#so i sometimes wish i was raised [insert religion here] because i wonder if it would have acted as a better compass for me
( alexander dreymon, cis man, he / him ) ** ♔ announcing artem romanov, the tsar of russia ! in a recent portrait they seem to resemble alexander dreymon. it is a miracle that he survived the last five years, considering they are astute, cunning, and resolute. i hope the plague has not changed them. they are for working with the other kingdoms.
* insert matthew mcconaughey voice here * alright alright alright ! s’up angel faces ? ‘tis i, your friendly neighbourhood loser, chrissie. i’m super duper excited to be here ! it’s been a few months since i’ve been in a group ( especially a period / historial rp ) so pls bear with me while i get my groove back and flesh out my boy artem, but if you’d like to plot or work up some connections etc then go ahead and light up that lil grey heart n i’ll come pester you ! ♥️
F U N D A M E N T A L S .
full name. artem gleb romanov.
title. tsar of russia.
current age. thirty-seven.
date of birth. march twenty-seventh.
gender identity. cis male.
pronouns. he / him.
nationality. russia.
religion. orthodox russian.
birthplace. moscow, russia.
orientation. heterosexual.
marital status. married.
religion. orthodox russian.
spoken language(s). fluent in russian, german, french, and english ; conversational in turkish, latin, spanish, and italian.
C O N N E C T I O N S .
mother. alexandra romanova, deceased.
father. aleksey romanov, deceased.
sibling(s). nikolai romanov, tatiana romanova, and fyodor romanov, all alive.
birth order. eldest ; first born son.
significant other. the tsarina.
child(ren). none.
pet(s). none.
P S Y C H O L O G Y .
positive traits. adept, charming, audacious, determined, resourceful.
negative traits. calculating, hedonistic, distant, sarcastic, volatile.
strengths. efficient, energetic, self-confident, strong-willed, strategic thinker, charismatic, inspiring.
weaknesses. stubborn, dominant, intolerant, impatient, arrogant, cold, ruthless, poor handling of emotions.
fears. letting his family and his country down.
secrets. sometimes he wishes he hadn’t been the first born son of house romanov that way he wouldn’t have such a heavy responsibility resting upon his shoulders.
sleeping habits. very rarely gets a full nights sleep.
eating habits. definitely guilty of skipping meals.
social habits. he’s an extravert, partially because he has no choice but to be this way, but mostly because he was raised to be noticed.
stressors. none.
obsessions. none.
addictions. none.
how others view him. he believes others might view him as a fool, a disappointment ; may wonder why he chose to marry for love, thus may doubt the dedication and devotion he has for russia.
how he views himself. loyal, determined, committed to those he loves and to his country and people.
zodiac. aries.
mbti. entj. ( extraverted, intuitive, thinking, judging )
alignment. chaotic neutral.
enneagram. type eight : the challenger. ( the powerful, dominating type / self-confident, decisive, wilful, and confrontational )
temperament. choleric.
intelligence type. interpersonal.
disorder(s). insomnia.
addiction(s). none.
vices. lust, greed, wrath.
virtues. temperance, diligence, humility.
P H Y S I O L O G Y .
eye colour. blue.
hair colour. brown.
height. six feet.
weight. seventy-eight kg.
build. of tall stature with evident breadth in his shoulders and defined muscles.
scar(s). a few small, silvery ones littered across his torso, back and arms ; a more noticeable one along his cheekbone due to a sword fighting accident when he was younger.
tattoo(s). none.
glasses / contacts. neither.
dominant hand. right-handed.
handwriting. surprisingly neat and swirly for a man. his father was a stickler for ensuring that his handwriting was both aesthetically pleasing and readable.
general health. fit and healthy ; no major illnesses.
sexual history. he’s had a few lovers in his life time, okay ? but he’s 100% a simp for his wife.
medical history. has suffered a few minor injuries here and there but nothing major to note.
mental illnesses. none.
allergies. none.
P E R S O N A L I T Y .
can sometimes come across as pig-headed and arrogant but he’s just firm in his beliefs and opinions.
though he is definitely not opposed to hearing out the views and opinions of others, especially those he respects and values.
he’s a man of his word ; never one to go back on a promise or oath he’s made.
loyalty means a lot to him so if he gives someone his trust and loyalty, he expects exactly the same in return.
those he cares for is unconditional and he would go to no ends to ensure their safety and protection, especially his family.
for him, his family and his country are placed above all else ; even at times his own self.
favourite coping mechanism ? isolation babeyyy.
it could be said that what you see of him is exactly what he wants you to see.
growing up, he was extremely close to his mother and his adoration for her knew no bounds.
he was always a curious child who yearned to obtain an understanding of everything in life, and to gain extensive knowledge on every subject possible.
he’s extremely ambitious and has always felt the need to prove himself, especially to his late father.
he’s highly skilled and equally as intelligent as he is adept.
thus, it is evident in his choice of words and how effortlessly he articulates them that he is educated and literate in his own right.
he speaks with confidence and is never one to shy away from stating his opinion even if it differs with somebody else's.
at times, he could be considered slightly outspoken and there are certain occasions where his blunt and sardonic tongue can easily become mistaken for a rude and unsympathetic attitude, but this is far from the truth.
however, dare to cross him or piss him off and prepare to feel his wrath.
he has a hard shell but a soft centre, though he’s able to conceal this element of his persona easily by acting under the façade of lacking emotion.
while this evasive attitude can make him seem unfeeling, when he cares for someone, he cares deeply and they will see an entirely polar opposite version of him ; the real him versus the persona he adopts for being in the public eye.
he is somewhat thick-skinned and tough-hearted but in spite of this, he generally lacks brutality and intensity unless called for.
at all times, he’s able to keep his composure which sometimes makes him look unbothered even if underneath he is seething.
if provoked enough though, he will show no mercy and never struggle in using his combat skills to defend himself and his family.
however, he will only take physical action if a situation is dire as he doesn’t really believe in violence without a good reason.
he’s very confident, and from the second he walks into a room he takes command which shows through his stature and manner, and although he sometimes tiptoes that fine line between being assertive and cocky, he isn’t insufferable in his self-confidence.
his charisma and social skills are some of his most potent weapons and he has no problem using them to manipulate people or alter situations to suit him and his needs.
though he never acts curt or offhand and remains urbane toward people which makes him somewhat likeable even in the face of him screwing you over.
while he is charming and amicable, he is also shrewd and volatile at times, and it is these less favourable elements that he prefers to shield from the world.
on the outside, he appears poised with a presence that never fails to go unnoticed, all the while he’s able to maintain the veil of ambiguity he drapes around himself.
underneath it all, he has a big heart and possesses the capacity to care for and put these people before himself though he keeps his compassionate, softer side in the shadows as he believes it may display weakness and give others ample ammunition to exploit his achilles heel.
H I S T O R Y .
tw for death / thirty-seven years ago, on a snowy morning, the cries of a newborn flooded the corridors of a grand palace. henceforth, born into the world was the first child — and son — of house romanov. the instant he opened his bright eyes to the world, artem was a cherished and adored baby boy. his mother had always told him he had been the most curious of her children ; that the instant he was exposed to this universe, all twinkling blue eyes and cheerful smiles, she knew he would be destined for great things. in the eyes of the tsarina, he was first and foremost her beautiful baby boy. in the eyes of the tsar, however, he was the future heir to the tsardom.
of course, his father loved him but from the instant that artem could articulate to a satisfactory degree and began to comprehend the world around him, the tsar made sure the young boy understood his place and realised the responsibility that laid upon his shoulders. even if it did seem there existed a lifetime ahead of him until he'd have to step up and replace his father. the tsar's primary concern was to ensure that his successor was primed for success and destined for brilliance. sometimes to artem it felt that to his father he was his replacement first and his son second.
naturally, all eyes had been on the boy the second he was born. the staff, the people, the kingdom — they were all waiting with bated breath to see how young artem's story would unfold. would he follow his father to the latter ? become an exact replica of the much-admired tsar ? or would he be less intense, more kind, like his mother ? of course, the notion of him one day paving his own path had failed to cross the minds of them all. if only they had known what the cards held for their future tsar ...
from a young age, artem was a clever and capable boy — his keen perception proving to extremely surpass that of his age. able to charm and evoke fondness within the adults who frequented the palace, he was always regarded as a well-mannered and promising young boy. his mother had always seen the potential in him ; a potential beyond just becoming the future tsar. he was brighter than most : able to learn new things swiftly and memorise things in a way that was unusual for such a tender age. while he was once a carefree and spirited child, this soon withered away as he knew that one day he'd become the tsar of his father's country — of his country. some might say artem had to grow up beyond his years ; his mature approach to life only exacerbated by having to bear the weight of being tsesarevich.
with such heavy expectations for his future duties came extensive and, oftentimes, arduous preparation. always eager to please and impress his father, artem was more than willing to commit himself and devote his every waking breath to training and working toward the destiny that had been bestowed on him. from no age, he was a determined boy with a laser-sharp focus — bright blue eyes always honed in on the fate that lay in wait before him. he excelled in his schooling, always keen to learn as much as his brain could soak up. while he was undoubtedly intelligent and displayed fitting leadership qualities, he was also talented with weaponry and in battle ; equally as proficient in academics as he was in combat. whether he had intended to or not, his father put tremendous pressure on artem to excel, to be the best version of himself, to push himself to be the leader that he knew his son could be — the leader that he would be confident in having one day take his place as tsar.
for many years of his life, artem was prepped and primed to be a self-disciplined, formidable, resolute man that others would blindly follow onto a battlefield and vow their undying loyalty to. and he became just that — growing into a young man whose bravery and courage was unmatched, with an utter strength and an intellectual capacity second to none. he was exactly as his father hoped he would be. exactly how his tsar needed him to be. after years upon years of dedicating himself to all that his father required of him, the ageing tsar looked at his eldest son and heir with an admiring glint in his eye and a proud smile on his face. all his life, artem had dreamed of having his father look at him with pride. even when the strict regime he was under seemed too much to bear, it was that very moment that continued to spur him on. and to this day, it's a moment that artem continues to hold dear to his heart.
however, his father's pride seemed to falter then slowly wilt when his son announced that he'd fallen in love with a woman who would not bring about any political alignment for the tsardom. regardless of the dismay of his family, a then twenty-nine-year-old artem married his beloved in secrecy to assure they could never be ripped apart — that their marriage could never be revoked. that look of pride his father had worn for a few years beforehand was swiftly replaced by one of disappointment. his mother was concerned and feared the worst, but wanted her son to be happy. as for his siblings, he could only believe that their opinions would vary. but all that mattered to artem was his wife and the love he held in his heart for her. all his life he'd thought his devotion for russia could never be replaced ... until she came along.
his marriage to the future tsarina provoked disarray, rendering his family perturbed and unsettling those who were loyal and committed to both the romanov house and his future position within russia. this amplified tenfold when his father eventually passed away and his succession to the tsardom was imminent. he knew his people were anxious and displeased, unsure in believing that they could place their trust in their new tsarina. then, to add fuel to the fire, the plague hit and threw russia and its people into further chaos and disorder. he'd heard whisperings of how they blamed his union to the tsarina for the famine — knew that some believed his wife was to blame. of course, artem paid no heed to the concocted speculations. he knew his people felt they had to pin blame on someone, or something, for the disaster that had befallen them and he knew well enough that the liability would fall on his head.
it's been five years and still, he knows his aptitude as tsar falls under question for some ; that, still, his marriage is open to scrutiny for others. he's more than aware of how he is perceived, by his own people and by the people of many other kingdoms across the world. they believe him to be a fool, to have chosen love over politics and his heart over his head ; to have made a mistake in being so foolhardy in his union. regardless, artem's main priority is to restore balance and order to the country he long ago pledged his unwavering loyalty to. he wishes to bring harmony among his people and to aid in their growing confidence and faith in the tsarina. and, in himself and his allegiance to russia.
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Think Twice Part 12
“I am going to make sure you never even think of touching my girl ever again. I am going to make sure you wish you never even met her.”
Seth Rollins X OC X Jon Moxley/ Dean Ambrose
Rated: M
No warnings I think
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A/N: I am such a horrible person and have been forgetting to update tags. Sorry, If you were waiting :(. I also should hopefully either tomorrow or Wednesday have some Mox smut out ;) And another Negan, sorry lol not sorry.
Aria
“You want to explain to me why I saw Jon leaving the apartment,” Alexa asked as we sat down at the table. She raised an eyebrow at me, a small smirk across her lips.
I shrugged, blushing, “I told you I was going to talk to him.”
“Yeah, on his lunch break. I got off early, but I didn’t get off that early.”
“How did you get off early?” I asked her.
“Don’t change the subject, but I got off early to go check on you. Our boss was worried about you. She knew things had been rough.”
I groaned softly. I lived in a city that seemed like it would be big, but sometimes it felt the same as a small town. Everyone knew each other's business and wasn’t scared to insert themselves. She must have known that Seth and I broke up again. “I am fine.”
“Clearly after I saw Jon leaving the house. I was really worried about you going back to Seth.”
“Why would you be worried about that?” I asked her, raising an eyebrow.
“Girl, when you told me that you had slept with Seth again, I thought I was going to die right there. I was for sure you would pick him again and never talk to Jon. You know, I haven’t ever seen you have feelings for anyone else.” She paused. “Besides Dean.”
My heart stopped at the mention of his name. My memories of him are still fuzzy. The doctors said that is normal with memory loss. I had regained most of my memory back, but parts still fuzzed here and there. Dean was one of the big things that fuzzed. All I knew is what others had told me about him and why he wasn’t around anymore. “I don’t want to talk about him,” I said as I started to eat the food that had been brought out.
“You never do. How are you going to remember him if you never talk about him?” Alexa sighed.
“He doesn’t want me to remember him. He is probably getting plenty of girls wherever he went.”
“That’s what Seth wants you to think. He told you lies so you wouldn’t go looking for those memories. If you don’t remember what a great guy he was to you, then you won’t remember that you can have better. If it wasn’t for me, Seth might have left out all the cheating too.”
Tears filled my eyes, “I know. I remember little things. Like, when Jon called me a kitten for the first time. I remembered that used to be Dean’s pet name for me. Only me, he would say.” I shook my head. “Someone else is probably his kitten. He is better off where he is. Wherever he is.”
“He loved you, Aria. He thought he was doing what was best for leaving.”
“Right after my dad died! I needed him the most. He didn’t even come to the hospital after that car hit me, Alexa. How does that sound like someone who loves them?”
“Aria,” Alexa started, but I wasn’t having it. I didn’t want to listen to any more of this. I got up from my spot at the table and handed her a twenty.
“Just take it,” I said before leaving.
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As I walked out of the restaurant, my phone started to buzz. I groaned as I looked at the caller ID. “You are seriously the last person I want to talk to right now.” I said into the phone. I heard movement behind me. I quickly whirled around. “And tell your goons to stop following me.”
“Aria, I need to talk to you. You have been ignoring my calls and texts all week. I had to make sure that you were okay.” Seth sighed into the phone causing me to roll my eyes. What made him care all of a sudden?
“So you send people to stalk me if you are so worried.” I snapped. “Because I told you I needed a break.” I rubbed my face. I was already mad at Alexa for bringing up Dean when I told her I didn’t want to speak about him. I knew there was a reason that Seth didn’t want me to remember him, but maybe it was better I didn’t.
“And I asked you, why you needed a break and you never told me why. You know I worry about you.”
“Because,” I sighed. “I think you know why. Come on, Seth, you have people always watching me.”
“Maybe I stopped them to give you some space as you asked. I am not all bad like you seem to think. I just want to know why we have sex one minute and the next you are pulling away from me? What’s going on, Aria? This isn’t like you. We always fight and then makeup. That was supposed to be the make-up part.
“So that’s what you listen to. Maybe sex was the reason why. Maybe I realized I am sick of all this stupid back and forth we keep doing. If I took you back, would you even be faithful or would you just go back to your old ways?” I yelled into the phone. I paused taking a deep breath. “Just stop your goons from following me. I wanted a complete break from you.” I shook my head as I hung up the phone only to have him call me back. I turned my phone on silent as I walked back to my apartment. The restaurant wasn’t far from there. Once I got home, I sat down on the couch looking at my phone. I had tons of missed calls and texts from Seth. I rolled my eyes. I almost missed the one from Jon.
Jon: Hey, sorry I had to catch up on a few things at work. I was wondering if you wanted to hang out tonight.
Aria: Of course. Where?
Jon
“You have to tell her the truth,” Alexa said into the phone. She had called about Aria’s recent outburst.
“You and I both know how that’s going to go down. I can’t do that. You just told me how she felt about how about...well, me. I don’t think telling her after I just slept with her twice is a good idea. She isn’t going to like any of us. Plus, if she doesn’t run to Seth, who knows what will happen to her. Even if she does run to Seth, we are fucking screwed, because she won’t trust us.”
“Did you ever plan on telling her the truth about who you were?”
“I honestly didn’t plan for any of this to happen,” I said running fingers through my hair as I began to pace. “To be honest, I really didn’t think it would get this far. I figured we could regain a friendship, but never ever did I think I would end up fucking her!”
“Calm yourself and figure out how you are going to tell her the truth.”
I sighed while hanging up the phone. How could I tell her the truth? It would kill her. She was better off never knowing the truth about who I was. I rubbed the back of my neck as I sent her a couple of texts.
Jon: Okay, I will meet you outside your apartment and we can go chill at my place.
Aria: Sounds good. I will go get ready now. :)
I groaned. Now, I had to figure out how to tell her. I walked towards my house. There was no way I could do this. She would hate me forever if she knew that I had lied to her and slept with her. It will look like that’s all I was using her for. When that wasn’t the truth. If that would have been the truth, I would have tried harder when I was still Dean not when I was just Jon.
I rummaged through a few things trying to find something. I had it. She wouldn’t believe me off the bat. She would probably think this is some sick joke or something. I had a picture of her that I had taken one day. One day when it was easier.
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“Stop, Dean.” She giggled as she tried to take the camera away from me. I pulled it back.
“Just one picture. Come on you look great tonight.” I told her as I pointed the camera at her again. Aria wore a tight red dress that hugged her curves with her long blonde hair flowing down her back. Her hair curled at the ends. I took the picture. She posed for a second before giggling. I caught it just at the right time. She was in between giggling and posing. I could see the light in her eye even in the old polaroid.
“Where did you even find that thing? It has to be as old as you.” She teased.
“It was my mom’s. I think it’s actually younger than me. She must have bought it not too long before she..” my speech drifted off. The camera was one of the last few things that I had left of her. When I was traveling from foster home to foster home than group home to group home, things got lost or stolen. Sometimes even the family you would stay with would take things. I was with a strict Catholic family for a bit and they were the worst about taking things if it didn’t fit into their religion. A Muslim girl I was with lost all her belongings when she stayed with her. They burned anything that was part of her religion because to them it was evil. I felt so bad for the poor girl.
“Do you have any pictures that your mom took with that before she?” Aria asked. I could tell she was being cautious about how she asked things.
I nodded. “Yeah, a couple from Christmas that year. I think that was the year that she got it. It must have been a present from my father or something.”
She nodded smiling, “Come on, let’s take a picture together.” A smile grew across my lips and I nodded handing the camera to her. She wrapped her arm around me and did something I never would have thought she would do. She kissed my cheek gently. It took me off guard when she did it. Her lips were soft and gentle against my stubble on my cheek. It had to be rough across her lips. I never thought I would feel something like this. She created a warmth that was inside my soul. Something I thought that had died long ago when I lost my mother in a car accident.
“Aria,” called Seth. His voice sounded harsh. “We are going to ber late what the hell do you think that you are doing?” Charles must have been breathing down his throat because Seth never sounded this rude with her. Or was there something I didn’t know? The way she flinched and handed me back the camera told me as much as I needed to know. I wished I didn’t have to know what went on between them.
“Sorry, Seth.” She said as she fixed her dress running towards him. I sighed as I watched her run up to him and give him the same peck on the cheek. He wiped it away as soon as her lips left his cheek. I could see him saying something before pulling her away.
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I looked back down at the picture in my hand from that night. There was a couple more mixed in together. As I looked at more, something fell out from between them. It was a letter. The letter I had meant to give Aria. Just like I didn’t have the balls to tell her the truth about who I was. I didn’t know what it was about Aria, but she had my heart in one hand and my balls in the other. I was never nervous like this with anyone else, but her. I wish I knew what she had done to me.
I walked towards her apartment still trying to figure out how I was going to say this. Alexa kept texting me telling me that its time to do this. It needs to be done. I never thought this was something that was ever going to need to be done. I don’t think she thought so either, but now it was the time apparently. I didn’t think so, but she was sure that it was.
I sighed as I ringed her apartment. She answered it by coming down, a smile on her face. Her hair was pulled back into a high ponytail. She wore just a normal tee shirt and jean shorts with flip flops. Even in casual wear, she looked amazing. I held out my hand, “Shall we?” I asked.
She took my hand, “We shall.” Her smile was brighter when my hand touched hers. I could feel the electricity between us as soon as our hands meet. This only made it harder to tell her the truth.
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Selfship Positivity Day
So I heard that today is a day for some selfship positivity! I want to also thank a few people for tagging me in their posts!
I have joined the self-ship community on tumblr in early 2018. I have really started self-shipping when I was around 7 years old and fell in love with Bonkers D Bobcat, who was my first crush, but I promptly gave up on him when I saw that he had a crush on Fawn Deer in canon (as a kid I thought that canon was what was real, so....). I had a few minor crushes on a few other characters as well (like Johnny from S.O.S. Croco), but never actively self-shipped with them, I just found them really cool.
Then at 11 years old, I went to see the First Pokemon Movie and fell in love with Mewtwo at first sight. After Bonkers, he was the first character I actively started to self ship with, and he has been a great inspiration and help for me; I was raised in an emotionally abusive household, emotionally neglected, starved for affection that I never got. Plus my mother has narcissistic personality disorder and only sees me as a living plaything and extension of her - which this is no fun way to grow up. Add to this that I was pretty much the social outcast at school, and you would probably understand why I always had suicidal ideations, depression and eventually developed avoidant personality disorder. So yeah, seeing Mewtwo, neglected by the scientists who refused him warmth and him going against Giovanni... I wanted to be like Mewtwo, just as strong as him. Daydreaming of him in the evening was what kept me sane and gave me the feeling that at least someone loved me, even if he was fictional. Plus, through him, I learned about genetics and science and decided I wanna go into science (which led me to being a Biology PhD student today) - which led me into choosing Biology, Chemistry and English as my majors in our german school system.
I have always drawn the occasional self ship picture or sketch with Mewtwo, but back then, I mostly focused on shipping other pairings from other franchises. I came to the internet for the first time in 2005, when I joined Deviantart through other self shippers who had their sights on various Sonic characters and shipped their own OCs with them. In fact, I have made my own OC named Jamai Dark to ship her with Shadow the hedgehog.
The first picture with Mewtwo was one that I tried to trace from “Mewtwo Returns”. Though I still focused more on shipping other pairings and on the Sonic franchise. In any case, the Mewtwo artists back then were a huge inspiration for me.
My first fanchild with Mewtwo, Kunai, was posted online before I ever posted any of my selfship pictures, and even then, I avoided outright saying that she was supposed to be the daughter of me and Mewtwo because of the backlash I feared. I simply enjoyed watching the more daring artists who outright were able to profess their love for Mewtwo, which I didn’t have the courage for at first. My first other self shipper that I found was @desert-fairy-vixen, who had remained a loyal friend ever since I started out on Deviantart.
At 16, I became involved with a boy around my age and entered a relationship with him. He forbid me Mewtwo, stating that he wasn’t necessary any more, so I tearfully bid Mewtwo goodbye, writing him a poem as well as drawing one goodbye picture.
However, my relationship with my boyfriend was not that good, and without Mewtwo, I simply felt lost. My frist boyfriend belonged to a religious cult and was homeschooled; he was also heavily brainwashed that religion trumps over all, so I tried for years to reconcile his religion with my science, only finding that it was impossible. I have still stayed with this guy for 6 years, when he had started to control me even more with his abusive grip. I ended it with him then, and was heartbroken, feeling that I didn’t deserve Mewtwo after having left him to be with my boyfriend. So I couldn’t jump back into self shipping. Instead, I shipped certain pairings from the YuGiOh series, as well as Digimon, in the meantime. It was actually when I hit the Digimon stage that I started to self ship with Arukenimon. I also had a crush on Eridan Ampora.
In 2013, I had a dream in which Mewtwo fought and protected me from zombies. That was the point at which I decided that I want to be with Mewtwo again. Why deny myself this? Why hide? And so I drew my first comic in which I tried to remember my past with Mewtwo, and this is how I met my first self shippers on Deviantart who also self shipped with Mewtwo. In fact, @sweetwhitechoco was one of the first I openly talked with when it came to Mewtwo. I have watched Lullaby-of-the-Lost and Kokoro-Tokoro from afar and didn’t dare to talk to them because they were out of my league, but seeing other people post self ship Mewtwo art made me want to do the same.
I only found out about the self shipping community on tumblr in 2017, after having had haters who told me that my self ship is vile and bestiality. Finding an entire community of self shippers was a blessing after having gone through such shit. I think I am still not over the fact that I have tried to give up Mewtwo when I came together with my abusive ex-boyfriend for the first time. Sometimes I wonder if Mewtwo would really want to be back together with me, or I feel unworthy of him. I can only hope that I may overcome this one day. Or it’s just a symptom of my AvPD, because I tend to push away those I love to not taint them with my imperfections.
In any case, onwards to the shippers I met on here!
@star-platinums-wife was one of the first self shippers, and through her and her followers, I got to know more self shippers. Though the concept of having a self shipping blog is what I have seen from @gamzeeismyboyfriend for the first time, and this was actually when I decided to post my selfship art on my blog too.
@asa-de-ouro is one of the best friends I could have hoped to find, and she is the mom friend for sure!
I also got to know @husband-of-lucoa, who is also a great friend and really loved by both Lucoa and Palutena! They both told me so!
@lightningsconsort Your love and devotion to your queen Lightning is such an inspiration, I wish you both many happy years together for the future!
@slyvivi has such a cute self ship with Necrozma, it is always a delight to see someone who also self ships with a Pokemon! You and Necrozma are so cute together, and I am sure that he sees you as the Light of his life. And @come-along-here-and-spin-with-me, you and Oracion are also such cuties together!
@lildreamysoul, you are an absolute Queen, and I kind of count you in as “above my league”; I love the ideas you have for self shipping! Making your own self ship mugs? A book with collected artworks? Acrylic charms? Like dang, you make me want to try this out as well!
@mrs-rock-light You reminded of the time when I found Zero so cool! :D I am glad that he found someone to be happy with in you! God knows after all his fights, he certainly deserves some happiness for a change!
@charles-self-inserts I am so honored that you wanted my self ship to be included with yours in a comission! ;__; thank you so so much for that!
@only-mewtwo Highfives! You and Mewtwo are so cute together!
@malt-tango :D I love all the discussions about details for fanfics that I can have with you, and I love your idea for my fanfics. It is thanks to you that I am now even attempting to write my self-insert more true to myself which I didn’t have the courage for before.
@plucky-belmondo AHH, you and Richter are so cute, and I love all the awesome designs that you made for your self-insert for Smash Bros! Amazing!!!
@goldenworldsabound :D You, Spock, me and Mewtwo need to go out on a date together. :D
@rulersofthekoopakingdom You and Bowser are so cute! *_* <3 <3
I hope all of you had a great self ship positivity day! :D If I haven’t mentioned you in here, I am still probably watching you from afar and being too shy to say anything. ^^;; whoops.
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