#sexypoobear

[neverneglectyourdirtymind]

sometimes I can't find enough ability to give any attention due to other stressful situations but I always have mindset and wish to do so. I really really have not met anyone yet that is compared to that one person I knew that was always respectful and always there for me when I was struggling and he always listened and truly cared about my happiness as well as uplifting my spirit and I definitely miss him so much more than he could ever understand. I was in a bad wishing to harm myself or die and he was always trying to be supportive and he never ever put his hands on me in a bad way like others have and he put his hands on me in a perfect way for a short time that I will never forget and wish to experience his affection and his hugs that lasted long but never long enough and his energy was electric volts run through me with his touch along with the way he always walked into my home playing me a Volbeat song and every single song from that time until even now years later has been his in my mind even if someone else plays it I always think about him. I miss you so much my friend and I still love you so much. I am really struggling with life with my health and everything included and that song from Sixx a.m. you always played is definitely a good one for me nowadays. I could cry thinking about that song and I remember the tears you shed once outside your work place when I spoke of it and I could cry in front of you without worrying that you thought I was weak and you never took advantage of my weaknesses to mistreat me. I can't ever show my tears or weaknesses with others because they try to do me wrong then and everything about you is everything that I really miss. I never watch movies since you left and I can't find my smile because I've lost it for awhile and my hair isn't long or something I am able to enjoy and I don't spend hours on my makeup anymore either the way I used to spend time listening to music and playing with it in my bathroom. I will survive and get better again but it seems like I might not make it through this. I miss my Mama and Dad and the world is so different and horrible with everyone else heartless and mean or cruelly indifferent. I miss you. 💋💔💔💌

Clinton, I would listen to a thousand more songs setting beside you again if I could.💯🦋🚀🚀🛩️✈️🎢🎡🎪⚾🏈🎱🎸📼📺🛋️☂️📓I hope you have been writing everything crazy in my life because things get really crazy and I still survive it lol. My port is still amazing but I wish I could read personally something like that one time.

Rambling Love heartbreak and lonesome life. Huge hugs and kisses lasting forever with you would be great.

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