughter in a desi house #i just trauma dumped here and called it a day #slay #mother #daughter #motherhood #grief #trauma cw #implied abuse cw

[girlypopification]

FUCK papaya

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[sitaray]

not gonna use this blog anymore bc all my stuff is on my other one!! n e ways yall can find me on @girlypopification !! peace sign emoji

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[paricida-blog]

I'm so sorry for the lack of posting on this account! Like wowie, it's been a while. ;U; Ah, I do want to be more active here, but you know, Life is hard & all. Oops. But hey! To those that stuck around, I do have a 50 post queue set-up for today! I do hope that helps a bit? I'll try to at least have 5 things on queue for a while. Hopefully I'll be able to fully come back on to this blog since I worked hard to make it all organized. Woop.

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[girlypopification]

😨

#hello. #man i get what my prof said when he was like You Actually Have To Periodically Make Things Worse #did the above emoji in real lifein REAL FUCKING LIFEEEEEE #pari.txt #throwing down my phone like its a book but it bounces off the bed and flies into the fan and explodes into slow mo glitter

[girlypopification]

oh hell oh freakishness my mehendi fuckin bled in the night i am insanely indignant i have orange ass fingerprints over the lovely heart on my palm... like... dude...

#like. #pari.txt #maybe this is the most fucked up thing thats ever happened to me #AT LEAST THERES NONE ON MY FACE LMAOOO

[girlypopification]

engaged in ACCIDENTAL heavy heavy flirting with one of my good friends and i really need to Not Be Doing That

#like. whoopsies #like... uh oh #pari.txt #had a ridiculous moment yesterday when she sent me a snippet of something ID sent someone else ages ago and i kind of died of like #delayed mortification #it's really quite bad actually #i know she wont mind if i tell her... there is also the fact that she has is on a “break” from her gf ex whatever #which is a. situation to be in #I DIDNT DO ANYTHING THOUFH!!! ugh i did ... i didnt mean to... i know im hot and cool and all but why would anyone date me im #developmebtally still a 5 y/o going ick at kisses....

[girlypopification]

still dont know what... what. homestuck is. ..

#dont tell me #pari.txt

[girlypopification]

hes just havibg a snack♥️

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[girlypopification]

watched about 30 hrs of fantasy high freshman yr over the last 4 days...

#30 hrs in 4 days is. oh shit thats like 7.5ish a day. oh well #pari.txt

[girlypopification]

#paintin #wippin... #emphasis on WIP!!!! #pari.txt

[girlypopification]

WHY AM I GETTING LUMS ADMISSIONS ADS ON TUMBLR? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?

#LIKE? #ITS LIKE. THE IMMERSION IS BROKEN #im so haunted #lcat tuition ads... on tumblr...? #pari.txt

[girlypopification]

sometimes there are just things i love so much i get chills

#pari.txt #will and bran and jane.

[girlypopification]

reply to me on discord i miss u </333

im like rabid rn i will i promise i love u and miss you

#u know 1) i didnt know ell and mj and jj and reyd all met up in london and #2) i saw ells insta and i was SO OVERCOME so SO much i was like #like. #i love you guys. i always miss you guys even when its me whos radio silent #i cant believe you were 17 when we met like what the hell that is so young im going to be turning NINETEEN can you believe it??? #like i was so happy you guys met i got so emotional i was likebawling inside i was like MY FRIENDSSSS MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSS #dont @ me im the nonnegative type of maudlin right now teary eyes and all #pari.txt #my loves my garden my friendssss..... im so happy... it gave me so much delight and joy i hope you had fun... then and now.....

[girlypopification]

why have like fifteen pornbots followed me all of a sudden .

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[girlypopification]

sometimes i think i love books and reading a normal amount and then i find myself getting chills reading over some of the english courses offered at my uni. like i want it so bad it's not even funny.

#im not gonna change my major but i think i would be deeply fundamentally unhappy without some kind of lit study in my life #like i dont think i could take it. ill pdobably end up doing an english minor #pari.txt