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I'm thinking about how stage direction would fit into a dsmp stage play and I think the dsmp has more than enough freedom to "break free" from the stage, meaning that the cast could use the entire theater to tell their story. I don't think doomsday could work if the cast was only allowed on the stage. imagine techno on the stage, he's center. he barely moves throughout the event. dream and phil are in the mezzanine, similar to how they were on the obsidian grid during doomsday. tommy and tubbo are running through the house, flying past audience members in confusion. ghostbur later walks down the center aisle, through the house. phil is now center stage, his ghost son below him. and ghostbur refuses to join phil on stage because he feels more connected to those who were running chaotically through the house earlier. god it would be so good

#we should actually do this #snailtrail.slimes

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wilbur's perspective on parenthood is rooted only in tallulah's emotional wellbeing, but that neglects her physical wellbeing. wilbur is similar to tallulah in that both of them are rather new to the world, and neither understand the atrocities that have already taken place. wilbur believes that he only needs to emotionally equip tallulah, and he can take care of the rest. he frequently tells her how much he loves her, he sings to her, he goes the extra mile to make sure she knows that he's proud of her. all of this is great and absolutely necessary, but wilbur is not giving her the final necessary thing in this world: physical protection. he doesn't understand that he won't always be there to protect her, even though he knows that he'll literally be away for long periods of time. he doesn't understand how easy it is for these eggs to break. he doesn't understand that people will kill her for the sake of killing her. and as a result, he doesn't feel the need to give her armor or weapons. wilbur thinks that he can protect her physical wellbeing because he'll always be there, but he's mistaken. at least if she dies, she'll do so knowing that she's loved. but she'll be dead anyway, and it'll be wilbur's fault.

#qsmp #GO WILBUR! #snailtrail.slimes

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when henry clocks joel as someone who was a father, joel almost immediately gets up and tells them that they've waited long enough and should leave the underground children's playroom. to me, it's not about sarah as much as it's about ellie and how scared he is of letting ellie into his heart. sarah's been gone for twenty years by this point. joel knows, to some extent, how to handle his grief. he doesn't do it well, obviously, but he's doing something with it. but when ellie comes into the picture, that unfortunately brings up some of joel's grief, not necessarily because ellie reminds him of sarah, but because she represents another person for joel to protect, another little girl who's reliant on him and him alone. so when henry brings up that joel was, at least at one point, a father, joel feels incredibly vulnerable. henry's comment made joel aware that his grief wasn't as well hidden or buried as he thought it was, so he gets squeamish and forces all of them to leave the playroom.

vulnerability is a weakness in the world joel lives in. grief is a weakness as well, and all ellie has done is unearth that grief. but in doing that, she's brought love into his world, purpose. it's the most vulnerable thing that either of them could do. joel only pushes it away because he knows that, at some point, he won't be able to push anymore.

#the last of us #tlou #joel miller #this episode gave me so much to work with i love it #snailtrail.slimes

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I think ccrime hurting each other was inevitable just because you can't have someone with you all the time through everything and not hurt them in the process. wilbur wanted to protect tommy but also wanted tommy with him all the time. wilbur wanted tommy there when he cooked drugs, when he was exiled in the ravine, and in other less than ideal situations for either of them. but wilbur also wanted tommy there when he was just gathering supplies or doing mundane things. he always wanted tommy there.

on the flip side of that, tommy always wanted to be there. tommy made an effort to always be around wilbur, regardless of the circumstances. even when tommy understood that wilbur wasn't the best person to be around, he still stuck by him. he made that choice. he couldn't conceptualize his life without wilbur.

neither of them wanted to live without the other, and pain is part of living.

(inspired by this post by cyrus aliveburs go read it)

#ccrime at 10 am on a saturday Who Am I #snailtrail.slimes

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"why did you die?" / "I was very sad." is SOOOOOOO fucking impactful. wilbur sounds so so small in this moment, so sad and scared, which is so different from how he presents himself most of the time. the big words and grand speeches are gone in this moment. the general, the leader of l'manberg and pogtopia just isn't here. he can't put his emotions in any other words because he's so upset, so unable to live with what he's done to himself and his friends. he doesn't put up a front, he doesn't ignore it, he physically can't push it away or hide it anymore, so he curls up and just says, "I was really sad." he's run out of everything else to say.

#IM IN SHAMBLES #snailtrail.slimes

[snailsnfriends]

tommy's reaction to wilbur's revival is still one of my favorite crimeboys moments because they became what the other had wanted for so long. wilbur, now that he was revived, wanted to live. he wanted to see the sunrise, to build himself back up again, to learn about how the world had changed in his absence. this is exactly what tommy had wanted in the past, both before and after wilbur had died. when wilbur was revived, tommy wanted him to be dead. he believed that wilbur was only capable of doing harm. this is exactly what wilbur had wanted in the past, specifically during pogtopia. the way they felt about each other had flipped completely. their past selves finally got what they wanted, but it doesn't bring them any peace, closure or solace. they gave what the other had wanted at the wrong time. they became each other, but not in the way the other had wanted. the layers of their dynamic are just neverending.

#meta at 10:45am WHO UP???? #snailtrail.slimes

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tommy and tubbos desire to create a new country on the moon of all places shows how juvenile they are while still being adults. they've been stunted in such a profound way that they salivate at the thought of peace, of freedom. where they live cannot protect them, and they know this. it's the reason why they want to leave. but this also means that they've had to protect themselves for ages, and protect others as well, while being completely out of their depth. they're so used to being in survival mode all the time that they didn't get the chance to be kids. so now, as adults, they fantasize about being somewhere far away, in a place they made themselves. they choose space because it's the farthest away you could possibly go. they choose each other because like sees like, and they want the same thing.

an adult would try to fix what they could, an adult would just move further out, an adult would fight. the issue is that they've done all of these things already. they've already been adults, and now they're burnt out. so, like kids, they want to run away, play pretend. it's the one thing they haven't tried yet.

#lmoonberg is real in my mind #snailtrail.slimes

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do you ever think about how cwilbur saying in his finale that l'manberg was made for ctommy and was ctommy completely recontextualizes literally everything cwilbur has said about l'manberg

#makes me want to. bang my head in #snailtrail.slimes

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i have a lot of problems with the whole "girl math," "girl dinner" and "girl [insert thing here]" trend, but I think one of my biggest gripes with it is how it focuses on the girl aspect, a term used for children. the "girl [thing]" trend centers helplessness (not knowing how to do certain things because you're a girl) and not completing a task to the fullest extent/being small about it (ex. not eating a complete dinner and calling it girl dinner). because "girl" is attached to it, it's about youth just as much as it's about gender, and I think it's such a horrible way to view young girls.

young girls are SO smart and capable. we tell them that being a girl means nothing in relation to what they're able to accomplish. we tell them that they can do anything if they set their mind to it. we tell them that being a girl is beautiful; it's something that makes them strong and unique. we have to reiterate these points to them because otherwise misogyny will win out and they'll be at risk of perceiving themselves poorly, leading to low self esteem and self worth.

so what kind of mindfuck is it for them to see that full grown adults, mostly women at that, perceive incapability as the equivalent to being a girl? that girls don't eat complete meals, that they can't do math, that they can't understand economics, world events, politics, science or just about anything that requires critical thought? that these things are for boys, that we should let men do all the work, that girls aren't meant to think or do just about anything for themselves?

it is such a disservice to young girls to perceive being a girl as this useless, Nothing state of being. we're showing them that being a girl means being weak and unaware. do you think that of every little girl you see? do you look at young girls, bright, beautiful, talented young girls, and see them as nothing but brainless amoebas? do you treat them that way? I really hope not. we are the adults in the room. girls look up to us, and there is nothing more painful to a child than an adult undermining them, which is exactly what happens when stereotypes are perpetuated through this "girl [thing]" trend.

you can't make being a girl, being a child, the same as every misogynistic stereotype that's ever existed. you're setting those girls up for failure. you're not seeing them, and they notice! because a little girl is fundamentally unlike what you think she is. do her (and yourself) a favor and view children as people capable of critical thinking, and capable of being affected by what you say and do, even if you don't say these things directly to them. I promise they see it.

#anyway. bedtime! #i work with kids. mostly girls #and they are some of the most brilliant talented and kind people i know #being young and a girl is NOT a detriment in This way specifically #it just makes me so sad. because these girls already face this insecurities. why make it worse?? #idk. idk! i feel strongly about how we (adults) treat children #snailtrail.slimes

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ctommy is made by the narrative to be a hero, when really his motivations are much smaller and more personal than that. for tommy, it's never about saving the world, rescuing the damsel, or anything to that effect. tommy saves l'manberg because it's his home, it's where he grew up, and it's the physical manifestation of wilbur. tommy has to save l'manberg because he has to save his brother. he attempts it again on doomsday for the same reasons, but now, he has to save what is left of his brother. he doesn't fight for his discs because he wants to fight the big enemy of the server, he fights because the discs represent his freedom. he doesn't fight cdream for the millionth time for his own enjoyment, he fights so he can live in peace with his friends. tommy, at his core, is quite simple: he acts based on love, and rejects any notion that he's a hero, because he feels that being a hero is not enough to encompass who he is. he sees himself as a person first; it just so happens that what he does or attempts to do winds up saving more people than he realizes.

#ctommy worms into my brain and bounces around on occasion #snailtrail.slimes

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charlie is banking on flippa being revived because he has no other option. he can't come to terms with flippas death in any profound way. he knows that she's dead, but he refuses to acknowledge it. he needs to believe that she'll come back, because the only other option is to accept that he, in some way, is responsible for her death. the daughter he loves so much hates him. he's incredibly guilty, and the only solution he can find for his guilt is to hope he'll have the chance to tell her that he's sorry. tell her that he loves her. this is all he has, so he refuses to let go.

#qsmp #this silly server is everything #snailtrail.slimes

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for the longest time, ctommy has been awful with words. he has always had issues articulating himself. instead of being direct, he usually conveys his feelings through metaphors or some "walk around" of how he truly feels. he's definitely gotten better at articulating himself over time, but he still usually sticks to metaphors because they show how he really feels. however, when speaking to wilbur's revival spot, tommy said, "I love him." and that's it. no punchline, no "like" or "as," no figure of speech. it's just that basic for tommy at this point. in a situation like this, metaphors are too complicated because what you want to say is simple. tommy loves wilbur. there's no literary device to make that any clearer.

#watched the stream again and my god #all i have to say about ut #well that's a lie i have a lot to say #snailtrail.slimes

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on the day of fleabag's mother's funeral, fleabag looks uncharacteristically gorgeous. no matter what she does, she looks stunning; her hair falls in a chic way, and she's glowing without the use of makeup. this is perceived as an issue by fleabag, boo, and claire, because fleabag is never perfect. but for claire, being perfect is a given. when fleabag sends a compliment her way, she accepts it with no question. people expect claire to be beautifully perfect at all times, even at her own mother's funeral. fleabag, on the other hand, is never held to this high of a standard to an almost insulting degree, so when she looks good, it's a spectacle. claire can be perfect and ignored while fleabag cannot, because perfection is the anthesis of her character, whereas claire is the poster child for it.

#fleabag #will think about this show forever #snailtrail.slimes

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the thing about ctommy that I will always love was that he always tried. he knew he couldn't save everyone, save his home, save himself at times, but that never stopped him from trying. he never stopped fighting for l'manberg. he died for that country over and over and over again, and was more than willing to be completely gone if it meant that l'manberg could live. he never stopped fighting for wilbur. he fought with techno in the pit, he pleaded with others to help him, he never left wilbur's side even if that meant he got hurt. he never stopped fighting for tubbo. he was more than willing to risk his life for him, his home, his discs, all of it for his best friend. he never stopped fighting for what he thought was right. he never stopped fighting for the wellbeing of the entire server. all he wanted was to help, and he learned that he couldn't help everyone. but this never stopped him from trying. everyone was worth it. all of it was worth it to him. it was always worth a try

#i miss him #snailtrail.slimes

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tommy being pictured in "how to BE human" for the slimes very clearly shows how quackity thinks about tommy compared to himself and to others. tommy is a person who holds attachments very highly, whether it's physical items or his friendships. part of it stems from being abused; having things to call his own and the autonomy that comes with that is important for tommy. but it's also because tommy loves, and loves hard. tommy is willing to go through the pain that comes with attachments for the sake of love. he is willing to fight, and even risk his life, for his attachments. quackity sees tommy as the pinnacle of humanity because of this.

but this also means that quackity doesn't see himself as highly, and possibly as human, as he sees tommy. one of the lessons he teaches slime is that attachments will only be used against you, so you should avoid them. quackity is willing to deprive himself of attachments, of what he sees as human, for the sake of his own self preservation. tommy knows how to be human, how to love others, and using him as an example for the slimes is done purposefully. quackity doesn't see any humanity within himself, or as much humanity as he sees in tommy, which is why he does not use himself as an example for the slimes.

#TOMMY IS A HUMAN STORY!!!!!!! #snailtrail.slimes

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barbie is a near perfect depiction of growing up as a girl and coming to the realization that misogyny hurts you. after realizing that the kens have taken over, barbie throws a fit and makes no attempt to fix it. she doesn't try not because she doesn't want to fix what's wrong, but because she doesn't know how. the men she's known for her entire life have turned on her in a way she could never imagine. she doesn't know what to do with herself because no matter what she does, she's wrong. the only thing left to do, at least, in her mind, is to give up.

many young girls have this same realization. like barbie, young girls are suddenly sex objects while being shamed for their bodies. they're emotional but scolded for it, and when they hide how they feel, they're hurt for it as well. like barbie, they learn that they can't win, and because they're new to these feelings, they don't know how to cope. like barbie, some completely give up. some cry and mourn the lives they had before. like sasha, some get angry, and take it out on the world, their mothers, and other women they come across. like gloria, some become depressed and burnt out.

barbie is a story about coping with misogyny and learning how to reach inner peace while still facing incredible violence, an essential part of growing up as a woman.

#barbie #barbie movie #misogyny am i right #snailtrail.slimes #barbie spoilers