#so now im debating the merits of going and actually cooking food at 6 a.m. while all my roommates are still asleep

[polaraffect]

listen I knew that my appetite would grow on testosterone. i knew. but i didn't know. pre-T i ate like 1.5 meals a day, maybe 2 if we got lucky. i never ate breakfast. now, 5 weeks on T, i want to consume constantly. if i don't eat something in the morning the day might as well not happen. i have consumed three entire boxes of cheez-its in a four day period. this is maybe a cry for help.

#damien.txt #it's honestly rather distracting. i'm used to being mildly hungry but like. it's just so present in my brain now. #i have been trying to sleep for like an hour and a half now but im just so hungry. i ate like two pieces of toast but it Wasnt Enough #so now im debating the merits of going and actually cooking food at 6 a.m. while all my roommates are still asleep #this is a problem i am so willing to deal with it is just! a change! #other changes on T i have experienced so far: #horny. obviously. #my voice is changing a little already but it is most obvious in my singing voice- i can still hit high but my middle range has disappeared #i'm definitely more moody/irritable & feel more inclined to stay in my room. very teenage puberty vibes #acne hasn't hit too hard yet but it's starting for sure #more just random hairs in the beard area- mostly my neck #and then i sweat so much more! literally it's so bad. oh my god. #exciting and scary changes all at once. can't wait for my voice to for real drop #also i would like my fat to redistribute soon.... ik it won't and that's a year+ from now but. excited for it. #haha anyways yeah! trans things. 5 weeks on T. proud of myself for giving myself that many shots lmaooo it's getting better but it's scary #i almost passed out from doing it the first time. turns out i hold my breath to the point of fainting when im scared. haha.