#since i dont have the stupid title of my stupid career because of covid

[australet789]

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#man im so tired i dont want to fight #the whole tumblr post + talk is tiring me #i just had a discussion with my sister about capitalism and work abuse #I DONT WANT TO SEE MORE OF IT ON MY TUMBLR FEED OK #and my brain going into this deep whole is making me feel bad about my art #because i see everyone saying WE HAVE PATREON WE HAVE KOFI #and i get nothing there #whic derails into me thinking how much my art sucks #and since this is the only thing i can profit for now #since i dont have the stupid title of my stupid career because of covid #I CANT WORK EXCEPT FOR THIS #AND NO ONE GIVS A FUCK #and i hate I HATE HOW THE NOTES ARE MAKING M ANXIOUS #I DIDNT USE TO CARE I DONT WANT TO CARE #BUT IM CARING AND I HATE IT CAUSE I DONT WANT TO FORCE OR GUILTRIP PEOPLE #but seeing my shitposts getting more notes than my own art FUCKING SUCKS #seeing people with bad takes doing better monetary with art who has been assholes #and im not perfect i know i have made my mistakes i have a bad temperament #but i have been trying to be nice #i have been trying to do the right thing #what else should i do #i guess in the end it wont matter i would never be good enough #and again I DONT WANT TO CARE I WANT TO DO MY THINGS AGAIN I WANT TO FEEL HAPPY #I DONT WANT TO FEEL AFRAID OR ANXIOUS OR SOUND BORDERLINE DSPERATE WHEN THERE ARE OTHERS WHO NEED IT MOST #i hate this i hate fandom i hate social media i just #i just want to feel good again with what i do and feel that it matters #i want to have fun again with miraculous and not feelign that is a competition between who makes the next best comic #or the fastest fanart #i just want to feel good again #delete later