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#so basically a lot of uncomfortable embarrassing and sad stuff that i didn't want anyone else to see or reread myself
lqnar
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2 years
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i should write this stuff in my diary
#yeah i started a journal
#i need to use my stickers for SOMETHING right
#i love stationery it is my newest obsession
#i'm spending so much money on it but i usually don't buy stuff so it's okay it's fine i will survive.
#''i usually don't buy stuff'' ok liar but what i meant is that i generally only splurge on food.
#which obviously isn't great all of the time. hence the bulimia.
#so buying stickers and washi tape to feel an ounce of happiness is fine.
#i used to journal/vent in a notebook in high school
#i ripped out every single page and threw it out at one point
#i think close to graduation?
#it was really helpful to vent all my feelings in it but it was also really dark stuff about my depression and suicide plans
#and also my trauma. and every single song lyric i related to at the time
#so basically a lot of uncomfortable embarrassing and sad stuff that i didn't want anyone else to see or reread myself
#so it's all gone
#as is most of my venting from that time. i had a 50 k word document with venting at one point. that's a whole book
#50 k words sounds insane it might just have been 50 pages i can't remember tbh. but still a lot of words.
#it's gone now. i deleted everything about that situation and every single one of my tumblr posts when i was going to kill myself
#i tend to clean out my life and my embarrassing online posts and every note i have ever written when i think i'm going to die soon.
#i'm not suicidal anymore but it still is a mindset i somewhat still have. like oh better remember to delete these embarrassing posts
#before i kms.
#like ok king but have you considered mental health as a Choice bro just wondering
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