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freeman's mind notes part two, e6-e10.5. under cut, long. formatting is different this time. will carry on in this way.
e6
"safety's off" sir. Sir you've just said it was a Glock. You fool. You absolute buffoon.
"clip" IT IS A MAGAZINE
I cannot respect a man who watches Die Hard this much. I just can't.
love how he reacts to the houndeye teleporting in. Flat "No."
mimics houndeye noise :>
heard Gman movin around on the catwalk above
electricity doesn't do a ton to him this first go around but does hurt and seems to paralyze him for a moment. Muscles seizing and all that
rescinds his disdain for everyone who died. Admits it's a bit difficult to live under the circumstances
"white men in armoured hazmat suits can't jump" SIR
[underwater mumbling] sounds pretty damn frantic. Genuine fear of dying by his own hand. I'd wager he thinks he's the only one that could do it.
bounces back quickly!
just goes and shoves some words together. For fun!
dislikes the ammo being covered in blood. Considers leaving it behind because if that
impacts still hurt. High impact reactive armour this is Not
e7
simian instincts strike again
has seen star trek
"maybe i should've been a bug" well I can study you like one. How's that sound
Kafka's Metamorphosis mention! It's Gregor Samsa that actually turns into a bug though, so. May not have read it.
knows who Shiva is! Not sure of her origin but she does show up in ff7, which is within his range to know about
bullsquid acid tastes like dead caterpillar
yog'sothoth :>
held his mouth open in the canal. Dude.
mouth cancer...
hates puns.
Black Mesa gets money from the dept. of defense
slur count one
is this hl source? Do the crates sway in the ported version?
correctly figures out the useless crate pit room
hates elevator music
e8
audio inconsistent :(
bug murder D: I love bugs.
shouting and breaking stuff in grad school did not help him
says grody. Like a loser.
threatens a man's life again. Doesn't seem to mean it.
calms down easily enough by breakin things
wants to blow up the building. He won't know it but it will be. Your will be honored, sir
came home to a guy impaled on his window's insulated glass. Explained that to the police.
"kind of like glass in a way" fragile and lacking a smell? got it
"GYAHH" high pitched scream!
has been hit by many tasers over dates.
pepper spray is worse.
first instance of sonic damage (gun in air vent)
some guy named Jessie would electrocute himself on his bed and end up paralyzed for an hour for fun. Sounds fun tbh
Steve Irwin... Rest in peace and let's kill all sting rays now
does ask a cowering scientist if he's okay
somehow doesn't see the shotgun in plain sight waiting for him
doesn't always know when he's thinking out loud
e9
peppered steak just like OFF
visibly contemplates shooting a regular bug
actively admits he was considering cannibalism. I can get behind that. Cannibalism win.
"pew!!"
roleplays as a teacher who hits kids with crowbars
wants to be a medieval knight so bad
no vent sharks for us! fan blades instead
afraid of muppets
has whistled Twice now
has seen Jurassic Park.
wishes he could shoot electricity through his hands
has probably seen James Bond
already theorizing about Xens makeup
more bothered by a barnacles death coating him in blood and potentially jamming his gun than being choked
shot in the ear :>
whistles in time with the turret. Echolalia real
doesn't want to look gay. Too late. Even if we assume base Freeman model he does have a ponytail.
slur count two.
HEADCRAB SLAUGHTER PARTY
sounds like he likes coffee and doughnuts
e10
starts off with silly noises and repeating the word "coffee" on loop
Chainsaw noise with his mouth
jason vorhees wannabe
would love to spread bloodborne diseases via hug
has a collection that a human skull would fit right in with. Bones in general? Skulls in general? Human skulls? Doesn't matter, Eddie mention! As of him getting more skulls in cheap.
wants his funeral to be full of explosives and planes
he is not a gerbil.
feels he's only sure of his actions when killing things
watches Jackie Chan movies
and the Addams Family!
gman sighting.
thinks the guy diving through the window is cool. compares him to his own grandfather? neat!
unlike stark can do a pull-up in his suit
cannot break the vending machine glass. has change on him, though. Dorito time.
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freeman's mind notes part 13, e61-68, plus 61.5. Finale.
e61
new intro! The dam.
HATES the giant teleporter room.
doesn't know the makeup of the HEV suit.
it's been a long time since he overprepared!
so so bothered by radiation always
almost trips and falls into the reactor core
keeps hitting buttons without thinking about it
sufficiently advanced technology quote. Claims it doesn't rule OUT magic
"if I start to die, then I'll stop"
shocked some doors arent locked
doesn't tolerate tardiness outside of his own, but doesn't mind sleeping on the job
genuinely thinks the teleporters may be magic
prepared to fight an old man
i hesitate to inform freeman the origins of the term "aspergers"
missed the long jump module <3
I love how he makes little motions as if he's taking the rocket out of the launcher
still refuses to touch the hivehand. I don't blame him it looks painful
picks up the Gauss Gun! Doesn't know its name
wants to get teleported to Massachusetts.
thinks he could get along with clones of himself. There's utility in that.
asking after a snack machine.
just needs to reach Massachusetts.
needs a plan to unite himselves if he gets clones of himself. Plans to leave contact info where the gold is.
BACKRUBS (shephard's mind cameo!)
e61.5
screams and falls into some water. silly noises
Not in new mexico anymore!
SO happy that his worst problem at the moment is Lost In The Woods
still hungry but he is in a forest
his sense of the passage of time is awful
thinks he may be in Europe
CAR FOR GORDON
crackliest laugh I've ever heard
turns on some silly music on the radio
e62
we're in Xen, everyone
"I TOLD THEM EXACTLY WHAT TO DO AND THEY FUCKED ME"
[whimpering]
hyperventilating so much right now. Sooooo panicked
not taking a survey team members helmet (germs on it)
"BLAH"
actively states that he might "blow [his] brains out"
keeps making noises every time he jumps from spinning platform to spinning platform
totally not freaking out
interested in how gravity and atmosphere work on what seems to be a single giant rock
wonders how many people Black Mesa dumped into Xen
the dead houndeyes jump around as they die
thinks a plant stole a piece of his soul. Considers it not worth it to get it back
lots of water! prepared to live in this one room if anything is edible
this flooded room isnt the worst apartment he's ever had
he's pretty sure he can't eat rhombuses
gets near-blinded and considers this the Second worst apartment he's ever had
e63
new intro, the gargantuar killing those two HECU
incredibly pessimistic about the survey team
thinks he can kill the gonarch easily
screams that he's freaking out, yells at the gonarch to die, mimics the gonarchs cry
white spiderweb hell milk
these are some crusty noises he's making they're kinda cute
thinks hundreds of researchers may have been dumped into Xen and a lot of them just. Missed land.
prioritizing explosives with the gonarch
having rockets brings him closet to his comfort zone
fully expects the trip to Xen to be one-way. Keeps working on the task given to him anyways
thinks he would not make a good ambassador
thinks he may be fighting god
"BLAH-"
actively screaming at and trying to kill supposedly-god
a wise man once said jesus tapdancing christ
thinks instead of being teleported reality was mostly destroyed and the remainder just got a bit weird. Rescinds that.
hits his head on the ceiling twice. He's out of it today.
would beat the shit out of the scientists that sent him to Xen if they brought him back
fizzly teleporter :>
e64
we open with a NOISE
he's confused and bothered by how much is happening right now
"THUD."
the rotating platforms-dactar island is slightly better than the gonarch one
declares himself a zoning inspector
explodes the weird pits in the island
thinks the island's ecosystem is neat.
"I'm a scientist with a shotgun. I'm unstoppable." Immediately cowers away from a weird plant
considering living in this cave as well
thinks he would've worked at Black Mesa even knowing this was the future. It is studying his field. I suppose he values the company greatly.
wondering how the gonarch managed to eat at its size
[coughing sputtering spitting] YEAHHHHH
bullsquid gunk in his mouth :(
wants to put a stick against the rising/sinking pillar and make a funny noise.
envisioning his own horrible death at every turn
does NOT like being this high up. Got his panic voice on
he's prepared to adjust his expectations to make an awful situation less terrible in comparison to other awful situations. Or equally bad!
"it's glowing. That means it must be important."
so good with his magnum aim here. Admits he may not be able to claim skill here, its just THAT good. Must be fate.
still wondering about the gonarchs diet
e65
"if you're not insane you're just ignorant."
very concerned about how all the survey team died
impressed at the dual stars of Xen but the sky is clearly mirrored. I think there's a plane of gasses the islands float in.
he wouldn't expect him here
happy with the gauss gun
theorizes the alien grunts are nearsighted
AMAZED some aliens aren't trying to attack him. Tells them theyre doing everything right for someone who wants to live.
gets his foot stuck in some rock :(
earth does indeed kick ass compared to here
MORE ROCKETSSSS
not happy to be here but sure he can make something of the place.
pretty sure the gargantuars are idiots
still not a bug fan. Cringe.
realizes he hasn't been using the tripmines. Makes em work
oh this is such a fun noise. Subtitled as "BLAAHHHBLAHHBLAAAH!"
yeah he just hates this and expects the teleporter to send him to beeroom
e66
new intro! We... Are in Xen.
makes bee noise as he lands!
still delighted at the vortigaunts being nonchalant about him. Would've assumed they worked at Black Mesa if they'd been this calm there.
climbs up a layer of the factory by climbing on a vortigaunt's head. No issues arise
keeps hearing weird noises
impressed by the industry of the healing tubes
clocks the factory as manufacturing or processing.
ripe for colonization.... Gordon.....
hits a forcefield and just starts making blubbering noises
recovers, deep breaths
he is NOT a barrel he never WANTED to be a barrel
HOT WATER WHERE ARE HIS TOWELS
the barrels are not full of laundry detergent
he thinks company policy should just be to run away when they see him
specbio fan :>
very confused about the technological development of the aliens
"SHIT POPPERS"
wonders if growing soldiers is more efficient than making bees
basically every hit he takes is punctuated with an "ah!"
cannot climb that barrel
has seen Phantasm
mind your ableism
big screen tv on the wall :> wants to watch alien tv
e67
talks as if he doesn't like tvs you can't operate without the remote.
doesn't like the red spores in the vents
still hoping Xen illnesses won't know how to adapt to humans
compares Xen to a living creature
metaphorically in the pit
impressed at how much effort it took to put him in a nigh-unwinnable scenario
"aliens... Come out to play~" x3
thinks the scientists don't care about anyone who got sent to Xen
dizzy again :(
surrounded by electricity and plasma and he isn't even slightly dizzy
he's got so little food in him he wouldn't be able to vomit. Just dry heave
thinks very poorly of the Xenians
thinks killing a major religious figure would make them largely subservient to him or demoralize them
thinks wearing someone's head around your neck sends a universal message
knows how many people died in the space program
knows tricks to deal with dizziness or reduce it
familiar with Dr. Who
only willing to teleport once more
infinite black void. Thick cloud or cavern, he thinks.
funny noises as he jumps around the rocks
thinks the Nihilianth teleporter is "heavy metal"
hears the science team talking over the big ol radio teleporter
breathing hard as he falls into the Nihilianth room, screams the moment it's done saying his name
e68, Finale
New intro. We close in on the tram in stasis.
familiar with Lovecraft's works.
none of this situation is going well for him he's just panicking constantly
thinks reality is breaking down more the longer he's alive
thinks the security guard advertisements are to send random people into Xen
seeing him using the grenade rounds on the Nihilianth before breaking the crystals,, painful
tells the crystals to stop helping his adversary
treats his scavenging like making all these deaths worthwhile
he's the low-g man :)
a final bit of underwater mumbling....
the electricity is WORSE when he's wet. Sounds outright painful
once more he does not know Morse
wants to use this room as a low gravity basketball court
stuck his palm to the ceiling. Neat stuff.
yeah this gravity is too low to support an atmosphere...
downright cheery about killing the Nihilianth now. I think he's in shock.
swan dive purgatory :/
he doesn't know what the gauss gun is but it is VERY expensive
wants to become god now??
checks himself when Gman mentions taking his weapons
does not like the teleportation tour
thinks Gman is from the CIA
he wants a pardon if he's to work for the CIA. Wants lab work in Hawai'i
he's done being shot at.
thinks Gman is a time lord
doesn't respond to anything after entering the portal.
AND ALTERNATIVE TIMELINE
refuses to work for Gman.
wants the space tram to turn around and bring him back to earth
not sure where he is! It's bad though! He dies!
Alright! It's been an eventful series! I'll say that I started this expecting to slowly work my way through and be clinical the whole time, but... Well. He started making silly noises. I genuinely find him kind of adorable now, and have far more serious thoughts about him than I anticipated. He's a deeply unserious person. He's incredibly stressed by everything going on. He doesn't like killing people. He sustains a fair bit of head trauma. HE HASN'T EATEN ANYTHING SINCE THOSE BAD DORITOS. It really does stand out to me that being well-fed is such a motivator of his all series. He really is horribly hungry. Anyways. It's been a pleasure doing this, and I'll absolutely being doing more notes on other Mindverse series in short order. Stark's Mind is up next.
#freeman's mind#gordon freemind#mindverse#rmanotes#anddddd a few further notes on the series as a whole and my final thoughts at the very end
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freeman's mind notes part 12, e56-60
e56
"ngyah."
believes Murphy's law is out to get him
ROCKET LAUNCHER POG
willing to drink reactor coolant water. Tbh it is clean.
silly Freeman. These aren't Shock Troopers
thinks honor in fights is a useless or detrimental thing.
dodges barnacle meat
more guns, less madness
so upset he's right about everything. Wishes his conclusion about the reactor melting down was incorrect
thinks he's the only person with enough urgency in the situation
screams at the possible murderer guard
oh I know where we are :>
out of 9mm ammo!
"YOU WEREN'T THERE AND NOW YOU'RE REAL. THIS IS INNSBRUCK ALL OVER AGAIN." now what does This imply? ghosts? more drugs than usual?
his hallucinations shoot back at him, he claims
e57
keeps worrying about the building collapsing on him
MORPHINE
immediately gets it in him. uh. where?? Did he inject that?
underwater mumbling :)
talks about the morphine as him needing that. well I'm sure he's in a lot of pain
"it's flooded! I'm a hero!"
running panicking yelling
hit by the electricity and just kind of flinches and yells
hasn't felt this good since he thought he was going to leave Black Mesa
he generally just seems a lot calmer and less inclined to putting together complex thought right now
repeating himself a tad
worried about an overdose if he takes more morphine
talks to a crate
more morphine anyways.
HEV SUIT VOICE HEV MY LOVE
gman sighting :D
ceases to be drowsy upon getting shot at
"we've got enough monsters for at least nine weeks"
"I was meant to turn this"
buttons! :D taps a ton of buttons
considers cold fusion a bad joke
thinks the portals are trying to read his mind
thinks the metric for not taking too much morphine is He's Still Walking
sir why are you asking some guy if he's an oracle
favourite dirty harry movie is the one where he kills some giant tentacle monster
wants to skip down the hallway
got a BEE in his Mouth
upset that alien blood made the hallway all dirty. He wanted to roll around in it before, when it was clean. Not now.
"bah >:("
now convinced the teleporters are holograms
thinks he's impressed by the hellportalroom because he's high
hes going to test his theory like a true scientist (on drugs)
plays with the portal output and walks into the portal input and cuts out immediately
e58
new intro, residue processing outside segment
thinks he just lost memory and that explains why he's suddenly somewhere else
BARELY avoids getting impaled on some falling metal
knows Mr. T's catchphrase :)
"I'm *Gordon. I can do both your jobs."
Eddie can't do makeup for shit. This does mean he's let Eddie do stuff to him, or watched, at least
thinks sugar is functionally the same as food
does not drink the soda.
can't decide if he'd rather have food or more bullets but doesn't want to eat headcrab rn
points his rocket launcher at a guard
hates when he's made to kill his target and him both
fully thinks there's not going to be any survivors of Black Mesa. Presumably including himself
cheers at explosions :3
thinks surprises where people end up dead are the biggest ones.
thanks a corpse for giving him more bullets
can't be sure if HECU talking are just voices in his head or real
has only now noticed he's outside
"ahhhhh. Ah."
loses track of what he's doing in the middle of doing it. Stands there for a moment.
correctly predicts the black ops actions
wishes he had a walkie talkie to decoy soldiers towards his voice
he has the power of chemistry (being very drugged) on his side
burning alien smells better than he thought it would
spacing out CONSTANTLY
return of the door opening ghost!
clickyclickclickclick
no longer trusts the ghost
a ghost mildly harassing him, giving bad advice, is something he's not as prepared for as people attacking him
thinks he can lift a giant concrete slab
e59
can't lift the concrete
wishes the HEV suit had pneumatic jacks
sneezes!
doesn't want a dying man to touch him
the weird yowling is back
doesn't like performing dance of the Geiger counter
delighted to see a soldier getting eaten by a barnacle
doesn't like that zombies are getting smart
flash of green?
thought he heard someone green.
aware he has head trauma. Thinks he may have synesthesia
if he thought he could pull it off he'd put a zombie in his HEV and let the military kill it
Slur count: Seven.
he's seeing the stupidest soldiers, he thinks
wants to publish a research paper about musics effects on soldiers in active warzones
sounds a bit more lucid right now I think?
has never seen anyone in Black Mesa die from carbon monoxide poisoning. This is not true of every job he's held.
kills space rancher's alien pets :(
loud elevator music...
didn't get to see how his unethical experiments on his coworkers went because of the rescas
lets a guy live because he cowers appropriately
green flash two...
does try to rescue a half headcrabbed guy
he's aware he's going to remember certain worse parts of these days more than others
chuggachuggachuggachuggachuggachugga
suddenly loud and violent
"no, this isn't working! let's do it some more!"
giant aliens are determined to fuck him any way they can he says
goes to his death kicking and screaming. green flash three.
e60
gets back and immediately shoots a single scientist. Conveniently the same guy Martinis kills on accident
thinks he's been summoned like a demon
referring to himself as The Freeman again
TELEPORTATION POG
he is dizzy from awful rotating teleporter room
wonders how the teleporter works. Thinks he may be making clones of himself and dying on loop whenever he enters the portal
"making sacrifices for the greater Gordon"
pronounces calliope as an american would
doesn't feel any air displacement with the teleporter. That's. Actually really interesting
oh hey that was gmans miniature sun
didn't notice the numbering on the portals
food still on the mind
wonders about the redundancy of teleporter testing bullshit
yells as he falls a great distance. Clocks that momentum isn't preserved when going through portals. that's so cool.
unimpressed at vortigaunt teleportation now that he can also teleport
episode cuts off as he enters a portal
#freeman's mind#gordon freemind#mindverse#rmanotes#this has the morphine episode btw#he's so interesting in that one if i may note things after the fact#he genuinely seems just. calm. he's been incredibly stressed all series and this is basically the first time since before the rescas#that he HASN'T seemed to be on the verge of a breakdown (even the rocket launcher only did so much for a couple minutes)#get this man out of black mesa and in front of a documentary i swear#he needs somewhere with nothing important or dangerous going on so badly#please.
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freeman's mind notes part 11, e51-55
e51
rock dust = health hazard. No naps here
finds the idea of breathing ether good
wonders if he can delete his employee status at Black Mesa
thinks in 205X Walmart will have turret guns in the parking lots. To deter shoplifters
perpetually bothered by the incompetence of others
chess does NOT prepare you for being surrounded
compares himself to a knight in a chess metaphor
hes STILL hungry
the plantweb around the snark balls is gross
thinks he's probably safe from alien viruses because they're just that unfamiliar with human bodies
thinks the snarks are imprinting on him
would not make a good babysitter
his first impulse to seeing kids run around is to throw nonlethal things at them
he was firing a BIT faster than reenactors with muskets. They fire once a minute. Twice if they're really fast. It's pretty impressive ngl
finds alien grunts' armour impractical and stripper-like
"yay!"
wants to use the snarks for animal fights
slime mold IS valuable excuse you
threatening the aliens with not giving them fungus
still scared they'll teleport inside him
isn't happy he's functioning with the force of an entire army. It sounds cool but he has to do EVERYTHING or DIE
"peekaboo"
STILL searching for a map
ponders eating the aliens and his only concern is how to cook them
e52
thinks the military should give out a psa for gun owners to shoot aliens in black mesa
underwater mumbling my beloved
bleugh,,
snarks? no. Popcorn bugs
has apparently forgotten the mechanics of the turrets
the illusion of free choice (westward tunnel - westward tunnel)
wouldn't be surprised to find he's been walking the longest possible route around the facility
pretty sure the icthyosaurs have been on earth longer than the rescas
he's that "hold it buddy! you lost your chance!" meme rn
yells WORMS
"bah."
THE WORMS. WHAT NOISES ARE THESE
he doesn't drink THAT much that's what the pills are for
very tired of his explosives not doing all they should
fun fact actually being underwater when an explosion goes off is worse than being on top of the water even if it's closer. That'll collapse your organs with the shockwave
"GAAAAAH."
will take any opportunity to use his rocket launcher
"a lesser man might keep moving blindly, but I am a man of vision and I have seen more rockets . . . Now I can keep moving blindly."
thinks the guard job must be boring without him to spice things up
stutters out a tune similar to march of the gladiators
thinks an elevator is a trap. Walks in after considering this
robots won't take over the world but he thinks others wish they would. Also their battery life is bad
e53
starts the episode by singing poorly
the elevator WAS a trap this is a radioactive roach motel
admits he's scared. the radiation freaks him out so badly
funny noises :3
through the power of hypnotic suggestion and a tank
okay I will be frank he has just gotten gradually more unhinged over time but it really did ramp up after the ambush
mimics Xen turret noise
THIS is why he's such a good theoretical physicist. He solves problems that shouldn't exist
not familiar with media involving aliens invading that are just kind of stupid. Show him Invader Zim right now
watched a documentary of Chernobyl. Remembers it decently. Annoyed the headcrabs are distracting him from it
got SLIMED
we should drop stray dogs and badgers into a warzone.
thinks humans are better at invasions than xenians. We do have practice
thinking about not having a tank depresses him
e54
new intro! room adjacent to the rocket launch room. wikipedia room.
engineering are pretty extremist folks
NINJAS. Occam's shuriken. When the answer is elusive the answer is ninjas
ninjas understanding quantum mechanics was a controversial part of freeman's dissertation
"you can never prove the absence of ninjas, only their direct presence" i say this so often
the ninjas from yesterday were hazy in his memory
can't even be sure if the ninjas he's shot are actually dead
confused at why the lights are still on when the ninjas have night vision goggles
he's sure ninjas will be his death. wouldn't be surprised.
wants to nuke the place as soon as he's out
door opens. He goes to explode whoevers behind it immediately
doesnt want to do shit for others rn
gluon gun,, hey would Gordon call the gauss gun it's proper name or "Tau cannon"? He's subversive. He'd like the syllable of "gauss"
blood on his suit and it isn't coming off :(
abandons some scientist to his own shenanigans
e55
checks to see if anything followed him down the elevator
Loves the gluon gun
blue energy is superior to green energy and beams
considers Black Mesa a redundant bit of nonsense so that no one person knows all of what's going on
listens to the VOX
deduces a guard killed another human. Keep up that everyone wants you dead thing
thinks some people thrive in chaos a bit too much. Sir you're like that too.
"I needed a reason?"
drops the gluon gun due to weight/ammo consumption concerns
the constant metal groaning noises bother him so much
groans at the vortigaunt almost teleporting inside him
hates the references to dimensions. Wants accurate terminology.
I do not know who Buckaroo Banzai is
[growls]
the concrete dust REMAINS a breathing hazard
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freeman's mind notes part 10, e46-50
e46
if he was hardcore... But you said TWO EPISODES AGO that you were
he doesn't mind too much that his new job seems to be killing people
mocks the xenians about earth gravity
thinks in the south, particularly florida and louisiana, you shoot at rescue helicopters to signal them. Well. i can't say anything to the contrary.
minefield >:[
tries to open ANOTHER giant metal door
haven't bombed this place enough? Well, no!
squirrel on the roof could be payback,,,
yells as he almost slips on the stairs
"this must be how old people feel about stairs..." and me! Stairs are a MENACE and a HAZARD TO SOCIETY. what is wrong with RAMPS, HUH?
we hear a sniper round impact the HEV suit
tries to pry open another large metal rolling door
"GRRAAAHHHHHHGHHHH"
not yet shot enough to take off all the orange paint
almost walks into a tripmine in plain sight. He's getting tired.
talks about snipers the way some people discuss clown husbandry
climbs on around this bullshit
figures out Xen's lower gravity
are there coyotes in new mexico? uh. probably
he thinks we'd be better at math and subsequently further along in technology if we had more fingers. I'd agree with that
MAYBE killing scared unarmed people doesn't make him the good guy
asks after a random guys finger amount
e47
he is not going to wait in this room
thinks things are just going to get worse forever
dumbfounded that this guy is afraid of a couple tripmines
either made vaguely uneasy by clowns or expects the other scientist to be afraid of em
doesn't notice the rockets as he shoots the headcrabs
sneezes :(
yeah he's realizing what's up with the rockets now. Doesn't seem too afraid though
checks a body for money. Admits the soldiers would have taken any
thinks a platform might have spikes that come out of it. Jumps onto it, wondering if he can trigger it. Sir.
considers the spike platform may be for an abattoir
squeezes on by some bars and onto the elevator
hivehand looks awful. He shoots it. No hivehand.
"BLAHHHHHHH."
surprisingly DOESN'T shoot at someone that runs towards him
"friends are like weeds that scream"
just wants a VEHICLE
always meant to learn how to hotwire a car
sobs when stuff starts shooting at him unexpectedly
the tank is NOT supposed to be here
its CLEARLY rocket launcher time
hes never joining the military
e48
new intro! a portion of On A Rail.
sobs as the tank shoots at him
"TELL REALITY TO STOP CHEATING"
grappling hook mention
boops out entry of the gladiators
ANOTHER sniper
yells at the soldiers that there's a sniper outside
can't turn off the radio. Smashes it.
he wouldn't make a good surgeon.
he likes when people call him "sir." I'd forgotten about that I just feel like being polite when I address his more insane notions.
Eddie mention! This time to sell the contents of that giant room full of ordinance
"this might be a warzone but theres money to be made here" war profiteer
can Eddie even handle this many guns? He'll sure try. He gets a sparkle in his eye. Same one he had before going to Panama. That turned out! A way!
if he knew where he were going a few hundred people would be alive rn
he's always wanted a Crown Victoria from a police auction. Drive it around with the stripes, put some fake blood on the hood...
does seem reasonably friendly towards that one guard for a bit. Not enough to wait for him but enough to be almost nice
"nee!"
"hoop bup pah!"
admits he's kind of dropped the kill everyone policy he had
he wants to train a chimp on karate to attack everyone but him
man this guy just LOVES roleplaying as Respectable Professions (Meant To Be Here optional)
shoots the guard on accident. Feels a bit bad but mostly just angry
e49
thinks soldiers are less likely to change history than any random people
...okay he can bust down large doors. Okay.
"I'M NOT ALLERGIC TO BEES, ASSHOLE" sentence you do not hear often
just taking so much electricity to the face. Yelps every time he does
wants to hook up the vortigaunts to a generator
screams when the trampoline bounces him up. does a weird little whine immediately afterwards
the last time he was juggled in the air did NOT go well
"everybody wins! :D especially me"
kills SO many snarks and avoids the nests
fucking love how he rambles when panicking
he had to deal with people shooting at him in ventilation shafts in high school
gasps multiple times when grenades are launched at him
walks right on by a battle when it doesn't affect him directly
shotgun chess! Kill them in the right order or else
doesn't really like chess because some guy can memorize board positions and guess what you'll do
DOES like memorizing chemical bonds
decides he wants the aliens to win these fights
"thank you, oh dark ones, i pay homage"
deeply panicked about the explosive-small pipe situation. Doesn't want to think that ambush is tbe only use of that pipe
just glad no puns were made
e50
likes that being stuck in this tube more than other places because it's not immediately deadly
ghost noises
he's a ghost with a shotgun!
I'm pretty sure he believes in ghosts and thinks he owes them murder now. He likes having ghosts on his side
"in the shining they let him out to kill his family but that doesn't really apply to me"
he's getting a bit silly with the ghost thing
wonders briefly if HE'S a ghost
random guard gets to join the Freeman Fan Club because the ghosts do not order his death
ITS ANOTHER LOBSTER
as always the bouncepads don't work well
jaunty "sir yes sir" to the military radio calling in
hes got time for exploding shit. He'll make time.
less communication is the best communication
very good at aiming the airstrikes
would love an airstrike map for the whole world
glad the military is going to leave him alone now
the HEV doesn't do shit against 50 tons of rock
#KHEKSHFH FELIXBINDLE IS HERE#the little blue guy (sopping wet) is felix freeman#gordon's brother from felix's mind#freeman's mind#gordon freemind#mindverse#OH YES :felixbindle: was made by the excellent artist Prinnamon#as seen on tumblr#CORRECTION: felixbindle failed to show up upon posting to my great dismay#hes adorable. check out prinnamon anyways#rmanotes
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freeman's mind notes pt8, e36-40 (plus secret e0)
e36
delighted to put his hands on a gun again even if there's blood on it
he wants more things to shoot
doesn't think he's fired a gun before (second assertion of this fact) but it does feel familiar
has had a reoccurring dream of being Snoop Dogg
thinks the barnacles were made by the biology department
someone in Biology named Heather than Gordon tries to hit on sometimes. She is supposedly stone cold
calls himself The Freeman again
everyone was proud of the pollen that killed people
"goat cheese massacre"
return of the Fall Damage. Bemoans the lack of shock absorbers and drugs
confused at why he's wearing the HEV suit
vaguely remembers the ResCas proper
would not drink neon hi c ecto cooler
he doesn't like liars
black mesa is NOT a tourist trap
he is right tbh. Trespassers literally do have rights. You're supposed to make any unreasonable dangers clear and obvious. Warn with signage or some shit
aims to think like a squirrel that has anger problems
the nation of Freeman
yeah this sequence of events is normal and leads to promotions
e37
had some job interviews in grad school. Never knew how to answer their questions
thinks of the building as alive AGAIN
oh hey we're in the part of the facility that Physics of the Crowbar did astoundingly well
gotta avoid the blood shower :(
this gunk BETTER not get in his hair
he doesn't want to smell like mcdonalds
GROWLS
meat chunks in his hairrrrrrr
he no longer likes orange
he's 80% sure cheetos aren't made like this
undertow fuckin with him
his values have sunk since he woke up
prepared for when he gets Alzheimer's. He'll escape room his way out of the retirement home easy
wants a sword cane when he's old
you just shot a SNOT MONSTER, sir.
he remembers everything? (he does not) (he thinks the string theory crowd got into AnMat)
plans to sell the satchel charges to Eddie
yes the magnum does grant godlike ego
he isn't an optimist
this is NOT a democracy he has a GUN
"BLAH!!!"
freeman have you butchered animals before or
would love to land in a ballpit
naptime :>
bat JUMPSCARE he CANCELLED THE CREDITS. SHOCK. AWE.
e0
new intro. Tram ride to some vending machines.
attempts to flirt with the hazard course hologram
doesn't comment on the HEV suit's voice this time!
he's not coming back to the hazard course
only getting HEV suit training because he's capable of physical activity
derides the game-based language of the tutorial
"hup! hoo! hah!"
i WISH there was rubber padding around the knees of the suit
fatphobia,,
he always wanted to be a hamster man
finds the long jump module cool
"nreeeeeeoooow"
could press buttons all day!
Slur count: five.
e38
back to cafeteria intro
he can't sleep :(
HATES the room's vibes
self hypnotizes again. Lmao
TANK OF ACID! SUPERB!
he is a CAT
his faux-southern accent sucks so bad. hillbilly but worse
no come on you can dodge an incinerator
liked the Addams Family. Identified with the Thing, he says.
concrete corridor agnostic
double dead end!
he feels like strangling something.
feels like he wouldn't mind the nickname Dr. Stranglelove
growls again
backup backup gun dependency does rely on state yeah
he wanted a banana milkshake
he's talkin specbio,,,
he remembers lasers are BAD
limbos on by that awful tripmine
"BLLLAAAAAAHHHHHHH"
e39
[incoherent raging] followed by "wait! I have satchel charges!"
deeply comforted by having this amount of explosives. Wants to draw a smiley face on one
welllll the radiation sign is a bit off the requirement but that's a half life note not a freeman's mind note. He should know though
claims his geiger counter is trendy and fashionable
we have reached the non OSHA compliant location
he is clearly being sarcastic here but he does talk about seeing what was probably a mall santa
jello knees..... He's in painnnnn
this isn't even a SPA
he feels like he's in a sub in the cramped metal halls
back to the classroom analogy
it IS the amps that kill you yessirre
part of the opposable thumbs club!
takes the time to study the trapped alien grunt. Says it could get a management job
he hates biolabs :(
goes through the Atom Experience
incoherent babbling
he Remembers that everyone wants him dead. Shoots a probably innocent guard
now plans to kill the whole world
he's a gun farmer :>
usually when stuff goes long he concludes that everyone wants him dead
he's honestly a little relieved that he doesn't have to guess if people want him dead or not
doesn't recognize the vox
GRAPPLING HOOK MENTION
e40
new intro, shotgun-elevator shaft
the eternal issue of understaffing: doing weird bullshit always
"superbus" w/e well superbia is pride so I'd imagine this is "greatness" followed by whatever words he isn't reading
he isn't reading them because he doesn't know latin
human body staircase,,
door conspiracy!
actually thinks before he pushes a button
"woah-hoho-oh..."
hiccups :(
he gets really nervous after killing people
oh the subtitles have suddenly cut out
his normal work was in quantum mechanics and general relativity
stumbles over his saying "I don't know"
"there's no actual right to privacy but it's implied by the rest of the constitution. And this gun,"
prototype cheese slicer or pita cutter- you decide
HE CAN'T HELP ANYONE IF THEY'RE NOT CALM
RELAX AND FOLLOW THE SOUND OF HIS VOICE
back to hitting any button he sees
he is never going to ask for yellow space maggots jumping at his face
a list of things that makes freeman happy: lasers, food, painkillers, bed rest, not being persecuted, getting his life back on track. Lasers may be listed first here but it is below the rest of these
avoids the gauss gun
seeing body parts lying around used to bother him
wants to sprinkle cloned body parts lying places and tape people finding em
big laser? Badass.
gonna shoot down a satellite with that baby
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freeman's mind notes part 3, e11-15.
e11
would derail the alien attack to call about bad chips
"I GUESS I'LL HAVE TO TAKE THE ELEVATOR." pit.
has seen Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
wants a grappling hook foe swinging/climbing purposes
admits he keeps doing stupid things. Love a man with self awareness
has a passing understanding of spiderman
does Not try to save the guy in the elevator shaft
has seen willy wonka and the chocolate factory
whistling count three
would love to scare people by crashing through the roof
doesn't feel like climbing anymore! Gasp!
willing to touch a possible death laser. Seems only mildly confused when it doesn't hurt
turret bullets are worse than paintballs
breaks alarm clocks
up to 800 problems a minute solvable with dead man's gun
limbo... TWO
Admires the HEV suit construction
his roommate in college used to intrude on his half of the room. Implies he'd have liked to kill him
"hope, love, and submachine guns"
Tarzan yell :> simian instincts yet to subside
finds the turrets redundant
does a silly lil jump on the slippery floor
no longer cares about the donuts
e12
does at least know the origin of zombies
gman sighting.
willing to own an undead servant
though i can't recognize it by sound alone, I can only assume the language he speaks here is Haitian Creole.
wishes he couldn't care about living or dying
Slur count: three.
wants other people to die for him
fully expects the HECU to pin the blame for the murder on the victim
given the way gordon frequently runs his mouth when scared he genuinely does seem scared here. He was all set to have a rescue team, and now he's left hanging. Ground swept out from under him!
rambles about how he definitely isn't going to think about having killed a guy
stresses to the soldiers that he has a DOCTOR'S DEGREE
limbo mention
seems somewhat bothered by murdering people. Only somewhat but he clearly isn't just brushing it off immediately
climbs some stuff :>
delighted to find surface access
ah yeah the law he references about murder being legal in texas under absurd circumstances? No clue about that. Cool though if at all true
e13
plans to get drunk that night. This of course does not happen
implies he gets drunk every night
...you can't tell people you're on their side by killing them, Gordon
"I JUST WANT TO GO HOME" i getcha, buddy
keeps saying inane things when panicking
"Ehhh," nervous lil noise
repeats "fast climb" or "climb fast" until they blur into each other
just wants to LEAVE
detours to kill another bug. With bullets this time.
saga of impact damage continues
first generation morlok... Says he'll hold off on the cannibalism until the vending machines run dry. Cannibalism lose
thinks you really can't have too many guns
bugged by making the proper choices leading to more danger
FHE SYLLABLE COUNT WAS OFF MY MAN KNOWS RHYME SCHEMES. he's so smart. So snark. If you'll excuse me being a little incoherent for fun
fifteen counts of self defense with an automatic weapon. Of course.
accepts he'll have to get a new job
wants cheetos :'(
he HATES daylight savings time. It's employed by The Man.
expects to be polygraphed at another company
wouldn't mind being a corporate spy and selling out Black Mesa
wants to retire early
oh dude don't pay any mind to freud
string theory crowd includes one Steve and Richard, who may or may not be sacrificing goats, possibly for use in their cookouts. String theory crowd are cultists.
Steve and Richard have called the cops on Gordon. Rude. Probably warranted.
would LOVE to scare people in their offices from the vents. Especially to get the office for himself.
e14
gives up on dying in a hole to get food. this seems to be the only reason he leaves, because he'd get hungry. Is. Is he okay
considers putting an alligator in the air ducts
does NOT like the accusation that he's responsible for the mess
lead can't lie to you
"do you know if leptons are really compound particles?" They are Not! It's a very nerdy way of saying "No!"
"beep" as he presses a button
apologizes repeatedly to some guy he almost shoots
wants to own a water park but considers this far-fetched enough to require a wish
more guns = higher qol
cthulu dogssss makes me wanna pet em
yes the coverup is impractical that's correct. It's happening anyways
"beep beep beep" :)
likes the red lights telling him of the doom ahead
hums AGAIN. first reminds me of a shitty imperial march
he wants to build a house, have a fast elevator, servants.
happy to have a vehicle
doesn't WANT to be fighting nonstop
keeps repeating the alarm beeps
shocked at the giant radioactive PUDDLE i love to launch myself into in game
does seem unconcerned at the thought of going to the doctor. Just resigned.
e15
worst case scenario brain cancer. Cancer mentions up to two
cthulu dogs now named SNOT MONSTER
ticks off all the near death experiences he's had today. clearly thinking about em
contemplates that the spill from the trams is the same one as with the giant tubes
slaps himself TWICE. SIR.
always wished he could ride pneumatic tubes everywhere
he is a gopher! :D
doesn't think dog catchers get given shotguns. They have to bring their own.
would like to prank call a dog catcher with a SNOT MONSTER. and tape the results
knows better than to get bit by a radioactive animal
further analysis and hate on spiderman science
hates awkward pauses
laughs at sending houndeyes flying with shotgun blasts
physics still has priority over shooting stuff
doesn't want to join the military for Two (2) reasons. They'd order him around. They'd make him shave his beard.
"COMBO PLATTER" goof.
very good at hide and seek.
has never tried or wanted to kill the president
wasnt worried about missing a jump, but the catwalk collapsing as he hit it
doesn't know Morse code. Loser.
noise music hater. Incorrect.
grossed out by meat yet again
buddy your grenade won't do shit here
"that's not a rope" sick hlvra- (shot dead)
soooooooo irritated at his blood shell
wants earplugs
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freemans mind notes pt1, ep 1-5. under cut, very long.
freeman's mind e1 notes
- he's on probation with the company, could easily get fired
- didn't immediately recognize the PA voice or the tram line he was riding on
- thinks very positively of robots- has a cousin named Jessie (sex offender. unspecified crime? sodomy laws still in action at the time. very well could've just been gay)
- doesn't want to be a witness in court
- petty workplace theft!!! knows his coworkers name, Steve
e2
- talks himself through what's either anxiety or trying to go unnoticed
- forms grudges very easily
- seems very comfortable making death threats. No reaction to it, so very possible people are used to his bluster
- acts out a conversation between management for a bit, seems to have at least a passing understanding of animal biology
- does Not know his way around AnMat today, bless him
- has been to a strip club. (Or simply associates techno music with them)
- thinks it's noodles in the microwave. Maybe it's some sort of noodle casserole? The ease with which he considers an attempt at theft here implies he does this often. Just. Steals someone else's food for his breakfast.
- yes, yes. Oxycodone locker.
- doesn't wear a tie. Has made a bomb threat to his workplace over having to wear one.
- someone seems to have swapped out the stuff in his locker with someone else's.
- his HEV suit normally has a helmet, but it's missing for some reason.
- dislikes the HEV suit voice.
- "left hand turn into a chaingun" sick hlvrai reference /j
e3 (like the conference no one cares about anymore)
- ongoing saga of Doesn't Know Where To Go
- Dislikes the concrete walls
- Monday.
- always wanted to be an evil scientist.
- bad evil laugh. Not sorry.
- dislikes greeting people he doesn't know.
- seems to enjoy reading out signs in front of him. Maybe also repeating words?
- the bulbs in AnMat aren't the nice UV ray sort
- another thought about robots being universally cool by default
- will listen to people he doesn't know for a moment if they praise him
- thought an explosion was... A sniper. Underground. In a very small room with only two entrances, one of them he entered from. A genius, this one. Does correct himself, so this is a gut reaction.
- cyrex processor hater. Correct.
- knows the spinning elevator, even if he doesn't remember the rest of AnMat.
- seems to dislike being dizzy. Despite that, has ridden rides built for the express purpose of making one dizzy
- may genuinely be the only bearded employee
- has played racquetball in the AMS chamber. This is the only reason there's security there.
- likes climbing things :) wishes he had a tail
- the List mentioned!
- makes funny lil pew noises here
- became a physicist to lord over antimatter particles
- does seem mildly concerned about safety procedures for a moment. Genuinely invested in the experiment going well
- HATES string theory. Correct.
- hates when people other than him do silly words. so rude.
- just starts. Saying stuff. Running his mouth when hes panicking
- the ableism starts early (schizophrenic line)
e4
- the frog people story,, was awake for four days straight
- likely has watched star trek TOS (references Dr McCoy)
- captain gordon freeman of the intergalactic house of pancakes...
- babes in the biology department! that is actually pretty accurate, women go into wet sciences more often than they do pure math ones
- *not* a necrophiliac. thank god
- apparently has a record of computers blowing up when he uses them (karkat type beat)
- perfectly fine looting black mesa after the rescas, before he sees any aliens
- no reaction to the words "resonance cascade" aside from "Sucks."
- has seen "Alien"
- doesn't want eggs laid in his chest 😔 out of my way gayboy I'm about to get it
- multiple counts of avoiding stepping in blood
- doesn't bring weapons into the workplace
- knows no martial arts but wanted to learn for a while
- enjoys playing limbo!
- he got his first gun: the crowbar
- no real reaction to killing three people on accident. Does apologize though! Hopes they were jerks at least
e5
- has always wanted to kill people by pressing a button. The experience is underwhelming.
- all for shooting down the zombies but doesn't reason out what they are for a bit
- has seen the wizard of oz
- wants to harvest the corpses for organs
- has been arrested at least once
- thinks he still has a job at this place. lol. lmao.
- triangle shirtwaist factory mention!! I loved learning about that place. Worst workplace accident in terms of sheer amount of deaths in recorded history. It's why we've got the regulations around fire exits and some of the building regulations we do
- is at least willing to try and save the guy on the catwalk
- avoids the blood Again! Cleanliness :>
- hates computers in General
- creeped out by the zombie by the computer. Elects to leave.
- happily loots a corpse for weapons
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Stark's Mind notes! Pt1, e1-5.
e1
Before I get into the video itself, the description does carry some interesting tidbits! Going forward, they'll always be listed as such:
Desc. Vincent Stark is 24, used to work at Black Mesa, and considers that place his personal hell. Right now, he reluctantly serves as Dr. Freeman's body double.
We start with an intro beyond the "face, series name" format! Going down the tram tunnel.
He is not happy to be doing this today.
When he left Black Mesa, it had the same tram monologue as it does now.
He is late.
He jokes about hiding in the bathroom stalls for a while, then implies he genuinely did used to do that.
Knows about Freeman being on parole! How!
Tries to rationalize being late.
Concerned about the safety standards of people welding stuff
Tourists apparently enter the facility from time to time
He's getting into character as Freeman by acting like he's still part of the company
hums Military Precision
"ba donk"
Does like how the area around Black Mesa looks
a tad unnerved by the tram shaking
talks to people when they're far out of audible distance. He doesnt know why he does this.
hums Hard Fought
SO bored by the train. Narrates the dramatic lights turning on
Thinks the decathlon sounds fun. Might stick around and do that in Gordon's place. Used to get first in it :>
considers himself an "athletic superstar" even if in a joke
Some of the departments the tram passes aren't ones he's really that involved in
Doesn't want any of his relatives to work at Black Mesa
"All of the gates today have played the waiting game with me. And so far? I'm winning." Silly.
Familiar with Star Wars, but mixes up the Republic and Empire eras.
GREEN GOOP PUDDLE. OSHA INCOMING
horrified at some guy being in danger. Can't do anything about it, really, so he gives up
his freeman impression SUCKS
Knows Barney, forgot he works at Black Mesa.
nervous laughter
"Horn"? Someone! Who works at Black Mesa
doesn't know Gina Cross. :(
e2
"Subtitles by Prinnamon" PRIN IT'S YOU
Freeman impression has improved slightly
attempts to assist with the computer crash
He's coming off as awkward and not neurotic. This is blatantly not a Freeman trait
Makes a very similar joke to Gordon's about the techno hell room
Stark Also does not know his way about
The architecture is new!
Gman's stare scares him
BAD PUN ALERT
He's... Hungry. He didn't eat breakfast.... Plans to steal a casserole.
doesnt know Freeman's locker combo. Implies he used to know
no mirrors in the bathroom,,,
applies an idiom about money to toilet paper
thinks the mk.v looks better than the mk.iv. calls it the 4.5. Ugh.
wants to turn off the HEV suit voice.
does Not know what "you're in the barrel" means
Sector C is not open to visitors.
It's 2009!
He did something when he left Black Mesa that could severely put him in trouble if people find out he's here
Deeply concerned with ethics and safety in the workplace. Blames Breen for it. That's part of why he left.
Warning signs are written in blood
Knows Otis Laurey. Considers security guards far more foolish than the scientists.
knows Dr Vance
bothered by safety issues
assures Eli the issues here aren't his probably
Breen wanted to recreate the big bang
tells someone to report a safety concern
drinks coffee
glib about his lack of a helmet
fun to watch a sample be bombarded with antimatter
thinks the AMS is pretty and likes the white noise
goes from pretty happy to be working to scared for his life
Scared and Whimpering at the vortigaunts
e3
wakes up having a hard time breathing
overwhelmed, can't think clearly
IMMEDIATELY puts all the blame for the ResCas and resulting deaths on himself
sees a bloody handprint and promptly breaks down about it
he's still on the security database in Black Mesa. Has level three clearance.
constantly torn between guilt and panic
does try and run down a list of things to do in this situation
he guesses a large amount of the facility has been impacted by the ResCas
"by Schrodinger's cat! He's alive" met with an "unfortunately." HEY.
immediately clocks a headcrab as an alien
goes from somber talking to Eli to yelling panicked swearing at some lasers
states that this is Literally Hell and the headcrab zombies on fire are Literal Demons
gets MEAN when he's scared and has a target he won't feel guilty for attacking
continues to have bouts of nervous laughter
familiar with Alien
witnesses some deaths directly, the elevator crash, promptly starts blaming himself again
repeating "I did this." on loop. There are better things that don't make you feel worse to say on repeat, pal (as prinnamon once put it: vince you have got to think of a better vocal stim than "i did this" and i do hope the quote is not minded. it sticks with me always)
e4
okay yeah he's just in the middle of a panic attack and has been for multiple minutes
implies the only reason he's not curling up and waiting for death is because he still has a task at hand to perform
doesn't want to get blood on his suit
makes a little tune about wanting to have a gun
stark you will cook slowly in that metal suit of yours
admits he suffered a breakdown, claims he's not crazy yet
you are not in fact staying calm, sir. You're in shock.
not impressed by Gordon's locker
deeply snarky surrounding near-death circumstances and his panic in them being derided
doesn't really like trophy hunters
can't save someone's life and promptly blames himself for causing his death
resolves to be strong and stand his ground. Runs from a zombie immediately
immediately attached to his crowbar
fine with killing the zombies
longs for a gun
"is it not?" <3
e5
"leaks"? I think, given a later line i poorly remember, he's talking about whistleblowing
"why are you Broken are you Jokin" kdfjkjf
LAUGHS he is DELIGHTED to solve a small problem
atheist
thinks he is going to solve all issues caused today. sounds SO happy about that
keeps snapping at the zombies and headcrabs
checked a clearly dead body for a pulse. doesn't know why he did this
internal monologue fullnames himself
still looking for weapons in random crates
comes up with a nice little ditty about breaking crates
"laced with blood" is one way to describe this room
doesn't have enough upper body strength to perform a pull-up
knows gordon goes to the gym. stark, however, does not
rambling very quickly when he realizes hes in a bad situation
"i'm not in the right state of mind" for. killing zombies? when is ANYONE in the right state of mind for that
tells a double-dead zombie to stay down decompose and not reproduce
does Not want to go into the vents. vent sharks
gets choked by a barnacle. calls them something out of a bdsm fantasy
he thinks he will LOSE to vent sharks
names a barnacle david. gets goofy with it
calls a houndeye a dog :> ouppy. ham dogs!
watches The Price Is Right
still not entirely sure whether all this is real
almost tells someone he Isn't Freeman, decides he doesn't care
he says he's never used a gun before. confident he can use one anyways. fool. <3
wants to take a minute to do nothing and rest. also wants to radio the surface immediately to get help as soon as possible
tells some guy he's responsible for everything happening right now
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freeman's mind notes part 9, e41-45
e41
all lasers all the time
sees a warning sign and promptly tries to obstruct the laser
wants to reflect this very dangerous laser through a disco ball
he'd love to let the laser gradually burn a hole out of the building
gravity hates him so bad
he'd want a big room with a trampoline
insulted by some guy and promptly abandons him
MIND. PLEASE STOP BEING ABLEIST
thinks the sirens would be a good alarm clock sound
actually shows concern for a guy who's been shot
SO relieved to be outside
it looks like an anemometer but it is Not
HATES being beeped at by the turrets
thinks there may be a meteorology department
the science team makes their own explosives
has read The Art Of War
considers being exploded not a terrible way to go
"whoo hoo hoo!"
ALMOST feels like he doesn't need more stimulants today
he doesn't think his suit can stop mortar shells
e42
mentions a rocket launcher....
damned dam
ICTHYOSAUR ALERT
[gibbering]
"BOMBS BAD BAD BOMBS BAD BOMBS BAD"
just plain ol rambling in fear out here
just in love with saying "damn" and "damned" every chance he gets here. He is on a dam
still struggling to stay afloat
"underwater 'ah-hah!'" GSIIENDKD
flooding the canyon would make him feel better
air is for losers
"wahhhhh gahhhhhh"
checks a corpse for money or snacks. will Not give the man fare for Charon
growls :grins:
slur count six. It's not the r slur but hey. Variety.
needs a surface to air missile
curse of formatting :/
e43
jiving with the idea that some unnamed force wants him dead
he thinks that he was MEANT to die in the test chamber but since he didn't (due to being "hardcore") reality is slowly unravelling. I just played a Friendsim route where this was a plot point.
he concludes that this makes him the most important person in the universe
gordon freeman has become Based (thinks there is too much money funneled into the military)
says an incorrect plural of "cactus" and corrects himself
this is subtitled as [screaming] but it's more of a "mnnnyeaheaheah" noise
he does NOT look like a helicopter
he likes math. No tolerance for bullshit. Math works or it doesn't. Clear defined rules that stay clear and defined. Some of these comments are mine and not his. I like math.
he doesn't smoke!
does clarify he doesn't smoke tobacco. peyote, yes. Mulls over other methods of taking it being better though
straining noises
YAAAAH AAAAAH WAAAAH
doesn't seem to recognize the tentacle. He definitely has brain damage between the head trauma and repeated electrocutions.
the desert tricked him. The desert.... THE DESERT....
yells all silly at some headcrabs
implies he yelled all silly at some scientists to claim his lab space for work. Didn't need a shotgun for that
the first situation in two days in which a grappling hook would Not solve all his problems
sand in his suit :(
e44
new intro. First surface portion of the game.
he feels like he's escaping from prison
seems pro-union
notices that going outside just makes stuff worse for him every time
wonders, perhaps sarcastically, f the planes are gassing him
turret beeping is a DEATH SENTENCE for it
echo! :D
he's got the best comeback of all. A spas-12.
he doesn't mind people talkin trash about him if they get shot after
doesn't much like heights
would love to slide down that big ol pipe
no breakdancing on the cliff
"dahdahdahdahdah..." Followed by a growl
[whimpering]
he can't read his mind
he hates the tin foil hat people. Not because of the conspiracy (owls) but because of their means of defence
bad bridge... Wants a grappling hook so bad but admits it may not work here
[breathing heavily]
the CLIFF is following him- no. Nevermind.
didn't realize Black Mesa was built into the mesa proper
no longer trusts catwalks
afraid of spiders
he could SLIP on these SHELLS
"is that..? Oh my god, it's a rocket launcher." You can HEAR the awe in his voice
he just sounds as calm as he ever sounds all series
interloper!
so happy to have used a rocket launcher :)
"whhuuuh"
a universe that entirely wants him dead wouldn't give him a rocket launcher so some part of the universe wants him alive
knows a fair deal of greek mythology
screams at a near miss with a cliff edge
he just wants a helmet :(
put the water park on the cliff edge
e45
we know this one.
he can't see where he is on the gps trackers
his water park! It's here! No wish needed!
HATES the military theme to the park
modern major general :D
this was where I would put Gordon's Hal. IF HE HAD ONE (don't worry about that if you don't know Hal, for my tumblr fellows)
complains about mmg being dated but that is actually the point of the original song. The idea was to just talk to fast no one would question that it was all common knowledge
that said it's impressive that he's memorized it and can sing it while he's running and shooting people
the new lyrics too are solid. Some syllables are. Questionable for the tune, but overall quite fine
"Ah."
I think some fans got mad at him for calling the tank an Abrams when it wasn't. Whatever!
buttons!
"nyyeehhhhh,,"
valley girl mind
he wants this tank so much
astounded that bullets managed to EXPLODE a tank
his knees are wobbly again. Methinks he's recovering from the adrenaline of the past five, very hectic minutes
if he were a general facing someone like Freeman and soldiers didn't work he'd just use nerve gas on the guy
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stark's mind notes part 7, e31-33, -1, and stark's mind 2 chapter 1. those last two aren't crucial to the plot and sm2e1 is noncanon, I believe, but they're fascinating regardless. the series is functionally in a hiatus at the moment, so this is all there is.
e31
sounds far more calm now. off to the lambda labs!
his tram has locked into the fastest setting! He has to jump off of it! Inertia! Fuck!
honestly I do think he ends up the most hurt from his own accidents than being attacked
tries to gripe for a second and gets shot at
admits that though he's not the paragon of virtue, morality, so on, the military is Still Worse. Score one point for self esteem??
confused about how the tram broke open a blast door, then shakes it off claiming he's wasting time
he says he can't shoot at shoddy and decrepit infrastructure and that makes it more dangerous than the things actively trying to kill him. OSHA inspector Stark when
having a rough time staying afloat
underwater mumbling
glad he didn't fall into the water from too high up. Surface tension and all that
a physics puzzle! Yippee!
confused about how a marine can die to a headcrab zombie
continues to be mad at poor construction and poorly maintained infrastructure
gets water in his mouth on accident
very thankful that none of the aliens are aquatic...
sprinklers! But yeah that and the water in the silo probably washed the blood off!
spots. The ICTHYOSAUR
thinks grenades will have killed the icthyosaur. Confusing that they don't tbh considering what being underwater near an explosion does to you
e32
deep breath. sigh.
so confused about the room layout of the icthyosaur encounter
claims he's been conditioned to kill every dangerous alien in his path. Relieved he doesn't have to kill this one
almost slips into the water! This shakes him badly
collapsed hallway > the fucking pool
"if there is a god, this door will lead to the lambda labs! I hear beeping and booping!"
a week. Stark doesn't comment on the timeline here.
stark does NOT want to talk to this pushy guy who's trying to get him to kill the icthyosaur
so so so beleaguered by this asshole scientist. Very quiet to him.
ignores the shark cage in favour of shooting into the water. Admits it isn't working
finds this while detour stupid
visibly struggling for air while turning the valve
seems to be shaking a bit for a while there! The water drains out of his suit when he stands up
wants seafood now! Get him some shrimp
likes the scope on the crossbow
likes that being able to see things at a distance with the scope affords him some safety
when you can teleport, everything's an ambush!
enjoys peeking around with the scope
climbs a grate! Poorly!
Colleague.
it's 2:34! PM? AM? Hell if i know
e33
spaced out for a minute there! My word he's exhausted
you know I think he'd have pieced together this puzzle easily a day or two ago. Hasn't eaten has barely slept...
yeah! Right there! Admits he missed something earlier! He's slowing down!
wonders if he'll be able to catch up to the man he saw
ignores the puzzle and stacks boxes
bangs his head on some metal
"the electricity won't kill me, it just hurts" man this'll give you brain damage, pal
agrees heartily to being called Gordon Freeman
cooooooold
shivering terribly. Has never been this cold in his life
goes and huddles by some warm pipes until everything clears up
still pissy about the icthyosaur
Stark's compliment of choice for the aliens is "sneaky"
alas that guard there is probably not Arlen
20 FOOT VERTICAL JUMP
handles the black ops pretty well!
considers the skintight bodysuits very impractical for combat
it's morning. It was 2:34 not too long ago. Wanna bet that little space out was him being asleep on his feet for a bit?
pretty sure he's doing very well right now. Nothing has stopped him so far. Nothing will! He's in complete control of his situation!
came back to the facility because of a promise
surface access is not his ideal direction right now
makes a dark joke, considers it may be too far, then figures he's allowed
hears the ambush, kind of gasps, shoots around, gets hit over the head, and hits the ground with a whimper
the voices of the HECU dragging him are much harder to make out than in Half Life. Stark is silent.
e-1
new titlecard! Neater hair. shorter.
on a coffee break! Likes the taste.
was manually delivering paperwork to Management
on his way, was mistaken for Freeman five times
and now a sixth. Politely corrects the man.
works with Freeman! Seems to think he doesn't like Stark
waits around watching the monitors for a tram schedule for a while
Kleiner has lectured him on tardiness before
makes a little ditty about walking around
so happy some random guy didn't call him Freeman!
responds to What's Up with The Ceiling
has been working at the company since he was 19, before Freeman was hired on
pretty sure the Freeman thing rn is a prank
picks Felix and Ramirez as a good example of someone who'd prank him
wonders how Ramirez would convince people to join in on the prank
he and Ramirez have had some manner of prank war going on for a while now
Stark managed to convince maintenance to swap the orange soda in the vending machines for lemon lime, which many were unhappy about
the racquetball incident saved Stark from being fired over the Soda Swap
hasn't heard from Ramirez in weeks due to some... Research project he's on...
Ramirez doesnt have to witness his prank to be happy about it
sees an exploded printer and compliments maintenance nearby for their work
knows a janitor! Marty! Considers helping him clean up a puddle if he weren't so late.
leaps a spilled puddle. Proud of his jump. Most physical activity he's done in a while
hazard course training next week!
considers shaving his goatee
sm2e1
fancy slow title screen. No card.
however ending up in the train worked, it is unpleasant.
oh yeah man's just whispering the whole time
does get a bit louder to protect someone
tells some combine (Barney) "You don't know who you're dealing with."
prepares to attack the combine
doesnt object at all to Barney calling him Freeman
only slightly objects to Kleiner
just. Deeply confused.
knows who Alyx is
exasperated at the combine, at Barney urging him along and offering no explanations
claims it's good to be back.
claims this is Black Mesa all over again, in the map department
throws away the can
figures out they're being watched pretty quickly
knows what Xen is called!
finds the Citadel imposing
talks about the man in the suit
a bit shocked at the sight of a strider but pushes past it
thinks Gman may have brought him back to Earth to mock him
realizes he hasn't seen any kids.
insults someone who doesn't fight his impending doom
a lot better at keeping calm under pressure than we're used to seeing him
#stark's mind#vincent stark#mindverse#rmanotes#ramirez stark's mind#uh#ramirez's mind#???#he does not have a series but i hear this is how individuals in mind series are tagged regardless#at any rate i love ramirez.
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stark's mind notes part 6, e26-30 plus 26 part 2, or 26.5
e26
mortality weighs on him
never thought he'd be talking about his death so calmly
doesn't think he can call himself a hero
so much better with grenades now
thinks he may have foreshadowed his death. Thinks that sucks
doesn't have the motivation needed to scream in anger
just kind of resigned to dying in Black Mesa eventually
"hhhuh :("
I'm amazed Stark doesn't consider making himself cover for the guard, what with his seemingly impenetrable body armour and all
he's made it to the rocket silo!
makes some funny noises trying to keep his balance
kind of lackluster reaction to the rocket and he knows it. Thinks it's because of the looming threat of death
amazed all the weapons discharge hasn't exploded the rocket
is told to clear the area immediately by the VOX and stands still
thinks he's still going strong. Not going to pass out for SURE.
he says he's kind of happy!
spots the collapsed route to the control room. There's no way to the launch pad, Stark...
refuses to believe what's in front of his eyes. Sounds so angry
doesn't seem to know what to say. Screams at the sky
takes the exterior help making his efforts worthless so personally
collapses to the ground, hyperventilating. Then passes out.
e26 (part 2), or for brevity, e26.5
Desc. Follow the thoughts of Vincent Stark, a 24-year-old ex-Black Mesa employee and Dr. Gordon Freeman's reluctant body double. In this episode, you don't.
we open to black. The ambiance of Black Mesa is all we hear, and we see nothing at all.
hazy memories of the resonance cascade flash across the screen.
we hear the military, distantly. they say that the area is clear.
the ambiance now contains some slightly aberrant noises.
it is some time before anything else happens. the military are briefly audible once more.
electrical sparking, electrical whirring. something like static. the sound of barely-moving air.
and again, voices. indistinct for a bit, then panicked.
the resonance cascade again.
the sound of a bullsquid roaring, the sound of a marine's panic.
and time passes. it's not quiet, with the background noise, but it's calm now.
the episode ends with no further action. we have been here for nine minutes.
e27
he's waking up! Voice is all raspy.
didn't expect passing out from stress but admits he shouldve
surprised he's still alive. Seems disappointed.
can barely stand right now
apologizes to his parents. says he should've visited when he had the chance.
pulls out his magnum.
says he won't be able to visit.
puts away the magnum. stands up.
the infamous Vincent pun...
sure he's going to die, but he's determined to save the world for everyone else. Considers it the least he can do.
tries to lift a rolling garage door, fails. Still pretty weak right now
wants a vent right now. Avoids doors just fine, always goes where he wants. No military in vents, no turrets in vents, they're safe.
he feels like he's about to puke blood
he's a doctor, not a doctor. Got deja vu right after saying that
can't crack open a medkit rn but he's lookin for painkillers
doesn't want to walk right now
the recoil from the magnum hurts him right now
fumbling his words a little bit
forgets houndeyes exist
the vortigaunt electricity hurts more than usual
trembling!
whispering around the military again, snarks back at them.
VERY close brush with death. Sounds like he's about to cry for a second
keeps apologizing to corpses
"control of the controls"
his cheek got shot :( dripping blood all over his suit
considers using his blood to fix the grammar of a threatening message written towards him
rocket turret time!
collapses to the ground in a safe alcove. Just defeated. Needs a minute to breathe.
hopes his parents at least get a body to bury. With all the explosives it isn't seeming likely.
e28
he's leaving the tunnels! Yippee!
the explosion right next to the left ear! Audio is incredibly muffled in the left for now
surface access dreams thwarted. Deeply dismayed at having to fight right now
AMBUSH that I do not remember from my own Black Mesa playthrough!
he's incredibly scared right now. Hyperventilating, most of his dialogue is clipped curses right now, just doing his best to RUN
oh dude his breathing is RAGGED here
seems like lower pitched noises register better in the left ear right now! That and bullets whizzing right past it
hearing is clearing up a tad
yeah he's in no shape to be fighting right now, if the desperate breathing and complete lack of quips are anything to go by
cannot perform a pull-up :(
hates redundant military planning
I do think being outside will give him just as many issues as being underground, really
"take cover reload shoot back" new mantra!
hopes that after he launches the rocket no one else has to die
being outside is... nice. That's all he has to say on the matter.
hopes the Lambda team is safe.
sees the rocket! Determined, now.
e29
TWENTY MINUTE LONG EPISODE.
terrified the rocket launch won't work.
weird intro this time, too
didn't see a corpse earlier, apologizes to it
questioning if the body was there the entire thing. I think he's questioning his sanity a bit
just telling himself to stay calm
finds the freight cars to be good cover
gives up on stealth pretty quickly. Kills anyone he can manage to safely kill
wants a shower or body of water to get rid of the blood
The music.
is this Frank Sinatra?
"no blood!" Very shakily said
a bit shocked at the amount of blood blowing people up produces
SNIPER
keeps telling himself to stay calm
well if nothing else can kill him why not send a sniper?
will purposefully take risky actions to avoid sniper line of sight
"calvary" sir thats a location. You're thinking of "cavalry". Score one against the ex-catholic stark theory
jokes maybe the military will send a tank against him
fell off the cart, acts like he did it on purpose
MORE EXPLOSIONS LETS GOOOOOOO
shouldering the weight of responsibility entirely on himself
busts open some doors and doesn't immediately kill the marines talkin to each other
DOES kill them once they act like he's in the wrong for killing them. Slight anger in his desperate breathing
sounds,, not excited about launching the rocket, but resolved.
monologues at marines he's killed
claims all the marines deserve to die
whispers alongside the rocket launch countdown
laughs quietly as the rocket goes. Awe, I think.
the moment is spoiled by him hearing something walking out of the room. He's pretty sure it's no one. Doesn't even get a minute to be relieved.
sounds slightly more lighthearted now!
does want to keep moving but is pausing for a minute now that he feels he can, and must, to keep from passing out from exhaustion
Fly Me To The Moon in the credits!
e30
OH SHIT nightmare!!! Vincent fell asleep in that break of his and clearly was not having a good time of it
I think he's crying?
"I'm alone- I'm alone, no one's going to... Hurt me... I'm fine. I'm fine, I'm fine."
his ears start ringing again when he stands up. Vision's going all fuzzy!
berating himself and barely not sobbing
"Judging by your hazard suit, I'd say you were part of what went wrong. Isn't that correct?" Quoting something someone said to him earlier.
or "You think this guy's responsible? Sabotage, maybe."
once again lays the blame for everything since the ResCas on his shoulders. Taking it worse this time.
claims he's been lying to himself about trying to save people, about trying to be a hero
"I'm trying to prove to myself that my survival has a meaning," and further blaming himself
They're all dead because he's here. That's his thought on the matter.
ABSURD survivor's guilt
on the edge of throwing up for a moment, it sounds like!
just came here to help his mom. That's why he took the bribe.
was an idealist about his work when first working at Black Mesa.
"If I don't do this, then who will?" About closing whatever gates of hell spewed forth the End
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e21
reads a bunch of papers on psychology
feels like his constant stream of detours has a groundhog day vibe to it
may. may think he is actually in a time loop
thinks MAYBE the soldiers will have a map. They don't.
so excited at some backpacks. Might have food or maps! They do not.
makes a complicated quantum mechanics reference and acts like it's everyday knowledge. Where's that one xkcd comic
recognizes that the analogy was a little much
kind of forgot the soldiers were trained to kill because of how bad they are at it
doesn't know where he's going with his trains of thought or Anything but thinks it'll keep him sane to talk about random things
calls an elevator a lift....
"the thing for the thing that uses the thing"
familiar with the fantastic four
proclaims that he's very ditzy right now.
shoots someone without being entirely sure if they're a marine or not.
compares himself to greedo star wars. Complains that this makes him the villain, then walks over his part in the rescas, and decides it's fitting aside from his attempt at redeeming himself
GUNK on his SUIT (misc. fluid) (hates it)
thinks he'd throw up if he had to float in the air again
baffled at his first instinct with building is to use alien corpses and not barrels, with how he hates the gunk. Concludes he's unhinged at the moment.
"powerful... power!"
his HEV suit is not a faraday cage
jokes around about roleplaying as maintenance/pest control
makes a cowboy movie cliche reference
whispers to himself when sneaking around some marines. Diagetic? Is he actually talking? The eternal question.
e22
pretty sure the military has a nuclear bomb on hand and that Would be a worse outcome
decides he can attack from a blind spot and that'll make killing however many HECU there are will be easier
gets louder once he's below them
plotting so hard about peak murder efficiency
delighted at his murder efficiency
not sure why Black Mesa leaves barrels lying around
sending the marines explosives in the elevator
reasons that the aliens are confined to Black Mesa as otherwise the military would be in higher priority targets
elevator plot failed :(
"hey it's me gordon freeman" he says to the marines he's about to kill
still SO rude to the marines
OH I FORGOT HE SAID THIS. admits outright if it weren't for the regular distractions and looming threat the military provided, it's very likely he would've killed himself a while ago
now equates his reason for living with saving other lives
finds the "free man" title tacky
yells at the guard insisting Stark leave him behind. Wants to save his life so badly
not happy to give in to that request.
too stubborn to stop fighting
being close to the flamethrower output is painful
a bit dizzy after killing the gargantuan. Collapses for a moment
does outright say "yeah" when asked if he's Freeman
actually his Freeman impression here is decent other than referring some guard to the dying one
clutching onto the rocket desperately as a source of hope
e23
thinks string theory is impossible to rationalize
has only been to sectors A, C and D.
Mumbles discourteous things about Black Mesa under his breath
claims he can deal with his ambitions being crushed
thinks the military probably knows Black Mesa's layout better than he does right now
familiar with game theory
seems to believe in Zero Sum, which posits that all benefit creates an equal loss somewhere else. In essence, there is a finite amount of good fortune to go around that can never be added to, only redistributed
the railcart runs at 20kph
faux-flippant about a button doing jack shit to help his situation
does not want to know what it's like to be a battery
knows where circuit breakers are meant to go
would rather not swim through corpses. Given reason: it's unhygienic
"black mesa, where the automatic functions are fine, but the malfunctions are finer"
starting to enjoy shooting things. Compares it to taking a nice drive.
used to be GREAT at track and field. Adequate at shot put.
reclaims a sense of dignity by killing a vortigaunt
only now questioning why the aliens are here
wishes he had someone who knew their way around
hopes Dr. Vance is doing alright. Thinks Dr. Kleiner can handle himself. Says this in a kind of hesitant way.
puzzles out what killed some marine and then berates himself for doing that
NOT a chess player
e24
thinks chess as a metaphor for military strategy is a bit stupid
considers himself stupidly lucky
upside to having an alien infected area: none! but amends that. They aren't actively trying to stop him from firing the rocket and attack the military
could leave some marine behind but reasons that he needs to kill the guy before said guy can kill him, even when he's got a safe distance and multiple corners
decides he'll kill every marine he sees from now on.
would accept the marines if one of them tried to help him now, but he'd resent them anyways.
cannot push a crate suspended in midair by a chain. It doesn't Budge.
worried about an ambush in a seemingly safe location
compliments some headcrabs for killing a marine in an ambush. "Super sneaky" makes a return
says there's no use crying over spilled blood
familiar with Alien
"score one for mindless lever-pulling"
paranoid now! He says. He has blatantly been paranoid for ages
type zero? Not sure what he means with this classification system.
blows up some soldiers thinking they were something else. Doesn't mind.
rapidly growing fond of his railcart
plans briefly to let infighting thin the horde, then decides that nah he'll do it himself
immediately takes a sonic blast to the ears
alien kids these days...
sees some corpses, apologizes to them, tells them he's going to sit with them for a minute. Presumably keeps looking at them while he's down there
e25
Desc: he's having issues keeping up with things around him
doesn't know why he's talking to a dead body
considers himself in debt to the entire world. Anything less than fixing literally everything is treason in his mind
in so much pain. May be internally bleeding
appreciates the suit. It's still good as new, or lightly used.
lamarkian evolution,, ah i guess it's evolution to resist existing threats to survival? Stark talks like it's evolving immunity to bullets
jokes about a corpse and then immediately rolls it back, saying that history would not look kindly upon his doing that. babygirl no one is watching you
the military is playing music over the VOX.
Stark questions if it's real or not. "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" btw. He suspects they're trying something
his arms are shaky and a tad weak
surprised at the music over the VOX right now. It doesn't sound like something the military would like
wishes he could smoke right now
bothered by the idea of bugs on his suit. INCREDIBLY bothered
"and I'm a pacifist" uh bud "or at least a passive aggressive domestic terrorist who knows he has to protect himself with lethal force" these are DIFFERENT THINGS pal and you've never struck me as a pacifist
doesn't want to eat from the rail line food stop. Knows he SHOULD but just. Doesn't.
tonal whiplash of triumphant swell of music at the time he finds a body confuses him badly
familiar with the twilight zone
hesitates to enter the woman's washroom
can barely yell right now
doesn't want companions right now
willy wonka song,, imagination or w/e it was called
checks a locker for CDs of music he likes
he doesn't remember names of his coworkers anymore unless they were close to him or assholes
not able to deal with shotgun recoil right now
hates how roundabout navigating Black Mesa is
needs to rest, but refuses to. He has to launch the rocket. Hes running entirely on adrenaline
knows once he reaches the point where his body gives out on him, all the ceaseless violence won't stop
questions his sanity
he's clearly making some kind of reference here but i don't get it
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e16
wonders how Godzilla's creator would react to the situation. Familiar with his more frontfacing philosophies
wouldn't go out there without his armour
would be more confident with a companion
maintains hope that literally anyone other than him is doing work and turning on the oxy+power
loud noise :(
works out the sound mechanic pretty well. Seems pretty set on the alien echolocation thing. First headcrabs, now the Tentacle
Blaze-orange,, that's a FREEMANISM
laughs once he's out of immediate danger
has seen some of the Godzilla movies!
the cynic in him maintained despair in the scientists doing work here
Ashton? This name is associated with shitty pranks. Specifically shitty pranks.
NOW he wonders about the water depth when trying to break his fall with it
prepared to have a breakdown if nothing helps his goals
bothered by how unhygienic the vents are
underwater mumbling!!!
wants to throw up but figures this is not the place to do it
pretty sure he's just putting the zombies out of their misery
e17
Desc: professes that Stark talks to his "dark side" in this one
new titlecard! Very anime
LOVES when potential avenues of escape are cut off /s
he's just so jovial about everything (he sounds on the edge of tears)
oh yeah he's acknowledging that he's doing his whole "descent into madness" thing and that he's got to cut it out. That he can turn that on and off is. Concerning.
anticipates being ACTUALLY completely mad in about five hours
considers himself the wrong man in the wrong place
made a pun on accident but isn't too fussed about it
definitely had a bit of an issue breathing in the wind tunnel
purposeful pun!
takes a moment to breathe and take stuff in
either shakes himself off or gets a bit dizzy at the top of some stairs
has not been shot at before!
getting the gamer's mindset (more bodies = more important)
remains unconcerned about the headcrabs. I'd genuinely consider those the biggest threat in the building always
choked by a barnacle. That sounds SUPREMELY unpleasant
he is the MASTER of hide and seek
never good at basketball before
thinks maybe someone committed suicide in a back room
considers the "still alive despite everything" thing he's got a curse
does smoke. Nicotine, to be clear
R. L. Stein mention,,
apologizes sarcastically to the tentacles for leaving them
he has lots of free time AND blood on his hands! :)
reasons the scientists turning on the power are dead
personally thinks the matter of saving people here is a lost cause but wants to try anyways
trying to not kill things so he doesn't go mad faster
thinks the sleeping houndeyes are cute :)
hopes 2010 doesn't have him kickstarting the second apocalypse. This is in reference to the New Year, so it's 2009! Slightly after Homestuck released if i remember ResCas day properly
references some guy who. Sent out mail bombs i think?
very vanilla. Does not approve of choking as a kink
rambling and knows it
e18
has a checklist of things that happen to him when he's careless. Included: elevator breaking (which given modern regulations ONLY happens with deliberate sabotage or extensive damage)
delighted and shocked at the sight of a single living scientist
insults himself for forgetting briefly about the lambda team
still pissed about the lack of a helmet
his autobiography,, isn't going to write itself
"the ends justify the means" what if I say the means justify the ends huh?
understands he is just saying stuff recreationally
startled badly by some guy who proceeds to be rude to him. Stark ceases to act like he cares about the guy
doesn't have a great sense of smell
worried about what the military will do with more time.
not in the mood for internal bleeding >:(
familiar with bond villain stereotypes
thinks he comes up with cool ideas. wishes he'd become a director
Dr. Gordon "opiate plus alcohol equals heaven" Freeman
wonders what Freeman is doing right now. Seems to wish him poorly
says "stifled" like someone who's only read the word and never heard anyone say it
tries to say a cool one liner but distracted by HOT ROCKET
familiar with Predator but is more of an Alien man
familiar with the story of David and Goliath. Fancies himself David.
e19
gets mad at stupid questions easily
wishes the military would have to deal with this kind of bullshit
thinks no one can both aim to survive and work towards good at this time. Continues to work towards good.
"haven't discussed the details of my contract with the cosmic overlords who have granted me partial amnesty" hm...
resurfaces for half a second "heycooliwa" sright!
abandons a room full of burning waste on account of Smells Bad and Bad For Lungs
the homiest room in the game, toxic waste turbine river, does not appeal to him
pessimistic about a door working and opening
hits it with a crowbar a bunch and leaves when it fails to work
has seen so many OSHA violations today
understands that you CRAWL on thin suspended things. Lower center of gravity = better balance
his heart has had numbers done in it today
makes a bunch of goofy alliterative nicknames for the radiation river
insists a grate stopping his progress is TREASON
doesn't work out every day or anything like that, but he's not out of shape
keeps forgetting to ask for a map. WHERE HAVE I HEARD THIS BEFORE
hates the work harder not smarter slogan
claims he thinks gravity can't do anything to him because he's killed a giant
glad he has to deal with radiation less right now
"the n in fun stands for nuclear!"
unnerving noise! he's Bothered.
e20
wants a MAP.
he was joking about a trend of fighting giant monsters before. Now? Probably will have to fight one.
"Ey, look, there's Stark, let's just paparazzi him to death," complete with bad brooklyn accent
not sure how many times bad design has stymied him
snarks at a no smoking sign. cites definitely not needing stress relief
"hoo-ha or whatever"
ignores the gargantuar lighting up some soldiers aside from the flamethrower hands
tells some vortigaunt that they're trespassing
thinks he's being paranoid right now but it's warranted
uses his tripmines to keep any ambushes from happening
low on ammo :(
going to look for medical supplies to help out that guard. Completely forgets the medkits by the magnum rounds from earlier
considers the headcrabs annoying now, not outright dangerous. Which. Hey. No they're the worst thing here.
wondering why the HEV suit keeps track of his ammo
SO pissed off and he can't even sue
thinks the grenade launcher will be interesting to use. Thinks he shouldn't use it in small spaces
not taking some marines guns because Body Fluids
doesn't want to deal with androids
does not think highly of soldiers. Says they don't care for their victims. Also says the feeling is mutual.
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stark's mind noted part 2, e6-10
e6
telling the story of how the rescas happened to that guy he found. the scientist does Not seem enthused
stark seems happy to have had someone to talk to
thinks he's probably trapped in the building, but wants to think optimistically
remembered that he saw some hot water pipes earlier, somehow? Why is this something that sticks with him so easily
"okay valve, let's work your magic. I don't want to be here too long." ...hl3 when
wondering how the situation will be resolved. Thinks they can all be rescued but otherwise concerned about the teleportation issue
Doesn't seem to think too highly of the military. Understands they tend to conquer people they fight against
"that's what you GET you,,, asshole! serves. you right" so awkward so silly
does try to talk to a vortigaunt. maybe because it was bipedal? I'd assume bipeds to be more intelligent than quadrapeds
talking to the dead and doesn't know why he's doing it
so annoyed a door isn't opening for him.
playin a lil risky, Vin,,,
thinks the weird sewer pipe would be completed (neg) with some alligators
calls himself a "blind motherfucker" with some interesting inflections. I like the inflections theyre just novel. Point is his eyes are bad without the glasses
"i could drown myself! I feel like doing that, I don't feel like living anymore" DUDE
"fucking a" I have heard this expression from maybe three people and i love it
thanks the water for helping him and curses it for almost drowning him
makes two references back to back and then admits the contexts of both are different
calls himself a natural and laughs when he hits a small target at an awkward angle.
then promptly worries about why he's laughing when he's killing things
thinks hes on some sort of mental breakdown. Briefly jokes about being insane all along and decides he should not be joking about that right now
overhypes some button
vent sharks,, he does not want to fight them. Taking gasping breaths in the vent
breaks SOME bone falling. Not his some body he lands on
wants to use the security room equipment to contact someone but knows it won't work
"if reality had a face i'd kick it in the fucking dick" mood
starts yelling NO TOUCHING at the headcrabs
"this is where I get off" sick half life reference brooooo
bad balance landing on a forklift
calls the aliens rude. Realizes this is a bit silly of him
e7
wants a grappling hook. Where have I heard this before...
displeased at having to scale some pipes
keeps laughing as he has to risk his life again
mosey on in...
doesn't want to be in a confined space rn. Vent sharks, building may come down on him...
endless catwalks... beneath the wheel...
shoots a SNOT MONSTER. "From earth, with love"
the water down in the canal looks disgusting. It IS bad.
didn't even CHECK how deep the water was. There are reasons you make sure it's not too shallow
hopeful that people will survive the incident
keeps blaming himself for the whole issue. Wants to avert others deaths because it's His fault
concerned for environmental safety
"tempt not a desperate man" fancy motherfucker <3
momentarily considers jumping into the pit
NOT enthused about jumping across a bunch of boxes
insists he's a survivor insists he's okay
I am getting the idea that he's afraid of heights, chat
gets his feet on solid ground and feels like he's alright now
"up is right! yes! but then left would be. down"
FANCY ASS. HEART EMOJI
once again makes an uneasy noise at the idea of falling to his death
considers himself alarmingly exceptional at shooting a gun
so relived to find an elevator. Sounds deranged with relief. Evil laugh soundin kind of laugh
e8
finishes laughing. He's so happy everyones gonna be SAVED
once made a joke about the ceiling eating people
I'd call it Sisyphean, myself
convenient squared :>
stark reasons going to the surface is the logical choice here. Staying put when teleporting aliens are around is fooling
thinks inaction won't work here. Tries to convince someone to escape with him
oh hey that's the EAS! I figured out what I was before Stark diddddd
half human half alien,,, "halien..."
doesn't hesitate to tell someone that his buddy is Dead from headcrab
"I didn't mean to bring you into this world . . . into taking you out of it" world's worst dad
thinks he can keep someone safe
thinks the magnum has insane recoil
Clint Eastwood movies are Not good prep for gun use dude
thinks himself somewhat large and heavy, especially in the suit. Or too large for the vents at least
SO confused at the turrets in Black Mesa shooting at Anyone. A bit hysterical.
questions black mesas choice to install indiscriminately targeting turrets. Wonders if black mesa is Evil
e9
hyperventilating
turret guns gun gun bullets bullets are bad
actually hoping for a vent
feels like he's experiencing He Knows He's Going To Die and invites a guard to experience that too
derides conspiracy theorists
knows the specific term "high-impact reactive armour". HEV suit nerd
lays out the game plan of Save Everyone to the couple guards
plays up his gunplay to the guards
FELIX FREEMAN MENTION <3
Office Complex is where Felix works!
didn't even eat breakfast :(
remembers that the first guard was into trophy hunting
calls someone ma'am. Polite fellow.
dumbfounded at some guy refusing aid
apologizes for being a little rude
wagers the elevators will kill them
incredibly fucking bothered by dead guards and fusses over the single survivor
wonders why no one has Keys
asks the survivors to not mind the effects stress has had on him
e10
wonders if it's too late to get some snacks from the cafeteria. decides to not on account of it would be awkward
he's pretty sure the headcrabs don't have eyes
the freezer is NOTABLY cold
he wishes he knew how to do a pull-up
he does NOT fancy all these interruptions he's getting tonight
he has a cat! Mr. Whiskers! Considers any animal with that name objectively cute.
stacks boxes instead of doing the freezer puzzle
doesn't like spiders. They're Fast and he Hates them and insects.
not one for entymology. Boooooo loser love bugs or die by my stinger
not happy with reality trying to kill him
considers reality very efficient at killing people
knew someone named Nathan who died from getting too angry
"I concur. -_-"
goes back to the cafeteria,, does not get food
checks the staircase for turrets
Colleague.
making some manner of displeased expression
sososo scared of jumping into that ladder
yeah he's totally afraid of heights
hopes the ladder won't break apart
witnesses a death and promptly looks away from the scene, tells himself there was nothing he could've done
comforts himself with the idea the dead man only fell to his death and didnt have to experience a more painful death.
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freeman's mind notes part 7, e31-35
e31
microbiologists and missiles go together I don't know what he means
has learned missile launches are very simple to perform. Single button.
"EEEAAAHHHHH"
"blehblblbhe!" "menmeh?"
sniper round left a crater in the suit :(
TRIPMINES BAYBE
comes to the conclusion that if he kills dozens of people it'll be impossible to pin the blame on him. I think that'd work. I've heard a story like that before.
this is the worst subway in the world
"never fired a gun" sir???? how are you handling the guns you HAVE this well. Dude.
but yeah Gordon's background is pretty clean
this is a FAMILY military silo
knows a lot about spree killers. true crime fan??
LEECH PANIC
running a secret challenge here where I only breathe when he's above water. Not too tough but fun
return of the panicked underwater mumbling
looks less like he's swimming and more like he's pushing off the bottom of the floor
definitely got water in his lungs
"BLAHHHH."
e32
air is good! working relationship with it!
worms are NOT conducive to good business
don't panic, don't panic... PANIC
breathed in water again.
He's wet.
needs snacks so bad. States multiple times that he's hungry
wouldn't care if he were working for a James Bond villain company
used to show up to class drunk in grad school. Med student roommate. Would purge the worst of the side effects overnight with an IV of saline
uninterested at the tranq gun until he realizes he could get high off of it
"these are crazy times B)"
single pistol shot. He killed the shark. Truly.
xylazine :( can't get high off it
dropped into water unexpectedly, choked by a barnacle, dropped again. No breath
has read or at least is reasonably familiar with Moby Dick
WHISTLING YEAH
underwater humming
plans to hide from the government in a Dallas night club
e33
shrugs off the idea of killing barnacles because of how much blood they'd puke up
bets janitors survive more than any other employee
smells like mildew down there :(
a bit disturbed at how little the opposing armies are fighting
roleplays as a few other people talking out his options. Readies my System Beam. Knox and MacIntyre. And their CO.
the suit is indeed not designed for swimming. It's waterlogged :(
he is the Bruce Lee of physics
the SNOT MONSTERS are multiplying
ahhh yeah the eternal search for funding
gman.... Not sighting! I know he's here though.
would've liked to freak people out with a dead pig with a lab coat in the crushers
worried about things teleporting inside of him
has seen The Fly
broke a computer. Oops.
error 482, someone shot the server with a 12-gauge
knows Spanish. Assumes some random guy standing around speaks it primarily
incredibly bothered by being covered in tracking devices
the guy who told him about the devices gets to live
e34
his options are keeping the suit on or... Stripping down, he says? he doesn't mind walking around naked, he says..?
not stripping in front of the scientist
10 kelvin jegus
mumbles the entire time he's in the freezer until he gets to warm pipes
the aliens are Not from a swamp planet. They're fine in the freezer
outworlders... He's simulating specism right now
obviously doesn't think the guard before the assassin room actually killed himself. Dodges to the side, hears a silenced gunshot
Grimms tales... Don't include sniper fairies
you are NOT thinking like a ninja
no one is ever ready for ninjas- aye he says the same thing
you're not going to lift that door, Freeman.
times going quick!
funny noise as he moves the surface access lever
starting to like the bright orange HEV. Means people shoot at it instead of his head
makes a final wheeze before passing out
complains as he's being carried off about people plotting to kill him. Laughs with em though
e35
new intro. Cafeteria from Office Complex.
rambling like he's giving a lecture about physics as he wakes up
SO disoriented. Head injury. Brain damage?
actually sounds pretty chill
wants alcohol. Seems to prefer bourbon.
seems to just be creating memories wholesale here
not the first time he woke up in a trash compactor
alliteration :>
doesn't have a BIT of the last couple days
last time he woke up this disoriented was in Austria. He was missing his clothes for a bit until he could make new ones from garbage bags.
calls a headcrab a cockroach
used to watch national geographic
seems genuinely a bit concerned at seeing a corpse
wants to get back to the lab :(
sick air... Pogo stick jetpack combo
silly little jingle
tad winded from falling into the elevator
intends to sell the guards ammo back to him
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