#reminds me of this artist i follow and im in his discord server and whenever i said something pertaining to media or some controversial

[kaazukado]

Hazbin Fuck My Life

i adore hazbin hotel, i think it’s amazing, but i can’t help but wonder if i just have low standards or am an absolute dumbass because clearly it has issues that i never spotted until someone brought it up, and even then i thought it was fine(like the pacing for the eps. in general i’m cool with it but i will admit - five months passing in five eps? like are you fucking serious??? that’s insane, what the hell)

and then when i feel smart about deciding that gee, alastor was uncharacteristically crude in ep 5, suddenly i feel like the idiot again because all the comments on videos of him cursing lucifer out are saying how it’s such a good way to show how much lucifer pisses him off. i mean, i saw that too, but it still felt incredibly jarring at the time. and now i’ve conformed to public opinion and i genuinely think it’s fine too. go me. (that or it’s that the shock has worn off and i just think alastor saying “fuck you” is funny)

i fucking hate everything here. i don’t want to be one of viv’s blind stans but i don’t want to be one of her blind haters either, nor do i want to go down the rabbit hole of “what fucked up shit has she done in the past decade” or whatever the hell it is that makes people despise her so much. am i lazy? am i willfully ignorant? or am i making the wise choice to avoid potentially meaningless and petty discourse?

i don’t know why this is so stressful. i don’t know what’s wrong with me

#hazbin hotel #rant #personal rant #i just want to like this show #i don’t want any of the fucking baggage of whatever it is viv’s done #i want to like it without feeling like i’m doing a great disservice to mankind #reminds me of this artist i follow and im in his discord server and whenever i said something pertaining to media or some controversial #topic i’d be scared out of my fucking mind cause i thought he’d just rail on me for how stupid i might sound #i think he was just tired and done with everybody’s shit #so not really his fault #still felt bad tho #there’s a genocide in palestine and i’m talking about this #i’m so stupid